Trying Not to Love You (24 page)

"CC, get up; we're here." Hunter said, running his hand up my leg that stretched out on the seat.

I yawned and wiped my eyes. When I opened them, I was in shock of where we were. All around us were trees, mountains and nothing else. The house was a huge two-story log cabin with a wraparound porch and green roof; it was gorgeous.

Hunter came over, opened my door and held his hand out to me. I grabbed his hand and slid out of the truck.

"Wow, this house is beautiful." I was in heaven; there wasn't anyone around for miles, just Hunter and me for the next three days.

"Glad you like it; wait till you see the inside." He walked around to the bed of the truck to grab our bags.

"How did you find this place?" I asked, grabbing one of the bags from him.

"I know some people." He said with a shrug of shoulder.

When we walked in, it astounded me. The house had hardwood floors in every room, exposed beams and cathedral ceilings. The kitchen was all stainless steel appliances and granite counters; the dining room had a table that sat eight people. When you first walked in, there was a fireplace directly in front of you with a TV mounted above it, a couch and a loveseat. To the right of that was a sliding glass door that led out to the back deck where there was a hot tub nestled in the corner.

On the second floor, there were two bedrooms. The master suite had a king size bed, two dressers, a closet and in the corner a fireplace with a TV above it. The carpet was so plush that I had to take my shoes off to run my feet over it. Off the bedroom was a master bath that had a whirlpool big enough to fit four people. Next to that was a shower with a one-way window overlooking the mountains. Behind a closed door in the master bathroom was a toilet in its own little room. There were even a his-and-her sink in there as well.

The second bedroom was just like the master except it didn't have a whirlpool or fireplace. It had a sliding glass door that led out to a little private deck.

In the basement, there was a pool table, a bar and a huge movie screen with two rows of couches lined up in front of it. The back wall was all ceiling to floor windows with a view of the mountains.

"Oh Hunter, this house is just unbelievable and it must have cost a fortune. You really didn't have to do all this." I said, wrapping my arms around his side.

"Don't worry about how much it cost; just enjoy it." He placed a kiss on the top of my head. "Well, let's get our bags upstairs."

We walked back up to the main floor to grab our bags. After we unpacked, Hunter asked me, "Are you hungry? I could go downstairs and make us something to eat."

"No I'm still full from earlier but I would love to try out the whirlpool." I told him. The minute I had seen it, I wanted to get in it to relax after that ten-hour drive.

"Ok, you go get in; I'll be there in a few minutes. I'm going to go grab something to eat."

While Hunter was downstairs, I walked into the bathroom, turned on the water and stripped out of my clothes. I was alone in the tub for a while before Hunter finally came in. For a little bit I did not think he was going to come in.

"Hey, what took you so long?" I asked. He started stripping out of his jeans and that black t-shirt that I loved so much that stretched over his broad chest.

"I told you I was hungry, plus what's the rush? We have all weekend to ourselves." He stepped in the whirlpool settling in between my legs, facing me.

I felt a little exposed this way; I moved my legs up to my chest and hugged my arms around them. Hunter frowned when I did that. He grabbed my hand and pulled me to him so we were chest to chest. The second our skin made contact, I shivered; he really had no idea what he did to me.

"This feels nice after that long drive." Hunter moaned laying his head back on the edge.

I started placing kisses on his neck while running my right hand up his chest down his stomach and back again. He grabbed my hand, held it over his chest and then looked at me, so intently.

"Do you feel it?" He asked.

"It's beating so fast." I said. I broke our eye contact, laid my head on his chest and listened to his heartbeat.

"Every time you're near me this happens." He said and turned his head to kiss my forehead.

He started rubbing his hand up and down my back, causing me to shiver again. I started running my hand up and down his chest and stomach, causing him to shiver this time too.

"Hunter," I said as he kissed my shoulder. "Make love to me." Hunter stopped kissing me and sucked in a breath, slowly letting it out as he closed his eyes.

"CC…"

"Please Hunter," I said. "I want to be with you; I'm ready. I've waited this long to share this with you; I don't want to wait any longer."

"Are you sure?"

Nodding at him, I said, "It just feels right; we need this, and I need this."

Hunter did not respond. Neither of us needed words anymore. He helped me from the whirlpool. He helped dry me off and then I did the same to him, both of us taking our time, kissing every part of each other's body from our heads to our legs.

Looking down at me, he slowly ran his hands down my sides to my hips. A whimper escaped from me at what was to come next. He picked me up and walked me over to the bed; he carefully laid me on my back while he climbed on top of me. His knees nestled inside of mine.

"If you change your mind at any time, just tell me," Hunter said while placing kisses on my neck. I shifted my hips so that he was at my entrance. "Let me do this for you ok? Tonight is all about you."

Pulling back from me slightly, he rubbed his hands against my breasts. My eyes closed as he brought a nipple to his mouth and sucked lightly on it, causing my back to arch.

I sucked in a quick breath with realization settling in. Was I really about to do this with him? I have dreamt about this day for so many years that my first would be with Hunter. I wanted it, but was so nervous at the same time.

"CC we can stop now…"

Cutting him off, I said, "Hunter, I don't want to stop; I'm just a little anxious but I want to do this."

"I'm going to be as gentle as I can with you." Reaching up to him, I put my hand over his heart and felt it thumping hard. He was nervous too. Tilting my neck, Hunter bent down and started placing kisses on it. "I'll go slowly; if it hurts just tell me, and we'll stop."

He started pushing through my entrance. "This might hurt some." As he said that, I reached up and dug my fingernails into his back at the first sting of pain. Once Hunter was through the barrier, he stilled inside me, giving me a chance to adjust to him. Then he started moving slowly again and the pain started subsiding. We felt like two puzzle pieces fitting together so perfectly.

As I started moaning louder, Hunter grabbed my hands, laced our fingers together and put them above our heads. As Hunter continued to thrust in and out of me, I hitched my legs up around his hips so he would thrust deeper. I felt like I could not get him close enough. Snuggling into his neck, I started nipping as I felt the tension starting to grow between my legs.

"Come with me CC, I want to feel it." He moaned softly in my ear. After a few more thrusts, I was falling over the ledge. Hunter thrust in two more times and then stilled as his own release hit. After a few minutes, Hunter rolled over and he pulled me against him to snuggle. Laying there, I placed my hand over his heart, feeling it beat wildly still, just like mine.

"Are you ok? I didn't hurt you did I?" Hunter asked after his breathing went back to normal.

Speaking for the first time since we started, I lifted my head and looked into his bright blue eyes. "I couldn't have asked for it to be better than it was." Smiling at him, I reached up and ran my hand through his hair. "Thank you." I wanted to tell him I loved him. After that, there was no doubt in my mind that he loved me and he would tell me when he was ready.

He kissed me and then said. "Good night CC."

"Sweet dreams Hunter."

A few hours later, I woke to Hunter holding a warm compress between my legs. God that felt good; I was sore but not too sore.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up. I just wanted to make sure you were ok." When he pulled the towel up, I noticed the blood on it.

How embarrassing, I did not even think of this part. I started flushing while reaching for the towel. "It's ok; I'll take care of it." I started to move my legs off the bed but he stopped me.

"Don't be embarrassed CC." He reached over on the end table and handed me a glass of water and some pain reliever.

Looking at him, I had to smile. Leave it to Hunter to think of everything. "You're going to spoil me, you know that right?" I took the pain reliever and water from him. "Thank you." I handed him the empty glass back. "I think I'm going to take a quick shower."

I walked into the bathroom and quickly took a shower, wanting to get back to Hunter. I dried my hair as best I could with the towel and put it up in a ponytail. When I walked back into the room, he had changed the sheets. Now, he laid on his back, his arm over his eyes with the sheets pulled up just enough to cover his hips. Walking over to the dresser, I reached in and pulled out a t-shirt.

"What are you doing?" Hunter asked me.

I turned around to face him and shrugged my shoulder at him, "Just putting something to sleep in on."

"Don't do that." He pulled the covers back. "Come here."

I threw the shirt on top of the dresser, walked over to the bed and cuddled up next to him.

Hunter ran his fingers lightly up and down my back. He sighed and spoke so low I barely heard him, "You've wrecked me for anyone else."

I didn't respond; I don't think I was meant me to hear that. I've wrecked him; he has wrecked me just as much if not more. He has my heart in his hands and I just hoped he doesn't break it.

The next morning when I woke up, I knew before I even opened my eyes that he was not in bed. I reached over to his side of the bed and it was cold, so I knew he had been up for a while. I threw on some clothes and went to go find him.

When I walked downstairs, it was so silent that you could hear a pin drop. Where was he? I walked downstairs to the rec room, thinking maybe he was watching a movie and didn't want to wake me up, but he wasn't there either. I walked back upstairs to our room, grabbed my cell phone and tried to call him. As I was dialing his number, I heard the door shut downstairs. I quickly turned around and went back downstairs.

He was all sweaty and flushed; he must have gone for a run. His shirt was wet from his sweat and clung to his chest, and his shorts rode low on his hips. "Morning handsome."

"Morning CC, did I wake you?" He asked, walking towards the fridge. He took out a bottle of water and drank the whole thing.

"No but I didn't like waking up and you not being there. Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked as I perched myself on the barstool next to the breakfast nook.

He shook his head and ran his hands through his hair. "I needed to clear my head." My heart sped up, thinking he regretted last night. "Stop it; it's not what you think."

"Then what is it?" I asked.

Sighing, he walked over to me and turned my chair to face him. He looked like he was going to have a panic attack. "What is it? Just tell me."

"We um," He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, then opened them and looked at me. "We didn't use a condom last night; I was so caught up in you that I didn't even think about it. I'm so sorry."

So, this was what had him acting strange. I smiled and said, "Don't worry about it. I'm on the pill. I should have mentioned it last night. I figured since you knew I didn't sleep with anyone, and you know everything else about me, that you knew this too."

He stared at me for a minute before he responded. "Doesn't matter, CC. I still should have used one, and I'm sorry."

"Stop it, I'm not sorry." I put my hands on his shoulders and said, "Let's go get a shower. You need one." I pushed him away and ran up the stairs laughing.

Moaning, he ran up the stairs behind me. We forgot all about that conversation as we helped each other out of our clothes. We stepped into the shower, washed each other and spent time memorizing each other's bodies.

I wanted him and I knew he wanted me by the way he was groaning as my hand was running up and down the length of him. Hunter spun me around and lifted me against the wall; I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his hips.