Upon a Sea of Stars (27 page)

“And tell me, sir, did you or this Captain Listowel ever feel that you were on the point of being granted the Ultimate Revelation?”

“Frankly, no, Rector. We had our bad moments—who in Space, or anywhere else, doesn’t?—and anyone who has indulged in time track switching often wonders, as I do, about the reality, the permanence of both himself and the universe about him. For example, I have vague memories of ships that were equipped with only reaction drive for blast-offs and landings and short interplanetary hauls. Absurd, isn’t it, but those memories are there. And my wife—I’m sorry you can’t meet her, but she’s off on a trip—seems to have changed. I have this half recollection of her when she first came out to the Rim, which is there in my mind alongside the real one—but what is real? She was working for the Federation’s Intelligence Service then. Anyhow, in one memory she’s small and blond, in one she’s tall and blonde, and in one she’s tall and red-headed, as she is today, Damn it—that’s
three
memories!”

“Women have been known to change their hair styles and colorations, Commodore.”

“Right. I wouldn’t be at all surprised if she returns with her crowning glory a bright green! But that doesn’t explain the coexistent memories.”

“Perhaps not.” Smith’s voice was bitter as he went on. “But it seems such a waste of opportunities. To have been privileged to visit the many mansions of our Father’s house, and to come back only with confused recollections of the color of a woman’s hair!”

“And quite a few scars, Rector. Physical and psychological.”

“No doubt.” The man’s voice was unpleasantly ironic. “But tell me, sir, what do you know of Kinsolving’s Planet?”

“Not much. I suppose that we shall settle it if we’re ever faced with a population explosion, which is doubtful.”

“I am referring, sir, to the man who appeared there, the Stone Age savage from the remote past.”

“Yes, that was a queer business. Well before my time. Nothing like that has happened there in recent years, although there is still an uneasy, brooding atmosphere about that world that makes it undesirable as a piece of real estate. The original theory is that somehow the—the loneliness of the people out here on the Rim, hanging, as it were, by their fingernails over the abyss of the Ultimate Night, became focused on that one particular planet. Now the theory is that the fabric of Time and Space is stretched extremely thin there, and that anything or anybody is liable to fall through, either way. The rock paintings are still in the caves, but there haven’t been any new ones and the paint is never wet anymore.”

“The Stone Age savage,” said Smith, “eventually became a Franciscan citizen, and a Neo-Calvinist. He died at a very ripe old age, and among his effects was the manuscript of his life story. His great-granddaughter presented it to the Institute. It was thought, at first, that it was a work of fiction, but the surviving relatives insisted that it was not. And then I, when I made a voyage to Earth, was able to obtain access to the Survey Service records.”

“And so?” asked Grimes.

“So Kinsolving’s Planet is to become our new Sinai,” Smith told him.

“You’d better go along, Grimes,” Admiral Kravitz told him, “just to see fair play. Anyhow, it’s all been arranged. You will be recalled to the active list—pay, etc., as per regulations—and ship out in this
Piety
of theirs as Rim Worlds’ government observer.”

“But why me, sir? If I were taking my own ship, if the old
Quest
were being recommissioned, with myself in command, it’d be different. But I don’t like being a passenger.”

“You’ll not be a passenger, Grimes. Captain—sorry,
Rector
—Smith has indicated that he’ll appreciate having you along as a sort of pilot. . . .”

“In a ship full of sky pilots—and myself a good agnostic!” He saw the bewildered expression on the Admiral’s face and explained his choice of words. “In the old days, before there were any
real
sky pilots, seamen used to refer to ministers of religion as such.”

“Did they, now? And what would those tarry-breeked ruffians of whom you’re so fond have thought of a captain calling himself ‘Rector’?”

“In the early days of sail they’d have thought nothing of it. It was the master’s usual title.”

“I doubt if anybody’ll ever call
you
‘Bishop,’ ” remarked the Admiral. “Anyhow, you’ll be aboard primarily to observe. And to report. In the unlikely event of anything occurring that will affect Rim Worlds’ security you are to take action.”

“Me—and what squad of Marines?”

“We could send a detachment of the Salvation Army with you,” joked the Admiral.

“I doubt that they’d be allowed on board. As far as I can gather, these Neo-Calvinists are somewhat intolerant. Only on a world as tolerant as Francisco would they have been allowed to flourish.”

“Intolerant, yes,” agreed Kravitz. “But scrupulously honest. And moral.”

“In short.” said Grimes, “no redeeming vices.”

“
Piety
lifts ship at 1800 hours tomorrow, Commodore Grimes,” said the Admiral. “You will be aboard.”

“Aye, aye, sir,” replied Grimes resignedly.

Grimes had never enjoyed serving in a “taut ship” himself, and had never commanded one. Nonetheless, he respected those captains who were able to engender about themselves such a state of affairs.
Piety
, as was obvious from the moment that he set foot on the bottom of the ramp, was a taut ship. Everything was spotless. Every metal fitting and surface that was supposed to be polished boasted a mirror-like sheen. All the paintwork looked as though it was washed at least twice daily—which, in fact, it was. The atmosphere inside the hull bore none of the usual taints of cookery, tobacco smoke or—even though there was a mixed crew—women’s perfume. But it was too chilly, and the acridity of some disinfectant made Grimes sneeze.

The junior officer who met him at the head of the ramp showed him into the elevator cage at the foot of the axial shaft. Grimes thanked him and assured the presumably young man—the full beard made it hard to determine his age—that he knew his way around this class of vessel. A captain, no matter what he calls himself or is called, is always accommodated as closely as possible to the center of control. The elevator worked smoothly, noiselessly, carrying the Commodore speedily up to the deck just below the control room. There, as in his own
Faraway Quest
, was the semi-circular suite of cabins. Over the door was a brass plate with the title RECTOR.

As Grimes approached this entrance it slid open. Smith stood there and said formally, “Welcome aboard, Commodore.”

“Thank you, Rector.”

“Will you come in, sir?”

There were other people in the day cabin: a tall, stout, white-headed and bearded man dressed in clothing that was very similar to Smith’s uniform; a woman in a long-sleeved, high-necked, ankle-length black dress, her hair completely covered by a frilly white cap. They looked at Grimes, obviously disapproving of his gold-braided, brass-buttoned, beribboned finery. They did not get up.

“Commodore Grimes,” said Smith. “Presbyter Cannan. Sister Lane.”

Reluctantly the Presbyter extended his hand. Grimes took it. He was not surprised that it was cold. Sister Lane nodded slightly in his general direction.

Smith gestured stiffly toward a chair, sat down himself. Grimes lowered himself to his own seat incautiously. He should have known that it would be hard. He looked curiously at the two civilians. The Presbyter was an old edition of Rector Smith. The sister. . . ? She had him puzzled. She belonged to a type that been common enough on Francisco when he had been there—the Blossom People, they had called themselves. They preached and practiced a sort of hedonistic Zen, and claimed that their use of the wide range of drugs available to them put them in close communication with the Cosmic All. Prim she was, this Sister Lane, prim and proper in her form-concealing black, but the planes of her face were not harsh, and her unpainted lips were full, and there was a strange gentleness in her brown eyes. Properly dressed—or undressed—thought Grimes, she would be a very attractive woman. Suddenly it was important that he hear her voice.

He pulled his battered pipe out of his pocket, his tobacco pouch and lighter. He asked, addressing her, “Do you mind if I smoke?”

But it was the Presbyter who replied. “Certainly we mind, sir. As you should know, we are opposed to the use of any and all drugs.”

“
All
drugs?” murmured the woman, with a sort of malicious sweetness. Her voice was almost a baritone, but it could never be mistaken for a male one.

“There are exceptions, Sister Lane,” the old man told her harshly. “As you well know.”

“As I well know,” she concurred.

“I take it,” said Grimes, “that nicotine is not among those exceptions.”

“Unfortunately,” she stated, “no.”

“You may leave us, Sister,” said Presbyter Cannan. “We have no further business to discuss with you.”

“Thank you, sir.” She got gracefully to her feet, made a curtsey to Cannan, walked out of the door. Her ugly clothing could not hide the fluid grace of her movements.

“Your Nursing Sister, Rector?” asked Grimes when she was gone.

“No,” answered Cannan. And,
Who’s running this ship?
thought Grimes irritably. But evidently the Presbyter piled on more gravs than did the ship’s lawful master.

Smith must have noticed the Commodore’s expression. “Sister Lane, sir,” he explained, “is a member of the Presbyter’s staff, not of mine.”

“Thank you, Rector.” Grimes rewarded him with what was intended to be a friendly smile. “I’m afraid that it will take me some time to get your ranks and ratings sorted out.”

“I have no doubt,” said Cannan, “that it must be confusing to one who relies upon gaudy fripperies for his authority rather than inner grace.”

“Your baggage must be aboard and stowed by now, Commodore,” Smith said hastily. He turned to his spiritual superior. “May I suggest, sir, that you and your people retire to your quarters? Liftoff”—he glanced at his watch—”will be in fifteen minutes.”

“Very well, Rector.” The old man got up, towering over the two spacemen. Smith got up. Grimes remained seated until Smith returned from seeing the Presbyter out.

He said, “I’d better be getting below myself. If you could have somebody show me to my stateroom, Rector.”

“I was hoping, Commodore, that you would be coming up to Control for the lift-off.”

“Thank you, Rector Smith. It will be my pleasure.”

Smith led the way out of his quarters, up the short ladder that brought the two men to the control room. Grimes looked about him. The layout was a standard one: acceleration chairs before which were banks of instruments, screens, meters, chart tank, mass proximity indicator, Carlotti Beacon direction finder. All seemed to be in perfect order, and much of the equipment was new. Evidently the Skarsten Theological Institute did not believe in spoiling the ship for a ha’porth of tar.

The Rector indicated a chair, into which Grimes strapped himself, then took his own seat. The officers were already at their stations. All those bearded men, thought the Commodore, looked too much alike, and their black-on-black insignia of rank made it hard to tell who was what. But this wasn’t
his
ship, and she had managed to come all the way out from Francisco without mishap.

The departure routine went smoothly enough, with the usual messages exchanged between control room and spaceport control tower. The Inertial Drive started up, and there was that brief second of weightlessness before the gentle acceleration made itself felt. The ship lifted easily, falling upward to the cloud ceiling. Briefly Grimes was able to look out through the viewports at Port Forlorn and at the dreary countryside spread out around the city like a map. And then there was nothing but gray mist outside—mist that suddenly became a pearly, luminescent white and then vanished. Overhead was a steely sun glaring out of a black sky, its light harsh even though the ports were polarized.

There was free fall for a little while, and then the gyroscopes swung the ship’s head to the target star. The Inertial Drive came on again, its irregular throbbing beat a bass background for the thin, high keening of the Mannschenn Drive. Ahead, save for the iridescent spiral that was the target sun, there was only blackness. Lorn was to starboard—a vast, writhing planetary amoeba that was falling astern, that was shrinking rapidly. And out to port was the Galactic Lens, distorted by the temporal precession field of the Drive to a Klein flask blown by a drunken glass-blower.

Grimes wondered, as he had wondered before, if anybody would ever come up with another simile. But this one was so apt.

Grimes didn’t like this ship.

She was beautifully kept, efficiently run, and with her cargo spaces converted to passenger accommodation she comfortably housed her crew and all the personnel from the Skarsten Institute. But she was . . . cold. She was cold, and she was too quiet. There was none of the often ribald laughter, none of the snatches of light music that lent warmth to the atmosphere of a normal vessel. There were, he noted, playmasters in all the recreation rooms; but when he examined the spools of the machine in the senior officers’ mess he found that they consisted entirely of recordings of sermons and the gloomier hymns. The library was as bad. And, socially, there was complete segregation of the sexes. Deaconesses and sisters were berthed aft, and between them and the male crew and passengers were the storerooms and the “farm.”

The food was not bad, but it was plain, unimaginative. And there was nothing to drink but water, and even that had a flat taste. The conversation at table was as boring as the provender. Too, Grimes was annoyed to find out that the Rector did not sit at the head of the board in the senior officers’ mess; that place of honor was reserved for the Presbyter. And he talked, almost non-stop, about the Institute’s internal politics, with the ship’s captain interjecting an occasional quiet affirmative as required. The chief officer, surgeon and purser gobbled their meals in silence, as did Grimes, very much the outsider at the foot of the table. They were served by a young stewardess who would have been pretty in anything but that ugly, all-concealing black, who seemed to hold the domineering old man—but nobody else—in awe.