Vigilantes of Love

 
NOVELS:
Covenant
Sacrifice
The 13th
Siren
NOVELETTES:
Failure
SHORT FICTION COLLECTIONS
:
Cage of Bones & Other Deadly Obsessions
Vigilantes of Love
Needles & Sins
Creeptych
Deadly Nightlusts: A Collection of Forbidden Magic
Christmas Tales

VIGILANTES OF LOVE
COPYRIGHT INFORMATION

“Preserve,” copyright 1994.
First published in
Eulogy #6,
1994 and in
Black October
#4, 2003
“Hard Heart” copyright 1994.
First published in
Sirius Visions #4
, 1994.
“A Time for Music,” copyright 1997.
First published in
Plot
, 1997.
“Calling of the Moon,” copyright 2000.
First published in the anthology
TransVersions,
2000.
“The Humane Way,” copyright 2001.
First published in
1000 Delights
, Sept. 2001.
“After the Fifth Step,” copyright 2002.
First published in
Twilight Tales Presents… Freaks, Geeks &
Sideshow Floozies, April 2002.
“Trick and Treat,” copyright 2003.
An alternate version appeared as “Holidays” in
Crossroads #17,
1997.
“Lovesong,” copyright 2003.
“Seven Deadly Seeds,” copyright 2003.
“Frost,” copyright 2003.
“Anne’s Perfect Smile,”  copyright 2003.
“A Lack of Signs,”  copyright 2003.
“Christmas The Hard Way,”  copyright 2003.
“The Right Instrument,” copyright 2003.
“Vigilantes of Love,” copyright 2003.
All stories copyrighted by John Everson. 
All stories reprinted or published by permission of the author.
e-Book edition as a whole is copyrighted by John Everson, 2010.
Cover photos and design by John Everson.
Original Print Edition edited by Tina Jens.  Lisa Rogers Lowrance, copy editor.
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First Print Edition, April 2003
First e-Book Edition, December 2010
e-ISBN: 978-0-9779686-9-5

For Geri, who taught me
about fighting for love.

Acknowledgements

Many of these stories would never have seen print but for the encouragement of some very special editors, and I want to thank Marybeth O’Halloran, Pat Nielsen, Shane Ryan Staley, Dave Barnett, Tina Jens and many more for their critiques and encouragement over the years. Whatever seeds I planted, they helped grow. I’ve been richer for the nurturing.

Love is a funny thing. It can make life worth living, and it can make life a living hell. Poets and songwriters have opined on its dichotomies for centuries, but that hasn’t changed the essential warring nature of human emotion. Driven by love, we will alternately lie, cheat, kill, kiss, caress and serve. It’s an insubstantial thing, this emotion, and yet its power rivals religions, kings and common sense.

The stories in this volume explore some of the strange intersections of love, from the bent bonds of the parent-child relationship to the stirrings of first amour and the bittersweet torture of adult love tasted and tempered by time and lust.

Love is like fire – it can warm you when you’re cold, protect you when you’re alone, and burn you if it rages out of control.

Love is also like a song. And many of these stories revolve around music, from a child’s faery flute to a piano carved out of a most unusual substance. Music has amazing powers: it can catch and seduce a lover, as well as heal a broken heart after that lover is gone.

These stories are all love songs – to a genre of music and a gone-but-not-forgotten favorite record store, to cities special to the heart, and to the lover’s best friend; the moon.

I hope you’ll revel in these stories and celebrate the many faces of love... even when the love turns evil.

–Tina L. Jens
Chicago, IL
March 2003

Six months have gone since Eva passed on. And still I wrestle with the memories she left me. I fear those nights, the cool fingers of moonlight creeping like airy feelers across the sill, the Oriental wall hanging, the carpet.

Before you say what I know you’re thinking, let me tell you – my remembrances of Eva were not memories of silken touches beneath the hidden folds of white tablecloths or amid the cool cotton sheets of her bed. Eva was not a lover to me, though now I sleep in her bed. But I loved her just the same. She saved my life because of her sight… but I was too blind to save hers.

Have you ever watched an accident and known, seconds before the splintering, shattering crash of impact, that one car is aimed inexorably at disaster? “That guy’s going to hit him,” you say to yourself, and then, pow, slam, scream, he does. That must be how Eva saw me.

Oh, it was nothing so dramatic as a car careening into a wall or a man perched to jump from a ledge. I wasn’t waiting to throw my body upon the algaed rocks of the ocean when she came along and swept me back to my senses. And yet, that’s exactly what happened.

Sure, I was on the street, but it could have been months, or years – or never – before I got the courage to finally jump from the edge to become waterlogged fishbait in the bay.

“You need to open your eyes,” she said the first time we met. In fact, I think it was the first thing Eva ever said to me.

At the time, my eyes were blurry slits wishing away the light, but even so I could see that hers were dark pools of brown, her hair a shelf of granite, slight curls like the chiseled locks of a Grecian statue. She was a solid woman, and an intense one. If cover girls commanded attention with the set of their proud breasts and dripping gloss lips, Eva commanded at least as much attention with the hawkish fierceness of her gaze, the whiplash shock of her tongue. I was drunk the first time she spoke to me, and still drunk the last.

I haven’t touched a bottle since.

“Yeah, and what is there to see if I did?” I mumbled back at her, a cesspool of pity and pathos. I could have been the poster child for “poor me.”

“Open them and find out,” she insisted.

I shooed her with a flopping hand. “Time enough for that tomorrow. When it’s light out.”

“You strike me as the sort of man who might see most clearly by the light of the moon,” she said. “But suit yourself.”

And with that, she walked away, blue and white checked housecoat swishing at her thick white ankles. I noted the attitude of that walk blurrily, then turned my limited attention back to the sidewalk.

There were some fascinating crack patterns near the bricks of the bar behind me, and some ants that evidently couldn’t quite dig their way to China, but had at least come up from beneath the earth near Chinatown. I curled into a ball and kissed the earth they walked upon.

I didn’t aspire to much in those days. King of ants and street lice I was, and proud of it. Well, maybe not proud – the hours sucked and the clothes stunk – but certainly not too put-out about the situation. I didn’t care. Not about the old lady with the heavy brown eyes, not about the stink on my mud-stained grey trousers, and not about the blur in my vision.

“G’night ant,” I slurred at the creeping black creature near my face, then prepared to join him in the land of the undead.
I hope his cousin is still ferrying souls to the right side of the river
, I thought and then I was asleep in the comforting arms of the sidewalk.

Life was a simple downward slide.

“Just knock when it’s morning, I’ll open the door.”

That’s what Eva promised the first morning I was due to deliver her coffee.

That was her fee. I brought her a super grande Starbucks (a buck eighty at the time) and she gave me three dollars. Not a major income for one day, but shit, it bought a burger without the need to panhandle for two or three hours. The thing of it was, she never paid me up front – smart on her part. So those first few days, it was like I had no job. I had to hold onto my dollar commission to buy her coffee the next day just so I could make another buck the next morning. But it worked out. She tossed me a five on one of those first days and ended up making ten bucks that first week. So I came back.

Every morning at 8 a.m. I delivered a Starbucks to her door.

“I’m too old to be hiking down the block at that hour,” she told me. “You’re already there. So you get me my coffee and I’ll pay ya.”

She kept her word, and I kept mine. Pretty soon, she devised some other projects that pulled me off the street during the afternoons. She had one of those top-of-Nob Hill houses with an old-fashioned charm. Which, to most folk, simply means big upkeep. And it did. That house needed painting and caulking and new window screens and trim… I did it all for her that summer, ’til the house looked just like all the other tall thin reach-for-the-sky gables. Complete with garish pink paint. I tried to talk her out of that, but she wasn’t a lady to listen when she’d made up her mind.

“See that green house over there?” she pointed when I complained about the paint she’d picked. I grimaced.

“Well, I’m not asking you to paint it green now, am I?” she said, as if that simple fact made garish pink alright.

I didn’t care much, though – she gave me fifty bucks for the paint which I knew I could get for under twenty, so who was I to argue? It wasn’t my house. Best thing about it was, while thirty dollars of profit might not seem a lot to people who make that in an hour, I knew that so long as I was working on Eva’s place, she’d be bringing out sandwiches and snacks and a can of Coke now and then. So that was thirty bucks free and clear. And on top of that, she gave me ten dollars a day for the labor.

I spent a lot of time at Eva’s place. Every now and then, she’d call me into the house, sit me down at the honey pine table she used in her kitchen.

“How are you seeing these days?” she asked me one time, just after I’d finished giving her old Chevy a tuneup. Don’t know why she had me do it since I’d never seen it out of the garage – thought I’d choke to death on the blue smoke the first time I got it turned over.

“Ma’am?” I asked.

“Cracks in the sidewalk and stink in your nose aren’t the only bit of life open to you’s what I mean.”

Eva wasn’t nothing if not blunt.

I nodded. Taking a soaring double somersault leap off the Bay Bridge wasn’t seeming quite as seductive since the day Eva had walked by my private slab of public concrete.

She was an odd one. Some of her stories were crazier than the tales of fame, fortune and bent-over babes that I’d heard about for months out on the street from cross-eyed bottom feeders who you could track by smell for three blocks. They claimed to have been to the big time and back, but I knew better. The big time wouldn’t leave you high and dry like we were. No angel had ever fallen this far, not even the black one.

I loved to listen to Eva talk. About growing up in a small English castle out in the country or of how she chased a man all the way to Israel before abruptly chalking him up as a fool’s errand and instead joining a kibbutz. Was it all real? I don’t know. It sounded as flaky as any street talk, but for some reason, I believed her. She had a son shuffling papers somewhere in Africa for a blue chip and a daughter whose occasional letters from Des Moines were always covered in smiley face stickers and smelled faintly of soapy perfume. I knew because one of my duties quickly became picking her mail up at the post office.