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My stupor was interrupted by the sound of the door below being unlocked. Someone had returned. Hastily, I tiptoed up the corkscrew stair to the roof. Up there it was so biting cold and dark I barely had the courage to place one foot before another. I could still hear movements from the room below, pacing back and forth, and the fire being dampened down. In my frantic state, I strove to hold onto the corner turret, at the same time creeping around it to hide. Like a tight-rope walker I inched my way, hampered by my limbs’ unruly shaking. I thought I heard someone coming up the stair, and took a step further away.

My ankle hit the low barrier that edged the roof. For a long, anguished moment I felt myself flailing in empty air. Then I lost my balance entirely and plunged down from the roof, into rushing blackness.

 

16

Delafosse Hall

 

October 1792

~ A Most Healthful Hystericon ~

 

To make a most effectual Hystericon for Women against Nerves and Melancholy, Fits and Vapours, Mania or Tremblings: Take Aqua Vitae and put in a bottle with no more than 13 seeds of henbane, any more brings danger of convulsions and fatal sleep. Add a few leaves of dried wormwood, tansy, angelica and aniseeds; leave one day, add water and boil it. Filter out the herbs; add sugar syrup to take off the bitterness. From a cost of 3d to produce, each bottle may be sold at half a crown or greater.

 

Mother Eve’s Secrets

 

 

 

 

 


Mistress is dead! Mistress is dead!’ Nan’s caterwauling entry startled Peg as she stood raking the embers of the fire to start breakfast. The old woman slumped down, slack-jawed onto a stool.

‘What’s going on?’ Peg shook her bony shoulder.

‘I were out picking simples at first light, and I saw her. She’s lying dead in’t bushes by the tower,’ mumbled Nan.

Peg ran all the way in the grey dawn, her heels flying and a procession of notions skittering through her head. And there indeed lay her mistress, looking horribly corpse-like in a tangle of gorse. She halted warily; knelt, and touched her. She was certainly cold, but Peg had to be sure of it. She gave her waxy face a little smack. Mrs Croxon took a sharp breath and rolled her head aside. Peg peered at the scene and read it like a book: the roof of the tower and its low barricade, her mistress’s fall broken by the springy branches. And here she was, all alone with her mistress, and Nan even now telling everyone she was dead. Peg froze above her mistress like a lioness, calculating different paths and different futures. Slowly she pulled off her shawl, and raised it in a tight wad above Mrs Croxon’s face.

How stupid Mrs Croxon looked. Peg hesitated, weighing it all up – the danger of being caught, the risk to her liberty, the possible complications. No. It would serve her no advantage. She dropped the shawl gently to the ground as the sound of runners pelting down the path exploded behind her. The master ran to his wife’s side, and Peg followed him, very grave-faced, as he carried her back to the house.

Half an hour later Dr Sampson, one of the master’s cronies from the George, hurried up the stairs. Peg made up a tray of hot tea, cake, and brandy and took it directly upstairs. Lingering, she caught almost every word that Mr Croxon and the doctor exchanged, through the gap in the door.

‘—a queer place for your wife to take a tumble,’ said the doctor in his deep bass voice.

‘I’m afraid she has trouble sleeping. She gets up sometimes and wanders. Nerves, I suppose.’

‘We’ll need to keep a weather eye on that, Croxon.’

When their voices dropped, she knocked, and the master ushered her forward into the sickroom, that smelt nastily of purging. The mistress lay with her eyes closed, her face chalky white. The doctor, a plump, whiskery fellow, held up Mrs Croxon’s arm that wore a trail of leeches as black as jetty slugs.

‘This is the woman,’ the master said to the doctor, nodding his head at Peg. ‘My dear wife knows and trusts her.’ The doctor appraised her, and Peg shrank herself into a little curtsey. She made sure he saw nothing but a modest gown on a neat figure, a demure face, a thoughtful tray of refreshments.

‘Mr Croxon does not want a stranger to nurse his wife. You will step up and do your best, eh, Mrs Blissett?’

She nodded, her eyes cast down.

‘Your mistress has been badly cut and bruised, and then exposed to many hours’ severe chill. Thankfully, no limbs appear to have been broken. Indeed, she has had an astonishing escape from harm. But your patient will be enfeebled for some time, and will need delicate handling. No doubt her nerves are shaken, but with care she may escape the worst effects of her accident.’

‘She looks so weak,’ she said.

‘That is the effect of the leeches,’ the physician replied. ‘She must sleep without disturbance. If she calls for drink, give her only lime water today. Send for me if there are convulsions or unusual signs, but I do not expect them. So – until tomorrow.’

‘I shall dine out, Mrs Blissett.’ Naturally, His Nibs was fidgeting to leave the sickroom in the doctor’s wake. ‘No need to go back downstairs,’ he called from the doorway. ‘Devote yourself to your mistress.’

They both vanished, leaving her quite in charge. Peg poured herself a dish of tea and sat down heavily beside the bed. Slowly, she ate her master’s piece of cake, and then the doctor’s. Then she lifted her aching feet onto the bed, sat back comfortably, and started on the brandy.

 

*

 

Only once in her life had she been laid low, after the Great Storm at Sydney Cove. Jack had carried her to the hospital hut, but new wretches arrived every day with jail fever, and soon it was heaped with the dying. Without fresh victuals, scurvy broke out, killing even more colonists every day. Women like her were ordered to shift for themselves. Though still sore from cuts and bruises, she had to face the prospect of limping back to the camp. True, there was her wedding to get up for, but it grieved her to marry Jack in such a tatterdemalion state. No fresh clothes or even a hank of thread had been shipped out for the women’s use. Her wretched gown was in ribbons, and only covered her bosom thanks to the pins she guarded like treasure. As for the wounds to her face, and clump of missing hair, she was glad there was no mirror to inspect herself.

Then Jack approached her with a shamefaced expression, before burying his head in his hands. ‘Go on,’ she said, ‘tell me the worst.’ When she finally got the words out of him, she could have spat venom at having such damnable bad luck. ‘The reverend says I’m to tell you there’s a woman, Annie Mobbs she’s called, sailed on the
Scarborough
.’ She waited in silence as he twisted his greasy cap in his hands.

‘She’s going about saying me and her was married, two years back at Plymouth. Mary,’ he cried, clutching her hand, ‘I was as drunk as a lord, fresh off the ship. Surely it don’t stand?’ Jack wept like a baby while she watched him, dead-eyed with disappointment.

It did stand, for in spite of the reverend turning a blind eye every day to husbands or wives alive on the other side of the world, he would not bigamously marry Jack, whose wife brandished a scrap of paper and a brass wedding ring. He was ordered to live with Annie Mobbs in a married man’s hut, much to that ugly trull’s jubilation.

‘So where the Devil do I go now, Jack?’ She had lost her sweet-girl manner, for she had backed a loser, after all.

‘It breaks my heart,’ he whined like a puling child. ‘You must stay in Sodom Camp with the other women.’ When he reached for her hand she slapped him away.

 

She found quarters in Ma Watson and Brinny’s tent, in a corner vacated by a woman who had given up the ghost in childbed. There was general rejoicing that the infant had snuffed it too, for had it lived, its death might have proved a great deal slower and noisier. Her quarters stank like a pigsty in the breathless heat of the daytime, but once the sun set it was perishing cold. The talk was always the same old patter: of the brainless government, the stingy rations, which cove had stabbed who in a fight, and who shared whose bed. Across the way, Janey’s tent was a brothel of canvas, the scene of knife-fights and grog-fuelled riots, from which men tumbled, drunk and dangerous. These were no swell gentlemen living by thieves’ honour, but wiry wretches with naught to live for but oblivion and the chance to hurt someone weaker than themselves. It was then that a mad mongrel known as Stingo began to sniff about her, mumbling lewd descriptions of what he wished to do to her, and twice she had to run from his pawing hands. The squat figure of Annie Mobbs haunted her too; everywhere she heard her mocking laughter and yawling Devon lingo. If it were possible to wish someone dead, her raging thoughts would have struck Mobbs down like gunshot.

You are still alive, she repeated to herself, as if words were ropes to hold her afloat in a trough of night soil. But the truth was that her quick wits were failing by the day. She blamed the soupy heat that made it hard to walk for even a minute. Nothing behaved as it should any more: it was like the view across the heat-scorched land, the shadows wobbling like water in the sunlight, the shapes of men elongated like trembling trees. And the work she was given, collecting shells on the seashore to make mortar for the new town, left time hanging heavy. She was riled with herself, too, in a fuddled way, unable to shake off the notion she had missed the main chance, though what that chance was she wasn’t sure. Not to be a whore in the brothel tent, mind, not since Janey was dispatched to Kingdom Come by a glass bottle shoved in her pretty face. She grunted when she heard the news, unable to form a fitting epitaph. The truth was, since the Great Storm, while her body produced aching pain, her mind was as barren as a coiner’s blank.

There were men in the early days, redcoats or lags, it no longer mattered, who she shuffled off with, into the bush. With her eyes closed against the red disc of the sun, she barely noticed the fumbling and grunting – all her thoughts were consumed by the salivating vision of her fee: a mouthful of food. Sometimes she fell in with a mob of black women who gathered in a gully near the beach. When she
coo-eed
to them, they grinned back, showing perfect teeth, their children creeping forward boldly to touch her pearly northern skin. They exchanged gestures about the children, complaints about empty bellies. To the accompaniment of hoots of laughter, she tested their lingo: the sweet tea leaves she searched for were
warraburra
, and the desire to eat, which she mimicked hand to mouth, they called
pattaa
. They were secretive, leather-hard people, not unkind, willing to give her a sip of bitter drink from their gourds or a wriggling grub from a hole in the ground to chew. From them she learned to plait grasses, and best of all, which roots were edible and how to cook them in the ashes of the fire.

But, like everyone else, she was starving. Her daily ration produced a ladleful of saltless slop, to which the women struggled to add more – chickweed or a roasted rat, or any grub or sea creature. Aunt Charlotte had called kitchen fare belly timber, and so it proved, for without food the spirit collapsed, like a beached ship weathered away to rotting ribs and yawning holes. At night, dreams of food flared like bonfires in her fancy, of a long-forgotten moment spreading dripping onto bread, the brown specks of meat juice, the relief of jaws sinking into plenty. In one harrowing dream she found a sugar-crusted cake forgotten in her pocket. It haunted her waking hours; the compulsion to search, the certainty it might still be there in her pocket, squashed and delicious.

 

*

 

Dr Sampson left a brown bottle labelled ‘The Mixture’. While Mrs Croxon slept, it took only a moment to exchange the contents with her own Hystericon. Henbane had been one of Granny’s favourite simples; doled out to women troubled by fits or to bring on the Twilight Sleep when in childbed. With her mistress sleeping like a waxy corpse, Peg took a little holiday, making brews in the distillery, and setting off again to search for the writing box. In chamber or studio, there was not a sign of the damnable object. By the third day, however, her mistress started to rebel.

‘No more,’ she croaked through cracked lips, pushing the glass of pungent potion away. Thereafter, there was no disputing that Dr Sampson’s patient was making a good recovery. When her mistress finally sat up to attempt some chicken hash, she glanced up at Peg and mumbled, ‘Don’t look at me like that. I didn’t try to – end my own life. It was an accident.’

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