Wait for Me
Mary Kay McComas
Sometimes I’m hot and
sometimes I’m not
—oh well.
Yet she’s always soft-spoken and tactful
—as hell.
So after fifteen stories,
It’s time to share the glories,
I send my thanks daily
To my editor, Susann Brailey.
A Biography of Mary Kay McComas
O
N OCTOBER SIXTEENTH HOLLY
Ann Loftin died.
She wasn’t sure how it happened. She didn’t know why. It occurred quickly, unexpectedly, and she didn’t linger to ascertain the details. They didn’t matter... nothing did.
That was, perhaps, the most surprising part of dying. Nothing mattered. She didn’t mind dying. It was a bit of relief to have it over with, to shed her body and go on.
There was, however, a brief period of adjustment that seemed rather peculiar. Familiar, too, as if she’d done it before, many times.
With the sloughing of earthly weight, worries, and wrongs, came the perfect peace and contentment her temporal being had instinctively sought since birth. Never able to define it or gather all its ingredients into one pot, it came to her as something she’d always known.
She knew the light as well. Brilliant. Brightest of all light. Bold. Intrinsic. Welcoming. If she’d had to compare it to anything, it might have been to going home or returning to a happy childhood or revisiting one’s happiest moments on earth... only better. It gently pulled at her, drawing her in as one might softly draw in a breath of fresh air. And she went willingly, joyfully.
She was isolated in the light, but not alone. It was as if she were a brightly lit molecule of air in space, with zillions of other brightly lit molecules that she could neither see nor feel. But she could sense their presence, their energy, their oneness with the whole. And she was a part of it, always had been, always would be.
She was profoundly and boundlessly happy. Even as she felt the joining with another, the joy and serenity were limitless.
“You are premature.”
“I belong here with you.”
“We are always together.”
“I couldn’t find you.”
“You are premature. Our time has yet to be.”
“Here our time is always.”
“Here. There. Our love changes not.”
She reveled in the truth, exultant.
“You are premature. You must return.”
“No. You are here.”
“Only that part of me which dwells eternally within your soul is here. Go back. Wait for me.”
“I did wait. I was lonely. I was lost. I needed you.”
“Go back. Wait for me.”
That part of the bright light which was her, began to fade.
“I belong here.”
“Wait for me.”
“How will I know you this time?”
“My heart will speak to yours as always. Time will stop and the earth shall tremble beneath us. In your great wisdom you will know me as no other. Your eyes shall reflect my love for you, and I will know you as before.”
“You won’t try to have me burned as a witch again, will you?” She sensed enjoyment, something akin to humor, and amplified it in her consciousness. “Or have me sent into slavery? Or mark me as an outcast to the tribe again? As a mortal, you are not always as malleable as you might be.”
“And you are not always judicious.”
“I am always eager to be with you.”
“And I with you. Go back. Wait for me.”
The light in her dimmed further.
“Hurry.”
“Wait for me.”
S
HE COULDN’T HELP BUT
notice his pain. The emptiness in his dark eyes was heartrending. They were red rimmed, too, though she suspected it was not from shedding tears as much as from a constant battle to keep them at bay.
The flight from San Francisco to Los Angeles wasn’t long, but because she was pressed between a very large woman on her left and a grieving man on her right, the trip was taking on interminable dimensions.
Not that she was complaining, mind you. She had only to look at the poor sad man in the window seat, who appeared to be rather tall, to know that he was far more cramped than she. It was just that... well, she was afraid that her right leg had gone to sleep.
She tried to shift her position and bumped the lady’s elbow, jarring the book in her pudgy hand. The woman sighed, loudly.
The tiny bit of circulation she’d restored to her leg made it begin to tingle with life. She tensed and relaxed her leg muscles, but it didn’t help. Soon the tingling was like an electric shock, giving her leg a life of its own. It shook like a dog’s at a fire hydrant.
The man looked at her leg, then raised his sorrowful gaze to her face.
“Sorry,” she muttered.
He was a handsome man in spite of his unhappiness. Thick dark hair. Stalwart features. A strong jaw. She wondered briefly what he might look like when he was happy—if he was ever happy.
He went back to staring out the window.
Holly sighed quietly. There didn’t seem to be enough air to get a full breath. She sighed again. It was better the second time. But the plane was getting hotter and stuffier by the minute. Or maybe she was bored and needed to think about something else.
She did a quick mental scan of her Christmas list and then composed another index of to-dos while she was in Los Angeles.
No, she decided, a few minutes later, she wasn’t bored. It was definitely getting stuffy. If she could reach the little air nozzle above her...
Slowly she raised the arm that the woman wasn’t lying on. She couldn’t reach the nozzle without sitting up straight—and that would disturb both of her traveling companions. Discouraged, she lowered her arm and hit the man square in the chest.
His look was one of surprise. As if he’d just that moment realized she was there.
“Sorry.”
He went back to staring out the window.
How long had they been in the air? she wondered. An hour? Two hours? She tried to sneak a peek out the man’s window, to see if they were circling the airport. She moved into his peripheral field of vision, and he turned his head to look at her. Their noses bumped.
“Sorry,” she said, grimacing. When her need to know overwhelmed her reluctance to disturb him, she blurted out, “What time is it?”
He looked at his watch. He frowned, tapped the crystal several times, then muttered a curse.
“My watch stopped,” he said, turning back to the window.
“Is this the longest flight from San Francisco to L.A. you’ve ever been on, or what? I feel like I’ve been here for days,” she said to no one particular, simply needing to speak.
The woman beside her turned a page in her book. The man shifted his legs uncomfortably and tried to ignore her.
“You must feel like you’ve been here for weeks,” she said, and when he looked at her, she added, “You look real uncomfortable, wadded up in your seat that way. Time always seems a lot slower when you’re uncomfortable... and when you’re in a hurry.”
“What makes you think I’m in a hurry?” He was watching her the way he might a bug he couldn’t reach with his shoe or swat at with a newspaper.
“If you weren’t in a hurry, you’d have booked your flight earlier and gotten a better seat—on the aisle or in first class,” she said, noting the fine cloth and superior fit of his suit. Then, despite her best intentions, she said, “I hope it’s nothing too serious. I hope everything turns out for the best.”
“You hope what’s not too serious?”
“The unhappiness you’re going to face in L.A.”
He scowled at her as if she were just another California nut dressed in human’s clothing, and turned back to the window.
She sat silently, pinched between her mute travel mates, until the flight attendant stopped her cart beside them. She wasn’t thirsty, but she ordered and paid for a little bottle of Jack Daniels and refused the ice. The flight attendant moved on.
Holly stared mindlessly at the tiny bottle and empty cup for several minutes before she twisted the top off and poured the brown liquid smoothly into the plastic cup. She handed it to the man.
A soft nudge to his leg drew his attention to her gift. His gaze lifted to her face, shifted over the seat to see that the attendant had passed by without his notice, then returned to the woman beside him.
Her eyes were golden brown, he observed, taking the cup from her fingers spontaneously. Nice hands, long and well groomed. But her eyes... Why hadn’t he noticed before how rich they were? How they seemed to look straight into him?
And the cup? One whiff told him it was whiskey. It triggered a deep, familiar reflex in his brain, telling him it would dull his pain a bit. Like a trusting patient, frightened and reckless in his need for relief, he gulped the potion down.
“Thanks,” he said, the whiskey still hot and burning in his throat, the calm reassurance in her eyes intensifying the warmth in his belly. He handed the cup back to her, noting the Jack Daniels label on the bottle. His brand. “Let me pay you.”
He started to squirm in his seat, reaching into his breast pocket for his wallet. Her hand covered his through the cloth. His gaze lifted to hers. His heart pounded against his hand.
She shook her head once and removed her hand. Without words, she told him that to repay her act of kindness would be a huge insult. He wasn’t in the mood and he didn’t have the energy to insult anyone, much less this strange woman with the heart-shaped face and the earth-colored eyes, as warm and wise as the land itself.
He nodded his thanks once more, then turned back to the window.
Holly sat for long moments wondering why she’d bought the man a drink. She was glad she had, but... well, she hadn’t thought about it. She’d just done it mindlessly, the way she would scratch an itch on the end of her nose.
It was strange indeed, but she wasn’t one to over-analyze things. There didn’t seem to be much point in it when everything in her life was strange to one degree or another anyway.
While the engines hummed, her thoughts grew heavy, and she was warm in the close quarters. She became drowsy and closed her eyes.
“My father’s dying,” the man said out of the blue. Holly opened her eyes. She turned her head to look at him. He was still facing the window. “Heart attack. It’s not his first.”
Instinctively Holly curled her fingers over the hand on his leg. It jerked away, then quickly returned to snatch her hand into a tight grasp.
It was an odd moment. They didn’t speak, and he didn’t look away from the window. There was a tension between them, the kind any two strangers holding hands would experience. But underneath the tension something special happened. Something as basic as being human. Something often overlooked and trampled upon in the normal hustle and bustle of life.
Suffering met with compassion.
The Fasten Seat Belt light blinked on and still they sat, needing and comforting without words. It wasn’t until the plane began its descent that he loosened his hold and let her hand slip away.
He looked at her then, feeling self-conscious and stupid. He was heartsick about his father, but it wasn’t as if his dad’s impending death hadn’t been expected. On every visit over the past year, his father had been weaker and more frail. The reality of losing him was painful, certainly, but to turn to a complete stranger for sympathy? It was very out of character for him.
“Do you live in L.A., or are you visiting?” he asked, hiding behind a little small talk.
“Visiting. For the holiday.”
“That’s right. Thanksgiving. I forgot,” he said. “You have family here?”
She laughed. It was a soft, joyous noise that made him smile.
“I have family everywhere, all over the place.”
“That must be nice. I’m an only child.”