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Things We Didn't Say

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Things
We Didn’t Say

KRISTINA RIGGLE

Dedication

In memory of Donna Ringstrom, my “bonus mom” and leader of my fan club (Up North division). We miss you.

Contents

Cover

Title Page

Dedication

 

Chapter 1 -
Casey

Chapter 2 -
Michael

Chapter 3 -
Casey

Chapter 4 -
Michael

Chapter 5 -
Casey

Chapter 6 -
Michael

Chapter 7 -
Casey

Chapter 8 -
Jewel

Chapter 9 -
Michael

Chapter 10 -
Casey

Chapter 11 -
Angel

Chapter 12 -
Michael

Chapter 13 -
Casey

Chapter 14 -
Michael

Chapter 15 -
Casey

Chapter 16 -
Michael

Chapter 17 -
Mallory, 1995

Chapter 18 -
Michael

Chapter 19 -
Casey

Chapter 20 -
Michael

Chapter 21 -
Dylan

Chapter 22 -
Michael

Chapter 23 -
Dylan

Chapter 24 -
Michael

Chapter 25 -
Casey

Chapter 26 -
Michael

Chapter 27 -
Casey

Chapter 28 -
Angel

Chapter 29 -
Michael

Chapter 30 -
Mallory, 2000

Chapter 31 -
Casey

Chapter 32 -
Dylan

Chapter 33 -
Michael

Chapter 34 -
Casey

Chapter 35 -
Mallory

Chapter 36 -
Michael

Chapter 37 -
Casey

Chapter 38 -
Dylan

Chapter 39 -
Michael

Chapter 40 -
Casey

Chapter 41 -
Jewel

Chapter 42 -
Casey

Chapter 43 -
Michael

Chapter 44 -
Angel

Chapter 45 -
Michael

Chapter 46 -
Casey

Chapter 47 -
Michael

Chapter 48 -
Edna Leigh Casey

 

AUTHOR INSIGHTS, EXTRAS, & MORE. . .

      Discussion Questions

      A Conversation with the Author

      About the Author

 

Acknowledgments

Also by the Author

Praise for Kristina Riggle

Credits

Copyright

About the Publisher

Chapter 1
Casey

M
y cigarette smoke twists through the predawn November air, until a gust breaks it apart. My hair whips across my face, so I turn into the wind, putting my cigarette behind my back to shelter it. The effect is like leaning off the prow of a ship.

The air is heavy with looming winter. Mornings like this, as a kid, I’d curse and groan, shivering at the bus stop in the cracking cold before the sun even came up. Now? I’d take this cold every day of the year if it always came with such exquisite quiet.

My boots crunch along the sidewalk in the gray stillness as I cast a glance back toward the drafty, narrow house where the children still sleep.

I thought one day they might be my children, or something like that. The day I first met them, Angel was doing up little Jewel’s hair in crazy ponytails with pink glitter hair spray, then they moved on to me and wound ribbons into braids all over my head. I looked like a maypole. Dylan, though, reminded me of my family’s half-wild outdoor cat, Patch. You had to earn his attention, and trying too hard was the worst thing to do. Dylan didn’t say much that first day. He started peeking at me from under his dark, floppy bangs. By the time I left, I had earned a quick half-smile granted when no one else was looking.

A square of weak yellow light flicks to life from the second story. Even from a block away I can tell it’s from Angel’s room. I’ve got time; she’ll be in the bathroom for an age, emerging in a puff of sweet-smelling bathroom steam when she imagines herself perfect.

My phone buzzes in the pocket of my parka, and I resume my daily trudge around the block, feeling my last free moments of the day burning down like my cigarette.

“Hi, Tony.”

“Hey, Edna Leigh.”

“I wish you wouldn’t call me that.”

“I’m just joshing with you.”

“I’m not in the mood.”

“Fine,
Casey
.” Though I’ve been short with him, his voice has a smile in it. I can always count on this, whatever else happens. “Does your husband get to say your real name, or do you make him use your last name, too? Shit, linebackers go by their last names.”

“If your mother had named you after a great-grandparent, you wouldn’t like it, either. How’d you like to be an Otis? Anyway, he calls me Casey, and he’s not my husband.”

“Yet?” he prompts.

“Right. Yet.”

Michael must have already left for the gym to work off his worry about his job. Every day he comes home with more news of cutbacks and layoffs and buyouts.

“When do I get to meet him?”

“Not now.”

“I’m beginning to think you’re embarrassed about me. Least if we’re going to sneak around we should screw around, too, make it fun.”

I laugh, because Tony is twice my age and then some. He’s a former neighbor but feels like my uncle, and these days is my only genuine friend. “It’s not you I’m embarrassed about.”

I step over a cracked piece of sidewalk without having to look. If they ever fix it, I’ll probably fall and break my neck.

“How great can this guy be if he expects you never to have made a mistake in your life?”

“It’s complicated.”

“Ain’t it always.”

“Whatever. What’s up with you, Tony?”

“Five hundred days sober today.”

“You get a cake for that?”

“Come to AA with me, and I’ll make you a double chocolate layer cake.”

“Congratulations, anyway.”

“C’mon, come with me. I promise to bake you a cake, or whatever you want. Name your price.”

“I can’t be bought with dessert.”

“How very high-minded.”

“I’m not going to stand there in some dreary church basement confessing to my past drunken sins, which, by the way, are two years old now. I’m doing just fine.”

My voice startles me with its volume. An early-morning dog walker passing on the other side of the street jerks his head in my direction. It’s Tom with his floppy-haired dog, Ted—named for the late senator Kennedy—and he gives me an uncertain wave.

“You sure sound fine.”

I toss my cigarette down and stamp it with my boot heel. “Did you call just to hassle me?”

“Well, not
just.
” Tony rattles off a cough and spits. “Talking to you is the highlight of my day. I wouldn’t get up this early for anyone else.”

“Then you have some sad days, my friend.”

I’m already rounding the corner back to the house. Claustrophobic city blocks are like that, and I’ve unwittingly sped up my walk. My ego wants more time alone, my id wants out of the cold. The bare November trees lean over me, and I wish I could climb one and hide in its old branches.

The house’s pitched roof and twin top-story windows create an air of surprise that I’ve returned.

“You there?” Tony asks.

“Yeah.”

“You going to make it today, kid?”

I exhale a plume of white winter breath, considering. “I think so.”

“Think?” His voice bears the strain of concern. He knows what stupidity I’ve survived. He knows about my old job, which I used to love—the only place I’ve ever excelled in spite of myself—the people I once considered friends, how I never see my family anymore because all of it comes braided together with booze.

“Okay. I will.”

“That’s my girl. Stay strong.”

It’s too corny for me, but I’m glad he says it all the same.

“Some days, I just—”

I have my hand on the rear storm door when the inside door jerks open. I yank the phone away from my head and hang up.

“Who was that?” asks Michael, rubbing his eyes, then his bare arms. He’s still wearing what he wore to bed.

“My mother.” I step into the kitchen’s harsh yellow light and shrug out of my parka.

“She called early. And you hung up on her?”

The phone is buzzing in my hand with Tony’s number showing on the display. I turn my phone over, his number toward my palm. I nod.

“You’ll hear about that later.”

“I expect I will. I thought you were at the gym.”

“Headache.”

“I’m sorry.”

My phone chimes again, one brief tone, and I stuff it in my pocket. “Angel is up, I noticed. You talk to her yet?”

“Before her ladyship has come down the stairs? Heaven forbid.”

I don’t rise to this. I once joined in with his half-larky, half-serious use of this title for Angel, and the conversation fell to silence like a rock off a cliff.

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