The Narrowboat Girl (34 page)

‘Oh my God – well I never! It really is – Maryann!’

Laughing and tearful at the same time, the two of them flung their arms round each other.

‘Why didn’t yer tell me where you was living?’ Nance reproached her. ‘I wouldn’t’ve let on to anyone and I couldn’t drop yer a line back or invite yer
to the wedding or nothing! ’Ere – come in. It ain’t much but we’ve got it to ourselves.’ She drew Maryann inside and shut the door. ‘Let me get that kettle on
– or d’yer want a nip of summat stronger, eh?’

‘No – tea’d be nice, Nance.’

The two little girls seemed to have disappeared upstairs. ‘I’ve got a couple of old dollies and a few bit of clothes up there for when they come round,’ Nance said. She rested
the kettle on the hob, then stood back to look at Maryann.

‘You ain’t changed – not really. You look ever so well.’

Maryann smiled. Hadn’t changed? How could Nance say that? She felt like a different person. And Nance looked different, too, in a middle-aged woman’s dress and her apron. She was
beginning to look just like her mom!

‘I’m awright,’ she said. ‘Got lots to tell yer. But what about you, Nance. Look at you – a married woman! What’s your ’usband like?’ She had
noticed uneasily the cut healing on Nance’s left cheekbone, a yellowed bruise round it. Nance seemed to feel her looking and put her hand to her cheek.

‘I could tell yer everything’s perfect, Maryann. Wedded bliss and that. But I’ve never lied to yer. ’E’s a boozer like me dad only not so soft-hearted.
’E’s down the pub now. ’E ain’t too bad when ’e’s sober but with a skinful inside ’im ’e gets all maudlin and sorry for ’isself.’

‘Why’s ’e sorry for ’imself?’ Maryann asked.

‘Oh Christ alone knows,’ Nance said impatiently. ‘’E’s one of them ’as a few and ’e ’as to wallow. ’E ain’t got me expecting yet
– ’e ’as a wallow about that.’

‘But yer’ve only been wed, what a few months?’

‘Three months – nearly four.’

‘Well then.’

Nance shrugged. ‘To tell yer the truth I’m bloody glad of it. I only married ’im to get out of ’ome. There’s kids and mess and noise everywhere and now our
dad’s bad ’e’s sat there like a dummy even when ’e ain’t been on the bottle. I thought, I’ve got to get out of ’ere or I’m going straight round the
bend. And Mick came along and ’e was willing and a Catholic so I married ’im and we kept our mom ’appy doing it proper like. And I got me own ’ouse. That’s worth
’aving to put up with Mick, I can tell yer. If ’e stays down the boozer, good riddance.’

It sounded to Maryann as if there was a fair bit of bravado in what Nance was saying, making the most of a bad situation, but at least her spirit was far from being broken.

‘If I don’t get a bun in the oven for a year or two it’d suit me, I tell yer,’ she said rattling cups. ‘It’s not all on one side, yer know – I give
’im one back sometimes, the mardy bugger.’

While Nance finished making the tea Maryann sat down at the table in the sparsely furnished little room. There was nothing but the range, a couple of shelves for keeping their few crocks on and
the table and three chairs. On the table in a jam jar was a bunch of buttercups. Maryann smiled at the sight of Nance’s homemaking. She thought of the luxuriant vases of flowers at
Charnwood.

‘Right then—’ Nance sat down with a grunt. ‘You tell me all about it. For a start, where the ’ell’ve yer been all this time?’

With the luxury of knowing that there was little of her past Nance was ignorant of, Maryann told her: Joel, the
Esther Jane
, Charnwood, Evan and Roland Musson. And finally meeting Darius
and Joel again, and what had happened when she went to see her mom – only Nance kept chipping in.

‘You were never on the cut all that time, were yer? They’re a rough lot, them canal workers – they’re like gypos!’

She oohed and aahed when Maryann told her about Joel and Roland Musson and listened spellbound when she got to the bit about seeing Flo again. Maryann poured out everything, how she felt about
Joel and how sick he was and how Darius was going to be forced to sell the
Esther Jane
.

When there was a gap in the flow, Nance put her head on one side and said, ‘You’re in love with ’im – really in love, ain’t yer?’

Maryann smiled bashfully. ‘Am I?’ she said in wonder. ‘Yes – I do love ’im. I
do
. I’m going to spend every minute I can with ’im and try and
’elp ’im get better. I’ve missed spending so much time with him – all those years, and ’e could’ve married someone else but ’e daint.’

‘In love . . .’ Nance said wistfully. ‘Well, yer one up on me there, Maryann.’

‘Nance – I know this is a cheek with me coming breezing back in after all this time – but could I stop ’ere with you a while? Only I ain’t got nowhere else to go
and I’ve got to be near Joel. I’ve got money saved – I can pay my way and that.’

Nance looked hesitant for a moment. Then her face cleared. ‘’Course yer can. I’d love to ’ave the company with ole misery guts coming ’ome kalied every night.
Don’t take no notice of Mick if ’e says anything. You can stay and that’s that.’

‘Ta, Nance – oh, it is good to see you!’

Nance grinned. ‘Seems like yer never left.’

Maryann couldn’t help feeling it didn’t seem quite like that to her. ‘Did you ’ear anything about where ’e went – Mr Griffin?’

Nance shook her head. ‘No, but by all accounts ’e left only a week or two after the fire. Our mom went to see yours but she wouldn’t even open the door to ’er. It
weren’t long before she ’ad to move back over Sheepcote Lane but she still ’ad a smell under ’er nose – sorry to say it, Maryann, but Flo always thought she was above
us. We ain’t ’ardly seen ’er: she don’t want nothing to do with my family.’

‘I know,’ Maryann said apologetically. She was frowning. ‘Norman Griffin can’t’ve gone that far, yer know. I wonder if ’is mom’s still alive – he
was all over ’er.’

Nance shrugged. ‘Good riddance to ’im I’d’ve said. Any’ow, you don’t want to go asking questions about where ’e is, do yer? What about what you did to
’is business?’

‘No, I s’pose . . . But, Nance – what about Tony? I’ve got to see ’im. I’ve written to ’im and Billy ever since I left. How is ’e? D’you
ever see ’im?’

‘Oh – Tony’s awright. ’E’s got a job carrying hods for Paddy Murphy. Going to be a brickie. ’E’s a strong lad and ’e’s doing awright.
I’ve seen him about now and then.’

‘Does ’e ever say anything about me?’

‘Said ’e’d heard from yer – nowt else.’

Maryann sighed, holding out her cup as Nance offered more tea. ‘I saw Billy. ’E barely knew who I was.’

‘Well, yer been gone a good while. You can’t expect them to be all over yer from the word go.’

‘No, I s’pose not . . .’ Maryann was saying, when the door burst open, kicked by a heavy workman’s boot which set the latch rattling.

‘Oh, ’ere we go,’ Nance said. ‘Oh my God, Maryann!’ She gasped, panic-stricken. ‘I’ve forgotten all about making tea! Oh Jesus, I’ll be for it
now!’

She stood up as a stocky, dark-haired man stumped into the room. He had ruddy skin and a weatherbeaten complexion with lines under his eyes that were almost creases. Maryann’s first
thought was, but he’s so
old
! She realized then that he was no older than Joel, but she had expected Nance’s husband to be much closer to her own age. Mick Mallone must have been
nearer to forty than thirty and looked rough with it. He was swaying from the drink and stood looking at the pair of them. Maryann stood up as well.

‘’Oo the ’ell’s this?’ Mick demanded.

‘No, Mick – don’t start,’ Nance said. ‘This is my pal Maryann – I told you about ’er. I’ve said ’er can stop ’ere with us for a bit,
’cause ’er ain’t got nowhere else to go.’

He gave Maryann a mere glance. ‘Where’s my dinner?’

‘I’m going out to get us fish and chips,’ Maryann said quickly. ‘And I’ll take Lizzie and Mary home. Give us a few minutes and I’ll be back.’

As she went to the door, Nance shot her a powerful look of gratitude.

Carrying the fish and chips back down the road, warm and delicious smelling in their newspaper, Maryann realized how hungry she was. What a long, long day it had been! But she
felt relieved after pouring her heart out to Nance. She tried to keep the thought of her mother out of her mind and instead recalled the look in Joel’s eyes when she had told him she loved
him. This made her so happy that she grinned at a group of children out playing, remembering how she used to play out just round the corner, waiting for her dad to come home.

Back at Nance’s she found Mick slumped asleep over the table. She could hear Nance moving about upstairs and, leaving the bundles beside Mick’s head, she crept up the creaky stairs
to find her.

‘That you, Maryann?’

‘Yes – I’ve got the fish and chips. Mick’s asleep I think.’

Nance rolled her eyes. ‘Best thing. We’ll wake ’im up for ’is tea. I was just making up the bed for yer.’

Once again Maryann was struck by how middle-aged Nance seemed. ‘Ta, Nance – I dunno what I’d do without yer.’

‘Well – pals, eh?’ Nance said quite bashfully. Suddenly for a moment they were little girls again. ‘Never found another pal quite like you.’

Maryann grinned. ‘No – nor me.’

They woke Mick up and he sat blearily with them as they all ate out of the newspaper. The fish and chips tasted to Maryann like some of the best food she’d ever had.

‘D’you get work from Marron again?’ Nance asked Mick cautiously. He nodded, mouth full of chips. ‘What about tomorrer?’

‘Maybe.’

Maryann watched him out of the corner of her eye. Nance had told her he could only find work as a casual labourer, bits here, bits there, hanging about early morning with groups of men all
looking to be taken on. Long, gruelling days in builder’s yards or toiling on roads, and no security. She thought of Evan with his soft cheeks and his soft job at Charnwood, his certainty of
‘getting on’, and she pitied Mick Mallone. He took no notice of her at all and behaved as if she wasn’t there, but she didn’t really mind.

Later, when they’d all gone up to bed, Mick and Nance were arguing next door. Every word of it floated through to her as she lay on the lumpy mattress in the back bedroom.

‘Yer’ve never got a word to say to me when yer get in – they get more out of yer down the pub than I ever do. You just expect me to be ’ere like a skivvy – tea on
the table the minute you set foot in the door . . .’

‘Yes – I do!’ Mick yelled, his Kerry accent thickened by drink. ‘And I don’t think that’s too much to expect you to manage when you’re here all day.
You’ve got no one else but yourself to think about, now have you?’

‘Well, if I ain’t got a babby coming whose fault’s that then, eh?’

‘Shut your blathering mouth, woman!’ There was a sound of struggling.

‘Stop it, Mick! Yer cowing filthy navvy, don’t yer touch me!’ Then a cry of pain. ‘’Ow – you bastard!’

‘Fuckin’ barren bitch!’

On and on they went, the shouting getting louder. Maryann sat up, all tensed up. Was this what always happened at night? Or did Nance need her help? There was another sharp yell of pain from
Nancy and Maryann pushed back the bedclothes, her heart pounding, ready to rush in next door. Maybe her visit had provoked Mick beyond what was normal.

Suddenly all went quiet. She sat on the edge of the bed listening. Gradually another sound rose from the next-door room. Listening in disbelief she realized it was weeping she could hear. Mick
Mallone’s weeping.

Drunken bastard! she thought. He’s knocked Nance about and now ’e’s gone all maudlin and sorry for ’imself!

But she heard Nance’s voice, soft now but with an edge of impatience, saying ‘there there’ and ‘it’s awright’ until Maryann heard them climbing into bed, and
at last there was quiet until Mick started snoring.

‘I’m sorry about the row last night,’ Nance said next morning. She was downstairs before Maryann. Mick had already gone. Her lip was cut and very swollen. She
handed Maryann a cup of tea.

‘Oh Nance – you shouldn’t ’ave to put up with that! Have you bathed your lip? That looks ever so sore.’

‘I’m awright.’

‘Does that happen often?’

Nance gave a bitter laugh. ‘Not every night, if that’s what yer mean. Look—’ She turned, holding her teacup cradled next to her chest. ‘You ’ave to understand
– about me and Mick. I married ’im to get out of ’ome. ’E married me ’cause ’e wanted someone –
anyone
. ’E ’ad a wife before me –
Theresa O’Sullivan she was before she married ’im. Mick doted on ’er. She was nice so far as I remember – sweet natured, gentle like. Died three year ago. They never
’ad any kids. Broke Mick’s heart. ’E thought they never caught for a babby ’cause of ’er. Thought she weren’t the type. Too weak and frail. But it ain’t
’appening with me neither and ’e’s starting to think it’s ’im – probably is ’im I reckon and that ain’t easy for a man to come to terms with.
’E don’t love me – not really and I don’t love ’im. But I feel for ’im. ’E used to be a fine man.’

‘But ’e knocks you about, Nance!’

‘I can stand up for myself,’ she said with a sigh. ‘You don’t really know what the last few years’ve been like shut away out in the country, do yer? There’ve
been that many out of work and the Means Test. It’s been bitter ’ard for the men.’ She put her cup down. ‘I took what I could, Maryann. Couldn’t see much else on offer
. . .’ Her hands went over her face suddenly.

‘Oh Nance—’ Maryann went to comfort her as her shoulders began to shake.

‘And now I don’t think ’e’ll even give me a babby either. I try not to mind, but I don’t know ’ow I’m going to face being married to Mick if it’s
just ’im and me and no one else for the rest of our lives!’

Maryann spent the morning with Nance, helping her out round the house and listening to her pour her heart out. Whatever brave face Nance was putting on about her marriage,
however much she tried to laugh it off, Maryann could see how unhappy she was. She was thinking about Nance as she travelled to the hospital that afternoon to see Joel.

I’ll slip Nance a bit of extra money to treat herself, Maryann thought. She had her savings and she wasn’t going to go scrounging off Nance and Mick – she’d pay her
board. But she could try and cheer Nance up a bit too.