The Temple of Gold (5 page)

But make no mistake, we were the head, the two of us, walking side by side. And behind us came “Buttons” Dooley, a very nice kid and so called because one day he came to school unbuttoned in exactly the wrong place, which was pretty funny at the time. And Johnny Hunkley, the strongest boy in school but such a slob that nobody cared. Plus nine or ten others. We did the things gangs usually do, such as switching street signs or scaring Miss Blaul, the old virgin librarian, by hooting outside her window at night. And other juvenile activities which I am not particularly proud of but which did nobody any lasting harm that I can see.

So eighth grade went by, as did the summer following, and when it was almost gone, Zock took to acting funny for a while, and I didn’t see him much. I went swimming with the gang, horsing around, the bunch of us just killing time until the shift into high.

Then one evening, right after supper, I was sitting on the front porch reading a magazine when Zock sauntered over. “Have we met?” I asked him as he came. “Your face certainly looks familiar, because nobody could forget a face like that. Do you have a name? What do people call you?” And I chattered on and on. He didn’t answer, but just sat down in a rocker and began going back and forth, back and forth. “Cat got your tongue?” I asked, using one of his mother’s favorite expressions.

He looked at me. “Want to read a poem?” When I said sure, he handed me a sheet of paper. “Let me know what you think,” he said. “Come right over when you’re done.” Then he ran off.

I opened the paper. It read:

So seize the moment

While there is a moment yet to seize.

Take it now.

Else faceless Time

Creep in on little cat’s feet

To take it.

While I love you; while my love falls

Like love shaken from a petal.

Take me now.

I must have read that poem over about twenty times right then, I thought it was so beautiful. I studied every word until I knew what the whole thing meant. After which I tore over to his house. He was sitting in his room.

“Well?” he said.

“What the hell is it?” I asked, very serious.

“It’s supposed to be a poem.”

“I know that. But what’s it mean? Exactly.”

“Whatever you want it to mean. That’s the wonderful thing about poetry.”

“Who do you want to take you, Zock? Who are you in love with?”

“Jesus,” he said. “I’m not in love. It’s a poem.”

“And what about those cat’s feet?”

“I stole that,” he admitted.

“What for?”

“It’s legal. In poetry it’s legal. Everybody does it.”

“And what about this ‘love falling like love’ part? Is that what you meant? Shouldn’t it be love falling like water? Or dew. How about dew?”

“It’s an image,” Zock yelled and I saw I’d gone too far, so I stopped. But it was too late. He snatched the paper out of my hand, ripping it. “Goddam you,” he shouted. “Goddam you to hell!” And then he swung on me, something he hadn’t done since that very first day.

I ducked easy enough and dove at him, pinning his arm behind him, yelling right back. “I-loved-that-poem! I-was-only-kidding. I-loved-it. I-think-it’s-beautiful. Honest-but-I-think-it’s-the-prettiest-goddam-poem-I-ever-read. Now-will-you-stop?” He was swearing at me but my voice was louder so that he had to listen. And he knew I meant it. Every word.

“You do?” he said. “You really do?”

I nodded, letting him go.

“Euripides,” he said. “You are the smartest guy and the best critic in the whole world.”

“Naturally,” I said. “But let’s cut out this fol-de-rol and go do something useful. Let’s so scare Miss Blaul.”

Now I’m not the smartest guy or the best critic in the whole world, and I’m the first to admit it. But just the same, Zock showed me every poem he ever wrote after that. They got better all the time, except I still liked that first one best, with love dropping like love. I know they got better because when Zock was sixteen, he won a national poetry contest and by the time he was seventeen, he’d had several poems published. He would have been a fine poet, maybe even a great one, if only I’d given him the chance.

High school was a disappointment at first, as it wasn’t much different from grammar school which I had eight years of, nine counting kindergarten. We stayed within our own gang, not meeting many new people. We did the same thing as before, but now nobody cared. The work wasn’t any more interesting, only harder, and although I stunk at algebra, Zock pushed me through.

So by the time spring came around, there wasn’t much to show. Then, on the night of the third of April, something happened and I’m not sure yet for better or worse. But I date my high school career, such as it was, from that night, for to all intents and purposes, it began then.

Spring vacation it was, with me living at Zock’s house since my parents were up East someplace where my father had been invited to give a couple lectures dealing with Symbolism in Euripides which, I must admit, doesn’t sound any too racy. Zock’s folks were off at a party and there we were, a soft warm night, both of us feeling itchy, and nothing to do. Just who got the idea first I don’t remember. It doesn’t matter though, for we both wanted to and, almost before we knew it, we were standing in front of his old man’s liquor cabinet. At this time, neither of us knew for beans about alcohol. There never was any at my house, only dry wine, and Zock had never cared much, one way or the other.

“Well, Zocker,” I said. “How do we start?”

“I don’t know,” he admitted.

“And how do we know when we get there?”

“I don’t know that either.”

“Then you must be pretty stupid,” I told him, grabbing a nearly full bottle of rum and pouring myself a glass. Zock took out a bottle of Scotch, a wise move and one that accounted for his better condition through the night and next day or two.

We started swilling it down, sitting in two easy chairs, facing each other and laughing. I drained the first glass pretty fast. It didn’t affect me at all, but halfway into the. second, I began feeling rocky.

“Yes sir,” I said. “You can say that again.”

Zock looked across at me. “I didn’t say anything.”

“Well, don’t say it again if you want to. I’m a liberal.”

Which confused him, I think, so we didn’t talk for a long time but concentrated instead on our drinking, gulping it down. And I must admit that, pretty soon, I was in my cups, as my mother would say.

“My mother would say I’m in my cups now. How about that. In my cups. Isn’t that the stupidest expression?”

“Isn’t what the stupidest expression?”

“Aren’t you listening to me?”

“I’m trying,” Zock said. “But you’re not coming through very clear.”

“If my father knows so much about Euripides, why isn’t he rich?”

“Who’s Euripides?” Zock asked, which stumped me awhile.

“I am,” I said finally. “That’s who.”

“Well, if you’re Euripides,” Zock said. “Why aren’t you rich?”

“Maybe I am,” I told him. “Maybe I’m the richest guy in the world. Maybe I’m so rich I can’t stand it.”

“I don’t believe you,” Zock said.

“It’s the truth,” I said. “I am so rich I can’t stand it. Do you know what I blow my nose on?”

“Ten-dollar bills?” I shook my head. “Twenty-dollar bills?”

“Wrong.”

“What, then?”

“My shirtsleeves,” I said. Which I still think, considering the conditions and all, was pretty funny. But not so funny that you’d fall off your chair laughing at it. I did, though. I hit the floor and stayed there, waving that empty bottle.

“Rise,” Zock said.

“I could if I wanted to,” I said. “I just don’t want to.”

“Here,” Zock said. “I’ll help.”

Well, he tried. That much you have to say for him. He did try. He even made it out of his chair. But crossing the floor beat him and he fell down on top of me.

“That’s a helluva thing to do,” I told him. “Falling on one of your own guests.” We rested there awhile, our heads spinning around. Then Zock spoke up.

“You know what, Euripides?” he said. “I think we made it.” Which was the truth. For if ever two people were drunk, it was us.

“What’ll we do now?” I asked.

“I don’t know,” he answered. “Something.”

“Great idea,” I told him and we tried getting up. Neither of us could, alone, but together we somehow managed to make it and stagger out of the house into the street.

“Well,” I said when we got there. “What now?” He didn’t answer me right away so I waved my hand in front of his face. “What now?” I said again. “Answer my question.”

He waved his hand in front of my face. “Beats me,” he said.

“Well, you sure aren’t very bright. Nothing but a moron.”

“I was about to say the same of you.”

We were both about to say a lot more when suddenly somebody had us by the shoulders and there was a policeman. Not smiling.

“Good evening to you, officer,” I said.

“What’s the fight about?” he asked.

“Fight?” I said, really confused.

“I saw you,” he said. “And if you don’t stop, I’ll have to take the both of you in.”

“But we weren’t fighting,” I insisted.

“All right,” he sighed.

“Absurd, officer, absurd!” Zock broke in strong. “We are the best of friends.”

“Then go home,” he told us, letting go. We started back for the house but I don’t think Jesse Owens could have made it, because we hadn’t taken more than a step or two when he grabbed us again and herded us into his police car.

The trip down wasn’t too eventful except that I managed to throw up all over the back seat, which didn’t strike him very funny. Zock and I laughed though, all the way there. At the station it got pretty confusing. The man behind the desk kept asking us our names and Zock kept asking him what he wanted to know for, since it wasn’t any of his business.

“Please, boys,” he said over and over. “Please. Co-operate.”

“Absurd,” Zock said over and over. “We are the best of friends.”

Then he began standing on his rights as a citizen and finally he started quoting poetry while I tossed in a couple baseball statistics I had handy.

The upshot of it all was that we spent the night in jail.

Which, as I said earlier, made my reputation. Because, when we finally did get back to school, we were famous. Zock preferred not to capitalize on it and wouldn’t even answer any questions. So everybody came to me and the more I told the story, the better it got. And in less time than it takes to tell, I was the school character. I was voted class clown when I graduated and it can all be traced back to that warm April night when Zock and I got drunk, both for the very first time.

So our gang became the most talked about in the school, even though we were only freshmen, and got the reputation of being the wildest, which we weren’t. I really basked in glory that spring and summer and early fall. Time went zipping by, one day much like the next, and the only thing I remember plain was what happened that summer afternoon.

I was out in the back yard throwing rocks at the big trees on the far side of the ravine, connecting three times out of four, which is better than most can do. Zock came over and stood around awhile, watching.

“If only there was some way of making money out of this,” I said, “I’d be rich.” He didn’t answer but just stood there, watching me throw, listening to the thud of the rocks as they lambasted those tree trunks.

“Don’t be shy,” I said. “I’m really nice enough, once you get to know me.”

He cleared his throat. I waited. Then he started talking. “This isn’t my idea,” he began. “I want you to know that my mother put me up to it. But the thing is, you’re supposed to come to a party at my house a week from Sunday. Two in the afternoon. And wear a necktie.”

“Ridiculous,” I answered, hitting a big oak across the ravine. “I won’t come.”

“My mother may never get over it,” Zock said. And then: “What if we forget about the necktie?”

“I might,” I told him. “You going to be there?”

“Unfortunately, yes.”

“If you can take it,” I said. “Then so can I.”

“Fine.” Zock laughed. “You just won me a double allowance.”

“What’s the party for?”

“My cousin Sadie,” he answered. “She’s getting married.” I didn’t say anything. “To some yokel from Michigan Law School,” he went on. “She’s getting married in three weeks. And you will come?”

“Naturally,” I said, throwing a handful of rocks all at once. “I’ll be there.”

Naturally, I wasn’t. I decided it that afternoon out by the ravine where I stayed, throwing rocks, until dusk set in. At dinner my mother gabbed about the party, since she and my father were invited too, and what should I wear and did I have a summer jacket that looked decent? I went along with her, nodding when she said what a wonderful party it was going to be and wasn’t I lucky to get an invitation. There was no point in telling her then. So I waited.

Until the day before. That afternoon I ran around, getting red and sweaty, after which I dashed home and told her I didn’t feel so well. She bit, felt my forehead, told me to go right up to bed. I grumbled, as was expected, but wild horses couldn’t have kept me from the sack right then. I moaned a lot during the evening and listened to the White Sox on the radio. When it was time for sleep she gave me a couple aspirin and turned out the light.

“You’ve got to be all right for tomorrow, Raymond,” she said. “It’s not every day you get invited to a party.”

“Gosh, no,” I told her. “I’ll feel fine tomorrow. I wouldn’t miss that party for the world.”

The next morning I really hammed it up. I snuck an extra blanket under my bedspread, making sure I’d sweat plenty, splashed water in my eyes, getting them good and red, plus various other tactics. When the afternoon rolled around, I knew my mother wouldn’t have let me out of bed even if the house had been burning down. So I fought the good fight, moaned about how much I wanted to go, and in general earned the Academy Award for malingering. Finally, when I thought I couldn’t stand it much longer, she and my father left, and I was alone.

I turned the radio on, threw the covers off, and lay there, staring at the cracks in the ceiling. Then I started to swear, but that never does much good. So I snuck downstairs to the living-room, to the big window that faced out on Zock’s house.