To Love Again (15 page)

Ciao, Alessandro. How've you been? She took him quickly from Isabella into her long lanky arms, and then the two women stood facing each other as hoarsely Natasha spoke to her. Welcome home. And then she turned back to Alessandro. Do you know how heavy you are, kiddo? How about letting him walk to the car? But quickly Isabella shook her head. His feet had barely hit the ground since Rome. It would be too easy for someone to sweep him off his feet, to grab him; he had been in someone's arms since they began the trip.

It's all right. I'll cary him.

I understand. And then she looked at the two bodyguards. We're out here. The small tightly knit group moved as one body toward the exit and then toward the car. A Rolls-Royce with a chauffeur, and license plates with initials Isabella didn't have time to see. Before she could catch her breath, they were whisked into the leather interior, the door had closed, the bags were stored, the men had waved, and the chauffeur pulled away from the curb.

It was only then that Isabella realized they weren't alone in the car. There was another man in the front seat. She looked suddenly startled as he turned his head toward them and smiled. He was handsome and blue eyed, with a young face and silvery hair.

Oh. Isabella made only one small sound as he turned.

But Natasha was quick to pat her hand. It's all right, Isabella. This is my friend, Corbett Ewing. He nodded and extended a hand.

I didn't mean to frighten you. I'm awfully sorry. They shook hands, and Isabella nodded stiffly. She hadn't expected to see anyone but the driver in the car. She looked at Natasha inquiringly, but Natasha only smiled and exchanged a look with Corbett. Then Isabella understood. How was the trip? It was quickly obvious that he knew only that she had arrived from Rome. His look of casual ease as he sat there told her that he knew nothing of the potential terror of the trip. For an instant, but only that, she was annoyed at Natasha for bringing him along. She didn't want to have to make polite conversation all the way into New York. But it was also obvious that he had lent them the car, and perhaps Natasha had wanted him along. They seemed to understand each other, and Isabella realized that perhaps Natasha too had been cautious and needed his strength.

Isabella smilingly made the effort. She felt that she owed it to her friend. The trip was fine. But I think we're both ' a little ' She suddenly faltered; she was so exhausted, she could barely find her words. ' we're both very tired.

I can imagine. He nodded again, and after a few moments he turned to the front and spoke in low tones to his driver. But Isabella's fragile beauty hadn't escaped him before he turned away.

The Rolls-Royce limousine pulled up sedately in front of Natasha's building as the doorman and one porter rushed instantly to their aid. Isabella stepped out, holding Alessandro tightly by the hand, a look of bewilderment on her pale, ivory face. As she stood for a moment, looking up at the building and down the long tree-lined street, it dawned on her once again how very far from home she was. In another world, another lifetime. Only the day before she had worked at San Gregorio, and lived in the villa in Rome. And now she was here, at Natasha's on Park Avenue in New York. It was six o'clock in the evening, and crowds of New Yorkers were coming home from work. It was dark and the air was chilly, but everywhere about them was a kind of excitement, a cacophony of noises, a symphony of bright lights. She had forgotten how loud and how busy New York could be, somehow madder, even more exciting than Rome. As she stood briefly on the sidewalk, watching women in jewel-colored heavy wool coats and fur hats rush past, lost in the crowd of prosperous, energetic-looking men, she suddenly wanted to go somewhere, to go for a walk, get some air. She wanted to see them, to sniff out the town, and look in the shops. It didn't matter anymore that she had hardly slept at all in almost forty hours, that she had driven and flown halfway around the world. For a moment, just a moment, she wanted to come alive again, to be one of them. Natasha watched her as the doorman removed her luggage. And from where he stood on the sidewalk, Corbett was watching her too.

Is everything all right, Isabella?

She looked up at him carefully. Yes, fine. And ' thank you so much for the ride.

Not at all. And then he turned to Natasha. Will you two ladies be all right now?

Of course. Natasha leaned toward him and kissed him on the cheek. I'll call you later.

He nodded silently, watched them hurry inside and then, lost in his own thoughts, he climbed back into his car.

Natasha and Isabella marched rapidly through the lobby and crammed into the elevator en masse as a black-uniformed man in gold braid and white gloves maneuvered the controls and the highly polished brass gate.

Good evening, Mrs. Walker.

Thank you, John. Good night.

Natasha glanced at Isabella again as she fitted her key into the lock. You know, for a broad who's been traveling since God knows when this morning, you don't look half bad. Isabella smiled in answer, and a moment later Natasha had opened the door, unleashing Ashley's barking excitement, Jason's frantic greeting, and Hats-tie's hello. The smells and sounds of the apartment overwhelmed Isabella as she came through the door. There was none of the palatial perfection of her villa on the Via Appia Antica, yet the apartment suited Natasha to perfection. Had Isabella designed a setting to show off Natasha's striking beauty, it would have been precisely what she saw now. The living room was enormous, ice-white with dollops of richly textured cream, smooth white fabrics, white leather, white walls, long mirrored panels, and much chrome. There were stark glass tables that seemed suspended in thin air, delicate lighting, a white marble fireplace, and plants that hung airily from the ceiling to the floor. The large handsome modern paintings were the only splash of bold color in the room.

Do you like it?

It's exquisite.

Come on. I'll give you a tour. Or are you too dead to move? The southern drawl was as gentle as ever, like a gentle southern breeze on a warm summer night. As always it seemed incongruous with Natasha's rapid pace, her determined step, her colorful language. She seemed to embody everything New York, until you heard the soft drawl, saw the big wistful blue eyes and the long golden hair.

Isabella was suddenly smiling and she wanted to see more. Alessandro had already disappeared with Hattie and Jason, the little brown spaniel yipping at their heels.

They had just entered Natasha's bedroom. Natasha sprawled into a chair. You hate it? Be honest. I don't know what happened to me when I did this room.

I know what happened. It's a dream. The rest of the apartment was starkly modern, but in her bedroom Natasha had gone totally wild. In the middle of the room was a richly ornate antique four-poster, draped in clouds of silky white, with cushions and ruffles and wonderful little lace pillows, and a dressing table from a Scarlett O'Hara dream. There were two blue-and-white love seats near a tiny fireplace, and near a window was a beautiful wicker chaise longue upholstered in pale blue.

It's so wonderfully southern, Natasha. Like you. And then the two of them laughed again, as they had an aeon ago when Natasha was nineteen and Isabella twenty-one.

C'mon, Natasha said, there's more. The dining room was done in restrained modern splendor with an enormous glass table, chrome chairs, and sideboards of thick glass. But here again Natasha had gone silently mad. The ceiling was painted blue and had been endowed with large white summery clouds.

It's like a trip to the beach, isn't it? She had done the entire apartment with panache and humor, and somehow it also managed to look both spectacular and welcoming at the same time. A warm, cozy den managed to combine both modern wonders and old, coppers, velvets, more modern art, and a brightly crackling fire.

They peered briefly into Natasha's office and the large friendly kitchen with the bright yellow floor. Then Natasha looked at her, smiling, her eyes dancing for a moment as she stepped to one side. And if you'll walk down that hall, Isabella, I have a surprise.

A month before it had been an empty maid's room, crammed with boxes and old skis. But after Isabella's first phone call Natasha had set to work with a vengeance. Now, as she swung open the door, she almost crowed at the look in Isabella's eyes. She herself had bought yards of fabric, a delicate rose silk a decorator friend had just brought back from France. With staples and tacks and delicate trimming, she had covered the walls in the soft pink. A tiny French desk stood in the corner with a perfect little chair covered in the same rose. Some bookshelves, some plants, a beautiful little Oriental carpet in pale greens woven with shades of raspberry and the same dusty rose as the walls. There were two beautiful brass lamps on the desk and the table, a file cabinet she'd found that was actually covered in wood, and a tiny settee that had been irresistible, covered in velvet with cushions of the rose silk.

My God, it almost looks like my boudoir. Isabella stared at her and almost gasped.

Not quite. But I tried.

Oh, Natasha, you didn't. How could you?

Why not? The phone has two lines. The file cabinet is empty. And I'll share my typist with you if you're very, very nice. There was everything. Everything she could have possibly wanted. And more than that: there was a look to it, of something familiar, something warm, something from home. There were tears in her eyes again as she stared at it.

You are truly the most extraordinary woman I know.

Natasha squeezed Isabella's shoulders and walked back out to the hall. Now that you've seen your office, I'll show you your bedroom, but it's not quite so grand.

How could it be? Oh, Natasha, you're amazing. Isabella was still speechless as they marched back down the main hallway the way they had come. On the way they passed Jason's room, where the boys were already tearing apart Alessandro's suitcase while Hattie ran a bath.

Va b+?ne, tes+|ro? she called out to Alessandro from the door.

S+1/4, ciao! He waved happily at her and disappeared under the bed with Jason to go after the dog.

You think your dog will survive?

Don't worry. Ashley's used to it. Here we are. She opened the door and stepped in ahead of Isabella. The room was not as frilly as Natasha's, nor as starkly modern as the rest of the house. It was warm and cozy and pleasant, done in rich bottle greens and antique French rugs. There were narrow glass tables and a dark green velvet chair. The bedspread was done in the same heavy velvet, and on the foot of the bed was a length of dark fur, folded neatly, like something from a baronial manor in a distant wintry land. A fire was burning in the marble fireplace. Dark red roses stood in a cut-crystal vase on a low table. In the corner was an armoire with magnificently paneled malachite doors.

My God, that's a beauty. Where did you ever find that?

In Florence. Last year. Aren't royalties wonderful, Isabella? It's amazing what they can do for a girl. Isabella sat down on her bed, and Natasha in the green velvet chair.

Are you all right, Isabella?

I am. She stared at the fire and for a moment she let her mind drift back to Rome.

How was it?

Leaving? Difficult. Frightening. I was afraid every mile of the trip. I kept thinking something would happen. Someone would recognize us and find me out. I kept thinking ' I worry about Alessandro ' I suppose we couldn't have stayed in Rome. For a moment, seeing Natasha so comfortable in her surroundings, she had longed for her own home in Rome.

You'll go back.

Isabella nodded silently in answer and then sought her friend's eyes. I don't know what to do without Amadeo. I keep thinking he'll come home. But he doesn't. He ' it's hard to explain what it's like. But she didn't have to. The pain of it was clearly carved in her heart, her soul, and her eyes.

I suppose I can't really imagine, Natasha said.

But ' you have to hold on to the good thoughts, the happy memories, the precious moments that make up a lifetime, and let the rest go.

How? Isabella's eyes shot straight into hers. How do you forget a voice on a phone? A moment? An eternity of waiting, of not knowing, and then' . How do you pick up the pieces, make it mean something again? How do you give a damn about anything, even your work?

Before Natasha could answer, Alessandro and the puppy bounded in the door. He has a train! A real one! Just like the one Papa took me to see in Rome! Want to see it? He was beckoning from the doorway, Ashley nibbling at his toes.

In a minute, darling. Aunt Natasha and I want to talk for a while.

Alessandro dashed off; Natasha watched him dart away, then answered the question.

Alessandro, Isabella. Maybe that's all you hang on to for now. The rest will begin to fade in time. Not the good stuff, just the pain. It has to. You can't wear it for a lifetime, like five years ago's dress!

Isabella laughed at the comparison. Are you suggesting I'm out of fashion?

Hardly. The two women exchanged a smile. But you know what I mean.

+ecco. But, oh, Natasha, I feel so old. And there's so much I must do. If I can even manage to do it from here. God only knows how I'll cope with Bernardo from five thousand miles and over the phone. She didn't want to explain the difficulties of their situation, but it all showed in her eyes.