The Heat of the Moon: A Rachel Goddard Mystery (Rachel Goddard Mysteries) (27 page)

Read The Heat of the Moon: A Rachel Goddard Mystery (Rachel Goddard Mysteries) Online

Authors: Sandra Parshall

Tags: #detective, #Fiction, #Mystery &, #General

BOOK: The Heat of the Moon: A Rachel Goddard Mystery (Rachel Goddard Mysteries)
13.58Mb size Format: txt, pdf, ePub

So you shut us out of your mind and moved on.

Even as I was thinking this, she said, “You don’t forget two children, though. You don’t ever stop thinking about them.”

I waited through a moment of silence, then made myself ask, “Do you think they’re still alive?”

“Oh, no. No, I don’t. They were probably murdered pretty soon after they were taken. I hope so, anyway. I mean I hope they didn’t suffer long. Steckling thinks their bodies’ll be found someday. Their skeletons. And the police might be able to tell how they died.”

As I listened to her I almost believed it was possible, that our childhood bodies were in fact buried in some remote spot, waiting to be discovered.

“I’ve accepted that they’re dead,” she went on, “but you know, every now and then I’ll see a pretty girl who’s about the right age, and I’ll think,
That could be Stephanie
, or
That could be Cathy.
” With a fingertip she wiped a single tear from under her right eye. Then she gave a choked little laugh. “I even thought that when I saw you. My Cathy could’ve grown up to look a little like you.”

Her eyes met mine for a moment before I averted my gaze. From the street I heard the shouts of children, free from school on a Saturday morning.

Tell her. She has a right to know. Tell her now.
I pushed myself to the verge of spilling it out, but pulled back when she spoke again.

“I really hope their bodies aren’t ever found. I don’t want to know how they died. I want to remember them the way they were. Happy and laughing all the time. I just want to remember all the good times our little family had together.”

She believed what she was saying.
No,
I wanted to protest.
It wasn’t like that.
We’d been sad and scared, we’d lived in a house of cutting words and anguished silences. I knew the truth. I remembered.

I pushed the question out of my mouth. “Do you feel guilty about what happened?”

“Guilty?” She gave a harsh laugh. “Oh, plenty of people tried to make me feel like it was all my fault. And I did feel guilty for a while. It’s only natural. But the only person that’s guilty is the one that took my daughters.” Her expression hardened with hatred. “I’d like to find the monster that did it and make them suffer. There’s no punishment bad enough.”

I saw Mother lying in her own blood on the bathroom floor, my hand over the gash in her throat, blood spurting through my fingers. Hadn’t that been punishment enough?

A telephone rang in another room. Barbara started. “Oh. Excuse me. I’ll be right back.”

I nodded, the image of Judith Goddard’s last moments still in my mind. Yes, her crime was monstrous, indefensible. Why then did I want to defend her, to deny that she was wholly to blame? Barbara Dawson and Michael Goddard’s infidelity had destroyed Judith’s world and John Dawson’s world. And it was Barbara, careless and selfish, who’d left my sister and me alone on that playground to be stolen and who now seemed unable to acknowledge any responsibility. 

My gaze traveled along the row of photos on the mantel. What would happen to all of us if the whole wretched story came out? Once Barbara and her family knew, it couldn’t be kept secret. Sooner or later it would be big news, a morbidly fascinating human drama that would capture the imaginations of strangers.
People Magazine
and
Vanity Fair
reporters would show up at our doors. Someone would write a true crime book about us. Our lives, even Mark’s and Caroline’s, would be exposed and picked over.

Judith would be painted as a madwoman, and if Michelle and I insisted that in many ways she had given us a good life, we’d be pitied as warped, brainwashed, too damaged by trauma to know what we were saying.

And what would become of my sister? Michelle, Stephanie. She was only starting the journey that I’d begun months before. She would have no desire to see Barbara Olsson, I was sure of that, and she wasn’t strong enough yet to face the truth about her role at the center of this tragedy.

The fragrance of perfume wafted into the room. “That was my husband,” Barbara said as she sat down. “Calling from the fishing lodge. He always gets worried when he knows I’m going to be talking about Cathy and Stephie.”

“Oh?”

“Yeah, he hates the publicity, he thinks it’s bad for our kids. And he’s right. They hate it too, it really upsets them. I promised them I wouldn’t do any more interviews, but you’re not the press, this isn’t going to be public.” She sighed. “I think this’ll be the last time I talk about it, though. It’s time to let it be.”

“Thank you for seeing me, Mrs. Olsson.” I switched off the recorder and stuffed it into my bag. “I really have to leave if I’m going to catch my flight. “

She rose with me. “I hope I’ve been some help with your paper.”

“Oh, you have. More than I can tell you.”

“Well, then. It was nice meeting you. Have a good flight.”

With a quick smile I left her, strode briskly down the driveway and across the street. When I was in the car, she waved at me from the steps. I waved back, then sat watching as she disappeared inside and the door closed.

It was over. I thought of little Kristin Coleman as I’d seen her months before on that rainy day, crying because her dog was hurt and her mother had vanished. It seemed pointless now to wonder what our lives would have been like if that child’s tears hadn’t brought a buried memory to the surface. It had happened. Mother was dead, and I’d found the truth I was searching for. It would end here.

Judith had lived behind a fragile mask, dependent on my damaged memory to keep her secret. Now my knowledge would act as guardian.

I turned the key in the ignition. I would drive to the airport, get on the next available flight, and go home to Luke and to a shattered sister who needed me.

I wasn’t Cathy Dawson anymore, and never would be again.

I was Rachel.

Judith Goddard’s daughter.

More from this Author

 

For other books, upcoming author events, or more information please go to:

www.poisonedpenpress.com/sandra-parshall

Contact Us

 

To receive a free catalog of Poisoned Pen Press titles, please contact us in one of the following ways:

Phone: 1-800-421-3976

Facsimile: 1-480-949-1707

Email:
[email protected]

Website:
www.poisonedpenpress.com

Poisoned Pen Press

6962 E. First Ave. Ste. 103

Scottsdale, AZ 85251

Table of Contents

Other books

Forget About Midnight by Trina M. Lee
Side Effects May Vary by Murphy, Julie
Daniel Hecht_Cree Black 02 by Land of Echoes
1981 - Hand Me a Fig Leaf by James Hadley Chase
The Forever Song by Julie Kagawa
Bruises of the Heart by J. J. Nite
Fire and Ice by Lacey Savage