The Serrano Succession (103 page)

"Who is that?" Barin asked. The stout man in the funny-looking jacket and fuzzy hat that he'd noticed on the flight from the mainland stumped around the blackened soil where the aircraft had been.

"That's the professor." Meharry grinned. "He was there when they pulled me out of the water. I think he's crazy, the way geniuses usually are."

"He's a genius?"

"They all seem to think so."

"Well . . . the beard's right," Barin said.

"He's the reason Ensign Pardalt came along," Meharry said. "She was his bodyguard when he went out to keep the mutineers from taking over the lab. I heard he asked for her again."

"She didn't want to come when I asked her," Barin said.

The next morning, Barin came into the mess hall—its shattered windows now covered with clearfilm—and looked around. One table was all civilians, talking faster than they were eating. At another, the man in the yellow leather jacket—did he ever take it off?—was sitting next to Ensign Pardalt and leaning towards her.

Barin didn't like the look the professor gave Margiu. She didn't seem to mind it, but . . . she was young. Inexperienced. Geniuses probably thought they could do whatever they wanted, just because they were geniuses. He was determined not to make the mistake he'd made before, and fail to understand his people.

For a moment he remembered the annoying major on the ship he and Esmay had taken from the family reunion, but he pushed that aside. That had been different, if for nothing else than he and Esmay were the same age.

He went over and sat down beside Margiu. "Morning, Ensign."

"Good morning, sir."

"Young Serrano comes down like a wolf on the fold—or at least the spring lamb . . ." the professor said.

"Excuse me?" Barin suspected it was a quotation, but he didn't know the source.

"I only meant that you, like me, chose to sit beside the most ravishing young creature here."

"That's not why I—"

"Tut-tut, my boy. Never suggest anything less to a lady. Whatever your real motive, such as, perhaps, that she's got the only saltshaker on the table, it's only gallant to tell her you came in pursuit of her beauty."

"Professor—" Margiu looked embarrassed; Barin thought she should. What a wordy old flatterer the professor was, after all, and old enough to be her father. Even her grandfather.

"My dear, this is not about you. Unless Lieutenant Serrano thinks I'm a danger to your heart or your safety—" The professor looked at him, and Barin was suddenly aware of a very bright, very piercing glance from those gray eyes, a directness that reminded him of his grandmother. Then the professor looked down, and stabbed his waffle.

"I—thought Ensign Pardalt might not mind some—younger company."

"She might, if you were single," the professor said. "But rumor has it you're married. To Esmay Suiza, in fact. Or is rumor mistaken?"

He was playing dirty, Barin decided. He wrapped himself in Serrano dignity. "Yes, I'm married," he said. "And no, I'm not trying to express any interest in Ensign Pardalt which is inappropriate to . . ." He was floundering and he knew it; there was a wicked glint in the professor's eye which said he was enjoying Barin's difficulty. "As the senior present—"

"He's not bothering me, Lieutenant," Margiu said softly. "He's sort of . . . crazy . . . but he's harmless."

The professor raised his eyebrows dramatically. "Harmless! And this is what I come to, after a life of dedication to the sweet beauties . . . to be called
harmless
."

Barin's anger evaporated, for no reason he could name. He grinned. "You don't look harmless."

"Thanks be for small mercies. And you, young woman, don't ruin my reputation. My colleagues would tease me unmercifully if they thought I was losing my appeal." He looked at Barin again. "Actually, you've done me a favor. They'll see your challenge as proof of my performance, not my feathers. Now I'll take myself off, as if you'd threatened me, and you two young people can enjoy breakfast."

After the professor had gone, Margiu said nothing more, eating steadily.

"I'm sorry if I interrupted," Barin said, finally.

"No . . . it's just . . . he's fun sometimes. He reminds me of home, in a way."

"Xavier?" Barin asked.

"Yes. It's just an ag world, but we do have a university. My parents are farmers, but they're not stupid—" She said this as if expecting an argument. When Barin said nothing, she went on. "Before the—before the Benignity came, we had a house with wide porches, and every week my parents would invite people over. We kids would play games, and the grownups would talk and talk."

"Did you lose your home?" Barin asked.

"Oh, yes. But we rebuilt, just not as big. In time, it will be. Dad says he can't do without a porch to sit on and watch the sky over the fields. Anyway, the professor's a lot smarter and more educated, but some of his talk reminds me of home. The teasing kind of thing." She sounded wistful.

"Do you miss it?"

"Xavier? Sometimes. But I like Fleet, too. Sir—if you don't mind—would you introduce me to Lieutenant Suiza sometime? I'd like to thank her personally."

"Of course," Barin said automatically. He didn't feel like explaining that Esmay wasn't in Fleet anymore. He wondered if everyone was going to think of him as Esmay Suiza's appendage for the rest of his life, the way the family spoke of his aunt's engineer as "Heris's Petris."

His deskcomp informed him he had downloaded messages waiting. Barin sighed. His parents had been sending him jaunty little get-well messages every week or so, but that was not what he wanted. What he wanted . . . was right there in front of him. personal on the header, and Esmay Suiza-Serrano down below.

His breath caught in his throat. She was back—it had all been a mistake, not his grandmother's fault. She wasn't Landbride anymore. She had a ship of her own. She loved him. She hoped he was better, and she was sending a cube.

He looked away, and blinked back tears. She was all right. She wasn't dead, or hurt, or lost; she hadn't gone back to Altiplano. He should have known she'd manage. Esmay always managed. Things always worked out for her in the end.

Whereas he . . . he shook his head hard. She loved him; he loved her. He was glad she was back in—of course he was. He was glad she had a ship—she deserved to have a ship. His mind automatically calculated how long it would be before he could hope for a ship, and he swatted it down. That didn't matter . . . did it?

He looked at his reflection in the bureau mirror and grimaced. All the scars were gone—the visible ones—but he still looked gaunt and older than he had.

Because you've grown up
.

Had he? Was this restlessness, this dissatisfaction, part of growing up?

He fled from that question and decided to follow his doctors' recommendation to walk at least five kilometers a day. Around the training field, around the main buildings . . . and down to Q-town would just about finish the distance. His legs ached by the time he got to Q-town, and he was glad to stop and rest. Now which? He could eat supper here, just as well. He knew the name and reputation of each bar and restaurant, and shied away from Diamond Sim's, where someone would be sure to comment on experiences. Mama Zee's, on the other hand, served hearty food in its small crowded dining room.

He had finished his salad and was waiting on the main course when the door opened, letting in a cold gust of wind. He glanced up and met the professor's inquisitive gaze.

"Lieutenant Serrano—what a pleasant surprise. May I sit with you?"

Barin had been in the mood to brood alone, but the professor was an older man, distinguished. "Of course," he said.

"I wanted to apologize," the professor said. "I should not have embarrassed you with Ensign Pardalt that way. It's my instinct for mischief."

"That's all right," Barin said. "It doesn't matter."

"Of course it matters," the professor said. "You were only trying to protect one of your people from danger—albeit an imaginary danger."

"Get you something?" That was the waitress, an older woman with gray hair. She handed the professor a menu.

"Ah yes." He ordered quickly. When the waitress left again, he cocked his head at Barin. "Something's troubling you, young man. Have you fallen for the fair Margiu instead of your own illustrious Esmay Suiza?"

"No, it's not that." Barin pushed the saltshaker back and forth. "She's got a ship now, Esmay. She's back in. And she should be."

"Mmm?" The professor busied himself with his napkin, folding it into a precise triangle before putting it in his lap.

"You're married, professor, aren't you?"

"Yes." The professor's face softened. "Kata. Wonderful woman . . . I'll tell you what, young Serrano, they get better as they get older. Softer. Mellower. When she was young, she was like a green peach, but now . . ." He smacked his lips. Barin found it a little disgusting. Esmay was not a peach at all. And yet . . . this was maybe the only married man he could talk to.

"We only had those few days," Barin said. "And I don't even know where she is . . ."

"I'm sorry, I'm not following this." The professor leaned back against the rock. "Why don't you start at the beginning?"

Barin started instead with Esmay's disgrace as a result of the quarrel with Brun Meager, and worked his way to the family reunion, and their hasty clandestine marriage.

"You just ran off to a magistrate? How . . . charming."

"We just couldn't stand it," Barin said. "What with the mutiny and my family and everything—we wanted to have some kind of link—"

"And then things hit the fan—"

"Not really. We made the ship by a hair, the captain chewed us out a bit but not much, and—it was so wonderful, those days."

"Those nights, I suspect you mean, unless you were on third shift," the professor said dryly.

"Well . . . yes. Both, really. Working together, at least part of the time, and then—"

"You found you could get along with half the sleep you thought you needed. Yes. Youth is wonderful that way. So what happened?"

"Esmay got new orders; she was to leave and tranfer at Sector V to another ship, and then on across to her final assignment. The next thing I knew, she wasn't in the Fleet database. She'd been separated, and I didn't know where she was." Barin chewed his lip, remembering how frantic he had felt. Had she felt the same way?

"Did you think she'd gone back to Altiplano?"

"I didn't know. And I was on a warship, a cruiser; I had no chance to start looking. I kept thinking . . . worrying . . . and then we were in combat and then—"

"I heard," the professor said. The waitress reappeared, with a loaf of fresh warm bread and a bowl of butter. The professor pulled off a hunk and started eating. Around a mouthful of bread, he said, "They were determined to save your life, because you'd saved the ship, is what I heard."

"All I did was stand still," Barin said.

"Yes, well, sometimes standing still is the right thing to do. But you're waffling, young man. Get to the point."

Barin found himself blurting it out, more than he'd meant to say, and finished with, "And she's older, and she's got a ship, and I'll always be behind . . ."

The professor stopped, folded his hands on the table and said, "It's not a race."

"Sir?"

"It's not a race. Marriage. There is no 'behind' or 'ahead.' You're not in competition; you're a partnership." He cocked his head. "Do you love this woman?"

"Esmay? Of course—"

"Not 'of course' . . . I mean really love her, heart and soul and body?"

"Yes . . . I do."

"But right now you're jealous, aren't you? You think she's the famous one, the hero twice over, the captain of a fine ship—because if she's the captain, it will be a fine ship. You don't want to be a bauble on her necklace, a trophy husband."

Barin felt himself flushing. "It's not jealousy, exactly."

"Yes, it is—exactly. Barin, I'm going to talk to you as if you were one of my sons or grandsons. It's probably going to upset you, too, just as it upsets them. Now it's obvious to me that you're a fine young officer, a proper Serrano. But your whole life has been Fleet, and one particular segment of Fleet. Here you're a prince; you've inherited a name and all that goes with it. That's fine, so far as it goes. But your wife's not just Fleet; your wife's a Landbride—or she was—and she's got connections that go far beyond Fleet."

"I know that," Barin said.

"Yes, intellectually, you do. Emotionally—you haven't begun to cope with it yet. I will bet that when you first met her, you thought you were doing her a favor."

Barin felt his face going hot again. "I admired her," he said, a little too firmly.