The Weavers of Saramyr (39 page)

As she spoke, Asara found herself breathless with wonder. Each word seemed to increase the sensation of incredulity. The witchstones were the
source
of the blight? The Weavers were responsible for the very Aberrants they murdered? For the first time in longer than she cared to remember, she felt she was on the cusp of something truly worthwhile. All she had been working for these last years, with the Red Order and the Libera Dramach, in her time as Kaiku’s handmaiden… all of it flexed into focus at this moment, and she felt the pounding of blood through her body and was
alive
.

‘Do you know what you have discovered?’ Asara managed. ‘Do you know what you have
found}’
She grabbed Kaiku’s arm. ‘Are you sure? Are you sure it was no delirium you saw, but your father’s memories?’

‘As sure as I can be,’ Kaiku said wearily. ‘But Father’s notes burned with the house, and if there were any left in his apartment in Axekami, I doubt there is any trace now.’

‘But this could topple the Weavers!’ Asara enthused. ‘If the nobles knew, if we could
prove
it… the rage at being deceived would be… spirits, even if we
cannot
, we can plant the seed, help them ask the right questions! Why has nobody thought of it before?’

‘They have,’ Kaiku said. ‘But most scholars are patronised by a noble, who in turn has a Weaver. They usually met with accidents before they could get far into their research, I imagine. My father was independent, and he kept his research secret, and even then he was discovered.’

Asara was barely listening. ‘How did you get away, Kaiku? From the monastery?’

Kaiku shrugged minutely. ‘It was easy.’

She told the rest of her story then. When she had woken from the faint induced by stress and hunger, she had forced herself to her feet and attempted to find her way back to the more central areas of the monastery, where food would be. Whether the Mask was helping her or not she could not divine, but she found a kitchen not long after, populated by short, scurrying servants whom she had not encountered until now. They were almost dwarfish in stature, wiry and swarthy, and their bunched-up faces revealed nothing about their thoughts, if indeed they thought at all. They seemed a simple, servile breed.

By pointing to a bone plate and to the stove, Kaiku procured herself a meal of root vegetables, a curious kind of rice-potato hybrid, and chunks of dark red meat swimming in an oily sauce. She retreated to solitude to eat, tipping her Mask up and spooning the food beneath, afraid in case anyone should see her face. It was surprisingly delicious, but the relief of putting food in her belly again made it seem all the more wonderful. She returned for more and the servants filled her plate unquestioningly. From then on, Kaiku navigated by that kitchen, using it as her base point so she always knew where to return to after she had done wandering.

It took her several tries to find her way out of the monastery, by which time she had become confident enough that her disguise would not be seen through. The Weavers kept themselves to themselves, and they were an eccentric breed. She came across some of them squatting in corners, rocking themselves gently and muttering gibberish; others sprang shrieking out of hiding at her and then fled. Most just passed her by. She soon realised that a Weaver who did

not speak was a minor oddity among the insanity of the monastery, and she took comfort in that.

She had not known what plan she had in mind for when she found her way to the open air once again. Perhaps she had thought to walk back into the wilderness and trust to Shintu’s luck to get her through. But Shintu smiled on her in other ways.

When she did emerge into the harsh, snow-crisp light, there was some kind of activity going on in the tiny settlement that clung to the mountainside opposite the monastery. She crossed the bridge that spanned the chasm and investigated. Several dozen of the dwarfish servants were hauling sacks and boxes down the immense stone stairway that led to the foot of the mountain. She watched them for a while before guessing what they were about. They were loading up carts! Suddenly excited, she made her way past them and began her descent of the stairway. It was no short trip, but she had a sense that if she missed this opportunity she may never get another.

At the bottom, she saw her efforts had not been in vain. Three large carts with great wheels wrapped in chains sat there, and manxfhwa were being tethered to them. Several Weavers were bustling around. A moment’s consideration led her to discard the idea of hiding in the carts, so she did the only thing she could think to do. The driver’s bench was wide enough for three, and there only appeared to be one driver for each cart. She clambered on to one of the carts and waited.

It seemed like hours before the servants had finished loading, during which time Kaiku sat still, praying that nobody would question her. She was trusting to the shield of the Weaver’s insanity to let her get away with this; she had seen many far more random acts in the short time she had spent wandering the monastery. After a time, one of the dwarf servants clambered into the seat next to her. He looked at her incuriously for a moment, and then snapped the reins, and the manxthwa hauled away. Kaiku let out a breath; the Weavers were staying behind.

It took them several days by cart-trails to get back to Chaim. The servants spoke between themselves in an incomprehensible dialect, but never to Kaiku. They did not remark on how she always took her food away to eat, or how she disappeared to make toilet. At some point, they passed through the Weave-sewn barrier that surrounded the monastery again, but the servants seemed unaf-

fected by its disorientating effects and drove right through. Kaiku was exposed to the momentary surge of bliss that accompanied that golden world of waving threads, and then it was snatched from her again with enough force to make her heart ache afresh. She settled into quiet misery, and endured. Over the entire length of the journey, she did not speak a word, and when they arrived at Chaim she could have wept with relief at the sight of the grim, squalid little town.

‘When we reached here,’ she concluded. ‘I found a place to hide and changed back into my clothes. The Mask and robes are in my pack.’ She motioned with her head towards the bulging bag in the corner of the room. ‘I hoped you would have waited for me. One of you, at least.’

Asara let the unspoken question about Tane go unanswered, and that was all the answer Kaiku needed. She did not ask again.

‘Kaiku, what you have done… it is a wondrous thing,’ she said, as some sort of consolation.

‘Wondrous?’ Kaiku queried, and her eyes fell to her blanketed knees. ‘No. I am condemned over again. Don’t you see? I swore to the Emperor of the gods to avenge my father’s death. The Weavers are responsible for that. Not just one, acting alone.
All
of them. How can I… how can one person face the Weavers? How can I destroy creatures that can kill with a thought, that can read a person’s mind? My task is impossible, but my oath still stands.’

‘Then you should come back to the mainland with me. To the Red Order. You have done enough here, Kaiku… more than enough. One person cannot destroy the Weavers; but you have done more with your strength of heart than dozens who have gone before you. And you have allies.’

Kaiku nodded, though there was no conviction in her. ‘You are right. I promised Cailin I would be back. There is nothing more to be done here. We will leave tomorrow.’

Night fell, the cold, bleak night of the mountains. They ate again, then slipped into their nightclothes and into the bed with a practised rapidity. The thought of leaving this place was on both of their minds, but there was still that question lingering unsaid, and so it was no surprise to Asara when Kaiku began to weep softly. She did not need to ask what it was that troubled her; she knew well enough.

‘He is gone,’ she whispered, and there was a shift of blankets as she moved closer and buried her head in Asara’s shoulder.

Asara made a noise of confirmation. ‘I told him. About you, about me. It was right that he should know.’

‘Father, Mother, Grandmother Chomi, Machim… even Mis-hani. And now Tane,’ Kaiku whispered. ‘They all leave me, one way or another. How much more of this am I to endure, Asara?’

‘Everyone you become close to will leave you, Kaiku,’ Asara said softly, feeling an uncomfortable welling of emotion herself, ‘until you accept what you are. Would you rather Tane left us now… or when he saw your eyes after a burning? He has many contradictions he needs to resolve, Kaiku. Do not lose heart. He may find you again.’

The words gave new strength to Kaiku’s tears. ‘Do you think he will?’

‘Maybe,’ Asara said, her breath stirring Kaiku’s fine hair as her lips lay close. ‘Maybe not. He was learning, and accepting. Perhaps there was more to him than I guessed.’ She placed a hand on Kaiku’s head, stroking it gently. ‘You are not alone. But you must choose to be Aberrant, Kaiku. Stop thinking of yourself as one of
them. They
hate you now.
They
are like Mishani: even the most trusted will turn their back on you. You have nobody but your own kind. For now at least, you have me.’

Kaiku drew away from Asara’s shoulder, and wiped her eyes with the back of her wrist. She could sense Asara’s gaze in the darkness, through she could see only the faintest glitter of light from her unnatural, night-seeing eyes.

No
, she caught herself.
Not unnatural. Beautiful. She need never fear the darkness, as I must
.

‘You are beyond them,’ Asara said quietly. ‘Forget the restrictions, all the rules you have learned. They do not apply to you; use them only when necessary to disguise yourself among them. Why should you submit to what you have been taught, when your teachers would have you executed if they could? Listen no longer. Disobey. Fight back.’

‘Fight back,’ Kaiku breathed, her fingertips touching Asara’s cheek. She was overwhelmed, her heart seeming to swell to bursting at Asara’s words, and she tasted a cocktail of fear and terror and excitement and freedom such as she had never known before. There was moment in which something seemed to shift between them, when the sharing of their body heat became suddenly magnetic, a moment in which all things seemed possible and thus

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became so. And in that moment, Kaiku put her lips to Asara’s, who was already meeting her halfway, caught in the same tide.

They melted into one, soft skin pressing together. Their lips were dry from the wind, but they moistened swiftly in the fervour, tongues touching and sliding as they tasted each other. Kaiku’s hand slid along the curve of Asara’s waist and the swell of her hip, feeling the taut muscle beneath. Asara gripped the back of her neck, rolling her weight so that Kaiku was underneath her, the sound of her breath quickening in the darkness. She sat astride Kaiku’s hips, and Kaiku felt Asara’s hot palms on her face, running down across her shoulders, over the swell of her breasts and the apex of her nipples, across her fiat stomach.

Asara’s breathing was rapid now, almost panting; Kaiku experienced a moment of doubt, that something was wrong, that she had become too excited too quickly.

‘You shouldn’t…’ Asara sighed. ‘Don’t make me…’

But Kaiku, swept up in the rush, ignored her. She raised herself up to kneel on the bed and brought her lips to Asara’s again, kissing her hard, all warmth and sensation and darkness. Asara’s hair fell across Kaiku’s uptilted face; she was straddling Kaiku’s knees now, and she pulled herself closer, their bellies and breasts pressed together with only the twin layers of silken nightrobes separating skin from skin. Kaiku’s nails raked down her back, as if they could slice through the barrier to what was beneath.

‘You don’t… you don’t know what you do…’ Asara murmured in protest, but Kaiku had slid one strap from her shoulder, pulling it down to her elbow, and her mouth had found Asara’s nipple and was sucking it gently. She shuddered in involuntary pleasure, sweeping her hair back from her face, her hips rocking against Kaiku, her breath shallow gasps.

She seized Kaiku then, roughly, and pushed her down to the bed. Her fingers gripped clawlike on either side of the younger woman’s skull, and she brought her lips to Kaiku’s with a predatory lunge that she had practised a thousand times before. Something inside her was warning her to stop, to stop, but her hunger and desire had been maddened by Kaiku’s passion, and the voice was weak and unheeded. Suddenly, she desperately wanted what was inside Kaiku, wanted to take back the life
she
had given, to suck out the part of herself that had gone into Kaiku when she stole the handmaiden Karia’s breath and blew it into her dead mistress’s

lungs. A piece of Asara had gone with that breath, a sliver of her life had lodged in Kaiku’s heart, and Asara knew in a flash that that was the true reason why she had returned to Kaiku after Kaiku had almost killed her in the Forest of Yuna.

Kaiku sensed something in Asara’s urgency, but in her heat she did not know whether it was passion or anger or something altogether different, and her senses were too overloaded to rely on. Asara kissed her hard, harder, and Kaiku felt a pain inside her, as if some organ in her breast were about to rip free, her heart about to tear from its aortal mooring. Asara sucked, powerless to stop herself, wanting only to sate herself in the most complete way she knew how.

The door to the room burst inwards.

Asara tore herself away, and Kaiku flung herself across to the other side of the bed, gasping like one who had been an inch from drowning. Her body had sensed the proximity of death although her mind had not, and she felt the terror and panic crash in on her even as Mamak and three other heavyset men rushed into the room, wielding picks and shovels. They stopped at the sight that met them: the two women, one with her nightrobe hanging from her shoulder and her right breast exposed, breathing hard and caught in surprise. A leer began to spread across Mamak’s face, and then Kaiku screamed, and he exploded.