The Road To Jerusalem (19 page)

Now he could no longer sing, even though the song was still inside his head and he could imagine each note correctly voiced before his lips released it so falsely. It was like suddenly losing his sense of balance and being unable to walk or run or ride. Brother Ludwig had explained that he was no longer needed at mass, and Arn deemed this harsh punishment for his failure.

Father Henri felt a certain impatience that something so natural should be so difficult to explain to the boy. It obviously wasn’t enough, as he first believed, simply to explain that his voice breaking was something that happened to all men. It surprised him that not even the simple and, as he thought, easily observable fact that men sounded different from boys seemed to have any effect on Arn’s reason. What troubled Father Henri was that Arn’s apparently unwarranted worries might actually be expressing something else, a great loneliness. If he had been able to grow up with other boys, either inside or outside the cloister walls, he might have had an easier time seeing himself as what he was: a boy and perhaps a future brother, but not yet a brother.

The fact that Arn could not accept the fact that a breaking voice existed somewhere between birth and death, and with the same inevitability, was a warning sign of his immaturity. On the one hand, the boy was more educated than any grown man, at least up here in the barbaric North. Presumably he could also handle weapons better than anyone outside the walls.

On the other hand, he was completely innocent when it came to the base world. He wouldn’t be able to sit at table with his countrymen without feeling disgust. He couldn’t stay out there even for a day without seeing that people lied, and that most of the seven deadly sins, which Arn apparently understood as some sort of theoretical moral example in a cautionary tale, were committed daily by each and every person in the outside world.

In all probability Arn did not understand what
pride
was, unless he took examples from the Holy Scriptures. What
gluttony
was he could presumably not even imagine; what
greed
was he no doubt didn’t understand at all;
wrath
he knew only as God’s wrath, which would stir up the concept of sin quite literally for him.
Envy
, as far as Father Henri could see, was something altogether foreign to Arn, who felt only admiration for the brothers who could do more than he could, and boundless gratitude that he was allowed to learn. And
sloth
; how foreign would that concept seem to a boy who always jumped with eagerness to be allowed to dash on to the next of the day’s tasks or lessons?

Only
lust
possibly remained, although Arn seemed to possess both a somewhat exaggerated concept of young boys’ sinfulness when it came to self-defilement, as well as immunity to admonitions in that regard. Father Henri suddenly recalled with a certain irony how Arn in one of his remorseful moments had associated his breaking voice, or “God’s punishment,” as he viewed it, with terrible sins, which in his case were quite mundane. The boy had prayed to be allowed to keep his voice if he did much penance; at the same time he prayed to be free of the itch that made it so hard to refrain from sin.

Father Henri, as usual rather amused behind his stern mask, had then let his words get ahead of his thoughts. Suddenly, to his own astonishment, he found himself bantering about the problem by assuring the boy that there was indeed a simple method that would both secure his high voice and do away with that itch, though this means of penance was not to be recommended.

Arn had not understood what he was getting at, and then Father Henri sat there embarrassed at his own thoughtlessness, and tried to explain that for a number of reasons they did not castrate boys in monasteries, even though their voices were enchanting. And consequently and finally, Arn’s breaking voice was not a sin but part of God’s natural order.

Yet Father Henri was convinced that God really did have a definite plan for young Arn. And until God made His intention clear, it was Father Henri’s duty to prepare Arn for the calling that would be his one day. He had tried to do his best, he could honestly say that without boasting, but now it seemed that all his efforts were still not enough. Sooner or later Arn had to learn what God’s less beautiful world, the one outside the cloister walls, actually looked like. Otherwise he would remain as innocent as a child, even when he became a man, and such a man would more often than not become a foolish man. And that could not be God’s will.

When the autumn storms began to pound the west coast of Jutland it was time to go salvaging. People in the fishing villages on the long sandy coast had always reckoned that salvaging from shipwrecks was their ancient right, but King Valdemar had now forbidden anyone from seizing salvaged goods except the monks from Vitskol. The monks were in a much better position than anyone else to know what to salvage and then see to it that what they found was put to good use. This would appear to be a wise new order from the king.

But not everyone along the coast found it fair or right to give up customs they had followed since ancient times. There were those who said that the monks behaved like a swarm of Egyptian locusts over every wreck they found, leaving not even the tiniest scrap visible at the site. There was truth in such claims, but also envy. For the monks at Vitskol usually did not hurry with their work, except when haste was dictated by the forces of weather. The monks carried home everything they found to their Vitae Schola, chopping up the timbers for wood, and using whole deck planking and masts as building material for their own boatbuilding. They found wool for their own spinning mills, seed for their fields, or rye and wheat to sell. They salvaged skins and leather for their tanneries, iron rods for the smithies, tackle and lines for scaffolding, and jewels and valuables to be sent to Rome—they could find a use for everything. But they also did something that the old scavengers on the coast never would have bothered to do. All the dead they found were given a Christian burial.

A salvage expedition like this from Vitskol might take up to ten days. Most things were transported on heavy oxcarts, and the great loads usually made the trip back take twice as long as the journey out. Brother Guilbert always went along on these forays, not only because his great strength often came in handy, but also because on horseback, together with Arn, he could cover great stretches of the beaches in a short time. When the entourage from Vitae Schola arrived at the sandy beaches on the coast, they set up camp and then Arn and Brother Guilbert rode in opposite directions to scout which way they should go the next day. Brother Guy le Breton also came along, of course, because nobody at Vitae Schola knew as much about the sea, its dangers, its fruits, and its weather as he did. Otherwise the brothers had to take turns according to a schedule drawn up by Father Henri. Almost all the brothers were eager to take part in these expeditions to the sea, because it was a completely different sort of work and because the water was so beautiful. It was exciting to see what God with one hand took from the seafarers to give with the other hand to those who toiled most assiduously in the garden.

Arn was doubly grateful that he was always allowed to come along. He had a chance to ride as fast as he liked on Khamsiin along the endless sandy beaches, preferably just above where the waves broke. There the sand was hard-packed and smooth so that Khamsiin had a good foothold and a clear view and could fly along in a straight line, giving Arn a chance to do what he loved best.

During Arn’s second year as a scout on the salvage trips, something unheard of happened. In the sparse pine forest about a mile from the sea the column from Vitae Schola was attacked on its way home by drunken robbers. They were probably no highwaymen, but frustrated wreck-plunderers who had been sitting in one of the nearby villages, drinking too much ale and working themselves up over the fact that fat monks were now stealing what rightfully belonged to the people who made their living from the sea. But they were armed with lances and swords, and one of them, riding a short and stout Nordic horse, made threatening swings with an old-fashioned battle-axe in his hands.

The heavy oak wagons with steel-rimmed wheels stopped with a screech. The monks made no move to flee but lowered their heads in prayer. The man with the battle-axe clumsily maneuvered his horse toward Brother Guilbert, who was riding at the head of the column with Arn behind him and off to one side. Arn at once did as Brother Guilbert did, sweeping off the hood of his cloak and lowering his head in prayer, although he wasn’t sure what he should pray for. But suddenly the man with the battle-axe yelled at Brother Guilbert for everyone to move away from the wagons, because here came those who rightfully owned the harvest of the sea. Brother Guilbert did not reply, since he was still praying. This made the man with the battle-axe both uncertain and angry, prompting him to say in very coarse language that no prayers were going to help here, because now the goods had to be unloaded from the wagons, and double-quick.

Then Brother Guilbert replied calmly that naturally he was not praying for something as simple as salvaged goods. He was praying for the souls of these misguided men now that they were about to make themselves unhappy for the rest of their earthly days. At first the man with the battle-axe was surprised, but then he became even angrier, and he spurred his horse forward to aim a mighty blow at Brother Guilbert.

Arn, who was sitting on Khamsiin only a few yards away, now knew instinctively what Brother Guilbert was going to do, and at least in the first moment Arn was right. The drunken wreckplunderer raised his battle-axe, gripping it with both hands and directing the blow at a downward angle, a blow that would have killed if it struck home. But Brother Guilbert made two almost imperceptible adjustments with his legs that made Nasir move quick as a snake, taking one step to the side and one step back. The man with the battle-axe struck into thin air and was dragged from his saddle by his own momentum, flipping a half turn in the air before he thumped to the ground on his back.

If this had been an exercise session with Brother Guilbert and Arn had been crawling there on the ground, at the next instant he would have felt Brother Guilbert’s foot land on his sword hand, his weapon would have been taken from him, and then he would have been roundly rebuked.

But now Brother Guilbert sat with his hands clasped before him, holding Nasir’s reins in a light grip between his little fingers.

The humiliated robber crawled to his feet. Swearing, he grabbed his battle-axe again and now attacked on foot, which ended the same way. He ran at Brother Guilbert, aimed a mighty blow, and then found himself again striking at the air. He fell to the ground from his own weight. His fellow criminals couldn’t help laughing, which made him even more furious.

When he gripped his battle-axe a third time Brother Guilbert held up his palm to stop him and explained that no one would prevent the robbery if that was the only reason for the attack. But he wanted to warn the man one last time against repeating his attempts at assault.

“You have a choice,” he explained calmly. “All of you steal what you came here to steal. We neither can nor will stop you by force. But think on this, that then all of you will have sold your souls to the Devil and become criminals who can expect a severe punishment from the king. Or else you can repent and go home. Then we will forgive you and pray for you.”

But the man with the battle-axe didn’t want to hear any such talk. Like a fool he repeated that the salvage goods since ancient times had belonged to the people on the coast. The men behind him shook their lances, pitchforks, and a few swords in agitation, and one of them suddenly threw a lance straight at Brother Guilbert.

It was a heavy, slow lance with an old-fashioned broad-bladed point, so Arn had plenty of time to picture what would happen. Brother Guilbert leaned lightly to the side in his saddle, grabbed the lance in the air, and then pointed it at the mob, as if for a brief instant he considered attacking. Arn saw the robbers’ eyes widen and gleam with fear. But then Brother Guilbert quickly turned the lance over his knee and broke it in two as if he were snapping a little twig. Contemptuously he flung the bits to the ground.

“We are the Lord’s servants, we cannot fight with you and you know it!” he shouted. “But if you absolutely want to make yourselves miserable for the rest of your wretched earthly lives, then steal what you want to steal. We can’t stop you from such foolishness.”

The mob deliberated for a moment. The man with the battleaxe staggered back to his followers and a vehement argument ensued. Brother Guilbert gathered his brothers and Arn around himself and said that if it came to violence, each of them should save himself by running from this place. There was nothing else to do. Arn was sharply admonished to stay at a safe distance from all the robbers and, should things turn violent, ride home at once to tell everyone what had happened.

The robbers’ problem was that they thought they could certainly steal whatever they wanted from the heavy load. But they wouldn’t be able to kill all the witnesses, as they before had killed all the unfortunate seamen who survived a shipwreck to wash ashore, thinking they were saved, only to discover at the last moment of their lives that they had been rescued by wreckplunderers. But here the robbers would never be able to kill the two monks on horseback. They decided to take what they wanted anyway in the hope that, since no one was killed, no royal revenge would befall them just because there was a little less weight in the fat monks’ heavily loaded wagons.

That’s how the matter was settled. The robbers took what they could carry and anything that seemed valuable, while the monks stood back and prayed for their lost souls. When the robbers had finished plundering the wagons and, loudly bellowing, left the scene, the monks repacked their loads and continued home to Vitae Schola.

When they arrived, Father Henri wrote a letter of complaint to King Valdemar, whose royal command had been flouted. Shortly thereafter soldiers were sent out to arrest the guilty parties, which proved a simple matter. Most of the goods that were stolen were returned to Vitae Schola with the soldiers. The robbers were all hanged.