Vampire Academy: The Complete Collection: 1/6 (196 page)

I hesitated before answering. If I told him the truth, he’d have more ground to make his point about us keeping apart. It was impossible for me to lie to him, though.

“Yes, but—”

“Good.” I’m not sure how I expected him to react. Jealousy? Shock? Instead, as he leaned back against the wall, he looked . . . relieved. “Adrian’s a better person than he gets credit for. He’ll be good to you.”

“But—”

“That’s where your future is, Rose.” A bit of that hopeless, world-weary attitude was returning. “You don’t understand what it’s like coming through what I did—coming back from being a Strigoi. It’s changed everything. It’s not just that what I did to you is unforgiveable. All my feelings . . . my emotions for you . . . they changed. I don’t feel the way I used to. I might be a dhampir again, but after what I went through . . . well, it’s scarred me. It altered my soul. I can’t love anyone now. I can’t—
I don’t
—love you. There’s nothing more between you and me.”

My blood turned cold. I refused to believe his words, not after the way he’d looked at me earlier. “No! That’s not true! I love you and you—”

“Guards!” Dimitri shouted, his voice so loud that it was a wonder the whole building didn’t shake. “Get her out of here.
Get her out of here!
”

With amazing guardian reflexes, the guards were down at the cell in a flash. As a prisoner, Dimitri wasn’t in a position to make requests, but the authorities here certainly weren’t going to encourage a situation that would create a commotion. They began herding Mikhail and me out, but I resisted.

“No, wait—”

“Don’t fight it,” murmured Mikhail in my ear. “Our time’s running out, and you couldn’t have accomplished anything else today anyway.”

I wanted to protest, but the words stuck on my lips. I let the guardians direct me out, but not before I gave Dimitri one last, lingering look. He had a perfect, guardian-blank look on his face, but the piercing way he stared at me made me certain there was a lot going on within him.

Mikhail’s friend was still on duty upstairs, which let us slip out without getting in—much—more trouble. As soon as we were outdoors, I came to a halt and kicked one of the steps angrily.

“Damn it!” I yelled. A couple of Moroi across the courtyard—probably coming home from some late party—gave me startled looks.

“Calm down,” said Mikhail. “This was the first time you’ve seen him since the change. There are only so many miracles you can expect right away. He’ll come around.”

“I’m not so sure,” I grumbled. Sighing, I looked up at the sky. Little wispy clouds moved lazily about, but I barely saw them. “You don’t know him like I do.”

Because while part of me thought that a lot of what Dimitri had said was indeed a reaction to the shock of returning to himself, there was another part of me that wondered. I knew Dimitri. I knew his sense of honor, his adamant beliefs about what was right and wrong. He stood by those beliefs. He lived his life by them. If he truly, truly believed that the right thing to do was to avoid me and let any relationship between us fade, well . . . there was a good chance he might very well act on that idea, no matter the love between us. As I’d recalled earlier, he’d certainly shown a lot of resistance back at St. Vladimir’s.

As for the rest . . . the part about him no longer loving me or being able to love anyone . . . well, that would be a different problem all together if it were true. Both Christian and Adrian had worried there would be some piece of Strigoi left in him, but their fears had been about violence and bloodshed. No one would have guessed this: that living as a Strigoi had hardened his heart, killing any chance of him loving anyone.

Killing any chance of him loving
me
.

And I was pretty sure that if that was the case, then part of me would die too.

T
HERE WAS LITTLE MORE MIKHAIL and I could say to each other after that. I didn’t want him to get in trouble for what he’d done, and I let him lead us out of the guardians’ building in silence. As we emerged outside, I could see the sky purpling in the east. The sun was nearly up, signaling the middle of our night. Briefly flipping into Lissa’s mind, I read that the Death Watch had finally ended, and she was on her way back to her room—worried about me and still annoyed that Christian had shown up with Mia.

I followed Lissa’s example, wondering if sleep might ease the agony that Dimitri had left in my heart. Probably not. Still, I thanked Mikhail for his help and the risk he’d taken. He merely nodded, like there was nothing to thank him for. It was exactly what he would have wanted me to do for him if our roles had been reversed and Ms. Karp had been the one behind bars.

I fell into a heavy sleep back in my bed, but my dreams were troubled. Over and over, I kept hearing Dimitri tell me he couldn’t love me anymore. It beat into me over and over, smashing my heart into little pieces. At one point, it became more than a dreamlike beating. I heard real beating. Someone was pounding on my door, and slowly, I dragged myself out of my awful dreams.

Bleary-eyed, I went to the door and found Adrian. The scene was almost a mirror of last night when he’d come to invite me to the Death Watch. Only this time, his face was much grimmer. For a second, I thought he’d heard about my visit to Dimitri. Or that maybe he’d gotten in a lot more trouble than we’d realized for sneaking half of his friends into a secret funeral.

“Adrian . . . this is early for you. . . .” I glanced over at a clock, discovering that I’d actually slept in pretty late.

“Not early at all,” he confirmed, face still serious. “Lots of stuff going on. I had to come tell you the news before you heard it somewhere else.”

“What news?”

“The Council’s verdict. They finally passed that big resolution they’ve been debating. The one you came in for.”

“Wait. They’re done?” I recalled what Mikhail had said, that a mystery issue had been keeping the Council busy. If it was finished, then they could move on to something else—say, like, officially declaring Dimitri a dhampir again. “That’s great news.” And if this really was tied into when Tatiana had had me come describe my skills . . . well, was there really a chance I might be named Lissa’s guardian? Could the queen have really come through? She’d seemed friendly enough last night.

Adrian regarded me with something I’d never seen from him: pity. “You have no idea, do you?”

“No idea about what?”

“Rose . . .” He gently rested a hand on my shoulder. “The Council just passed a decree lowering the guardian age to sixteen. Dhampirs’ll graduate when they’re sophomores and then go out for assignments.”

“What?” Surely I’d misheard.

“You know how panicked they’ve been about protection and not having enough guardians, right?” He sighed. “This was their solution to increasing your numbers.”

“But they’re too young!” I cried. “How can anyone think sixteen-year-olds are ready to go out and fight?”

“Well,” said Adrian, “because you testified that they were.”

My mouth dropped, everything freezing around me.
You testified that they were . . .
No. It couldn’t be possible.

Adrian gently nudged my arm, trying to shake me out of my stupor. “Come on, they’re still wrapping up. They made the announcement in an open session, and some people are . . . a little upset.”

“Yeah, I’ll say.” He didn’t need to tell me twice. I immediately started to follow, then realized I was in my pajamas. I quickly changed and brushed my hair, still scarcely able to believe what he’d just said. My preparation only took five minutes, and then we were out the door. Adrian wasn’t overly athletic, but he kept a pretty good pace as we headed toward the Council’s hall.

“How did this happen?” I asked. “You don’t really mean that . . . that what I said played a role?” I’d meant my words to be a demand, but they came out with more of a pleading note.

He lit a cigarette without breaking stride, and I didn’t bother chastising him for it. “It’s apparently been a hot topic for a while. It was a pretty close vote. The people pushing for it knew they’d need to show a lot of evidence to win. You were their grand prize: a teen dhampir slaying Strigoi left and right, long before graduation.”

“Not that long,” I muttered, my fury kindling. Sixteen? Were they serious? It was ludicrous. The fact that
I
had been unknowingly used to support this decree made me sick to my stomach. I’d been a fool, thinking they’d all ignored my rule breaking and had simply paraded me in to praise me. They’d used me.
Tatiana
had used me.

When we reached it, the Council hall was in as much chaos as Adrian had implied. True, I hadn’t spent a lot of time in these kinds of meetings, but I was pretty sure that people standing up in clusters and yelling at each other wasn’t normal. The Council’s herald probably didn’t usually scream himself hoarse trying to bring order to the crowd either.

The only spot of calm was Tatiana herself, sitting patiently in her seat at the center of the table, just as Council etiquette dictated. She looked very pleased with herself. The rest of her colleagues had lost all sense of propriety and were on their feet like the audience, arguing amongst themselves or anyone else ready to pick a fight. I stared in amazement, unsure what to do in all this disorder.

“Who voted for what?” I asked.

Adrian studied the Council members and ticked them off on his fingers. “Szelsky, Ozera, Badica, Dashkov, Conta, and Drozdov. They were against it.”

“Ozera?” I asked in surprise. I didn’t know the Ozera princess—Evette—very well, but she’d always seemed pretty stiff and unpleasant. I had new respect for her now.

Adrian nodded over to where Tasha was furiously addressing a large group of people, eyes flashing and arms waving wildly. “Evette was persuaded by some of her family members.”

That made me smile too, but only for a moment. It was good that Tasha and Christian were being acknowledged amongst their clan again, but the rest of our problem was still alive and kicking. I could deduce the rest of the names.

“So . . . Prince Ivashkov voted for it,” I said. Adrian shrugged by way of apology for his family. “Lazar, Zeklos, Tarus, and Voda.” That the Voda family would vote for extra protection wasn’t entirely a surprise, considering the recent slaughter of one of their members. Priscilla wasn’t even in her grave yet, and the new Voda prince, Alexander, seemed clearly unsure what to do with his sudden promotion.

I gave Adrian a sharp look. “That’s only five to six. Oh.” Realization dawned. “Shit. Royal tiebreaker.”

The Moroi voting system had been set up with twelve members, one for each family, and then whoever the reigning king or queen was. True, it often meant one group got two votes, since the monarch rarely voted against his or her own family. It had been known to happen. Regardless, the system should have had thirteen votes, preventing ties. Except . . . a recent problem had developed. There were no Dragomirs on the Council anymore, meaning ties could occur. In that rare event, Moroi law dictated that the monarch’s vote carried extra weight. I’d heard that had always been controversial, and yet at the same time, there wasn’t much to be done for it. Ties in the Council would mean nothing ever got settled, and since monarchs were elected, many took it on faith that they would act in the best interests of the Moroi.

“Tatiana’s was the sixth,” I said. “And hers swayed it.” Glancing around, I saw a bit of anger on the faces of those from the families who had voted against the decree. Apparently, not everyone believed Tatiana had acted in the best interest of the Moroi.

Lissa’s presence sang to me through the bond, so her arrival a few moments later was no surprise. News had spread fast, though she didn’t yet know the fine details. Adrian and I waved her over. She was as dumbfounded as we were.

“How could they do that?” she asked.

“Because they’re too afraid that someone might make
them
learn to defend themselves. Tasha’s group was getting too loud.”

Lissa shook her head. “No, not just that. I mean, why were they even in session? We should be in mourning after what happened the other day—publicly. The whole Court, not just some secret part of it. One of the Council members even died! Couldn’t they wait for the funeral?” In her mind’s eye, I could see the images from that grisly night, where Priscilla had died right before Lissa’s eyes.

“But was easily replaceable,” a new voice said. Christian had joined us. Lissa took a few steps away from him, still annoyed about Mia. “And actually, it’s the perfect time. The people who wanted this had to jump at their chance. Every time there’s a big Strigoi fight, everyone panics. Fear’ll make a lot of people get on board with this. And if any Council members were undecided before this, that battle probably pushed them over.”

That was pretty wise reasoning for Christian, and Lissa was impressed, despite her troubled feelings for him right now. The Council’s herald finally managed to make his voice heard over the shouts of the audience. I wondered if the group would have quieted down if Tatiana herself had started yelling at them to shut up. But no. That was probably beneath her dignity. She was still sitting there calmly, like nothing unusual was going on.

Nonetheless, it took several moments for everyone to settle down and take their seats. My friends and I hurriedly grabbed the first ones we could find. With peace and quiet achieved at last, the weary-looking herald yielded the floor to the queen.

Smiling grandly at the assembly, she addressed them in her most imperious voice. “We’d like to thank everyone for coming today and expressing your . . . opinions. I know some are still unsure about this decision, but Moroi law has been followed here—laws that have been in place for centuries. We will have another session soon to listen to what you have to say in an
orderly
fashion.” Something told me that was an empty gesture. People could talk all they wanted; she wouldn’t listen. “This decision—this
verdict—
will benefit the Moroi. Our guardians are already so excellent.” She gave a condescending nod toward the ceremonial guardians standing along the room’s walls. They wore typically neutral faces, but I was guessing that, like me, they probably wanted to punch half the Council. “They are so excellent, in fact, that they train their students to be ready to defend us at an early age. We will all be safer from tragedies like that which recently occurred.”