Threshold (27 page)

“Stay close to the lights, okay? If you hear anything, I want you to head straight for that house there. Or if I’m not back here in ten minutes. Don’t think about it, Sadie, just do it. Tell them to call the cops.”

“I love you,” she says, but Deacon has turned away and he doesn’t seem to hear her, too busy staring up the street at the darker place where the park begins.

“Everything’s gonna be okay,” he says again, and then he’s moving away from her, his long strides carrying him quickly off into the gloom, and she’s alone with the ache in her foot and the air that smells like kudzu and her blood drying on the sidewalk.

 

Deacon Silvey never saw the park or the entrance to the water works tunnel before he met Chance Matthews. She brought him here the first time, a few weeks after they began seeing each other. Someplace different to get drunk and hang out, someplace to talk, and she showed him the old blockhouse at the entrance to the tunnel, and they shared a bottle of Jack Daniel’s, listened to Nick Cave on Chance’s boombox, while she pointed out fossils in the limestone boulders scattered near the tunnel. Hard rock the dingygray color of lead, weather-rounded clumps of ancient reefs mashed flat by unimaginable pressures and the weight of ages.

They sat together in the grass while she talked, teaching him how to tell the difference between sponges and algae, bryozoans and corals, that there was a trilobite,
Acaste birminghamensis,
named after the city, and then telling the story of the men who’d carved the hole through the mountain more than a hundred years before. This tunnel one link in a system designed to bring fresh water all the way from the Cahaba River five miles south of the city, rough shaft dug more than two thousand feet straight through the limestone and chert and iron-ore bones of the mountain, and “My grandmother did some collecting in there sometime back in the early nineties,” she said.

“So
that’s
why you’re such a big ol’ geek,” and he grinned and scratched at his chin. “It’s all your grandmomma’s fault.”

Chance smiled back at him, and “Well, can
you
think of anything else I could do with my life that could ever possibly be half this splendid, half this important? I’m learning to
read,
Deke, and not just the handful of things men have been around long enough to write down. The history of the whole damned
planet
is written in rocks, just lying there waiting for us to learn how to read the words.

“How to read
time,
” she said, and he kissed her, then, tasting the bourbon on her tongue and wishing he could share even the smallest part of her passion, loving her for that if nothing else, that she was still
alive.
That she had not lost herself, had not lost her heart or wonder, and perhaps she was strong enough that she never would.

But tonight that afternoon seems as far away and unredeemable as a time when the mountain was still silt, still mud, and living, oceanwarm waters blanketed the world, and Deacon pauses where the street dead-ends. Where the blacktop turns abruptly to well-tended park lawn and a winding trail leads between and through the trees to a picnic table near the blockhouse, and he looks back over his shoulder. He can’t see Sadie from here, just the soft glow of porch lights and all the cars lined up neatly along both sides of the narrow, sloping street.

And he’s suddenly so terribly afraid for her, this last thing keeping him together, tether for his shabby soul, and he wants to run back to Sadie and take her away from here, let Dancy fight her own demons, and he’ll forget about Chance once and for all, forget the rainy night in April when he and Chance and Elise Alden came here with a pair of bolt cutters, and that’s where all this crazy shit started, isn’t it? Everything that’s gone wrong and keeps going wronger, whatever the hell happened here that none of them ever talked about and now Elise is dead. Forget that and forget the ghosts he’s spent his whole life seeing, the horrors he left Atlanta to escape. Walk away right now, and finally he’ll just be plain old Deke; if he can’t get it from Sadie or a good bottle of whiskey then who needs it, anyway. Who needs their whole goddamn life turned into a bad episode of the
Twilight Zone,
and Deacon takes one step away from the nightshrouded park.

“Don’t you think maybe you’ve come just a little too far for that?” and the steelhard and silk and burning voice is both inside him and hiding somewhere just out of sight, somewhere on the trail leading to the tunnel, and he knows it’s his own voice just as surely as he knows that it’s Elise’s, as surely as it’s Dancy Flammarion’s. All these things at once like all the fraying lines of a wasted, coward’s life that have brought him here and won’t let him walk away, and Deacon turns to face the darkness waiting beneath the trees.

And that’s when he sees the string looped tight around the trunk of a small dogwood growing beside the trail, white twine like lost kite string leading from the street to the tree and then on to the next tree after that. Deacon reaches out and gently brushes the taut cord with the tips of his fingers, the fingers of his left hand, like he shouldn’t have known better, and all the smells of the muggy July evening are immediately swept aside by the sweetraw stench of putrefying fish and oranges. His knees suddenly gone weak as kittens and he has to hold onto the tree to keep from sinking to the ground, the pain at his temples, migraine throb between and behind his eyes, and “No,” he snarls. “Not now,” as if he has some say in the matter, as if there’s any way to intimidate or bargain with the hole tearing itself wide around him, tattered hole in time or his sanity, and Deacon can only lean against the little tree and watch.

The iridescent eyes beneath writhing, seeping trees with fat leaves as soft and white as cheese, the lupine faces roughly woven from straw and hair and feathers, and “They hold to the secret land,” Dancy says. Dancy slumped against the iron gate, the tunnel at her back, and she holds something out in front of her, something small and sharp and silver that catches the faint glint of starlight through the sick and ashen trees.

“. . . the wolf-slopes . . .”

And Deacon’s lost his hold on the tree now, the ground as insubstantial beneath his hands and knees as the sky overhead, the jealous sky clotted with angelflesh and deceit, and he claws at the dirt, anything to keep him from sliding any closer to the gaping iron-toothed mouth in the side of the mountain.

“. . . the paths where the mountain stream goes down under the darkness of the hills, the flood under the earth.”

He understands that she’s calling them down, calling them out, opens his mouth to tell her to please shut the hell up, and now he can hear the
snick snick snick
of claws and stolen teeth.

“Dancy . . .” he croaks, hoarse, pathetic whisper from his lips as dry as sand, but she hears him and looks up, like the shades creeping towards her matter less, or matter hardly at all, and her skin shimmers faintly in the night. Dark and blisterbright shimmer instead of the powdery luster of her alabaster complexion, and
She’s sunburned,
he thinks. He can’t see her eyes, but he can
feel
them, everything locked there inside her pink eyes, and in another moment, they’ll be on top of her. “You know this is already over, Deacon,” she says, sounding sad and brave and grateful in a single breath, chiding him and thanking him at the same time.

“Try to change what
hasn’t
happened yet,” and Deacon recognizes the knife in her hand, Chance’s Swiss Army knife, before he can’t see her anymore, one of the twiggy scarecrow nightmares closing the space between them.

And the earth rolls like a broken carnival ride, seasick Tilt-A-Whirl lurch and loll as the sky cracks apart and tumbles down in ebon splinters, and he opens his eyes. Opens his watering corporeal eyes, closing those other, secret eyes, those inward eyes that will take him to pieces one day, and the world falls back in place, the world and the night, and the only smells are dirt and grass. No telling how long since he touched the string wrapped around the dogwood tree.

Deacon rolls over on his back, breathless, his head like a throbbing, open wound; he blinks up at the low branches, canopy of limbs and leaves between him and infinity, but nothing strong enough to hold if he could let go and fall that one last time.

“Deacon? Fuck . . .” and then the stars are blotted out by Sadie, her thin, sweaty face hanging somewhere above his own, her cheeks flushed and sweating like she’s been running. “I heard you,” she says. “I heard you scream.”

And he can’t remember screaming, but he can remember Dancy Flammarion brandishing a pocketknife against the things that slunk out of the parkquiet night, Dancy sitting with her back against the locked and rusty gates of the water works tunnel, her skin shining like blistered pearls.

He can remember all the things she said.

“Dancy,” he whispers, and Sadie shakes her head slow, bending close now and she looks scared, looks worried.

“She’s not here, Deke.”

“No,” he says. “She
was
here.” He tries to sit and feels like he’s going to puke, the vise at his temples tightening until it’s surely only a matter of minutes, a matter of seconds, before his eyes pop out of his skull. “She was here,” he says again and lies down and shuts his eyes.

“Well, she’s not here now,” Sadie says. “There’s no one here now but us,” and that makes him want to laugh, and he thinks that maybe the trees
are
laughing, maybe the tunnel is cackling through its wrought-iron teeth, because
they
know better. Deacon opens his eyes again, eyes full of tears, and he sees that he’s only a few yards from the blockhouse.

“How did I get here, Sadie?” but she only shakes her head again and looks more concerned.

“Don’t you remember?”

“No, I don’t,” and then he sees the twine lying on the ground, and he reaches for it, never mind the hurt, the hurt will be there anyway, until it gets bored with him and goes looking for someone else to torment. “What is it, Deke?” Sadie asks, whispers, but he doesn’t answer her because he doesn’t know, doesn’t know anything more than she can see for herself. A white piece of twine, and he tugs at it and the string goes tight in his hand.

“It’s tied to the gate,” Sadie says, and she gets up, leaves him lying in the dirt and follows the line to the place where it’s knotted around one of the bars.

“She was here, Deke,” she says, and Deacon props himself up on one elbow, blinks and squints through the pain and nausea, forcing his blurry vision into focus, a sloppy surrogate for focus, until he can make out the dim form of Sadie crouched at the tunnel entrance. Sadie reaches down and picks something up, holds it out for Deacon to see. The blade of the Swiss Army knife twinkles dull and cold, hardly any light left here for steel to catch and shine back, so little light that isn’t swallowed by the hungry tunnel.

“What’s happened to her?” Sadie asks him. “Where the hell is she, Deke?” And he doesn’t answer her, because he doesn’t know, lies down and shuts his eyes, and Deacon listens to the crickets and Sadie crying while he waits for the pain to end.

 

Sometime later, an hour, two hours, and Deacon and Sadie are standing on Chance’s big front porch again. Deacon’s knocked three times already and no one’s come to the door, not a sound from inside even though Chance’s car is parked in the driveway and it seems like every light in the house is on.

Sadie’s sitting alone in the porch swing, rocking slowly back and forth, the remains of Dancy’s duffel bag draped across her lap. All they found after Deacon could walk and they followed the wandering trail of twine for three blocks, Sadie limping along as it led them from tree to telephone pole to sign post, dot to dot to dot, all the way from the tunnel to the marble steps of Ramsey High School. The duffel was lying beneath some oleander bushes near the sidewalk, two or three long slashes through the olivegreen canvas like somebody had been at it with a straight razor, and Dancy’s ragged belongings were scattered up and down Thirteenth Street. Deacon said to leave them, just leave it all, Sadie, and come on, but she gathered up what she could find, a few dirty T-shirts and a pair of dirtier underwear, some books and an old Folger’s coffee can with a plastic lid, and stuffed the things back into the bag.

Deacon knocks again, knocks harder than before, and this time he hears footsteps; “Just a minute,” Chance calls out, and a second later, “Who is it?” Her voice seems nervous and faraway, muffled, muted by the door.

“It’s me,” Deacon says, talking loud, and he puts his mouth near the wood so she can hear him on the other side. “Just me and Sadie.”

The metal-against-metal sound of locks being turned, rolling tumblers and dullsharp dead-bolt click, the hesitant rattle of a safety chain, and when Chance finally opens the door, the glare from the hallway leaves Deacon half-blind after so much night, drives two fresh and searing spikes straight through his pupils and all the way to the back of his skull. Chance doesn’t say a word, stares at him, and Deacon covers his eyes with one hand and squints back at her, strains to see through the light and the pain.

“Yeah, I know I should have called first,” he says, but then he catches the furious swirl of emotions trapped inside her green eyes, the wild and emerald storm brewing there, something he’s interrupted, and he forgets whatever he was going to say next.

“What do you
want,
Deacon?”

“Sadie’s hurt. She cut her foot,” and Chance takes an impatient breath, glances past him towards the porch swing. “And I think that Dancy might be dead,” he says.

“You don’t
know
that,” Sadie snarls. “You don’t know that at all. There wasn’t a body. There wasn’t even any blood, so don’t fucking act like you know that, Deacon.”

Chance looks back to Deacon, and there’s something else in her eyes now, something new moving through the storm behind her eyes, and “What the hell are the two of you talking about?” she asks him.