I remembered him. I put down “spade beard,” no name. Charlotte stayed close to me as we walked back into the room. Pat was picking up the list as his men finished and cross-checking them to see if the stories held water. A couple had the names confused, but they were soon adjusted. When all were in we compared them.
Not a single one was without an alibi. And it didn't seem sensible that Wilder and Sherman should have run offâthey had been accounted for, too. Pat and I let out a steady stream of curses without stopping. When we got our breaths Pat instructed his men to get names and addresses of everyone present and told them to inform the guests that they had better stay within reaching distance or else.
He was right. It was practically an impossibility to hold that many people there at once. It looked like we were still following a hopeless trail.
Most of the cars left at once. Pat had a cop handing out the coats since he didn't want anyone messing up the murder room. I went up with Charlotte to get hers. The cop pulled out her blue job with the white wolf collar and I helped her into it.
Mary was still out so I didn't say good-bye to her. Esther was at the door downstairs, as calm as ever, seeing the guests out, even being nice to the ones that didn't belong there.
I shook hands with her and told her I'd see her soon and Charlotte and I left. Instead of driving up, she had taken the train, so we both got into my car and started back.
Neither one of us spoke much. As the miles passed under my wheels I got madder and madder. The circle. It started with Jack and had ended with him. The killer finally got around to Myrna. It was crazy. The whole pattern was bugs. Now my motive was completely shot to hell. Myrna fitted in nowhere. I heard a sob beside me and caught Charlotte wiping tears from her eyes. That was easy to see. She had taken a liking to Myrna.
I put my arm around her and squeezed. This must seem like a nightmare to her. I was used to death sitting on my doorstep, she wasn't. Maybe when the dragnet brought in Wilder and Sherman there would be an answer to something. People just don't run away for nothing. The outsider. The answer to the question. Could either of them have been the outsider that belonged in the plot? Very possible. It seemed more possible now than ever. Manhunt. The things the cops were best at. Go get them. Don't miss. If they try to run, kill the bastards. I don't care if I don't get them myself, so long as someone does. No glory. justice.
When I stopped in front of Charlotte's place I had to stop thinking. I looked at my watch. Well after midnight. I opened the door for her.
“Want to come up?”
“Not tonight, darling,” I said. “I want to go home and think.”
“I understand. Kiss me good night.” She held out her face and I kissed her. How I loved that girl. I'd be glad when this was over with and we could get married.
“Will I see you tomorrow?”
I shook my head. “I doubt it. If I can find time I'll call you.”
“Please, Mike,” she begged, “try to make it. Otherwise I can't see you until Tuesday.”
“What's the matter with Monday?” I asked her.
“Esther and Mary are coming back to the city and I promised to have supper with them. Esther is more upset than you realize. Mary will get over it fast enough, but her sister isn't like that. You know how women are when they get in a spot.”
“Okay, baby If I don't see you tomorrow, I'll give you a call Monday and see you Tuesday. Maybe then we can go get that ring.”
This time I gave her a long kiss and watched her disappear into the building. I had some tall thinking to do. Too many had died. I was afraid to let it go further. It had to be now or not at all. I tooled the jalopy back to the garage, parked it and went upstairs to bed.
CHAPTER 13
S
unday was a flop. It opened with the rain splattering against the windows and the alarm shattering my eardrums. I brought my fist down on the clock, swearing at myself because I set it automatically when I didn't have to get up at all.
This was one day when I didn't have to shower or shave. I burned my breakfast as usual and ate it while I was in my underwear. When I was stacking the dishes, I glanced at myself in the mirror, and a dirty, unkempt face glared back at me. On days like this I look my ugliest.
Fortunately, the refrigerator was well stocked with beer. I pulled out two quarts, got a glass from the cabinet, a spare pack of butts, and laid them beside my chair. Then I opened the front door and the papers fell to the floor. Very carefully, I separated the funnies from the pile, threw the news section in the waste basket and began the day.
I tried the radio after that. I tried pacing the floor. Every ash tray was filled to overflowing. Nothing seemed to help. Occasionally I would flop in the chair and put my head in my hands and try to think. But whatever I did, I invariably came up with the same answer. Stymied. Nuts.
Something was trying to get out. I knew it. I could feel it. Way back in the recesses of my mind a little detail was gnawing its way through, screaming to be heard, but the more it gnawed, the greater were the defenses erected to prevent its escaping.
Not a hunch. A fact. Some small, trivial fact. What was it? Could it be the answer? Something was bothering me terrifically. I tried some more beer. No. No. No ... no ... no ... no ... no. The answer wouldn't come. How must our minds be made? So complicated that a detail gets lost in the maze of knowledge. Why? That damn ever-present WHY. There's a why to everything. It was there, but how to bring it out? I tried thinking around the issue, I tried to think through it. I even tried to forget it, but the greater the effort, the more intense the failure.
I never noticed the passage of time. I drank, I ate, it was dark out and I turned the lights on and drank some more. Hours and minutes and seconds. I fought, but lost. So I fought again. One detail. What was it? What was it?
The refrigerator was empty all of a sudden and I fell into bed exhausted. It never broke through. That night I dreamed the killer was laughing at me. A killer whose face I couldn't see. I dreamed that the killer had Jack and Myrna and the rest of them hanging in chains, while I tried in vain to beat my way through a thin partition of glass with a pair of .45's to get to them. The killer was unarmed, laughing fiendishly, as I raved and cursed, but the glass wouldn't break. I never got through.
I awoke with a bad taste in my mouth. I brushed my teeth, but that didn't get rid of the taste. I looked out the window. Monday was no better than the day before. The rain was coming down in buckets. I couldn't stand to be holed up any longer, so I shaved and got dressed, then donned a raincoat and went out to eat. It was twelve then; when I finished it was one. I dropped in a bar and ordered one highball after another. The next time I looked at the clock it was nearly six.
That was when I reached in my pocket for another pack of cigarettes. My hand brushed an envelope. Damn, I could have kicked myself. I asked the bartender where the nearest drugstore was and he directed me around the corner.
The place was about to close, but I made it. I took the envelope out and asked him if he could test an unknown substance for me. The guy agreed reluctantly. Together we shook the stuff on to a piece of paper and he took it into the back. It didn't take long. I was fixing my tie in front of a mirror when he came back. He handed me the envelope with a suspicious glance. On it he had written one word.
Heroin.
I looked in the mirror again. What I saw turned the blood in my veins to liquid ice. I saw my eyes dilate. The mirror. The mirror and that one word. I shoved the envelope into my pocket viciously and handed the druggist a fin.
I couldn't talk. There was a crazy job bubbling inside me that made me go alternately hot and cold. If my throat hadn't been so tight I could have screamed. All this time. Not time wasted, because it had to be this way. Happy, happy. How could I be so happy? I had the WHY, but how could I be so happy? It wasn't right. I beat Pat to it after all. He didn't have the WHY Only I did.
Now I knew who the killer was.
And I was happy. I walked back to the bar.
I took a last drag on the cigarette and flipped it spinning into the gutter, then turned and walked into the apartment house. Someone made it easy for me by not closing the lobby door tightly. No use taking the elevator, there was still plenty of time. I walked up the stairs wondering what the finale would be like.
The door was locked but I expected that. The second pick I used opened it. Inside, the place was filled with that curious stillness evident in an empty house. There was no need to turn on the lights, I knew the layout well enough. Several pieces of furniture were fixed in my mind. I sat down in a heavy chair set catercorner against the two walls. The leaves of a rubber plant on a table behind the chair brushed against my neck. I pushed them away and slid down into the lushness of the cushions to make myself comfortable, then pulled the .45 from its holster and snapped the safety off.
I waited for the killer.
Yes, Jack, this is it, the end. It took a long time to get around to it, but I did. I know who did it now. Funny, the way things worked out, wasn't it? All the symptoms were backwards. I had the wrong ones figured for it until the slip came. They all make that one slip. That's what the matter is with these cold-blooded killers; they plan, oh, so well. But they have to work all the angles themselves, while we have many heads working the problem out. Yeah, we miss plenty, but eventually someone stumbles on the logical solution. Only this one wasn't logical. It was luck. Remember what I promised you? I'd shoot the killer, Jack, right in the gut where you got it. Right where everyone could see what he had for dinner. Deadly, but he wouldn't die fast. It would take a few minutes. No matter who it turned out to be, Jack, I'd get the killer. No chair, no rope, just the one slug in the gut that would take the breath from the lungs and the life from the body. Not much blood, but I would be able to look at the killer dying at my feet and be glad that I kept my promise to you. A killer should die that way. Hard, nasty. No fanfare except the blast of an unsilenced .45 going off in a small, closed room. Yeah, Jack, no matter whom it turned out to be, that's the way death would come. Just like you got it. I know who did it. In a few minutes the killer will walk in here and see me sitting in this chair. Maybe the killer will try to talk me out of it, maybe even kill again, but I don't kill easy. I know all the angles. Besides, I got a rod in my fist, waiting. Waiting. Before I do it I'll make the killer sweatâand tell me how it happened, to see if I hit it right. Maybe I'll even give the rat a chance to get me. More likely not. I hate too hard and shoot too fast. That's why people say the things about me that they do. That's why the killer would have had to try for me soon. Yes, Jack, it's almost finished. I'm waiting. I'm waiting.
The door opened. The lights flicked on. I was slumped too low in the chair for Charlotte to see me. She took her hat off in front of the wall mirror. Then she saw my legs sticking out. Even under the make-up I could see the color drain out of her face.
(Yes, Jack, Charlotte. Charlotte the beautiful. Charlotte the lovely. Charlotte who loved dogs and walked people's babies in the park. Charlotte whom you wanted to crush in your arms and feel the wetness of her lips. Charlotte of the body that was fire and life and soft velvet and responsiveness. Charlotte the killer.)
She smiled at me. It was hard to tell that it wasn't forced, but I knew it.
She knew I knew
it. And she knew why I was here. The .45 was levelled straight at her stomach.
Her mouth smiled at me, her eyes smiled at me, and she looked pleased, so glad to see me, just as she had always been. She was almost radiant when she spoke. “Mike, darling. Oh, baby, I'm so glad to see you. You didn't call like you promised and I've been worried. How did you get in? Oh, but Kathy is always leaving the door open. She's off tonight.” Charlotte started to walk toward me. “And please, Mike, don't clean that awful gun here. It scares me.”
“It should,” I said.
She stopped a few feet away from me, her face fixed on mine. Her brows creased in a frown. Even her eyes were puzzled. If it were anyone but me they'd never have known she was acting. Christ, she was good! There was no one like her. The play was perfect, and she wrote, directed and acted all the parts. The timing was exact, the strength and character she put into every moment, every expression, every word was a crazy impossibility of perfection. Even now she could make me guess, almost build a doubt in my mind, but I shook my head slowly.
“No good, Charlotte, I know.”
Her eyes opened wider. Inside me I smiled to myself. Her mind must have been racing with fear.
She
remembered my promise to Jack. She couldn't forget it. Nobody could, because I'm me and I always keep a promise. And this promise was to get the killer, and she was the killer. And I had promised to shoot the killer in the stomach.
She walked to an end table and picked a cigarette from a box, then lit it with a steady hand. That's when I knew, too, that she had figured an out. I didn't want to tell her that it was a useless out. The gun never left her a second.
“But...”
“No,” I said, “let me tell you, Charlotte. I was a little slow in catching on, but I got it finally. Yesterday I would have dreaded this, but not now. I'm glad. Happier than I've been in a long time. It was the last kill. They were so different. So damn cold-blooded that I had it figured for a kill-crazy hood or an outsider. You were lucky. Nothing seemed to tie up, there were so many complications. It jumped around from one thing to another, yet every one of those things was part of the same basic motive.