The Girl of Fire and Thorns (24 page)

“Thank you.” Looking down at them, I hug myself against a stab of cold. Then I flee the cavern in search of Humberto. I’m suddenly desperate to see him. I need his cheerful smile and laughing eyes, his steady counsel.

Chapter 25

W
E delay our journey to Basajuan to allow ourselves time to learn all we can from Belén. The first day, he spews thoughts in panicked bits, and we cannot string them together in a way that makes sense except to understand that he fears for my life and for the fate of all of Joya d’Arena. I feel oddly detached from his ravings. Fear has been my steady companion for so long now. What is another warning? Merely the words of a madman, harmless and deflected as easily as a will-o’-the-wisp.

Humberto, however, cannot share my calm. He is never far, and every time I glance in his direction, I see huge brown eyes lingering on me, bright with feeling. He is aware of me in a way Alejandro never was, and it gives me a little thrill each time I notice him noticing me. I wonder if he thinks about our kiss as often as I do.

I don’t dissuade him from looking after me. He’s the most determined and capable person I know, equally adept at snaring rabbits or finding water or making people laugh. I know he’ll do everything he can to keep me safe.

On the afternoon of the next day, I sit on a pebbly mound, my back against the sun-warmed side of the butte. I spread Homer’s
Afflatus
across my lap and read it over again, hoping to find something that will help me, something missed by centuries of devout scholarship. The village is only steps away but out of sight. Never in my life have I been so sought after for my opinion, my approval, my presence, than in these last days. I have power over these people, power they freely gave to me. It’s frightening and strange and a little bit wonderful. It’s also exhausting, and I’m relieved to be alone.

I hear the crunch of footsteps and sigh. But my disappointment gives way to delight when Humberto’s head bobs above the rise. I smile in greeting.

“You shouldn’t be alone,” he says.

My grin widens. “I’m not alone anymore, am I?”

Our shoulders touch as he settles beside me. He rests his forearms across bended knees and stares out toward the desert. “I need to talk to you about something.”

My smile fades. I swallow. “About what?”

He doesn’t look at me, just digs at the shale with the heel of his boot. “That day. In the cave. Before you were captured.”

Heat floods my neck at the memory of his kiss. I’ve started to invent this conversation a dozen times in my mind but never pursued it, as if talking about it—even thinking about it—would make it ordinary and final. It’s a kiss that can’t ever have a happy ending, and I’d prefer that it stay dreamlike in my memory, full of possibility.

“Elisa, I’m sorry.”

I whip my head around to study his profile. “Why?”

“I thought . . .” He looks skyward and breathes deeply. “I thought I’d never see you again. I was scared and sad, and . . . and I’d been wanting to kiss you so badly. It made me stupid. I promise I won’t be . . . inappropriate with you again.”

This was not how I imagined our exchange would go. I press my lips together, determined not to cry. “Do you regret it, then?” I whisper.

A half smile flits across his lips. “No. I mean yes. I mean—”

“I’m not sure I want to be married to Alejandro.”

His head whirls, and I jump, startled as much by my own words as his quick motion. It’s true, I realize, my heart pounding in panic. Alejandro is the handsomest man I’ve ever known. But it’s not enough.

“What do you mean?” he asks softly, and the hope in his eyes makes my throat hurt.

“I have to be married to him. I’ve made promises to the Malficio and I must be Alejandro’s wife to keep those promises, but . . .”

“But what?”

The truth is huge and heavy. “He doesn’t love me. I used to wish he would learn to. But now that I’ve been gone . . . I guess I don’t respect him very much.”
Not the way I respect you.
“He’s handsome. Very charming. But he can be indecisive.” I think of his refusal to acknowledge me as his wife, his neglect of Rosario, even his disregard of his mistress. “And he’s unkind sometimes, thoughtless.”

Humberto’s gaze holds mine. I love the lines of his face—so proud and strong. I ache to trace the curve of his stubbled cheek with my fingertips. My lips part.

“Elisa,” he whispers.

I lean closer. My lips buzz; my heart pounds.

“I won’t kiss you again,” he says.

I snap my mouth closed.

“Not that I wouldn’t like to, understand,” he says with a lopsided grin. He returns his gaze to the safety of the desert landscape. He is silent a moment. Then: “You are the bravest person I know. And smart. And…” He shifts his feet. “And beautiful. The king is a fool for not loving you.”

My next breath is more like a sob. I should laugh off his words, or thank him for saying so, but my throat won’t open.

Instead, I join him in careful study of the dry scrub and its occasional lizard. We sit together a long time, shoulders barely touching, and watch the sun paint the land in pink and coral as it dips below the jagged horizon.

The air is dim and cool when Cosmé finds us.

“Belén is ready to talk,” she says.

We scramble to our feet and hurry after her. Humberto doesn’t say anything to me, doesn’t even look in my direction. But as we walk I feel his arm brush mine, then his fingers. He grabs my hand and squeezes, too briefly, before letting go. My hand is unbearably cold as we enter the village.

Belén repeats his warning first. “Elisa, please leave. Go back to Brisadulce. Or better, go far away. Somewhere no one would expect to find you.”

Humberto and Father Alentín exchange an uneasy glance, but I ignore them. “Start at the beginning, Belén.” I try to keep my voice gentle. “Tell us how they knew about our cave.” He wears a patch now, so I’m spared the view of his wasted eye.

He hangs his head. “I told them.”

Cosmé looks away. Jacián just glowers.

“Why?” I ask.

He rocks back and forth. “They told me they’d spare my village.” But his eye is unsteady. Continued fatigue, perhaps. Or maybe he’s hiding something.

I shake my head. “That doesn’t sound like you, Belén. You wouldn’t betray Cosmé that way.” I feel the young woman’s glare at my back as I crouch down and lean toward Belén’s ruined face. “Why did you do it?”

He continues rocking.

“Belén?”

“I brought you to the gates of the enemy!” he spits. “I thought it was the right thing!”

I lurch backward on my heels, stunned. “You thought you were fulfilling Homer’s prophecy.”

He nods, still refusing to look at my face. “I knew the others could get away. I thought you needed to be in the enemy camp. I thought it was God’s will.”

God’s will
. How many times have I heard someone declare their understanding of this thing I find so indefinable?

Humberto steps forward. “Something changed your mind,” he says. His face has nothing of the sad desperation that fills his sister’s. Instead, he seems furious.

Belén ceases rocking. “She escaped,” he says simply. “And the whole army of Invierne had a mad celebration. One of their own was killed, an animagus, yet they celebrated.”

“I don’t understand,” I say.

“They celebrated because they found you, Elisa. The bearer. Only the bearer could have escaped an animagus. Could have used fire against him. They’ve been searching for you for years, and you came right to their camp.”

“What do they want with her?” Alentín demands.

“They want her Godstone. They have nine already. Almost twice the number of perfection. They only need one more, a living one.”

“They need two more,” I say fiercely. I pull the amulet from under my robe and hold it out for all to see. “I took this one from the animagus.”

But Alentín doesn’t seem to hear. “How in God’s name did they acquire nine Godstones?”

Humberto shrugs. “Maybe they robbed the graves of dead bearers.”

Cosmé sends her brother a disgusted look.

“Many bearers never completed their service,” Jacián points out. “Or were never recognized. Maybe it’s because Inviernos killed them and took their Godstones.”

Alentín raises an eyebrow. “If that’s true, they’ve been collecting Godstones for centuries.”

“Or maybe,” I say slowly, “some of the bearers were chosen from Invierne.”

I’m rewarded with faces of laughing skepticism. Even Belén wrinkles his nose in contempt of the idea. But they don’t understand. I’d rather believe Godstones came to them freely. Otherwise, we’d have to conclude that Inviernos have walked among us, stolen from us, and are now on the verge of realizing a centuries-old plot.

But what plot? “What can they accomplish with ten Godstones?” I ask, my voice quavering.

He looks up at me, finally. Dead on. “Sorcery. Right now, they use their amulets to channel a bit of the magic that crawls beneath the earth. With ten Godstones, they can free it entirely.”

“Why?” The
Scriptura Sancta
forbids the use of magic. There must be a reason.

But Belén only shrugs. “I’m not sure. I don’t speak the Lengua Classica fluently. And they speak with such strange accents. After a while, the burning was so bad, and when they took my eye, I couldn’t think anymore. . . .” His head falls to the side again, and his cheek twitches while he loses himself in memory.

“Belén?” Cosmé whispers.

He blinks, refocuses. “They wanted to find out about
her
. About the bearer.”

Humberto strides forward and grabs Belén’s chin. “What did you tell them?”

Belén rolls his head, grimacing. “I don’t know. I really don’t know.”

“Did you tell them about this place? About the Malficio?”

A tear leaks from Belén’s eye. “I don’t know, Humberto! I don’t think so. All I could think of was that I’d made a mistake. A horrible mistake.”

“And then you miraculously escaped.” It’s Jacián’s dark, drawling voice. He echoes my own fear, that Belén has led Invierne to us, perhaps even purposefully.

“Oh, it was no miracle,” Belén says. “They let me escape. They tried to follow me here.”

I ask, “How can you be sure they didn’t?”

Belén closes his eye and leans against the wall of the cavern. “I traveled in circles for days. I didn’t come here until I was sure they had lost the trail.”

“You were badly injured,” Jacián says. “I can’t imagine that you were able to elude them.”

“It was not a pleasant journey,” Belén says, his eye still closed. “But I did elude them.” I’m inclined to believe him, for young Adán and his friends have not been able to find any sign of lurking Inviernos. I managed to avoid pursuit myself, inexperienced and clumsy as I am, so I know it’s possible. And neither was mine a pleasant journey.

“These ten Godstones you speak of,” Alentín says. “Do you really think Invierne can use them to loose magic on the world?”

“The Inviernos believe it. They believe it powerfully. Now everyone searches for Elisa.”

We ask more questions while Cosmé hovers like a suspicious mother cat, but Belén has little more to offer. We decide his betrayal has nothing to do with the conde’s summons, and everyone leaves to get some sleep before tomorrow’s journey.

I linger awhile, unable to tear myself away from the sight of Belén’s gaunt cheeks, the burns on his neck and shoulder, his quivering limbs. I never knew him as well as I do Humberto or Cosmé. Still, I mourn his easy smile and the way his steady stride vanquished the desert terrain. I steel myself against pity. By his own admission, Belén is a traitor, though a reluctant one. If Alodia were here, she would have him executed for treason.

But I am not my sister.

I thank Cosmé for looking after him and tell Belén to rest well before I stumble off to my bedroll. I lie awake a long time, thinking of Humberto, of Belén, wondering about Invierne’s mysterious purpose. Just before drifting off to sleep, I realize I forgot to eat dinner.

The air is dark and chilly when Humberto awakens me. I wrap up my bedroll and shoulder my pack before following him outside into the predawn chill. To the east, the blue-black sky cedes to a yellow glow that huddles over the darkly distant peaks of the Sierra Sangre. I glare at the mountains, thinking of the vast army sheltered in their shadow.

We step softly among adobe huts. Our plan to sabotage Invierne’s tithe depends on our unannounced arrival. The messenger who brought the conde’s summons is not to know of our departure, lest he take word to Basajuan. Adán and others have been instructed to keep him busy and distracted—even if that means making him a prisoner—to ensure that we have several days’ head start.

A soft nickering greets us as we round the butte. Jacián is already there, holding the reins of two horses; they are huge and colorless in the dark. I recoil when one shakes its head, rattling metal cheek pieces.

“Horses?” I whisper to Humberto, though it sounds more like a squeak. “I thought we were going to take the camels.”

My face burns at his quiet chuckle. “Horses are faster. And we’re not going deep enough into the desert to require the camels. Don’t worry. We won’t make you ride one.”

I sigh in relief and determine to keep my distance.

The others come in quiet twos and threes, and within moments our traveling party is complete. Led by Jacián, we head westward at a brisk walk. We are a perfect grouping of ten, including quiet Cosmé and tall Mara. I place my fingertips to the Godstone and pray that this journey will not be so ill-fated as my last.

We cut northward and take advantage of the flat terrain with a steady, ground-consuming pace. To my delight, my legs churn effortlessly. My ankles don’t ache, my lungs don’t burn, the skin of my legs remains smooth and unchafed. The horses allow us to carry more varied foodstuffs than on our last journey, and every night, Mara cooks for us all, alternating flatbread and lightly stewed jerky with freshly caught rabbit or wild turkey. She has even brought her own satchel of spices that she puts to expert use.

While we travel, Cosmé is distant and quiet, her delicate features sculpted in steel. Humberto tells me she was reluctant to leave Belén behind, that only a combined appeal from himself, Jacián, and Father Alentín caused her to agree to this journey. He says this is common behavior for her, that she pouts in isolated silence for days when she doesn’t get her way. Humberto knows her much better than I do, but I am reluctant to dismiss her so easily. I fear that her withdrawal is more deeply rooted than he realizes.