Authors: David Hair,David Hair
Prologue
â the girl with the porcelain doll
Auckland, 1956
W
henever the girl heard the crunch of boots on the gravel path outside, she imagined that her father had come to take her away. So when she heard the telltale sound, she picked up her one-eyed porcelain doll, smoothed its perfectly combed hair and tea-stained christening gown, and took it to the window. Brushing aside the mouldy lace curtains, she wiped a hole in the condensation on the glass, then gasped as a big eye peered through the circle she had made.
âMummy!' she squealed, leaping back, letting the curtains fall. âThere's a man at the door!'
That eye kept following her.
âI'm sure it's not Father, Rose,' she told the doll as she backed away. âFather is a soldier.'
Rose looked doubtful.
You don't know that
, the doll whispered.
Mummy never said he was a soldier
.
âHe is too,' the girl insisted. âHe's a captain!'
The horrid eye continued to follow her.
She heard Mummy bustle through the house from the laundry, the floor creaking beneath her feet. âWho is it?'
Mummy asked crossly. âI'm in the middle of my laundry. Go and put your underwear through the wringer!'
The girl's face fell. She hated doing washing. The grey soapy water that came off the clothes when they were wrung looked horrid and it made her feel that all of her clothes were coated in grime. She only pretended to go to the laundry, then crept back, wrinkling her nose at the cigarette smoke that trailed her mother. The tiny downstairs apartment off Ponsonby Road always smelt bad, like cooking fat and damp rot. The girl hated it.
She watched her mother primp in the cracked hall mirror.
Mummy is ugly
, Rose whispered meanly.
âYou shouldn't say that,' the girl whispered back.
She is too. She's fat and ugly and not really your mother. She's just a cleaner and the priest says she has âlow moral character'. I heard him. We should run away.
The girl quivered a little. âShhh!' she told Rose, not wanting her mother to overhear. She had been thinking a lot about running away, but she wasn't quite ready yet. The little shopping bag she had filched from Mummy's cupboard had only a few copper coins that she had found in the gutters, a pair of shoes she had stolen from a girl at school, and three ribbons. She would need more for her escape. âSoon, Rose,' she told the doll placatingly, watching her mother undo her top button.
Maybe it was a new man-friend who would leave money.
Her mother rallied her tired face, and tilted her hips as she fumbled with the deadbolt. âHello, who is it?' she called through the mail slot, in
that
voice.
âNessie,' a man's voice purred, just like that frightening cat in the âAlice' book the teacher was reading aloud at school. The
girl felt a quiver of fear and excitement, a tremble that tickled the whole of her spine. She watched in fascination as her mother suddenly clutched the wall, her whole frame wobbling.
âAsher ⦠?' Mummy breathed in a strangled voice. She took two steps away from the door, pressing onto the wall as if her legs were failing.
âMummy?' the girl whispered.
Her mother threw a look back over her shoulder. âEdith, go to your room.' Her voice was frightened, but the instruction was normal. Whenever a man-friend came to give Mummy money, she had to go to her room. Why did Mummy sound so scared this time?
She tried to scuttle past her mother, when the key turned in the lock of its own volition. Her mother whimpered, and she grabbed her daughter, dragging her back towards the kitchen. The girl squealed in protest, her heel lashing against her mother's shin. âLemme go! Lemme go!' Her mother cried out, and dropped her. Then the key turned, and the door flew open.
The man in the doorway looked like an actor from a stage show. He wore a velvet robe and cloak, and a floppy plumed hat. In his right hand was a long wooden cane, polished ebony with a crystal knob.
The girl's mother stopped moving. âAsher? Asher?'
The man smiled, his lined face lighting up although his eyes remained cold. âNessie. It's been a long time.'
The girl watched her mother's face drain of colour. But she struggled to her feet. âWhat do you want?'
âOnly what is mine, sweet Nessie.' He pointed his finger at the girl, who stared at that crooked talon with its overlong nails and almost wet herself. âI've come for her.'
âNo,' Mummy breathed. âNo! You have no right. Not after eight years!'
The man reached out his ring-encrusted hand to the girl. âHas it been so long?' He shrugged and looked at the girl directly. âHello, child. What is your name?'
Mummy jerked the girl to her breast and wrapped her arms about her, as if she wanted to crush her. âDon't answer him. Don't ever talk to him!' The girl struggled, frightened and fascinated, peering out at the man as he bent closer. âShe's mine!' Mummy gritted in a voice the girl had never heard. âGet away from us!'
The man straightened, and then gestured with his cane. Mummy dropped her, and she fell to the floor with a squeal. Another sweep of the cane, and Mummy flew backwards through the air, slamming into the back wall. She didn't fall, but hung there, her mouth open and eyes pleading.
The girl clutched Rose, too scared to breathe.
âPlease, Asher,' Mummy pleaded.
She's pathetic
, Rose whispered in her ear.
The girl was too scared to acknowledge the doll's opinion. She just stared up at this elegant creature towering over her, as her brain made connections. âFather?'
His eyes turned to her. âYes, child. You are my daughter.'
Mummy sobbed, still held invisibly pinned to the wall. âAsher! Please! You ruined me. My family threw me out. I've raised her on my own! On my own! She's mine!'
Asher made a flicking noise with his hand, and her mother reacted as if slapped, her face jerking aside with an audible crack. âSilence, Nessie. She is my daughter, and I claim her.' He lifted a single finger and made a zipping gesture. The girl
watched as her mother suddenly lost the power to open her mouth, although she visibly tried, her cheeks and eyes bulging.
Don't feel sorry for her
, Rose told her.
She deserves it. She has loose morals.
âAre you really my father?' the girl asked.
He bowed floridly. âI am,' he said grandly, and handed her a rose that appeared in his hand. âMy name is Asher Grieve.' She took the rose and sniffed it, but it had no smell.
âMy name is Edith Madonna Kyle,' she replied proudly. âBut Edith is a horrid name. Rose calls me Donna.'
âThen Donna you shall be,' Asher told her. He reached down and offered her a hand.
Mother tried to move, as tears spurted from her eyes.
âSay goodbye to your mother,' Asher Grieve told her. âYou will not see her again.'
The girl straightened. âI don't need to. She's
pathetic
.'
She turned away, and didn't look back.
Â
They stood in a clearing in a forest that she had never seen before. The air was so clean, without even a trace of smoke, and the pool was fed by a stream so clean she felt she could drink it all night. The moon hung overhead, and it was the strangest moon ever, because if you looked at it out of the corner of your eye, it had a face in it like a native carving. She thought it weird but pretty, and Rose liked it, too.
Asher Grieve sat on a fallen log, watching her as she washed Rose's dress.
No more grey water
, she thought with satisfaction.
From now on, everything is going to be
clean.
Then the frightening native came. She didn't see how â
one moment he wasn't there, the next he was. He had a mane of silver hair and his whole face was black with the horrible face carving the natives did. Donna wanted to hide her eyes, but she didn't, because Rose told her not to.
Be brave
, she whispered.
âThis is she, I presume?' the man rumbled in the Queen's English.
âAye, she is my daughter,' Father told the native. âShe calls herself Donna Kyle.'
âAnd does she have the potential?' the native asked.
That's odd
, Donna thought.
This man behaves as if he were my father's master, but natives are lesser men; everyone knows that. And my father is
important.
âSee for yourself,' Asher told him. He smiled wryly, and called in a soft voice. âRose, is Donna special?'
The doll's head turned slowly and her one eye flickered towards the man.
She is very special
, she told the two men.
She is the cleverest eight-year-old in all of Auckland
. The doll's out-loud voice was tinkling and clear. Donna felt very proud to be spoken of so, although Rose was her friend and would always say nice things about her.
The native's eyebrows raised fractionally. âAhhh,' was all he said. Then he stood, and offered her father a handshake. âThen we have a bargain,' he said in a resonant voice.
Asher Grieve stood and took the larger man's hand. âYes, Master. That we do. She is yours.'
There was something in his voice that Donna didn't like.
Her father crouched beside her. He lifted her chin. âThis man is Puarata. He is the master tohunga. You belong to him, now.' He put a hand on her head, stroked her blonde curls
briefly, then he straightened. His face lost all interest in her. The earth seemed wafer-thin suddenly, and for the first time she felt truly frightened. She reached out a hand to him, but all at once he was gone, simply not there.
The waters of the stream trickled onwards as if nothing had happened, but she stood there blinking, her mouth open. It occurred to her that she was dreaming all of this.
Then the heavy hand of the native grasped Rose and tore her from Donna's grasp. She screamed, and then felt a sickening wrench inside her as the man tore the doll's head off, and flung the two pieces to the ground. She found herself grovelling in the grass, shrieking in horror and pain at a sensation like having her heart ripped in two.
The tohunga was impassive as he picked her up with one hand, his strength horrifying.
Crack!
His hand slapped her, making her cheek burn and her skull ring. âSILENCE!'
She was frightened mute.
His alien face filled her vision. âThe doll was a prop, dangerously weakening over the long term.' He regarded her coldly, dangling in his grasp like a specimen for inspection. She was too frightened to struggle. âI do not tolerate weakness.'
He lowered her to the ground, and cupped her face, holding her eyes locked in his gaze âMy name is Puarata. I am going to break you down and re-make you, Donna Kyle. I'm going to mould you and fire you like pottery, and when you emerge, you will be everything I want you to be. And you will be utterly mine.' He dropped his voice to a whisper. âThere is only one thing of your past life that I desire you to remember:
that it was your own father who sold you to me.
'