The Weight of Souls (9 page)

“Yes, but I want you to touch
this
seat.”

“Why?” His eyes narrowed. “What’ve you done to it?”

“Nothing. All you have to do is knock on the back of my seat with your fist. What’s wrong, scared you can’t?” I tilted my head in a mocking challenge.

He exhaled. Then all of a sudden he leaned forward and knocked on the back of my seat. At least, he tried to.

As his hand went through the cushion he lost his balance and fell forward. His forearm appeared above my lap and I caught his clenched fist in mine.

Justin yelped and tried to pull away but I kept hold of him, forcing him to look at his arm as it vanished through the chair-back.

“I-it’s a trick of some sort. The seat isn’t there, it’s a… a projection.”

Wordlessly I knocked on the metal rim.

“It’s a
trick
.” He yanked and I had to let him go. The whites were showing in his eyes and he scooted back against the window. He cradled his hand as if I’d burned it and he was shaking. I was getting through.

“Justin, you’re a ghost.”

He licked his lips. “You touched me, you held my fist.”

“I’m the only one who can touch you. For the same reason I’m the only one who can see you.”

“I’m ending this.” Justin leaped to his feet and addressed the air. “This isn’t funny any more.” He strode down the juddering bus until he reached an art student who was sitting near the sliding doors.

“Hey, pal.” He waved his hand in front of the guy’s face. “I don't know who you are, but the joke’s over.”

The student rubbed his cheek and settled lower in the seat.

“Idiot.” Justin kicked out viciously and his foot connected with the art case that stuck out from the seat opposite. It rocked and fell to the floor with a thud.

Justin stared at his foot and the student swore and reached for his case. His arm went right through Justin’s leg.

Justin yelled and jerked back as the student checked his artwork with a relieved sigh.

I watched Justin desperately patting his leg. It looked like he was on fire. Finally he ran back to me. “Did you see that?”

“You’re a
ghost
. I’ve seen it before.”

He stared at his legs then slumped into the seat next to me. “It doesn’t make sense,” he whispered.

“You’re dead,” I growled without looking at him.

“Not that. How did that guy’s arm go through my leg after I was able to kick his case? How come I can sit on the bus?”

Surprise pulled my eyebrows upwards; I hadn’t expected him to be able to think clearly about his situation. “I’m not sure how it works exactly. I know you can’t touch anything living, attached to a living thing, or that a living thing is touching directly. The art case was on another seat, that guy wasn’t touching it.” I gestured towards the student, who’d gone back into stasis. “You can sit on your seat, but you can’t touch mine while I’m sitting here. You can’t affect the living in any way. Mum thought it was something to do with resonances. I don’t know.”

“So I could pick up a knife, but not stab someone with it.”

“You don’t have any substance, Hargreaves. You can feel yourself touch things, even knock things over. But you can’t pick anything up; people would notice stuff floating around.”

He frowned. “OK. You’re touching this bus. Shouldn’t I fall through the floor?”

“Everyone on the bus is wearing shoes, Hargreaves. No one is touching the floor directly. You won’t fall through it.”

Tentatively he reached for the back of my seat again. His hand continued through wood and plastic until he groped my shoulder.

“Get off,” I hissed and shrugged him away.

Justin stared at his hands. “You’re the only one I can touch. Ever?”

“Sorry.” I loaded my voice with sarcasm. “Look, once I’ve found your killer and transferred this Mark you left on my hand, you can move on and we’ll never have to see each other again.”

“But…” Justin looked up and his eyes swam with tears. “But I never…” his voice trailed off. His hands dropped to his lap. “I’m going travelling after A-levels. I thought I’d go back to Dubai for a bit. I’m applying to do engineering at Cambridge next year.” His voice broke. “Tammy and I…”

I saw his throat move like he was trying to swallow a huge lump. “I never did anything.”

I bit my lip. “I’m sorry,” I said and I actually was. “If you can tell me how it happened, we can… OK, we can’t make it right but I can avenge you. It’s what I do.”

Justin looked up with red-rimmed eyes. “This is bull.” He hurled himself from his seat and lunged for the back of the bus.

“Come back.” I grabbed for his jacket, but missed.

Ignoring me, he leaped off the bus and onto the Hammersmith overpass, dodged through the traffic and disappeared from view.

Stunned, I stood and wobbled with the movement of the vehicle. “Dammit.” I examined my hands, one clean, the other stained with a blemish that screamed murder. The Darkness was coming. And without Justin, I had no way of getting rid of the Mark before it came for the one carrying it.

 

10

 

I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN YOU AWAY

 

Dad holds my hand as I squirm. His new wheelchair digs into my side, but he doesn’t loosen his grip. I’m supposed to be looking at the coffin, or maybe the priest, but there’s a man striding towards us across the graveyard.

He’s wearing a white coat: a doctor’s uniform. A stethoscope bangs against his chest as he nears. Why would a doctor be coming to the funeral? Even if I recognised him, or if he was one of Dad’s new friends, wouldn’t he have dressed in black like everyone else? The signs are there: he’s a ghost.

I try to pull free of Dad’s fingers and he leans across to put his mouth to my ear. “Stop it,” he hisses. His anger heats my face.

“But–”

“This is your mother’s funeral, have the grace to stand still.”

“There’s a g–”

He shakes my arm. “Your Mum’s being buried, Taylor. Stand still.”

Frozen by Dad’s anger I watch him approach. Tears blind me and when I can refocus his face looms above mine. I can’t stop myself flinching when he grabs my hand. Ice spikes into my arm and I jerk.

He shows teeth like tombstones. “That was easy.”

I stare at my hand where a black stain has splashed me to the wrist. Dad gives me another shake and wordlessly I raise my arm to show him the Mark.

His shoulders shudder then he fixes his gaze back on Mum’s grave.

 

“Mum says the Darkness will come for me.”

“Your Mum isn’t here, I am and I’m not having my daughter going out and approaching strange people.”

“But what if the Darkness comes?”

“It won’t.”

“Look at my hand.” Over the last couple of days the Mark has darkened. Now it looks like a hole through my palm.

“It’s just a skin condition.” Dad won’t meet my eyes. “You’ll be fine. If I have to lock you in your room I will.”

“You have to let me out. It’s school tomorrow.”

“We’ll see.” Dad rolls awkwardly in his chair towards the living room.

 

I lie in bed and stare at my hand. I can’t take my eyes off it. The Mark seems to grow every time I look away.

I know the ghost is waiting outside. I’ve seen him. At least when Dad lets me out he’ll be right there. But I’m afraid it might be too late by then.

A compilation CD is playing on a loop. My ears are tuned into the sound rather than the song. I’m terrified that the noise will suddenly cut out. I know that means the Darkness is coming.

I hear the mechanical rumble of Dad’s stair lift. Then it falls silent. My heart stops.

It’s here!

No, my music is still thumping loud as ever.

My heart stutters back to life and I clutch my chest as the stair lift coughs and continues to climb.

Finally Dad rolls into my room. I lie with my back to him and refuse to turn.

“Taylor, it’s time to get up.”

“A-are you going to let me out?” Hope trembles in my voice.

“No.” The carpet shushes as Dad comes nearer. His hand falls on my back. “This is for your own good, when you see there’s no Darkness coming, you’ll be able to get better.” In the periphery of my vision I see him pick up
The Tale of Oh-Fa
and remove it from my bedside.

Still I cradle my fist under my chin and refuse to speak. My skin is numb where the Mark stains it. When the Darkness comes will my whole body feel the same way?

“Taylor, come to the kitchen. You have to eat something.”

I shake my head.

“I’m angry with your mum, you know.” His voice is low and I almost look at him.

“Why?” My eyes fall on a shadow on the wall and I jerk. Is it moving?

“She’s done this to you with her horror stories. I should have been stronger that day, when it all started for you. I should have taken you away.”

 

Staring through the dawn-brushed window I realised I was looking at the spot the ghost had occupied for those three weeks after Mum’s funeral. During the final week I didn’t eat or sleep. Dad considered hospitalising me, I know he did. But finally he relented and let me out. Luckily the killer had been easy to find and Mark, even for a young teenager, so the Darkness hadn’t taken me. It had been close though. Everywhere I looked the shadows had been trembling.

So I had around three weeks to find Justin and get him to take me to his killer.

 

The school corridors were quiet once more. Hush reigned where usually there would have been pre-class chaos. One of the boys from the lower school jostled me as he ran through the common room. I caught him with a frown, but he had already stopped dead with one foot raised in ridiculous apprehension. He licked his lips as he slowly put down his foot and edged between the static groups. I watched him break into a self-conscious jog as soon as the double doors closed on his back, then turned as Hannah closed her hand around my elbow.

“You’re here early.” She dragged me towards an unoccupied table. “You missed the police yesterday. They talked to us in assembly, then Tamsin went home.” She lowered her voice. “Justin's missing. Isn't it awful?”

I nodded as we skirted the news-thrilled whisperers. Then I stopped, pulling Hannah short.

Tamsin had leaped to her feet and now stood over her hags. Her blonde hair was in its usual perfect waves, but her make-up was just that little bit off, giving her face the expression of a plastic doll left too long by a roaring fire. The reddening of her cheeks added to the effect of heat-blast Barbie.

“What would you know about it?”

She slammed her hand down on the table, making books jump. Her girlfriends avoided her eye and one in particular leaned from her wrath, so unbalanced it looked like she’d fall off her chair any second.

Tamsin spun to face the rest of us. “You’re all thinking it, aren’t you? That he’s run away and it’s my fault because he was my boyfriend. Well, you’re wrong.” She tottered away from the table, fists clenched. “Anyone else want to say it? Come on.” Her eyes narrowed as she zeroed in on Hannah and me: somehow the only others standing in her eyeline. “How about you, Oh?” She angled towards me, propelled by fury. Her face thrust against mine, her hot breath slightly sour. This close I could see how the whites of her eyes had become yellowed and bloodshot. They were eyes I’d seen in the mirror often enough. She had been crying. A lot.

“You want to say something?”

For once I stepped back, my instinct to provoke dead in my throat. Tamsin placed both hands flat on my chest and tensed to shove. I raised my hands and Hannah spoke over my shoulder.

“We don’t think it’s your fault, Tamsin.” Her soft voice soothed. “No one does. They’re just trying to make sense of what’s happened.”

“You’d have been the first to say it if it was someone else,” I snapped. So maybe the bitch was still kicking in there. Behind me Hannah groaned.

Tamsin snarled and raised a hand. I knew the slap was going to land and had barely a second to brace myself for head-spinning contact. But it never came. I blinked to see Pete standing with one hand around Tamsin’s wrist.

“Get off me.” Tamsin wheeled on him. “I’m going to kill her.”

Pete tilted his head meaningfully. Behind him James stood with his arms folded, Harley at his side.

“This isn’t the time.” James’ eyes raked me from head to foot and I shuddered, feeling as if I needed a shower. “Pull it together, Tamsin.”

Slowly she nodded and Pete released her. She stepped into James’ orbit. “You’ll get yours.” Her lips twitched and James curled a big hand around her shoulder, holding her still.

“Mr Barnes wants to talk to us.” He spoke to Tamsin, but remained looking at me. “Let’s go.”

The whole common room watched as the four headed towards Mr Barnes’ office. Breathless silence persisted for a moment, only the rustling of paper and nervous clearing of throats filled the air. Then heads closed together and the gossip started up more persistent than before. Where was Justin Hargreaves? Why would he have run away? Had something sinister happened?

Only I knew that he wouldn’t be coming back. And I very much needed to speak to the dead bastard.

 

“Your eczema’s bad again.” Hannah poked at my glove. “Is that why you ditched school yesterday?” Her tone held a gentle accusation.

“I’m sorry, Han. It came on really fast.”

“It always does.” She rubbed her fingers through her dandelion hair. “I just wish you’d let me know. I looked for you all morning. After that assembly, I was worried.”

“I didn't realise.” I shouldered my bag. “I really am sorry.”

“You could have answered your phone, or replied to my texts. I couldn’t even concentrate on
Supernatural
I was so worried.”

I nodded, thinking of my phone turned to silent in my pocket the whole time I was breaking into the mariticide's house. It was late when I'd picked up Hannah's worried messages, too late to get back to her. “I can't say it won't happen again, but I'll try harder.” My heart played a panicked staccato; Hannah couldn't be mad at me.