The Sword Of Angels (Gollancz S.F.) (12 page)

Monster’s face came very close to her as he whispered, ‘We are all Inhumans, my lady. This is Grimhold. No one will judge you.’

‘They will,’ said White-Eye. ‘They will not mean to, but they will. I do not want them to see me like this, blind and weak.’

‘You are afraid, I know,’ said Monster gently, ‘but I am here, right here with you. And anyone who laughs will have to deal with me!’ He punched his thumb into his chest so that White-Eye could hear the thump. ‘Now, shall you walk or will I have to carry you? I can do it, you know. Not very fitting for a Jadori kahana.’

He was only half-joking, and White-Eye didn’t laugh. Though horribly hunched from birth, Monster’s Akari had given him amazing strength. He could easily hoist her over his shoulder and carry her down to the dining chamber. Since Lukien had gone and Gilwyn after him, Monster seemed to have pronounced himself her protector. White-Eye, though, had trouble trusting him. He was, quite probably, just one more man who would leave her.

‘And what will you do when I stick a fork in my eye instead of my mouth?’ she asked. ‘Make a joke to cover my clumsiness? Thank you, no.’ She went back to distracting herself with the spinning wheel, pretending to feed it wool and hoping Monster would leave. When he did not, she looked up at him again. ‘You may go now.’

Monster hesitated. Then she felt his rough hand guiding her own, easing the strands of wool into the wheel.

‘You could do this if you wanted to,’ he said, ‘but you have not even tried, I can tell.’

White-Eye froze under the accusation. She sat back on the stool, her shoulders slumping.

‘I did not want this thing,’ she said. ‘Minikin brought it here to distract me.’

‘No, to teach you,’ Monster corrected mildly. ‘Minikin knows you can do things if you will try.’

‘I am blind, Monster!’

‘Yes, I know,’ said the Inhuman evenly. ‘Does that mean you have no friends here?’

The words struck White-Eye. She breathed to steady herself. There would be no convincing him, not this time. So she put out her hand.

‘Take it,’ she commanded. ‘And do not let go.’

Monster was good to his promise. He carefully led White-Eye to the dining chamber of Grimhold, the place where the young kahana had always taken her meals and conversed with her fellow Inhumans. Tonight, the chamber was filled with familiar voices, most of which hushed when she entered. Monster ignored the silence, leading White-Eye to her familiar chair. Since losing Faralok, White-Eye had yet to be surrounded by so many people. She gripped Monster’s hand a little tighter as she took her seat.

‘Who is here?’ she whispered.

‘We’re all here, my lady,’ replied Monster.

It was true, White-Eye knew, because even their stares were familiar to her. Next to her, she heard Monster sit himself down. His misshapen body could not comfortably accommodate a normal chair, so he always used a stool. White-Eye put her hands down to feel the table, a sturdy slab of rectangular marble stretching out into the chamber. There were others like it in the hall, too, enough to seat hundreds of Grimhold’s odd inhabitants. White-Eye did not have to listen hard to hear them all – they’re anxious breathing assaulted her.

‘Welcome, my lady,’ came a sudden voice.

White-Eye turned toward the sound, wondering who had spoken.

‘It’s me, Dreena,’ the voice offered.

‘Oh, Dreena,’ White-Eye replied. She licked her lips, feeling flushed suddenly. ‘Hello.’

Like most of Grimhold’s people, Dreena was an Inhuman, another blind girl who Minikin had found in Farduke as a child. She was about White-Eye’s age now, but still had an Akari to help her see.

‘Welcome, kahana,’ said another voice, and then another and another greeted her, overwhelming White-Eye. She sat leaned back in her throne like chair, nodding as she tried to recognize the voices. Most of them were easy for her to recall; she had spent years with these people. One voice, however, remained absent. White-Eye turned to Monster.

‘Is Minikin here?’ she whispered.

‘No, my lady.’

White-Eye frowned. ‘No? Why not?’

The hunchback sighed before answering. ‘She has gone to Jador.’

‘Jador?’ White-Eye puzzled over the comment. She was kahana of Jador, but had abdicated her responsibilities now. Still, she missed her homeland and its dark-skinned people. ‘Minikin said nothing of this trip to me. Why did she go?’

‘I do not know, my lady. She left early this morning. She took no one with her, only Trog.’

‘She has gone to do my work for me,’ said White-Eye sullenly. ‘What I should be doing.’

‘No, my lady.’

‘Yes, Monster, yes,’ White-Eye insisted. ‘First I let Gilwyn take charge of Jador, and now that he is gone a foreigner is looking after Jador.’

‘Minikin did not say why she was going to Jador,’ said Monster, fighting to contain his impatience. ‘But it was not to look after Lorn, I am sure.’

‘You are sure? How can you be?’ asked White-Eye angrily, though she was more angry at herself than anyone else. She sank back into her chair, her appetite all but gone. Lorn was a man of terrible reputation, Gilwyn’s decision to leave him in charge of Jador had shocked her. He had not even asked her opinion. He had simply left Jador in Lorn’s hands, then fled north to rescue Baron Glass. White-Eye felt the weight of guilt crushing her shoulders. ‘Minikin should have told me she was going,’ she said.

Around her, her fellow Inhumans had begun their meal. Servants began moving plates and setting pots down on the tables. White-Eye heard knives carving and the tinkle of glassware. She disappeared into the noise, hoping no one was watching her. The thought of Minikin riding to Jador saddened her, because she knew the little woman was unwell. The battle against Aztar had weakened her, sapping her good nature, making her feel old. And in truth, Minikin was old, far older than anyone else in Grimhold or Jador. She was hundreds of years old now, and amazingly, she was only now showing her age.

‘My lady? You should eat something,’ Monster suggested. He put some food into her plate, then pushed it closer to her. ‘Your fork is near your right hand.’

‘Monster, I’m not hungry. Let it be enough that I have come to be with everyone.’

‘You need strength, my lady, to recover.’

‘I am fine. And I can never recover from what’s happened to me.’

‘That is not true. You should not tell yourself such lies.’

White-Eye felt trapped suddenly, not wanting Monster’s help but unable to get back to her chambers without him. She muttered, ‘You have your Akari still. I can never have another, and you have no idea what that is like. I have come because you asked me to come, because everyone
wanted to see me. And here I am! But I cannot see them, Monster, and you cannot guess how horrible it is.’ She gave a heavy, lamenting sigh. ‘I am sorry, but that is the truth.’

Monster did not argue with her. Instead he took her hand and wrapped it gently around her fork.

‘There is meat and carrots on your plate. Eat.’

‘I am not a child!’

‘No. You are kahana. Act like it.’

Furious, White-Eye stabbed her fork down, skewering a piece of meat. Feeling it securely on the utensil, she carefully raised the fork to her mouth. The meat was too large, so she nibbled at it, wondering how grotesque she looked and reminding herself that she was indeed kahana.

They are friends, she told herself. They will not laugh.

And indeed they did not. The other Inhumans kept up with the meal they way they always did, though this time they gave the kahana the space she required. Instead of barraging her with anecdotes, they left her alone to eat. White-Eye chewed her food absently, listening to the chatter at the table. Dreena was speaking, talking about her day with the sheep. There were new lambs born today, three of them. One was black and smaller than the rest.

‘A runt,’ Dreena proclaimed. ‘Like Emerald. I wish Gilwyn was here to see it.’

White-Eye stopped chewing, and for a moment the conversation stopped. She hadn’t heard Gilwyn’s name mentioned previously, for they all knew he had left and no word had been heard from him.

‘Continue, please,’ White-Eye told her companions. ‘I know Gilwyn is well. I am not worried about him.’

It was a lie, but it helped to alleviate the tense mood, and soon Dreena went back to talking about the little black lamb that reminded her so much of Gilwyn’s kreel. Monster leaned over then and spoke gently to White-Eye.

‘You see? Isn’t it better to be with us, instead of alone in your chamber? You are doing well, my lady.’

White-Eye smiled, happy at the compliment. Forgetting her blindness, she reached out for her goblet . . .

And promptly knocked it over. The noise abruptly halted the conversation. White-Eye felt wine dripping into her lap, soaking through her gown. Heat rushed through her face in embarrassment. She lifted her hands carefully away from the table, holding them up to shield herself from the pitying looks.

‘It’s nothing,’ Monster hurried to say. ‘Just a spill. It’s
nothing
.’

To White-Eye, though, the wine was scalding water. With her hands still out before her, she pushed back her chair and stood up.

‘Monster, take me upstairs, please.’

‘Kahana . . .’

‘
Please
.’

The Inhumans said nothing as Monster relented, taking White-Eye’s hand and guiding her out of the room. White-Eye’s rubbery legs carried her slowly away. Crushed with embarrassment, she wanted only the four walls of chamber and the quiet blackness of her dead eyes.

Minikin arrived at Jador at dusk, along with two Jadori warriors as escorts and her bodyguard Trog. The desert evening was closing in on the city, blushing scarlet on the cloudless horizon, and the minarets of Jador glowed with a golden aura. The city was blessedly peaceful, a welcome sight after the long ride through the desert, and because Minikin had not announced her arrival there were no Jadori guards to greet her or children to cheer her arrival. Instead, the streets near the palace were wonderfully quiet. In fact they were always quiet lately, for the city was still licking its wounds, rebuilding from both the battle with Prince Aztar and the war with Akeela a year before. There were fewer Jadori warriors now than ever and far too many widows, and Jador was recovering slowly from the blow, still mourning their dead and the terrible thing that had befallen their kahana, the beloved White-Eye.

Minikin slowed her kreel as they rode into Jador, bidding her escorts to do the same. Now that she was in the city she was in no hurry. The warriors accompanying her kept back a few paces, leaving her and the mute Trog to study the city by themselves. Trog’s kreel was an enormous beast, by far the largest in Jador, with a back broad enough to support Minikin’s giant bodyguard. Trog himself was not an accomplished kreel rider, not like the warriors, but the kreel he rode was gentle and intelligent like all of its breed, and had carried him effortlessly to Jador, without any guidance from the giant. Still, Trog looked eager to dismount, tottering on the beast’s back as he surveyed the city with his saucer-like eyes.

‘Yes, it’s good to be back,’ said Minikin wearily.

They had not been to Jador since the battle with Aztar, when she had summoned the magic to incinerate the prince’s army. It had been a galling, exhausting thing to do and it had sapped the little woman’s strength. It had even made her doubt her purpose, for she had never taken so many lives before. She was old now and she knew it, and the time had come to give up a bit of her authority. But Gilwyn was no longer in the city, and White-Eye was teetering on the brink of hysteria, driven to depression by her new-found blindness. There seemed little any of them could do.

Minikin looked west, toward the entrance of the city that bordered the Ganjeese township. She could barely see the city gate or the tower where she had watched the battle, summoning the Akari fire that had scorched
the earth and taken so many of Aztar’s men. Aztar himself had mostly likely perished in the flames, a small blessing for the horror she had unleashed, Minikin supposed. She rode forward a bit, surveying the quiet streets near the palace. Without Gilwyn in residence, the area around the palace had become desolate. It was said that King Lorn had the Jadori working hard in the Ganjeese province, building new and better homes for the Seekers who had come across the desert and strengthening the defenses around Jador. The rumbles about his harshness had reached Minikin all the way in Jador. She looked around, trying to determine if the complaints were true. In fact, Jador did look more orderly to her. The streets had been cleaned of rubble and debris, and the distant tower stood proudly against the horizon. Squinting, Minikin could see people down the avenue, dark-skinned Jadori walking casually in the twilight. Riding a bit further, she heard the gurgle of a fountain. She turned, surprised to see the pretty thing spouting water again after being so long neglected. Because she was approaching the palace now, she and her escort were easily sighted by a pair of Jadori guardians patrolling near the garden. Usually, the Mistress of Grimhold was greeted by a procession of well wishers. As the guards hurried toward her, she girded herself.

‘N’jara,’ she said, telling them in their own tongue to stay quiet. She held up her hands as she spoke. ‘N’jara, bisa.’