Treason (7 page)

That night she lit a torch outside her main door and told me that guests would come. I later learned that a torch meant that a person was willing to receive guests, an open invitation to all who might see the glowing in the night. It was a measure of Mwabao Mawa’s power over other people (or, less cynically, their devotion to and delight in her) that whenever she put the torch outside, it was only a matter of an hour before her house was full, and she had to douse the outer light.

The guests were mostly men—not uncommon, either, in Nkumai, since women rarely traveled at night, being generally burdened with the care of children, who didn’t have the balance for safe walking at night. The talk was mostly small, though by listening carefully I learned a bit. Unfortunately, Nkumai courtesy forced the guests to spend as much time talking to me as they spent talking to each other. It would have been nicer, I thought at the time, if they had shared Mueller’s custom of letting a guest sit in silence until he wished to join a conversation. Of course, Nkumai’s custom keeps a guest from learning as much; I was certainly kept from learning anything I thought significant that night.

I learned only that all her guests were men of education—scientists of one kind or another. And I got the feeling from the way they talked and argued that these were men little concerned with science as Mueller used it, as a means to an end. Instead, science was the end in itself.

“Good evening, Lady,” a small, softspoken man said. “I’m Teacher, and I’m eager to be of service to you.”

A standard greeting, but at last I gave in to my curiosity and asked, “How can you be named Teacher, and also three other men in this room, and also the guide who led me here? How can you tell one another apart?”

He laughed, with that superior laugh that already irritated me and which I soon learned was a national custom, and said, “Because I’m myself, and they are not.”

“But when you talk
about
each other?”

“Well,” he patiently explained, “I hope that when men talk about me, they call me Teacher Who Taught the Stars to Dance, because that’s what I did. The man who guided you here this morning—he’s Teacher of True Sight. That’s because he made that particular discovery.”

“True sight?”

“You wouldn’t understand,” he said. “Very technical. But when someone wants to talk about us, he refers to our greatest accomplishment, and then everybody who matters knows who he’s talking about.”

“What about someone who hasn’t made a great discovery yet?”

He laughed again. “Who would want to talk about such a person?”

“But when you speak of women, they all have names.”

“So do dogs and little children,” he said, so cheerfully I could almost believe he hadn’t intended to be insulting. “But no one expects great accomplishments from women, at least not while they’re fully engaged in the work of conceiving, bearing, and rearing children. Don’t you think it would be coarse to speak of a woman by referring to her greatest gifts? Imagine calling someone ‘Blanket Dancer with the Huge Buttocks’ or ‘Cook Who Always Scorches Soup.’” He laughed at his own joke, and several others, who had been vaguely listening in, suggested other titles. I thought they were hilarious, but as a woman I had to pretend to find them insulting, and in fact I was a bit annoyed when one of them suggested that I might be called “Emissary with the Freckled Breasts.”

“How would you know to call me that?” I asked archly. I was annoyed to discover how easily it came to me to sound arch; all I had to do was imitate the Turd’s speech and then raise one eyebrow—which I’ve been able to do since childhood, to the amusement of my parents and the terror of the troops under my command.

“I don’t
know
it,” answered a man named Stargazer—the same name as two others in the room. “But I’d be willing to find out.”

It was something I hadn’t really been prepared for. Rapists on the road I could cope with by killing them. But how does a woman say no to a man in polite company without offending? As a king’s son, I was not used to hearing women say no. As Saranna’s lover, I had lately not been used to asking, anyway.

Fortunately, I didn’t have to answer at all.

“The Lady from Bird is not here to find out what’s hidden under your robe,” Mwabao Mawa said, “especially since most of us know how little it conceals.” The laughter was loud, especially from the man insulted, but they moved away from me for a short time, and I was allowed a few moments to myself, to observe.

There was, amid all the chatter of science and court gossip—more of the latter than of the former, of course—a detectable pattern that amused me. I watched as one man at a time took Mwabao aside for just a moment of quiet, unheard conversation. And one of them I overheard. “At noon,” he said, and she nodded. Little enough to generalize on, but I was willing to believe that they were making appointments. For what? I could think of several obvious purposes. She might be a whore; though I doubted it, both because of her lack of beauty and because of the obvious respect these men had for her mind, never leaving her out of their conversations or ignoring a remark she made. Or she might really be a mistress of the king, in which case she could be selling influence—though again I doubted it, because it seemed so unlikely that an emissary would be placed with a woman who had that kind of power.

A third possibility was that she was somehow involved with a rebellion or a secret party, at least. This didn’t contradict either fact or logic, and I began to wonder if there was something there that might be exploited.

But not that night, at least. I was tired. Though my body had long since healed from the strain of climbing to Mwabao Mawa’s house—and, for that matter, from the beating of the Nkumai soldiers only a short time before—I was still emotionally drained. I needed to sleep. I dozed for a moment and woke to find the last of the men leaving.

“Oh,” I said, startled. “Did I sleep so long?”

“Only a few moments,” Mwabao Mawa told me, “but they realized it was late, and went. So you could sleep.”

She went to a corner, dipped her hand into a barrel, and drank.

I would have done the same, but as I thought of water a horrible realization came over me. In prison I had had privacy to eliminate wastes, and while traveling with Teacher he had delicately let me take care of those needs on the other side of the carriage, forbidding anyone to watch. But alone here in the house with another—another?—woman, there might be no such fastidiousness.

“Is there a room particularly for—” For what, I wondered. Was there a delicate way of putting it? “I mean, what are the other three rooms of your house used for?”

She turned to me and smiled slightly, but there was something other than a smile behind her eyes. “That I will tell to those who have a practical reason for such knowledge.”

Didn’t work. And worse, I had to watch as Mwabao Mawa casually took off her robe and walked naked across the room toward me.

“Aren’t you going to sleep?” she asked me.

“Yes,” I said, not bothering to hide how flustered I was. Her body was not particularly attractive, but it
was
the first time I had ever seen such a large woman undressed, and that, combined with her blackness and my long deprivation, made her exotic and intensely arousing. It made it all the more urgent for me to figure out a way to keep from getting undressed myself, since my modesty was essential to my survival in a nation which took me for a woman.

“Then why aren’t you undressing?” she asked, puzzled.

“Because in my nation we don’t undress to sleep.”

She laughed aloud. “You mean you wear clothing even in front of other women?”

I pretended to speak as if I were from a nation whose customs exactly coincided with my present need, though in fact at that time I did not yet know of any such place. “The body is one’s most private possession,” I said, “and the most important. Do you wear all your jewels all the time?”

She shook her head, still amused. “Well, at least I hope you’ll take it off to drop.”

“Drop?”

She laughed again (that damned superior laugh) and said, “I guess a soiler would have a different word for it, wouldn’t you? Well, you might as well watch the technique—it’s easier to show it than to explain it.”

I followed her to the corner of the room. She grasped the corner pole and then swung out, through the curtain. I gasped at the suddenness of the way she lurched out over the vast distance to the ground. For a moment I wondered if she had leapt out into space and flown away; but there were her hands, still gripping the pole through the curtains, and she sounded calm as she said, “Well, open the curtain, Lark. You can’t learn if you don’t look!”

So I opened and watched as she defecated over empty space. Then she swung back in and walked over to another water bucket
—not
the one she had drunk out of—and cleaned herself.

“You’ve got to learn quickly which bucket is which,” she said with a smile. “And also—don’t ever drop in a wind, especially in a wind with rain. There’s nobody directly below us, but there are plenty of houses off at an angle below my home, and they have strong opinions about feces on their roofs and urine in their drinking water.” Then she lay down on a pile of cushions on the floor.

I hitched up my robe until the skirt was very short, and then grasped the pole tightly and delicately tiptoed through the curtain. I began to tremble as I glanced down and saw how far below me the few torches still burning seemed to be. But I bowed—or rather squatted—to the inevitable, trying to pretend that I was not where I was.

It took a long time to convince my sphincters that they should relax, not clench up in terror. When at last I finished, I came back and walked awkwardly to the water barrel. For a difficult moment, I wondered if I was at the wrong one.

“That’s the one,” came Mwabao Mawa’s voice from the cushions on the floor. I inwardly winced to think she had been watching me, though I hope I showed nothing on my face. I cleaned myself and lay down on another pile of cushions. They were too soft, and soon I pushed them aside and slept on the wooden floor, which was more comfortable, though something in between would have been nicer.

Before I slept, though, Mwabao Mawa asked me sleepily, “If you don’t undress to sleep, and you don’t undress to drop, do you undress for sex?”

To which I just as drowsily replied, “That I will tell to those who have a practical reason for such knowledge.” Her laughter this time told me that I had a friend, and I slept peacefully all night.

I awoke because of a sound. In a building where there is not only a north, south, east, and west, but also an up and down, I couldn’t tell where the sound was coming from. But it was, I realized, music.

Singing, and the voice, which was distant, was soon joined by another, which was closer. The words were not clear. There may have been no real words. But I found myself listening, pleased by the sound of it. There was no harmony, at least nothing that I could recognize. Instead, each voice seemed to seek its own pleasure, without relation to the other. But there was still some interaction, on some subtle—or perhaps merely rhythmic—level, and as more voices joined in, the music became very full and lovely.

I noticed a motion, and turned to see Mwabao Mawa looking at me.

“Morningsong,” she whispered. “Do you like it?”

I nodded. She nodded back, beckoned to me and walked to a curtain. She drew it aside and stood on the edge of the platform, naked, as the song continued. I held on to the corner pole and watched where she was watching.

It was the east; the hymn was to the imminent sun. As I watched, Mwabao Mawa opened her mouth and began to sing. Not softly, as she had yesterday, but with full voice, a voice that rang among the trees, that seemed to find the same mellow chord that had originally been tuned into the wood, and after a while I noticed that silence had fallen except for her music. And as she sang an intricate series of rapid notes, which seemed to bear no pattern but which, nevertheless, imprinted themselves indelibly in my memory and in my dreams ever since, the sun topped a horizon somewhere, and though I couldn’t see it because of the leaves above me, I knew from the sudden brightening of the green ceiling that the sun had risen.

Then all the voices arose again, singing together for a few moments. And then, as if by a signal, silence.

I stood, leaning on the pole. It occurred to me that once I had shared Mueller’s delusion that people with black skins were fit only to be slaves. One thing, at least, I had learned from my embassy here, and one thing I would take away: a memory of music unlike any other ever known in this world. I leaned there, unmoving, until Mwabao Mawa closed the curtains.

“Morningsong,” she said, smiling. “It was too good an evening last night not to celebrate today.”

She cooked breakfast—the meat of a small bird, and a thin-sliced fruit of some kind.

I asked; she told me that the fruit was the fruit of the trees the Nkumai lived in. “We eat it as soilers eat bread or potatoes.” It had a strange tang. I didn’t like it, but it was edible.

“How do you catch birds?” I asked. “Do you use hawks? If you shot a bird, it would fall forever to the ground.”

She shook her head, waiting to answer until her mouth was empty. “I’ll have Teacher take you to where the birdnets are.”

“Teacher?” I asked

As if my question had been his cue, a moment later he was standing outside the house, calling softly, “From the earth to the air.”

“And to the nest, Teacher,” Mwabao Mawa answered. She walked out of the room, on to the next room where Teacher would be waiting. Reluctantly I followed, making the short jump to the other room, and then, without even a good-bye, followed Teacher away from Mwabao Mawa’s house. No good-bye, at first because I had no idea how women who barely knew each other should say it, and then because she was already gone from the curtain before I finally decided to turn and say something.

Up was terrible, but down was infinitely worse. Coming up a rope ladder, you reach the platforms with your hands first, pulling yourself to security. But going down you have to lie on your stomach and extend your feet downward, hunting for a rung with your toes, knowing that if you go too far you won’t be able to pull yourself up.