This World We Live In (The Last Survivors, Book 3) (23 page)

"You have to be careful, honey," he said. "There's garbage al around, broken glass. Hold on to me, and we'l get you outside."

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I fol owed him blindly, stumbling over the remains of Mrs. Nesbitt's house, my second home. Slowly I realized there was no house left. It had col apsed al around me, only the staircase keeping me from being crushed to death.

After we made it outside away from the rubble, I held on to Dad and let his strength pass to me. Then I hugged Matt and Syl. Nothing that had been said last night mattered. Nothing mattered anymore except that they were alive.

"Jon?" I asked. "Julie? Alex?"

Dad shook his head. "We don't know where they are," he said. "We thought Alex was with you."

"He went to warn Jon and Julie," I said. "But Mom's al right? You said she's al right."

"I'l take you to her," Syl said. "Come, Miranda, you'l see she's fine."

"Come back as soon as you can," Matt said.

"We've got to work on getting Lisa out."

"I know," Syl said. "We'l be back in a few minutes." She put her arm around my shoulders and led me toward home.

Within seconds I was standing in the sunroom, in Mom's arms. She held me so tightly I wasn't sure I could ever move away. I wasn't sure I ever wanted to. I know she was crying, but that was al right, too.

"Miranda, we need you to help clear out the rubble," Syl said. "You too, Laura. Come on."

"No," Mom said. "I'l wait for Jon here. He'l expect to find me here."

"He'l find us," Syl said. "You can't use him as an excuse, Laura. Lisa's life depends on you."

"If Mom wants to stay here, let her," I said.

"Stop protecting her, Miranda," Syl said. "Laura, you

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talk al the time about how the baby is the most important thing. Wel , prove it, and come with us."

"I don't know if I can," Mom said. "I know it's crazy, but I'm so afraid if I leave this house, everything wil col apse. I feel like I'm the only person holding things together."

"Everything has col apsed," Syl said. "You've done a sucky job holding things together, Laura." She grabbed Mom's arm and literal y pul ed her out of the sunroom. "See," she said. "The world came to an end while you've been hiding. Now move!"

I stood absolutely stil . But then Mom began running toward Mrs. Nesbitt's, toward what had been Mrs. Nesbitt's but was now nothing but a mountain of rubble. Syl and I fol owed her. I can't be sure, but I think Syl was smiling.

The debris around the cel ar door was much higher than what Dad and I had climbed over. It was tal er than we were. And it wasn't like you could take apiece from the bottom and work your way upward.

"Miranda, get the ladder from the garage," Matt said.

I ran to the garage, glad to have a job I could handle. The garage looked completely untouched, but when I walked out with the ladder, I looked at our house. There was a tree limb lying across the roof, and I could see windows had blown out and part of the roof was missing.

Even so, we were the lucky ones.

Even so, we were the lucky ones.

I walked back with the ladder. Matt placed it against the rubble mountain.

"I'l climb up," Syl said. "Miranda, are you up to it?"

I nodded. We climbed the ladder until we were on top of the heap and began throwing what we could as far away from the house as possible.

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"Shouldn't one of us go look for the others?" I asked. "What if they need us?"

"They probably do," Syl said. "But we don't know where they are, and we do know where Lisa and the baby are. We have to take care of them and hope that the others find their way back home."

I knew she was right, but I hated hearing her say it.

Being outside, surrounded by mountains of debris, made me understand for the first time how devastating this tornado had been. Mrs. Nesbitt's house had taken the brunt of it, but there was no way of knowing how things were farther downhil , closer to town. I began to shake again.

Syl grabbed my arm and squeezed it tight. "Don't think," she said. "Just work."

There was room for three, and Mom climbed up also. She didn't say anything, just worked alongside, being careful, as we al were, to toss the shingles and roofing as far as possible from where we thought the cel ar door was. The mound felt solid beneath us, which was both a relief and frightening.

We weren't about to fal through, I knew, but it was going to take a very long time to remove enough of it to make a difference.

I don't know how long we worked, throwing things down, while Matt careful y removed what he could from the outer rim of the pile. Dad worked on the side of the house, by one of the tiny cel ar windows, clearing it out, so we could talk with Lisa and get things to her until we could get her out.

The hail had stopped and the thunderstorm had moved away. We could stil see flashes of lightning in the distance, but it took several seconds before we heard the thunder. It was stil raining, though, and it was hard not to slide as we

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pushed things off. Matt kept yel ing at us to be careful, to Syl mostly because she took the greatest risks, but it didn't matter. Whatever happened happened. We had to get Lisa and the baby out of the cel ar before the cel ar roof col apsed. Which we al knew could happen at any time.

It was Syl who spotted Jon first. From her vantage point on the mound of rubble she could see the road and Jon running up it toward us.

"It's Jon!" she cried. "He's al right."

Mom climbed down the ladder so fast she almost fel into Dad's arms. None of us could stop her as she made her way through the fal en tree branches toward him.

"Do you see Alex?" I asked Syl. "Is Julie there?"

"Just Jon," Syl said.

I climbed down the ladder, but Syl stayed where she was and continued to work. Matt and Dad stopped, though, and we fol owed Mom's path. We watched as she held on to Jon the way she'd held me earlier. Her children had survived.

"Julie," Jon said. "She's hurt. Mom, she's hurt real bad."

"It's al right, son," Dad said. "Show us where she is. We'l bring her back."

"How bad?" Matt asked. "Is she bleeding?"

"I don't know," Jon said. "I don't think so. But she can't move her arms or her legs. And she said she can't feel anything."

Dad and Mom exchanged looks. Only Matt

continued to focus on Jon.

"What exactly happened?" he asked. "How was she hurt? Take a deep breath, Jon, and tel us everything you know."

"We saw a twister coming this way," Jon said.

"We tried to take cover, but there wasn't time, so we held on to a tree. I thought I had her covered, but the wind picked her up,

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and she must have landed wrong because she's lying there and she can't move. I didn't want to leave her, but I couldn't carry her up the road al by myself, and our bikes are gone." He looked around.

"Everything is gone," he said, and he began to cry.

Mom took him in her arms. "It's al right," she said.

"Your father and Matt wil get Julie. Our house is stil in one piece. We'l take care of her."

"What about Alex?" I asked Jon. "Did you see him?"

Jon shook his head. "It was just Julie and me," he said.

"Come on, son," Dad said. "Matt, go into the house and get some blankets. We'l use them as a stretcher."

Matt ran to our house, and moments later he came out with the blankets.

"Laura, you, Miranda, and Syl keep working," Dad said. "Jon, show us where Julie is. We'l be back in a few minutes."

"Be careful," Mom said.

We watched them make their way down the road.

"Mom," I said. "Should they move Julie? What if she has a spinal injury?"

"It sounds like she does," Mom said. "But there are no doctors, no hospitals anymore. Not here. Al we can do is make Julie comfortable."

"No, Mom," I said. "No."

"You have to be strong, Miranda," Mom said. "I'm going to work by the window, where your father was.

You stay on the ground. Can you do that? Can you work on the rubble down here?"

I nodded, but I could hardly hear what she was saying. Julie was badly hurt and Alex was stil missing. Charlie was in the cel ar, dead for al we knew. Lisa and Gabriel were

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trapped, and we had no equipment, nothing but our hands and our wil , to get them out.

Syl had told me not to think. I did as she'd said.

It took a few minutes before Syl spotted Jon. I stopped working and raced toward him. Dad and Matt had improvised a stretcher and were careful y carrying Julie.

I didn't dare ask, but I looked straight at Matt, who shook his head almost imperceptibly.

For a horrible instant I thought he meant Julie had died. But then I heard Dad say, "Hold on, sweetie.

We're almost there."

"Alex?" Julie asked.

I'd gotten close enough so she could see and hear me. "He's not back yet," I said. "He'l be home soon."

"I can't move," Julie said. "I tried to. I real y tried, but I can't. And I feel strange, like my body isn't attached to me anymore. I've never felt like this, not ever."

"It's okay," Dad said, bending over to stroke her forehead. "Your back is hurt, that's al . You'l be up and around in no time."

She looked so smal , so young. I kissed her on her cheek. "Alex wil be so proud of you," I said. "You're being very brave."

"He'l be mad," she said. "He gets mad at me when I do things he doesn't like."

"He loves you more than anything," I said.

"We'd better get her inside," Dad said. "Where's Laura?"

"Working by the window," I said.

"Get her and send her in," Dad said. "She can watch after Julie while the rest of us work."

I walked rapidly toward Mom, and for the first time I

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can ever remember, I cherished the sensation of movement. Hours ago I'd been trapped in the closet, and now I was outside and I could walk and run. Julie had lost that, most likely forever.

Mom seemed reluctant to go indoors. I guess after al those months, she was cherishing the sensation of sky and air and freedom. Dad took her place at the cel ar window, and he insisted Jon work by his side. Matt worked on the ground, and I went back to the top of the mound and resumed throwing things down.

It got dark eventual y, and Dad sent Jon to the house to get lanterns and flashlights. Hours later they broke through to the cel ar window. It had blown out during the storm, but it was too smal for Lisa to crawl through.

Stil , Dad was able to talk to her, and when she held Gabriel up, he could hold him. Jon was sent back to our house to get food for Lisa.

Dad returned a while later to tel us what he knew.

"Charlie was pushing against the cel ar door," he said. "Trying to open it, but of course he couldn't.

Lisa isn't sure what happened, because it was so dark, but she thinks he had a heart attack. She heard him make a funny noise, and then he fel down the cel ar stairs. She went to him, but she couldn't find a pulse. He probably died instantly."

I thought, Charlie's dead because of me. I told him to go to the cel ar. He tried to open the door to rescue me.

I knew that was crazy. If I caused Charlie's death, then I saved Lisa's and Gabriel's lives. If Charlie tried to get out for me, he was also trying for himself and for them. But I stil felt the guilt, like the tornado was somehow my fault, and Julie was hurt because of me, and Alex missing.

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"We're not tel ing Lisa about Julie or Alex," Dad said, much more softly. "I told Jon not to say anything. I told her Julie's back in the house and Alex has gone to look for help."

"How long can we keep that up, Dad?" Matt asked.

Dad grabbed him by the arm. "As long as we damn wel have to," he said. "Now get back to work."

And we did. I'd be working there stil , except Dad decided we should work in shifts, and I was sent back to the house to eat and get some rest and stay with Julie. Mom left as soon as I got here.

Julie's sleeping, but I can't. I'm too scared.

I wish more than anything that it was last night.

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Chapter 18 July 11

The rest of my life, I'm going to be living a lie, so I'm writing now to tel what real y happened.

No, even that is a lie. It isn't what real y happened.

It's what I made happen. If I don't admit that here, now, then I'l be lying to myself just as I'l be lying to everyone else every day of my life.

We spent al day working, trying to move the mountain of rubble that was blocking the cel ar door and keeping Lisa and Gabriel trapped. We can get Gabriel out through the window, but only Lisa can feed him, so there's no point. She has food and water, and Mom cut up a couple of Matt's flannel shirts, for diapers. Sometimes when he cries, we hear him, and it makes us smile, at least for a moment, at least on the inside.

We hardly talk. The only breaks we take are when we're coughing so hard we have to stop. A few sips of boiled water, and we get back to the job. It's better that we don't talk. There's nothing we could say that wouldn't make us sadder or more afraid.

Al the food Jon and Julie got is gone. Al the food at Mrs. Nesbitt's is gone. We don't know for sure, but we can't

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count on more food deliveries from town. We don't know if there is stil a town.

The electricity is out, but this time it wil never return. Wires are down and there's nobody to repair them. There are two big tree limbs on the front of our house, and part of the roof has caved in. A handful of the windows shattered as wel . It's funny.

Matt used to worry about us losing the sunroom roof, but that made it through. It's the rest of the house that's col apsing around us.

Dad had put Julie on the sunroom mattress. We took turns going in, checking up on her, making sure the fire was stil burning, and eating enough to keep ourselves going, grabbing what sleep we could by Julie's side.

We didn't talk about Julie except once. Mom said she'd taken a pin and stuck Julie's hands and feet with it. She told Julie to close her eyes and let her know when she felt something. Six times Julie hadn't felt anything. Three times she said she thought she felt the pin, but two out of those three times Mom hadn't pricked her.