The Law of Becoming: 4 (The Novels of the Jaran) (3 page)

She had just claimed him as her son.

She had just claimed
him
as her
son
! Which made him, by the laws of the jaran, Bakhtiian’s son as well.

He burst into racking sobs and collapsed to his knees in front of her.

A little while later, she knelt down beside him, stroking his hair, murmuring soothing words. “Vasha. Shhh. Don’t cry. Come now, stand up. Here’s something to drink.”

His nose was running, and he wiped at it, at his cheeks, with his sleeve and hid his face with his arm until the worst of it was gone. Then, on unsteady legs, he rose.

Only to face a worse apparition: that of Bakhtiian standing, looking angry and perplexed, holding out to him a cup filled with steaming tea. Vasha hesitated.

“Take it,” snapped Bakhtiian.

Long used to obedience, Vasha obeyed. His hands trembled as he took the proffered cup from the hands of his—from
him.
He shook so badly that a little bit of liquid slopped over the side, stinging his hand. “Thank you,” he murmured.

For some reason the comment made Bakhtiian give an exasperated sigh. “I need to go—” he began.

“No, you don’t,” said the princess mildly. “You need to stay here.”

He grunted, annoyed, and turned his back on them to go stand at the table. He lit another lantern and rolled out a thick slab of parchment that bore many little marks on it, and stared grimly at it, ignoring them.

Vasha drank down the tea. Gods, he was thirsty! The lantern light shadowed the man, but the thing studied lay illuminated. He gathered up his courage. “Is that a map?” he asked softly of the princess.

Bakhtiian glanced back at him. Vasha flinched, afraid he had said something he oughtn’t. Despair swamped him. Now that he was here, he could see how foolish dreams were: He had what he wanted, what his mother had told him was his rightful place, only Bakhtiian didn’t want the unwanted child any more than the Kireyevskys had.

“Yes,” said Bakhtiian curtly. “It is a map.”

There was a long pause.

Grudgingly, Bakhtiian spoke again. “Come look at it.”

Vasha took one step and halted. The princess took his arm, and thus encouraged by her closeness, he went to stand next to his…to his
father.
Together they examined the map.

A
NATOLY SAKHALIN SAT ON
a pillow and stared out the window. His hands lay open on his knees, but it was only by main force of will that he kept his body relaxed. On the street below, bordered by flowers and divided into two paths by a line of scrubby trees running down the middle of the paved surface, women and men passed at odd intervals, intent on their own business but greeting each other as they passed. Close to the trees other people flew by, legs pumping the strange two-wheeled creatures called
bicycles.
Here in the vast city called London, they all wore such strange clothing that Anatoly could not always be sure which were women and which were men. The sun shone down, and squares of light patched the rug on which he sat.

The
flat
lay quiet behind him. That had been their first fight. Twenty days ago he had walked off the
ship
into Diana’s arms, and since that time she had kept him next to her every instant. For the first eight days, they had stayed at her family’s house, and although he liked her rather loud and enthusiastic relatives, they had all, it seemed to him, conspired with her to keep him always under her eye. Then Diana had returned to the city and he, of course, went with her. When she rehearsed, he sat in the
theater
and watched. When she performed, he did the same thing, or waited in her dressing room. She ate with him, slept with him, stuck next to him as a father dogs his daughter’s first steps or as anyone leans over a new-built fire, coaxing it to burn on a windy day.

Gods, it infuriated him. She was sheltering him, damn her. Today he had refused to go with her to the theater. And when she had protested, when she had scolded him, he had finally said what he had known in his heart at that first embrace on the
transfer station
, twenty days past.

“You don’t want me here!”

Any fool could read the look that crossed her face. “But you are here, Anatoly,” she had said, not denying it, damn her twice, “and I’m responsible for you.”

In reply, he had seated himself on the pillow, turning his back to her, and refused to be budged. Eventually she had left.

He felt no triumph in the act, but, by the gods, a prince of the Sakhalin was not a child to be watched over! And yet, the bitter fact remained: Not one soul out there in London, except the members of the repertory company who had spent a year with the jaran, cared or even knew about the Sakhalin tribe, Eldest Tribe of the jaran. None of these khaja had heard of Ilyakoria Bakhtiian, who even now led the jaran army on a gods-inspired mission to unite jaran and khaja lands. Anatoly had left that army to follow his wife to her country, and a damned strange country it was, too.

He had taken a long and confusing and often inexplicable journey to get here to this city called London, to this province (or was it a kingdom?) called England, to this
planet
(that had been explained to him, but he remained skeptical about the truth of the explanation since he was well aware that the khaja honored different gods and thus must believe a different story of the world and of creation than the jaran did) called Earth. And the worst of it was, for all his skill at tracking, for all that he had chased the Habakar king a hundred days’ ride into unknown territory and found his way back with no trouble to Bakhtiian’s army and known lands, he did not know where he was. As terrible as it was to admit it, he did not think that, if he wanted to return, he could find his way back to the plains by himself.

But he refused to return, because it would give his grandmother and Tess Soerensen the satisfaction of knowing they had been right to counsel him not to follow his wife.

These khaja were like grazel, he reflected as he examined the scene outside with distaste. They preferred to clump together in huge herds rather than roaming in smaller, freer groups as did wild horses and the jaran tribes. He felt closed in. And it smelled funny, too.

Like an echo of his thoughts, a familiar scent caught at him, and he turned his head to look back into the flat. While not a particularly large room, it had been furnished with little enough furniture that it almost gave the illusion of a tent as spacious as his grandmother’s. In the doorway leading into the hall, a vision appeared, a woman dressed as any proper, well-born jaran woman would dress. Standing there, she seemed a sudden and stark reminder of what he had left behind.

“I beg your pardon,” said Karolla Arkhanov. “May I come in?”

He rose at once. “Cousin,” he said, acknowledging her in the formal style.

She walked into the room, skirted the couch, and sat down on a pillow opposite him on the rug. Her children trailed after her, the fair-haired, sullen, small boy and the gorgeous daughter who carried the infant Anton in her arms.

“Mama,” said Ilyana in an undertone, shifting her baby brother in her arms as he squirmed to get free and down on the carpet, “we’re supposed to be in school.”

“Hush,” said Karolla, slanting a quick glance at her daughter. The girl did not look like her mother at all. Karolla was a pale, undistinguished, weary-looking woman, and Anatoly found it odd and rather disturbing that she acted more like her husband’s servant than his wife. “It’s a khaja thing, this
school.
There’s no reason you need to go.”

The girl set her lips tight, but to Anatoly’s surprise, she did not protest. The boy flung himself down on the carpet and stared at the flowered wall, or at nothing.

Anatoly got up and went over to Ilyana. “Here, I’ll take the little one,” he offered. Anton was a robust boy, not quite walking yet; solemn, a little grumpy, but coaxable. Anatoly liked holding him. He set the baby on his knee and turned back to Karolla, careful not to look at her directly. “Cousin, I apologize for… my impertinence, but as my wife says, the children must learn khaja ways as well as jaran ways if they are to get along here.” He pretended not to see the grateful glance Ilyana threw his way. Valentin stared dreamy-eyed into the air and did not appear to hear him. Anton wiggled off his lap and crawled over toward his mother, thought better of it, sat up, and began chewing on his fat fist.

Watching him, Anatoly conceived the first element of his campaign to win his wife back. They must have a child, preferably three or four.

“Go on, then, if you want to,” said Karolla suddenly into the silence.

Ilyana leapt to her feet, grabbed Valentin’s wrist and yanked him up, and tugged him out of the room before he seemed aware that his feet were moving. Anatoly heard their feet pound down the stairs. “At their defection, Anton broke into hiccupping little sobs, and at once Karolla pulled him to her lap and let him nurse.

“We shouldn’t be here,” she said in a confiding voice. “The gods cannot approve.”

Irritated, Anatoly nevertheless was far too well-bred to show it. The two situations were scarcely comparable. He had, as was fitting, followed his wife to her people’s tribe. That his wife was also a Singer and thereby touched by the gods (although here on Earth they called her an
actor
) had made his duty all the more clear, and indeed, while the pressure for him to stay with the jaran had become intense, once decided he had not faltered from his choice to follow her.

“We are here,” he said mildly, finally, “and surely that is the duty the gods have given us.”

“To live exiled from our people?” asked Karolla bitterly. Then she answered herself. “But I have always lived in exile from my tribe, since I chose to follow my father and my husband.”

Unnatural acts both, thought Anatoly, but he did not voice the thought aloud, not wishing to hurt her feelings. “These khaja are strange,” he said instead. “Stranger even than the Habakar and the Xiriki-khai.”

“What will you do here?” she asked.

“I will study the lay of the land,” he replied. And thus was born the second element of his campaign, the second prong of attack.

Karolla glanced toward the window and away. “I don’t like it out there,” she said softly.

Anatoly didn’t think he would like it much out there either, but the longer he sat here, the clearer it became that he must go.

“But as long as Bakhtiian can never come here,” added Karolla in a whisper, “then I am content.”

Anatoly risked a glance at her, puzzled by her odd comment, but he could not read her expression.

Karolla excused herself finally and left. Anatoly rose at once and strapped on his saber.

Then he thought better of it, and took it off. He would rather go outside without his shirt than without his saber, but Diana had told him time and again that on no account was he to wear it outside of the flat. He had yet to see anything that looked like a weapon on any of these khaja, indoors or out.

He went down the stairs, touched his hand to the
door panel
, and flinched back slightly when the door opened. Then he descended the five stone steps to the path. He was outside, alone in the great khaja city.

It was noisy. It smelled. But he had thought the same thing about every other khaja city he had been in. It was time to look for the differences, the things that made Diana’s people, Diana’s land, different from the cities of Karkand and Salkh and Jeds.

No horses. No wagons pulled by draft animals. The broad paved paths nearer to the houses were meant for foot traffic. In the center of the street (Diana had made him memorize the name:
Kensington Court Place
) the bicyclists pedaled past. He walked, although he still found it strange to walk and not ride.

On the greater road, next to the huge expanse of trees and short green grass called Kensington Gardens, huge red wheelless wagons called
buses
hummed along above the paved road at a sprinting clip, disgorging and engulfing riders, while the boxier
lorries
seemed, like merchant’s wagons, mostly to be transporting goods. These great wagons puzzled Anatoly because they had no wheels and no scent. Diana called them
solar powered
, and had explained that Mother Sun (only she also claimed that this was a different Mother Sun from the one the jaran knew, so how was he to know whether this was more khaja superstition or the truth?) gifted them with the power to move, and that Father Wind granted them an
air cushion
on which they floated above the ground. He kept walking.

Fruits and vegetables lay in bins, smelling sweet and earthy. At another shop, slabs of meat hung open to the air, but as he approached, confused by their lack of smell, he felt the warning tingle of a
field generator
; Diana had explained to him that, like glass, it protected objects from the open air. He stepped back quickly, not trusting khaja sorcery. Well, he knew it wasn’t sorcery, but he still didn’t trust it. Above awnings, huge images of people and things lay flat against the buildings, holding on by some agency he did not understand (Diana called them
projections
or
billboards
) and here and there, in shop windows and in little tableaus and often moving around, he saw people—whole and living and breathing like himself—that he could see right through. It seemed to him that there were far too many things in Diana’s country that weren’t solid, that didn’t have weight. Once he caught the smell of horses, from somewhere out in the park, but they had the close, pungent scent of khaja horses, boxed into stables. He did not choose to investigate that way…yet.

It was just past midday, hot, a little sticky. A few clouds obscured the sky, and now and again they drew a welcome blanket over Mother Sun’s bright face. Farther along, where the park gave out onto more (more!) buildings, an arch and a statue of a soldier mounted on a horse graced the corner of the park. Pausing here, he felt the ground tremble deep beneath his feet, the dull rumble of the subterranean creatures called the Underground that swallowed and disgorged travelers. But he wanted to go on, not down. He could not
read
any of the signs, but he could manage to cross the great roads alongside other people. That was the other thing: London was an inconceivably great city, filled with people, many of whom walked briskly along beside him or passed beside the walkers on their bicycles or clambered on and off buses or climbed up stairs into the light from the passages below. Yet it did not have the intense, galloping pace of Jeds, whose streets had been crowded with wagons and horses and animals and people in a hideous roar of activity that had reminded Anatoly of the chaos of the attack on Karkand.