Travels with Charley in Search of America (16 page)

“I didn’t think that at all, sir, but I bet I’m going to. Why, I remember when people took everything out on Mr. Roosevelt. Andy Larsen got red in the face about Roosevelt one time when his hens got the croup. Yes, sir,” he said with growing enthusiasm, “those Russians got quite a load to carry. Man has a fight with his wife, he belts the Russians.”

“Maybe everybody needs Russians. I’ll bet even in Russia they need Russians. Maybe they call it Americans.”

He cut a sliver of cheese from a wheel and held it out to me on the knife blade. “You’ve give me something to think about in a sneaking kind of way.”

“I thought you gave it to me.”

“How?”

“About business and opinions.”

“Well, maybe so. Know what I’m going to do? Next time Andy Larsen comes in red in the face, I’m going to see if the Russians are bothering his hens. It was a great loss to Andy when Mr. Roosevelt died.”

Now I don’t say that an awful lot of people have this man’s sense of things. Maybe they don’t, but maybe they do—also in their privacy or in non-business areas.

Charley raised his head and roared a warning without bothering to get to his feet. Then I heard a motor approaching, and trying to get up found my feet were long gone in sleep in the cold water. I couldn’t feel them at all. While I rubbed and massaged them and they awakened to painful pins and needles, a vintage sedan pulling a short coupled trailer like a box turtle lumbered down from the road and took a position on the water about fifty yards away. I felt annoyance at this invasion of my privacy, but Charley was delighted. He moved on stiff legs with little delicate mincing steps to investigate the newcomer and in the manner of dogs and people did not look directly at the object of his interest. If I seem to be ridiculing Charley, look you at what I was doing in the next half hour and also what my neighbor was doing. Each of us went about our business, with slow deliberateness, each being very careful not to stare at the other and at the same time sneaking glances, appraising, evaluating. I saw a man, not young, not old, but with a jaunty springy step. He was dressed in olive-drab trousers and a leather jacket, and he wore a cowboy hat but with a flat crown and the brim curled and held to a peak by the chin strap. He had a classic profile, and even in the distance I could see that he wore a beard that tied into his sideburns and so found his hair. My own beard is restricted to my chin. The air had grown quickly chill. And I don’t know whether my head was cold or that I didn’t want to remain uncovered in the presence of a stranger. At any rate, I put on my old naval cap, made a pot of coffee, and sat on my back steps glancing with great interest at everything except my neighbor, who swept out his trailer and threw out a dishpan of soapy water while he pointedly un-watched me. Charley’s interest was captured and held by various growlings and barkings that came from inside the trailer.

There must be in everyone a sense of proper and civil timing, for I had just resolved to speak to my neighbor, in fact had just stood up to move toward him, when he strolled toward me. He too had felt that the period of waiting was over. He moved with a strange gait reminiscent to me of something I couldn’t place. There was a seedy grandeur about the man. In the time of chivalric myth this would be the beggar who turns out to be a king’s son. As he came near I stood up from my iron back stoop to greet him.

He did not give me a sweeping bow, but I had the impression that he might have—either that or a full regimental salute.

“Good afternoon,” he said. “I see you are of the profession.”

I guess my mouth fell open. It’s years since I have heard the term. “Well, no. No, I’m not.”

Now it was his turn to look puzzled. “Not? But— my dear chap, if you’re not, how do you know the expression?”

“I guess I’ve been on the fringes.”

“Ah! Fringes. Of course. Backstage no doubt— direction, stage manager?”

“Flops,” I said. “Would you like a cup of coffee?”

“Delighted.” He never let down. That’s one nice thing about those of the profession—they rarely do. He folded himself on the divan seat behind my table with a grace I never achieved in all my traveling. And I set out two plastic mugs and two glasses, poured coffee, and set a bottle of whisky within easy reach. It seemed to me a mist of tears came into his eyes, but it might be that they were in mine.

“Flops,” he said. “Who hasn’t known them hasn’t played.”

“Shall I pour for you?”

“Please do—no, no water.” He cleared his palate with black coffee and then munched delicately on the whisky while his eye swept my abode. “Nice place you have here, very nice.”

“Tell me, please, what made you think I was in the theater?”

He chuckled dryly. “Very simple, Watson. You know I’ve played that. Both parts. Well, first I saw your poodle, and then I observed your beard. Then on approaching I saw that you wore a naval cap with the British Royal Arms.”

“Was that what broadened your
a
’s?”

“That might be, old chap. That certainly might be. I fall into such things, hardly knowing I’m doing it.” Now, close up, I saw that he was not young. His movements were pure youth but there was that about his skin texture and the edges of his lips that was middle-aged or past it. And his eyes, large warm brown irises set on whites that were turning yellow, corroborated this.

“Your health,” I said. We emptied our plastic glasses, chased with coffee, and I refilled.

“If it isn’t too personal or too painful—what did you do in the theater?”

“I wrote a couple of plays.”

“Produced?”

“Yes. They flopped.”

“Would I know your name?”

“I doubt it. Nobody else did.”

He sighed. “It’s a hard business. But if you’re hooked, you’re hooked. I was hooked by my grand-daddy and my daddy set the hook.”

“Both actors?”

“And my mother and grandmother.”

“Lord. That
is
show business. Are you”—I searched for the old word—“resting now?”

“Not at all. I’m playing.”

“What, for God’s sake, and where?”

“Wherever I can trap an audience. Schools, churches, service clubs. I bring culture, give readings. I guess you can hear my partner over there complaining. He’s very good too. Part Airedale and part coyote. Steals the show when he feels like it.”

I began to feel delighted with this man. “I didn’t know such things went on.”

“They don’t, some of the time.”

“Been at it long?”

“Three years less two months.”

“All over the country?”

“Wherever two or three are gathered together. I hadn’t worked for over a year—just tramped the agencies and casting calls and lived up my benefits. With me there’s no question of doing something else. It’s all I know—all I ever have known. Once long ago there was a community of theater people on Nantucket island. My daddy bought a nice lot there and put up a frame house. Well, I sold that and bought my outfit there and I’ve been moving ever since, and I like it. I don’t think I’ll ever go back to the grind. Of course, if there should be a part—but hell, who’d remember me for a part—any part?”

“You’re striking close to home there.”

“Yes, it’s a hard business.”

“I hope you won’t think I’m inquisitive even if I am. I’d like to know how you go about it. What happens? How do people treat you?”

“They treat me very well. And I don’t know how I go about it. Sometimes I even have to rent a hall and advertise, sometimes I speak to the principal of the high school.”

“But aren’t people scared of gypsies, vagabonds, and actors?”

“I guess they are at first. At the beginning they take me for a kind of harmless freak. But I’m honest and I don’t charge much, and after a little the material takes over and gets into them. You see, I respect the material. That makes the difference. I’m not a charlatan, I’m an actor—good or bad, an actor.” His color had deepened with whisky and vehemence, and perhaps at being able to talk to someone with a little likeness of experience. I poured more into his glass this time and watched with pleasure his enjoyment of it. He drank and sighed. “Don’t get something like this very often,” he said. “I hope I haven’t given you the impression that I’m rolling in receipts. Sometimes it’s a little rough.”

“Go on about it. Tell more.”

“Where was I?”

“You were saying you respected your material and that you were an actor.”

“Oh, yes. Well, there’s one more thing. You know when show people come into what they call the sticks, they have a contempt for the yokels. It took me a little time, but when I learned that there aren’t any yokels I began to get on fine. I learned respect for my audience. They feel that and they work with me, and not against me. Once you respect them, they can understand anything you can tell them.”

“Tell about your material. What do you use?”

He looked down at his hands and I saw that they were well-kept and very white, as though he wore gloves most of the time. “I hope you won’t think I’m stealing material,” he said. “I admire the delivery of Sir John Gielgud. I heard him do his monologue of Shakespeare—
The Ages of Man.
And then I bought a record of it to study. What he can do with words, with tones, and inflections!”

“You use that?”

“Yes, but I don’t steal it. I tell about hearing Sir John, and what it did to me, and then I say I’m going to try to give an impression of how he did it.”

“Clever.”

“Well, it does help, because it gives authority to the performance, and Shakespeare doesn’t need billing, and that way I’m not stealing his material. It’s like I’m celebrating him, which I do.”

“How do they respond?”

“Well, I guess I’m pretty much at home with it now, because I can watch the words sink in, and they forget about me and their eyes kind of turn inward and I’m not a freak to them anymore. Well—what do you think?”

“I think Gielgud would be pleased.”

“Oh! I wrote to him and told him what I was doing and how I was doing it, a long letter.” He brought a lumpy wallet from his hip pocket and extracted a carefully folded piece of aluminum foil, opened it, and with careful fingers unfolded a small sheet of note-paper with the name engraved at the top. The message was typed. It said, “Dear . . . : Thank you for your kind and interesting letter. I would not be an actor if I were not aware of the sincere flattery implied in your work. Good luck and God bless you. John Gielgud.”

I sighed, and I watched his reverent fingers fold the note and close it in its armor of foil and put it away. “I never show that to anyone to get a show,” he said. “I wouldn’t think of doing that.”

And I’m sure he wouldn’t.

He whirled his plastic glass in his hand and regarded the rinse of whisky left in it, a gesture often designed to draw emptiness to the attention of a host. I uncorked the bottle.

“No,” he said. “No more for me. I learned long ago that the most important and valuable of acting techniques is the exit.”

“But I’d like to ask more questions.”

“All the more reason for the exit.” He drained the last drop. “Keep them asking,” he said, “and exit clean and sharp. Thank you and good afternoon.”

I watched him swing lightly toward his trailer and I knew I would be haunted by one question. I called out, “Wait a moment.”

He paused and turned back to me.

“What does the dog do?”

“Oh, a couple of silly tricks,” he said. “He keeps the performance simple. He picks it up when it goes stale.” And he continued on to his home.

So it went on—a profession older than writing and one that will probably survive when the written word has disappeared. And all the sterile wonders of movies and television and radio will fail to wipe it out—a living man in communication with a living audience. But how did he live? Who were his companions? What was his hidden life? He was right. His exit whetted the questions.

The night was loaded with omens. The grieving sky turned the little water to a dangerous metal and then the wind got up—not the gusty, rabbity wind of the seacoasts I know but a great bursting sweep of wind with nothing to inhibit it for a thousand miles in any direction. Because it was a wind strange to me, and therefore mysterious, it set up mysterious responses in me. In terms of reason, it was strange only because I found it so. But a goodly part of our experience which we find inexplicable must be like that. To my certain knowledge, many people conceal experiences for fear of ridicule. How many people have seen or heard or felt something which so outraged their sense of what should be that the whole thing was brushed quickly away like dirt under a rug?

For myself, I try to keep the line open even for things I can’t understand or explain, but it is difficult in this frightened time. At this moment in North Dakota I had a reluctance to drive on that amounted to fear. At the same time, Charley wanted to go—in fact, made such a commotion about going that I tried to reason with him.

“Listen to me, dog. I have a strong impulse to stay amounting to celestial command. If I should overcome it and go and a great snow should close in on us, I would recognize it as a warning disregarded. If we stay and a big snow should come I would be certain I had a pipeline to prophecy.”

Charley sneezed and paced restlessly. “All right,
mon cur,
let’s take your side of it. You want to go on. Suppose we do, and in the night a tree should crash down right where we are presently standing. It would be you who have the attention of the gods. And there is always that chance. I could tell you many stories about faithful animals who saved their masters, but I think you are just bored and I’m not going to flatter you.” Charley leveled at me his most cynical eye. I think he is neither a romantic nor a mystic. “I know what you mean. If we go, and no tree crashes down, or stay and no snow falls—what then? I’ll tell you what then. We forget the whole episode and the field of prophecy is in no way injured. I vote to stay. You vote to go. But being nearer the pinnacle of creation than you, and also president, I cast the deciding vote.”