The Magus, A Revised Version (79 page)

‘
Good. Here is Joe. This is what we call the
d
é
sintoxication.
’

It was the Negro, strolling up from the beach path in an elegant dark-tan suit, a pink shirt, a club tie, dark glasses. He raised an easy hand as he saw us waiting for him and came across the gravel; a smile at Conchis, a dry quirk of the mouth in my direction.

‘
This is Joe Harrison.
’

‘
Hi.
’

I said nothing. He gave a little side-glance at Conchis, then reached out a hand.
‘
Sorry, friend. Just did what master said.
’

He was American, not West Indian. Once more I ignored the hand.

‘
With some conviction.
’

‘
Yeah, well
–
of course we niggers are all first cousin to apes. You call us eunuchs, we just don
’
t understand.
’
He said it lightly, as if it didn
’
t matter any more.

‘
I didn
’
t mean that.
’

‘
Okay.
’

We exchanged a wary look, then he turned to Conchis.
‘
They
’
re coming to pick up the stuff.
’

Conchis said,
‘
I have some last things upstairs.
’

I was left standing there with Joe. More figures appeared on the path, four or five sailors in their navy-blue singlets and white shorts. Four looked like Greeks, but one, with pale blond hair, looked Scandinavian or German. The girls had hardly talked about the crew
–
they were just
‘
Greek sailors
’
. I felt a new prick of jealousy, and a deeper one of uncertainty
–
I truly began to feel now that I was discarded, a mere encumbrance … and a fool. They all knew I was a fool. I eyed Joe, who was leaning idly against one of the arches. He seemed a poor bet, but my only one.

‘
Where are the girls?
’

His dark glasses lazily surveyed me.
‘
In Athens.
’
But then his look swivelled briefly back towards the doors through which the old man had disappeared. He glanced at me again with the trace of a rueful smile. Then he shook his head, once, with a kind of shared sympathy.

‘
W
hat does that mean?
’
He gave a small shrug: that was the way it was. I said,
‘
You
’
re speaking from experience?
’

He murmured softly,
‘
Could be.
’

The sailors came up past us and went to the crates. Then Hermes appeared beside the house, carrying more suitcases over the gravel down towards the beach. Maria followed him in her finery, a few steps behind. Joe lounged away from the column and came a step or two towards me, holding out a packet of American cigarettes. I hesitated, then took one, bent to the light he
off
ered. He spoke in a low voice.

‘
She said to say sorry.
’
I sought his eyes as they lifted from lighting
his own cigarette.
‘
No bullshit. She meant it. Right?
’
Still I stared at him. Once again Iris eyes slipped past me towards the doors, as if he didn
’
t want to be caught talking confidentially to me.
‘
Man, you
’
re holding a lousy pair against a full house. No chance.
Compris
?’

Somehow that convinced me, though totally against my will, more than anything that the old man himself had said. I was almost tempted to give Joe some bitter message back, but before I could frame it, it was too late. Conchis stood in the doorway with a small
suitcase. He spoke to one of the sailors in Greek. Joe touched my arm,
again almost as if in secret sympathy, and then moved forward to take the case from Conchis
’
s hand. As he came back past me, he pulled a face.

‘
Know the one about the white man
’
s burden? They make it, we carry it.
’

He raised a hand in casual farewell, then set
off
after Hermes and
Maria. The sailors moved
off
with the crates, and I was left once more
alone with Conchis. He opened his hands, unsmiling, almost taunting : I had better believe him now.

I said,
‘
You haven
’
t heard the last of me.
’

‘
I should not be foolish. Money goes a long way in this country.
’

‘
And sadism, apparently.
’

He examined me one last time.
‘
Hermes will return to lock up in a minute.
’
I said nothing.
‘
You had your chance. I suggest you reflect on what it is in you that caused you to miss it.
’

‘
Go to hell.
’

He said absolutely nothing, simply fixed my eyes, as if he could hypnotize me into a retraction.

I said,
‘
I mean that.
’

A moment, then he slowly shook his head.
‘
You do not know your meaning yet. Or mine.
’

Then
–
he must have known I should not have taken his hand
–
he moved past me. But at the steps he stopped and turned.

‘
I forgot. My sadism does not extend to your stomach. Hermes will give you a packed lunch. It is prepared.
’

He was some way across the gravel before I could think of a parting shot. I shouted it after him.

‘
Hydrocyanic acid sandwiches?
’

But he took no notice. I felt like running after him, catching his arm, detaining him by force, anything; and equally knew myself powerless. Hermes appeared on his way back from the beach, beyond Conchis. I heard the sound of the power dinghy going out on a first ferry to the yacht. The two men stopped, exchanged a word, shook hands, then the donkey-driver came on towards me. Conchis went down out of sight. Hermes stood at the foot of the steps and presented me with his morose wall eye; then lifted a bunch of keys. I spoke in Greek.

‘
The two girls
–
are they on the yacht?
’

He frogged his mouth: he did not know.

‘
Have you seen them today?
’

His chin went up: no.

I turned disgustedly away. Hermes followed me indoors, even up the stairs, but he abandoned me at the door of my bedroom and went
off
to lock windows and shutters elsewhere … not that I noticed that, because I had no sooner entered my room when I saw that I had been left a parting present. It lay on the pillow: an envelope stuffed full of Greek currency notes. I counted them out: twenty million
drachmai.
Even allowing for the acute inflation of the time, that was well over two hundred pounds, more than a third of my annual salary. I knew then why the old man had slipped upstairs before he left. The money, with its implicit suggestion that I too could be bought, enraged me; it was the final humiliation. At the same time it was a lot of money. I thought of rushing down to the jetty and throwing it all in his face
–
there was still time, the powerboat had to unload and return; but I thought only. When I heard Hermes returning, I hastily stuffed the money inside my duffel-bag.

He watched in the doorway while I packed the rest of my few things; and once more followed me downstairs, as if my every movement had to be watched.

A last look round the music-room, at the nail, the mark on the empty wall, where the Modigliani had hung; a moment or two later I was standing alone under the colonnade listening to Hermes while he locked the music-room door from inside. I heard the boat returning below, I was still tempted to go and … but I had to do something positive, rather than symbolic. With any luck I could talk the village police sergeant into letting me use the coastguard station radio. I was beyond caring whether I made a fool of myself. I nursed one last hope
–
that Conchis had told the twins some new story that made their absence from the island seem plausible to them. It occurred to me that they might have received some equivalent of what he had told me of them, had been persuaded that I was in his pay, lying to Julie throughout … I had to get in touch with them, even if it was finally only to discover that they were as he claimed. But until I heard it straight from them, I would not believe it. I clung to my memory of Julie in the water, Julie at countless moments that must have been sincere; and to her Englishness, all that middle-class and university background we shared. To sell oneself, even to a Conchis, required a kind of humourlessness, a lack of objectivity, a shallowness that lost nothing if it traded decency for luxury, mind for body … but it was no good. However much green English scepticism I tried to set against decadent European venality, I was still left with the mystery of how two such ravishing girls accepted the absence of admirers, kept themselves so in purdah for Conchis; then there was his seeming intellectual hold over Julie, his wealth, a certain air both girls betrayed of being more used to this life of luxury than they pretended. I gave up.

I heard Hermes come out by the seldom-used door with the dolphin knocker under the side-colonnade, and start locking it. I decided: the faster I set things in motion, the better. I turned and marched for the gate, jumping
off
the edge of the colonnade on to the gravel. Hermes called sharply from the door.

‘
The food,
kyrios!
’

I waved a hand at him without stopping: to hell with food also. I saw his donkey, bulging sacks alr
eady tied to its back, tethered
beside the cottage door. As if in some idiotic fear of not carrying out Conchis
’
s orders to the letter, the islander ran down the colonnade and over the bare earth to where the beast was tethered. I went on past, taking no notice of him, though I half saw that he snatched something from the shade inside the doorway. Then I heard his hurried footsteps on the gravel behind me. I turned to wave him angrily away again. But I stopped, my hand frozen.

What he held out was a rush basket. It was one I had seen before, beside Julie, during our long Sunday together. I stared slowly up from it to Hermes
’
s eyes. He held it a shade closer, coaxingly, for me to take. Then he said in Greek, You must. For the first time since I had known him, there was the ghost of a smile on his face.

Still I hesitated. Then I dropped my duffel-bag and took the basket and pulled it open: two apples, two oranges, two packages wrapped in white paper and neatly tied
–
and beneath, half hidden, the gold foil of the neck of a bottle of French champagne. I shifted one of the sandwich packets to see the label: Krug. I looked up with what must have seemed a childish bewilderment. He said one word.

‘
Perimeni.
’

She waits.

Then he nodded behind him, back towards the cliffs east of the private beach. I looked, expecting to see a figure. In the silence I heard the boat returning from the yacht. This time Hermes pointed, then repeated the same word.

You do not know my meaning yet.

To preserve some semblance of dignity, I walked as far as the steps across the gulley; but there I could hold back no longer and raced down them, and up the other side. The statue of Poseidon stood in the sun, but on this occasion somewhat less than majestically. A home-made notice, flapping in the breeze like a forgotten garment on a line, had been suspended from the outstretched arm. It showed only an indicating hand, but it pointed through the trees towards the cliffs. I strode down through the bushes into the pines.

⁵⁶

Almost at once I spotted her through the thin trees. She stood at the cliff-edge, in pale blue trousers, a dark-blue shirt, a pink sun-hat, and she was looking towards me. I waved, and she waved back
–
but then, to my surprise, instead of coming towards me, she turned and went out of sight down the steep slope immediately above the sheer cliff. I was too relieved, too elated, to think much of it
–
perhaps she wanted to signal to the yacht that all was well. I broke into a run. Not twenty-five seconds passed between my first seeing her and my arrival at where she had stood … and where I now stood myself incredulously. The ground fell away steeply for some twenty yards before it came to the lip of the cliff proper. There was nowhere to hide, a litter of small rocks and scree, a few patches of scrub not a foot high; but she had completely disappeared. No one as conspicuously dressed … I dropped the basket and my duffel-bag and went along the top of the slope in the direction she had taken … but it was pointless. There were no large rocks, no secret gulleys. I scrambled down to the very edge of the cliff, but only a trained climber could have descended there, and then only with a rope.