The World of Null-A (27 page)

His head drooped, his eyes closed, and Gosseyn thought he had lapsed into a coma. He felt despair, for there was nothing he could do here. The player was dying, and still Gilbert Gosseyn knew nothing about himself. He thought in anguish, “I’ve got to force information out of him.” He bent down and shook the man.

“Wake up!” he shouted.

The body stirred. The tired eyes opened, and looked at him thoughtfully. “I was trying,” said the bass voice, “to operate an energy cup to kill this body. Couldn’t do it… . You understand, it was always my intention to die the moment Thorson was dead… . Expected to be killed instantly when I opened my defenses… . Soldiers did a poor job.” He shook his head. “Logical, of course. The body’s the first thing that weakens, next the cortex, and then-” His eyes brightened. “Will you bring me a weapon from one of those soldiers? I’m finding it hard to fight off the pain.”

Gosseyn secured a blaster, but his brain was working furiously. “Am I going to force a desperately wounded man to stay alive and suffer while I ask questions?” The conflict upset him physically, but in the end, grimly, he knew that he was. He shook his head when Lavoisseur held out his hand. The old man looked at him sharply.

“Want information, eh?” he mumbled. He laughed, a curious, amused laugh. “All right, what do you want?”

“My bodies. How-“

He was cut off. “The secret of immortality,” said the old man, “involves the isolation in an individual of the duplicate potentials he inherited from his parents. Like twins, or brothers who look alike. Theoretically, similarity could be achieved in a normal birth. But actually, only under laboratory conditions, with the bodies kept unconscious by automatic hypno drugs in an electronic incubator, can a proper environment be maintained. There, without any thoughts of their own, massaged by machines, fed a liquid diet, their bodies change slightly from the original, but their minds change only according to the thoughts they receive from their alter ego, who is out in the world. In practice, a Distorter is necessary to the process, and a lie-detector type of instrument is set to cut off certain unnecessary thoughts-in your case nearly all thoughts were blotted out, so- that you wouldn’t know too much. But because of this thought similarity, while death actually strikes body after body, the same personality goes on.”

The leonine head sagged. “That’s it. That’s practically all. Crang has given you most of the reasons, directly or indirectly. We had to divert that attack.”

Gosseyn said, “The extra brain?”

The old man sighed but did not lift his head. “It exists in embryo in every normal human brain. But it can’t develop under the tensions of conscious life. Just as the cortex of George the animal boy wouldn’t develop under the abnormal conditions of living with a dog, so the mere strain of active existence is too much for the extra brain in the early stages… .It becomes very strong, of course… .”

He was silent, and Gosseyn gave him a moment of rest while his mind flashed over what he had been told. Duplicate potentials. It would have to be a culture of such male spermatozoa; the science involved was hundreds of years old. The development of life in incubators was even older. The rest was detail. The important thing was to find out where the bodies were kept.

He asked the question in a tensed tone, and when there was no answer, caught the old man’s shoulder. At his touch the body fell limply forward. Startled, he lowered it gently to the floor. With a jerky movement, Gosseyn knelt and listened over the still heart. Slowly he climbed to his feet. And he was thinking, and his lips were forming the unspoken words: “But you didn’t tell me enough. I’m in the dark about all the main points.”

The thought quieted reluctantly. He realized that this was life itself he was experiencing. Life in which nothing was ever finally explained. He was free, and this was victory.

He knelt down and began to search the old man’s pockets. They were empty. He was about to stand up again when:

“My God, man, give me that gun!”

Gosseyn froze, and then with a gasp realized that he had heard no sound and that he had received the thought of a dead man. Indecisively at first, then with greater determination, he began to shake the body gently. The cells of the human brain were extremely mortal, but they didn’t die immediately after the heart stopped beating. If one thought had come, then others should be available. The minutes fled. It was the intricate process of dying, Gosseyn thought, that was causing the delay. It had already partially destroyed some of the similarity that Lavoisseur had established between them.

“Might as well stay alive for a while, Gosseyn. The next group of bodies are around eighteen years old. Wait till they’re thirty-that’s it, thirty….”

That was all, but Gosseyn thrilled with excitement. He must have stimulated a tiny mass of cells. Once again, the minutes flowed by, and then:

“-Memory certainly turned out to be a remarkable… But between your group and mine, the continuity was broken. My accident was too much for the process. Too bad-but, still, you’ve already had the experience of apparently surviving as an individual, so you know how complete-“

This time, there was only the tiniest pause, then the next thought followed:

“… I used to wonder if there wasn’t someone else. I thought of myself as a queen in the game-in such a setup you would be a pawn on the seventh row, just about ready to queen. But then I’d come to a blank, for a queen no matter how powerful is only a piece. Who, then, is the player? Where did all this start? … Once more … (incoherently) … the circle is completing, and we are no further ahead-“

Frantically, Gosseyn fought to hold the connection, but there was a blur, and then nothing. As he strained for more thoughts, he grew conscious of the fantastic thing he was doing. He pictured himself in this shattered, bejeweled building trying to read the mind of a dead man. Surely, in all the universe, this was unique. The personal thought faded, because, once more-contact.

“… Gosseyn, more than five hundred years ago … I nourished Null-A, which someone else started. I was looking for a place to settle, and for something to be that was more than mere continuity; and it seemed to me that the Non-Aristotelian Man was it … Our secret of immortality could not, of course, be given to the unintegrated, who would, like Thorson, think of it as a means to supreme power-“

The blur came back, and during the minutes that followed it was evident the cells were losing their unity of personality. Wild cells remained, bewildered groups, masses of neurons, holding their separate pictures unsteadily against the encroaching death. Finally, he caught another coherent thought:

“… I discovered the galactic base, and visited the universe … I came back and superintended the construction of the Games Machine-only a computer could in the beginning control the undisciplined hordes that lived on earth. And it was I who chose Venus as the planet where men of null-A could be free. And then, despite my loss of memory-my injury-I was able to start growing bodies again other than those of my own genera-genera-“

That was all he got. Minutes and minutes passed, and there was only an occasional blur. Gosseyn climbed at last to his feet. He felt the glowing excitement of a man who had triumphed over death itself. But it was too bad that the vital information of body duplication had not surfaced. Except for that and one other thing, he was satisfied. The other thing: He had, he realized, allowed one meaning to slide by him. But, now, it came to the fore, with its implications: “…
Between your group and mine the continuity was broken!”

Odd, how all these minutes, that had not really penetrated. The idea of a connection was so remote in his mind; his earlier rejection of “X” so complete. And yet-the continuity could only be, could only refer to … memory. Besides, who else could he be?

Feverishly, he went in search of shave salve. He found a jar in a washroom down the hall. With trembling fingers, he rubbed it over the beard of the still, dead face.

The beard came off easily into a towel. Gosseyn knelt there looking down at a face that was older than he had thought, seventy-five, possibly eighty years old. It was an unmistakable face, and of itself answered many questions. Here beyond all argument was the visible end-reality of his search.

The face was his own.