One thing to which all the lines led was boredom and the men and boys learned to subdivide and measure the boredom and by their ingenuity to reduce it to manageable fragments. On a hot day a drop of sweat falls from a sailor's jaw and drops to the deck. As it sizzles on the hot iron he wonders how much of his kidneys and brain and muscle and genitals and intestines the drop of sweat contains and his mind spins off on the pointless conjecture for an hour. Even after the drop of sweat is a ring of whitish salt, he is still tracing out the fantastic mathematics. That was one way to subdivide the boredom. Another was gambling. Shooting craps in the crew's quarters against a bulkhead with someone holding a battlelamp up for a light and the dice spinning so small and white that it was like looking down a microscope at them. Or poker in the officers' club for white chips that cost five bucks apiece. All the gambling had one thing in common: the grinding, luxurious, wonderful hatred that everyone felt when the winner put out his hand to rake in the winnings. The smothering feeling of losing was almost as satisfying as the wild sensation of winning. Another way to cut the boredom was to eat. The Quartermaster Corps thinks the soldiers got fat because the food was high in calories, but they were wrong. They got fat because eating is a way to pass the time. They ate hamburgers, meat loaf, sweet corn, dried eggs, canned bacon, evaporated milk, thick slices of bread, canned butter, black coffee, pork chops, K-rations, canned hash, french toast, horse cock, canned turkey, green beans, white beans, kidney beans, jam. During the midwatch they brought up fried sandwiches made of peanut butter and canned ham. On leave they went to the U.S.O. and ate doughnuts, sugared, glazed and coconut, and drank coffee. During the day they drank Coca-Cola, ate salami sandwiches and potato chips. Before, in every war, men had starved to death, but in this war no one was hungry; their eyes bulged from eating. In the Solomons, they used to stack the boxes of food so high that the bottom couple layers would disappear into the mud. The soldiers hated the cooks for a reason: they were the only men they depended on. And so the long lines led into the gray mists of boredom and the fattening foods, and, very occasionally, death. The lines moved like many-legged worms, senselessly, planlessly, formlessly. CHAPTER 12 In the Sunshine and Under Grapes Behind the low adobe house of the Burtons was a stretch of very green lawn. The vineyards began just at the far edge of the lawn. The Italian and Mexican workmen had built a bower at the edge of the vineyard and trained the live vines over the structure. Clumps of grapes hung down into the bower; great dusty purple grapes, bursting at the stem with juice and each grape nourishing a small cloud of flies. Connie and Mike were married in St. Helena in the summer of 1942. They were married in the bower with the guests standing behind them on the lawn. The Episcopalian minister was a short fat man and he said the ceremony in a dreamy voice, listening with his head cocked as if someone else were performing the ceremony. From an inner patio came the sound of corks popping out of champagne bottles. Mike was wearing an ensign's uniform and Hank stood beside him in a rented white dinner jacket and black pants with a strip down the side. Hank was drunk, but Mike was the only one who knew. Hank got up at six that morning and went to the patio where champagne was cooling in big tubs of ice and brought back three bottles. By noon he had drunk all three of them. Behind Connie, Mr. Burton was standing. His lips were stained purple and this made his teeth very white by contrast. He was wearing a very white linen suit and he wavered slightly in the heat. Mike raised his eyes from the minister's face and looked out past the bower. The vineyard climbed steeply up a hill that shimmered in heat, was twisted by heatwaves. Around the main root of each vine was a heap of brown stones that collected heat during the day and kept the ground warm during the night. Toward the brow of the hill the families of the Mexican and Italian workers stood, looking down on the ceremony. Beyond them a single great white cloud slowly changed form, like marble suddenly become liquid. The minister, finishing the last words of the ceremony, smiled at Mike and Connie. As Mike turned to kiss Connie he had an elongated, squeezed-off view of Mrs. Burton. She was a big woman, expensively dressed. She was bent forward, her dry eyes peering intently over her handkerchief, waiting for Mike to kiss Connie. Then, as Mike pressed his lips against Connie's mouth, the rigid, mutely protesting figure of Mrs. Burton vanished. The guests moved through the patio, drinking cold champagne from the Burton winery. At a large table, smoked turkeys and king salmon were being sliced onto plates. "I'm sorry your family couldn't be here," Mrs. Burton said to Mike. "Me too," Mike said. "But I told you they wouldn't be interested. I sent them all invitations, but they didn't come. I told you they wouldn't." Mrs. Burton smiled thinly and turned away. When Connie had written her parents about her engagement, they had asked Mike to visit them for a weekend. The first afternoon they had gone for a walk to a cave where some of the wine was stored for aging. Mr. Burton had walked briskly through the vineyard. He was a startlingly handsome man with a very narrow waist and big shoulders. His fingers plucked at the vines, came away with a grape and he popped the dripping pulp into his mouth as he held the dusty skin in his fingers. He chewed the grapes carefully and spit the seeds out only when he had made some comment on the quality of the grape. "Pinot noir grape," he had said. "Best grape in the world. Makes a fine rich wine. These are getting a little thin, though. Probably because the summer's not as hot as it should be." Mr. Buron drank wine all day long. He started with a little glass of claret before breakfast and then, for the rest of the day, he drank constantly. He drank his own wines and those of his competitors. He drank wines from France and Germany and Italy. With each fresh wine he made some remark, but Mike soon realized that this was a sort of ritual that he expected of himself, and Mr. Burton nor anyone else really paid any attention to the comments. The remarks were made to justify the drinking. No one expected them to make sense, especially by afternoon. When they went into the cave, Mrs. Burton turned on a switch. A line of weak electric bulbs went on. The necks of thousands of bottles gleamed. Along one wall a line of casks gave off a vinegary, sour smell. "These are excellent wines," Mrs. Burton said. "They're good for a reason. Good grapes, good heredity and good care. Best grapes in the world, the result of thousands of generations of breeding." Connie walked over and stood beside Mike. She whispered into his ear. "She's going to give you a lecture on good blood now, darling," Connie said. "Don't be angry. Just listen patiently and then forget it." "In humans it's the same thing," Mrs. Burton said. "Good blood and good environment. That's what counts." Mr. Burton wandered over to one of the casks. With a pipette he drew off a glass of wine and sipping it, muttered something. "Coming along fine. Good body, bit raw yet, but developing . . ." was all that Mike could catch. Nobody listened to him. "Yes, Mother," Connie said. "We heard you. Let's go back to the house. We're supposed to play tennis this afternoon." "You can spare a few minutes, Constance," Mrs. Burton said. "After all, if you're going to be married, there's nothing more important than what we're discussing. Nothing. Absolutely nothing." Mr. Burton came out from a shadow with a bottle in his hand. "One of our best years," he said. "Won't be perfect for another eighteen months, but then it'll be the best in California." He cracked the bottle against a post and it shattered. A jet of wine shot back over his arm, stained his jacket a soft purple. "Smell it. Generations of skill and breeding in that bottle. Wonderful, eh? Go ahead, taste it." "Don't, Father," Connie said. "He'll cut his lips on the glass." "What's the matter, Mike?" Mr. Burton asked. "Don't you like good wine?" "I don't know about breeding and good environment," Mike said. "Not a thing. But I know something about you. I know that both of you came from good old California families who left you a lot of money. And I know that neither one of you has earned a cent in your life. You even lose a couple thousand dollars a year on this vineyard. And I know that you run the vineyard because it's fashionable and you can play like the country squire and his lady. And I also know that you run a winery so that you can have a good excuse to lap up a couple of gallons of wine every day." Mr. Burton was standing beside one of the weak lights and he was staring at Mike. He seemed lost in admiration for what Mike was saying. He smiled faintly. The wine bottle hung at his side, dripping wine onto his pants and shoes. Mrs. Burton had stepped back into a shadow and all Mike could see of her was her fingers which knotted together, untwisted and then tore a handkerchief to pieces. "My family's nothing," Mike went on. "I don't know what their blood is like. If I had to guess, I'd guess it's pretty bad. I know something about environment. I was raised in a bad one. So that answers your questions, Mrs. Burton. No blood, no environment." "It doesn't matter, Mother," Connie said. "Those things aren't important. Really they aren't. Mike can do things." "I believe that," Mr. Burton said. He stepped away from the light and his lean face, the purple lips, the slightly bloodshot eyes, lost their distinctness. "I believe Mike's going to be all right." The handkerchief in Mrs. Burton's hands came apart with a slight rasping sound. Mike and Connie tuned and walked out of the cave into a warm spring day. Looking now into Mrs. Burton,s face as she greeted the guests and shook hands and directed the servants to pour champagne, Mike knew she would never forgive him for that day in the cave. He also knew that it did not matter. "Here's to you, Mike," Hank said. He was carrying a bottle of champagne in one hand and he poured a little into his glass after each sip. He did not look the least bit drunk. "Here's to old Mike who clawed his way up out of the laboring masses into the middle class. Old Mike, the upward mobile. Old Mike, the go-getter." Mrs. Burton came back and stood beside Mike and Connie. "Where do you go now, Mr. Moore?" she asked. "On to medical school?" "On to medical school," Hank said. "The Army is sending me to medical school and has assumed the fullest responsibility for my immediate future." He poured his glass full, sipped at it. "That will be exciting," Connie said. Hank looked at her and ignored what she had said. "Let's don't talk about me,?' Hank said. "Let's drink to Mike, the upward mobile, and Connie, his wife." "Mike the what?" Mrs. Burton asked. "It's a joke, Mother," Connie said. "Boy, is it a joke," Hank said and laughed. "It's really a joke." He held the champagne bottle up and it was empty. He threw it casually into the bushes. Mrs. Burton winced. "What're you grinning for, Mike?" Hank asked. "You aren't supposed to grin." "Just grinning," Mike said. "Can't a man grin?" Hank patted Mike on the shoulder and then turned and started to search for a full bottle of champagne. CHAPTER 13 "Our Forces Suffered Light Losses . . ." The destroyer was three miles off the island. In the darkness the island was a long humped line of black. Occasionally, far up the mountains, a light flickered from a native village, but at once it vanished as the blackness rushed in; solidly, like a liquid. During the day, however, the island was different and made up of many things. The parakeets made slashing colored lines across the green of the jungle as they flew in short screeching flights; there was the endless tin humping of Quonset huts; there were the brown carcasses of wrecked planes. During the day the roads gave off curls of dust, forming a brown atmosphere which ended only at the white strip of sand which edged the island. During the day men stepped out of the dust, stood on the beach and looked out over the sea and the ships. Then the men turned back and disappeared into the brown haze; Seabees, Marines, fliers, Negroes, Californians, soldiers, generals, Mexicans, Okies and natives. The destroyer moved across the sea as if it were going through smooth black oil The screw kicked up a ball of foam that glowed solid and phosphorescent. From the bow of the destroyer a wave broke on each side and expanded away in two narrow bright lines. One of the lines shattered on the island. The other stretched away with a simple perfection to the horizon, where it vanished but did not end. The destroyer stayed to seaward of the transports and cargo ships that were unloading. The sound gear pinged endlessly, sending shrill blocks of sound through the water and making a biting echo on the bridge. In a cabin directly below the bridge Mike was sleeping. Drops of sweat swelled up on the sides of his chest, joined together and ran in trickles over his ribs and left a trail of itch on his skin. Mike was dreaming. It was an old and familiar dream. He was very young and he was wearing knickers and holding a sock cap in his hand. He was standing before a shiny glass window. In raised black letters across the window were the words, "Home-Made Sausage. See It Made." Inside the shop a fat girl was seated on a stool before a gleaming porcelain table. Her cheeks glowed and she had a delicate fringe of blond hair on her upper lip. She had an enormous bosom which hung, ponderous and warm, under the crisp cloth of her uniform. The girl smiled at Mike and shook her head at the five thin smears his hand made on the window. She turned to her table and deftly arranged a long wet glistening tube of skin. She put the tube to a nozzle that extended from a large machine. Gray meat flecked with red spots poured suddenly into the tube. The skin jerked and snapped on the table, writhed as the sausage filled it. In a few seconds the tube was full and was stretched to shiny thinness. Water bubbles popped out, and as the meat continued to shove into the tube the skin slowly stretched and the bubbles grew larger. The girl took the skin from the nozzle and a jet of meat shot out on the porcelain table and the machine stopped operating. Casually the girl took the long taut sausage and began to twist it into short links.