Tough Luck (Hard Rock Roots)

"This shit is real ugly, and it ain't getting any better. Hope their tough luck holds out a little longer. These people have got bent enough."

C.M. Stunich

Sarian Royal

Tough Luck

Copyright © C.M. Stunich 2013

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ISBN-10: 1938623619 (eBook)

ISBN-13: 978-1-938623-64-6 (eBook)

Cover art and design © Amanda Carroll and Sarian Royal

"Optimus Princeps" Font © Manfred Klein

"El&Font Gohtic!" Font
© Jerome Delage

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for the broken, the blinded, the bloody; for the ones who don't see straight but see crooked instead. for the hearts that beat in tandem with the plucking of strings, the snapping of sticks, and the growl of rebel voices.

and for the following people who helped make this book possible:

Lola Stark & Amanda Carroll

*Authors Note: Missing Turner and Naomi yet? Well, don't worry. They're in here. For now though, we've got to spend some time with Ronnie and Lola, get a little more behind the scenes action. You'll get to see Turner and Naomi star again in the next Hard Rock Roots book (more information at the end). Peace and love. ~CM

What a fucking idiot.

I'm sitting at my kit watching one of my best friends hop around the stage like he's gone completely mental. There's blood leaking from the wound in his thigh, staining the white bandages and drawing little gasps from his throat between verses that the crowd actually seems to
like.
They're diggin' this tortured, wounded bad boy schtick. Me, not so much.

“Dumb ass,” I growl out under my breath, slamming my sticks so hard I'm pretty damn sure one of the fuckers is going to snap right in half. Wouldn't be the first time. Anyway, this shit is getting stale. I'd like to move onto the next town, please and thank you. But no. No. Stupid ass cops think holding us here while they investigate shit is going to help. Why can't they just book Katie Rhineback and be done with it? It isn't like a good two dozen people are eyewitnesses to her brother's murder. Guess the dead cop they found in the woods spooked 'em.

“
Battered and broken, bleeding for you.
”

I follow up Turner's hook with some backup vocals. I hate backup vocals.
Shit.

“
Bleeding for you.
”

My friend tilts his head back, letting his shades slip down his sweaty face. From the shadows, I'm pretty sure I can see a hint of Naomi Knox, arms crossed over her chest, lips twitching somewhere between love and irritation. Yup. That's the honest truth right there. Those two have it, whether they know it or fucking not.
Forgive me, Asuka, but these stupid fuckers make me want to fall in love again.
Doubt I'm going to find someone in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma though.

“
Why can't I forget you? It's not like I want to, but, baby, call me crazy. I cannot move on.
”

Jesus, I hate this friggin' song. The day Turner wrote it, I almost socked him in the face. I know he was trying to help, but to be honest with you, it just kind of makes things worse. Even all these years later. Even after all these fucking years.

I can still see Asuka's smile, still hear her voice, still feel her body brushing against mine, soft and perfect. My love, my one, true love.

I smash my cymbals and kiss the sound with a spin of my sticks. I'm no Gene Krupa, stirring up dixieland or any of that shit, but I'm alright. I hit my solo running with a double bass beat and tune out the audience like I always do. Turner might eat that crap with a spoon, but I'm happy back here, cloaked in shadows, worshipped but forgotten. That works for me. It's been a long, long time since I've had the desire to be the center of attention.

“
Without you by my side, I think I'd have rather gone and died.
” Turner pauses and licks his lip, sliding his eyes to the side of the stage in a move I doubt anyone else would notice. But I know the asshole too well to miss it. He's checking with Naomi. By God, the man is actually considering someone else's feelings. Well, I'll be damned.

And then he grabs both sides of his shirt and tears, splitting the fabric and letting it hang in strips from either shoulder. I roll my eyes and keep playing, pumping my foot pedal, listening to the cry of the guitars cut through my ears and warp my brain. I don't know what Naomi thinks about that, but when I look back towards stage right, she's gone, melted into the dark shadows behind the curtain.

Maybe they'll have another fight tonight? Or maybe not? What does it matter? They're already out the gates, so there's no turning back. I just hope Campbell knows how good he's got it.

The crowd surges forward, frantic and frenzied, a mass of faceless faces, howling grins. I've
never
seen crowds like we've been having lately. With each nightmare, each tragedy, our popularity is growing. At this point, it's almost stifling. I can't help but think how much worse it's going to get, because it is. There is no fucking doubt in my mind about that.

I watch Trey playing angry, swiping his strings like they're to blame for this whole situation. It's nobody's fault, really, but he blames Naomi. It might've been her sister that got us stuck here, but that's just the dandelion swaying up there in the Goddamn breeze. Down below, there's a root. I don't know where it is or how it got planted, but as soon as I do, I'm going to tear that fucker out.

I let the tempo hit my soul and keep my hands in motion as my mind wanders. I don't need it to play, never have. Music isn't about the brain anyhow; it's all about the spirit. I'm pretty damn sure that's why I'm still alive today. Even when I wish I'd died with Asuka, I can play. As long as I can keep a beat going, I'm going to stay on this earth. It's not an easy thing to commit to, but I made that decision long ago, and I intend to keep it.

“
Keep my sanity, leave my pain, without you here, I'm losing it. I'm pretty sure I've fucking gone insane!
” Turner growls this last bit out, lifting his mic away from his lips as he bites off the last word in a scream. Next thing I know, it goes flying and he's storming off the stage while people scream and clamber over one another, barely held in check by the last vestiges of humanity that cling to their tired, dripping forms.

I finish the song with the rest of the band and then twirl my sticks a few times before chucking them out into the crowd after Trey's guitar pick. Let the vultures pick the meat off those bones before they go for ours. I duck out from behind my kit and slide into the relative safety of backstage, taking some small amount of comfort from the cops and the bodyguards that line nearly all the walls. There's a lot at stake here, for us, for them. That creep, whatever the fuck his name was, might be dead, but he wasn't solely responsible for Naomi's kidnapping. It could happen to any of us, at any time. Or worse.

I crack my knuckles and roll my head around on my sore neck. I have not been sleeping well. I miss my damn bus. Stupid mother fucking tornado. I hate the Midwest. Scary ass fucking shit out here. I mean, the people are alright, but I don't think I could ever get used to a giant funnel appearing out of the Goddamn sky and fucking us royally, flipping buses and shit.

“The van's out front, ready and waiting. If we could get out there
before
the horde grows any larger, I'd much appreciate it.” Milo's talking, but nobody's listening to him.

“What's the problem? You liked it, didn't you?”

“For fuck's sake, Turner. You're such an asshole.” Naomi Knox slides a cigarette between her lips and looks up at the ceiling like she's praying to a God I know for damn sure does not exist. If he did, Asuka would be here right now, smiling at the play by play between them. It's a little ridiculous, I'll be the first to admit. But it's cute. Sort of.

I get out a cig of my own and light up, snapping the Mrs. Ronnie McGuire bracelet against my wrist to hold back a surge of craving for something stronger. Nicotine's going to have to do for the moment. The cops here aren't playing games. They've already arrested a half dozen of our roadies on possession charges.

I lean against the wall and wonder if they'll ever figure out that it
wasn't
Katie Rhineback who stabbed that cop. She's confessing to it, sure, but they know as well as we do that she is bat shit friggin' crazy. But if they ever do find out it was Naomi, that girl is going to fry.

“We have to get going, man. Deal with this shit later.” Trey is pacing the door, anxious to get back to the hotel and drink himself into a stupor. I keep wondering if I should drag him into the fold. He's headstrong and stupid as shit, but he loves Turner like a brother. If he knew what was going on, he might be able to help.

“Listen to your little friend, Turner, and fuck off.” Naomi flicks cigarette ashes at Turner's chest and then slaps him when he grabs at her wrist.

With a sigh, I push off the wall and move around them to the doors. Based on their body language, I'm guessing this little tête-à-tête is going to go on for a while. I pat Turner on the back as I pass, and then pull my cig out of my mouth to catch my breath. The air back here is stale and hot and dusty, almost stifling.

“You got a light?” a voice asks from the shadows to my left. The accent sounds familiar, but when I turn to look, I know sure as shit that the face is not. I'd remember a face like that.