Authors: Chris Jordan
new Cessna Skylane. Seth in the co-pilot’s seat, letting her have
the controls for the first time. He’s still a bit uneasy about taking
on the responsibility of instructing a teenage girl, one who has
been badgering him unmercifully by e-mail. He’s made it clear
he’s not interested in some whimsical impulse to get a free ride
in a small plane. She will have to prove herself, and quickly.
Seth Manning, for all his boyish good looks, is the most
serious man she’s ever met. For him flying is a vocation, not
a hobby or job. He’s been flying since he was fourteen—he
soloed at fifteen, long before he could legally drive—so he
knows that some teens are capable of serious commitment.
She knows what he must be thinking: this skinny girl in the
pilot seat has made all the right noises, but the fact is she’s
never even been in a small aircraft, let alone taken the yoke.
For all he knows, she might be a puker. Lots of steady,
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serious people can’t fly because of motion sickness. Others
can’t learn because they don’t listen.
Kelly doesn’t puke. She’s a sponge, soaking up instruc-
tion and repeating it back to him word for word, if necessary.
Her attention is fully engaged, firmly concentrated, and when
he tells her to place her feet on the rudder pedals, find the
balance between them, she does so with the confidence of
someone who trusts her own physical instincts. Then she has
the yoke and she’s flying the aircraft, banking firmly to the
right as she follows his instructions, gradually coming back
to level, finding the horizon, checking the instruments.
Flying.
The moment is, for Kelly, transcendent. For the first time
in her life she’s in control of her own destiny, flying free
above the earth. Her heart tells her that so long as she can
fly, she’ll live forever. She can see not just her own small life,
but the shape of the world below. Joy comes off her like
waves of heat, and Seth knows what she’s experiencing. She
can feel him studying her, judging her ability, and when she
risks a quick glance the first thing that registers is the
kindness in his eyes. He wants her to succeed.
“You’re a natural pilot,” he tells her that day, as if slightly
disappointed.
“That’s good, right?”
“It can be. But it means you have to be extra careful, es-
pecially during the first few hours of instruction, as you
develop discipline. Naturals tend to fly by the seat of their
pants because they have an instinctive understanding of how
the aircraft moves through the air. They concentrate on the
feeling part and tend to ignore the instruments. That’s what
gets them into trouble. When a plane stalls into a tailspin,
there’s no ‘feel’ about it. You have to trust your instruments
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and your instruction, not your instincts. Most of being a good
pilot is in your head, not your hands.”
“But my hands are okay?”
“Your hands are fine. If it’s any consolation, I was a
natural, too. But I forced myself to become a very boring, by-
the-numbers pilot.”
“By-the-numbers isn’t boring,” Kelly tells him. “By-the-
numbers means staying alive.”
It was exactly the right thing to say. Once they were back
on the ground—no, he wouldn’t allow her to attempt a
landing the very first day—he seemed as excited about her
continuing instruction as she did. He bought her a coffee at
the airport’s little café and they talked for hours. He told her
how he became obsessed with the notion of flying shortly
after his mom died, when the idea of lifting into the air
seemed like a way to escape grief, and later became some-
thing altogether different, a place where he felt whole and in
control and completely alive. His mom died of cancer, he told
her, and for the first time in her life Kelly found herself will-
ingly recounting what it had been like to be a child stricken
with leukemia, facing the very real possibility of death at an
age when most kids’ biggest fear was invisible monsters
under the bed.
They bonded big time.
Seth was different. Not like a potential boyfriend or a
teacher, more like the perfect older sibling—or that’s how
she, an only child, imagines it might be to have an older
brother.
She can’t, she won’t, let him die.
That’s why, when the first shotgun blast explodes through
the mangroves, followed by the flat bang of the discharge,
Kelly Garner covers Seth Manning’s body with her own.
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“Come on out, little pig,” says the monster man.
So close he might as well be whispering in her ear.
“Ain’t got all day. Quit humping your fag boyfriend.”
Kelly stays where she is, not moving. The next shot blows
apart a branch not an inch from her head, spitting shredded
mangrove leaves into her tightly clenched eyes.
“Two ways we can do this,” says monster man. “Crawl out
and beg, or be killed where you’re at. Thing is, I need fag boy
alive, so I’ll have to wing you and let you bleed to death, then
drag you off him.”
He kicks at the mangroves. Kelly decides she doesn’t
want to die with her eyes closed. She opens her eyes, squints
up through the tangle of mangrove branches.
Monster man is no more than ten yards away.
“Make up your mind,” he says. “I ain’t got all night.”
Beneath her Seth struggles. “Leave her alone,” he says,
voice muffled. “I’m the one you want!”
Feverish and weak though he is, Kelly can’t stop him
from crawling out from under. Clenching his teeth, groaning
in agony as his swollen arm thrashes through the branches.
Finally staggers to his feet, finds himself up to his knees in
the dark water surrounding the stand of mangroves. A faint
blush of first light just now showing along the horizon.
“I surrender,” Seth says, straightening up, his feverish
body shivering. “You got what you want. Take me and just
leave her there.”
“Oh, I aim to,” says the monster man, chuckling.
He swings the shotgun from Seth to the mangroves where
Kelly still lies entangled in the branches, barely able to move.
“Say your prayers, little pig,” he says.
A shotgun fires.
And part of monster man’s head turns to dark mist.
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He collapses backward into the water and does not rise.
Standing behind him, a different monster. One wearing
night-vision goggles and aiming a large, odd-looking shotgun.
“Get in the boat,” says Ricky Lang, yanking on the rope
to an aluminum skiff. “We’re going to a party and you’re
both invited.”
14. Three Shots At Sunrise
Leo Fish is beginning to grow on me. For the first hour or
two in our company, he parted with very few words, but the
coming dawn has warmed him up. Or maybe years of rarely
speaking have left him with a lot of pent-up verbal pressure.
Whatever, every stroke of the push-pole seems to bring forth
another anecdote or observation.
“When I was a boy, say about seven, my daddy come
upon hard times. Had a house in Glade City but lost it to the
bank. So he moved us out to the shell mounds—them are the
little islands made by the Calusa Indians—and we camped
out for a year, living off the land. Dint have a proper tent to
start out, just a piece of canvas strung over a limb. Skeeters
were bad, but the fishing and the trapping was good. Daddy
gimme a little .22 rifle and I become a good shot. Yessum,
best year of my life, out on the mounds.”
Part of me is aware that he’s purposefully distracting me
from our present situation and I’m grateful for the effort.
Shane, a hulking presence in the little boat because of his
size, remains mostly quiet, staring off at the dark horizon as
if willing the sun to rise, and the search to resume.
“For a whole year we dint eat nothing much that wasn’t
protected species nowadays. White ibis—what they call
Chokoloskee chicken—and night heron and egret and such.
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It was that or starve. Today they might say we was homeless,
but we dint think of it that way. Once Daddy got together a
few gator hides, he was able to trade for staples like cornmeal
and flour and beans and cooking oil. Life was hard but good.
When you work yur butt off from sun comes up till sun goes
down, cleaning and salting hides, you better believe Mama’s
cornbread in the iron skillet smelled like heaven.
“Funny enough, we never ate gator. Just skinned ’em and
threw away the rest. They say it tastes like chicken. I say
chicken tastes like alligator,” he says, chuckling at his own joke.
“How far, Mr. Fish?”
“Just Fish, or Leo if you druther. Mister makes me
nervous. Not too far, missy. Around the bend a short ways.
We’ll get there, don’t you worry.”
“You think we’ll find her?”
“Gonna do our very best for you, missy. Ain’t that right,
Mr. Shane?”
“Just Shane,” says Shane. “For the same reason. And yes,
absolutely, we’ll find Kelly.”
Can’t help notice he doesn’t specify on finding her alive.
Around the bend arrives, and Fish puts us ashore on a tidy
little island he calls a hardwood hammock. Tall trees, mostly
tamarind, acacia, and something called gumbo-limbo, are
thick around the outside, like the walls of a fortress, the
interior being mostly ferns and low-growing shade plants.
Much of this has been cleared because he sometimes used it
as a camp. The deep canopy of fronds and leaves makes it
feel almost like a roof over our heads.
Fish looks around, smiling with contentment, and says,
“Always sleep like a baby in here. I woke up once ’cause a
whitetail fawn was licking my face. Must have been the salt.
Which makes me an old salt lick, I guess.”
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Setting us at our ease as he unpacks a rifle from his lit-
tle boat.
“What’s going on?” Shane wants to know.
His plan is to leave us here for a bit while he checks out
one of Ricky Lang’s camps. Shane naturally wants to accom-
pany him, but Fish insists on going alone.
“On my lonesome I can do it in twenty minutes,” he says,
tying little bits of rope around his trouser cuffs. “With you along
it’d be an hour. Plus you’ll be tough to hide on open ground. So
rest yourself down on the nice soft ferns. We’re gettin’ where
we need to be, even if it don’t seem so at the moment.”
Shane reluctantly agrees to let him go it alone.
“Those ropes around your pant legs, what’s that for?” I
want to know.
“Keep out the leeches, missy. Don’t mind a leech or two
on my ankles, but up higher they give me the willywaws, if
you know what I mean.”
Moments later he’s waist deep in the dark water, holding
the rifle clear, and before long I lose sight of his cowboy hat
as he blends into the swamp. Leaving me with a lump in my
throat and nothing to do but wait.
Shane, sensing my despair, plops himself down next to
me, hugging his knees.
“I feel good about Fish,” he says.
“He knows the way,” I say, without much enthusiasm.
“Yes, he does. And in about twenty minutes the sun will
come up and the search will resume. Today’s the day, Mrs.
Garner.”
“Me Jane,” I respond laconically. “You Shane.”
He actually giggles. Which sounds weird coming from
such a big guy. When he realizes I’m not going to join in, he
clears his throat and says, “A while ago you asked me why I
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resigned from the FBI. I said I’d tell you about it later. Now
seems like as good a time as any. You still want to hear my
story?”
He, like Fish before him, seems intent on distracting me
from the more immediate crisis. Obviously he’s trying to help,
so I go, “Sure. Why not?” more out of politeness than interest.
“I’ll show you mine if you show me yours,” he adds, not
quite kidding about it.
“You go first,” I suggest. “The Randall Shane story. But
make it quick, because Fish’ll be back in twenty minutes.”
“Won’t take me five,” he promises. “It starts, like a lot of
good stories, with a beautiful wife and a beautiful child. Jean
and Amy. Jean was my wife, Amy was our daughter. We had
this nice little place in New Rochelle, I think I mentioned that
part already, and I worked out of the New York office, mostly
testifying in fingerprint cases. We’d had to reorganize the fin-
gerprint division after a scandal—the previous expert never
saw a print, any print, that he couldn’t connect to a criminal
case—and I’d become the new and improved resident expert,
basically reorganizing the way we identify prints. Computer
stuff. Boring guy with a boring job, but I loved it.
“Anyhow, I had this long weekend, so Jean and I decide
we’ll take Amy to the Smithsonian. She’s got this project for
her world-studies class and the Smithsonian will really help.