The Further Investigations of Joanne Kilbourn (50 page)

“When did you find it?”

“Last Friday. It hadn’t been there long. Whoever took it must have decided it was too hot to keep around. Those Pentiums are great little machines. The one in the garbage was still functioning, but the memory on the hard drive had been reformatted.”

“Who would go to all that trouble?”

She chuckled. “Somebody who had big plans, then got cold feet.”

“Do you know who the machine belonged to?”

She went over to her computer, tapped in the serial number, and shook her head sadly. “Reed Gallagher. Well, I guess he won’t be missing it now.”

“No,” I said, “I guess he won’t.”

When I went back to my office, Ed Mariani was there. The sight of him pouring boiling water into our Brown Betty disarmed me. How could I suspect such a gentle and giving man of … of what? I couldn’t even articulate in my own mind what I suspected Ed of doing.

He opened his arms in welcome. “You must have smelled the tea,” he said.

“I guess I did,” I said. I took off my coat, sat down in the student chair, and buried myself in my lecture notes.

“Anything new on Kellee Savage?”

I shook my head. “Nothing significant.”

Ed was watching me carefully. “Joanne, correct me if I’m wrong, but have I overstayed my welcome?”

“I just have to get ready for class, Ed.” When I glanced up, he looked so wounded, I found myself thinking I must be
crazy. But I had to be careful, too. I’d never been good at subterfuge. For the first time since we’d started sharing the office, the atmosphere between Ed and me was strained, and I was relieved when he finally picked up his books and headed out the door.

Val Massey appeared so quickly after Ed left that it was obvious he’d been waiting until I was alone. Like everyone who teaches these days, I’m careful about leaving the door open when a student is in the room, but when Val pulled the door closed behind him, I didn’t move to open it.

He looked terrible. He was pale, and there were deep shadows under his eyes. It was apparent he’d been through more than a few sleepless nights. I invited him to sit, but he went over and stood at the window as he’d done the day he’d come to my office and asked me if any of my children had ever got into a real mess. I bit my lip, remembering how I had jumped to what I believed was the heart of the problem, and how quickly I had assured him that I didn’t believe the charges that Kellee Savage was levelling at him.

But I was through being impetuous. Like Freudian analysts and good interviewers, I was going to count on the power of silence. It was an uncomfortable wait. If the silence between Ed and me had been awkward, the tension as I waited for Val Massey to talk was painful.

When he finally turned to face me, he didn’t waste time on a preamble.

“I was the one who borrowed Jumbo’s library card,” he said. “And I was the one who left the book for Kellee.” He lowered his voice. “I wrote that letter inside the book, too.”

It was news I was expecting, yet hearing the words was a blow. “Whatever made you do it, Val?”

“I don’t know,” he said miserably.

Suddenly I felt my resolve harden. “That’s not good
enough,” I said. “You don’t do something that cruel without a reason.”

He flinched, but he didn’t offer an explanation.

I got up from the desk and walked over to him. “Damn it, Val, I thought I knew you. I had a pretty good idea about what kind of person you were. For one thing, I thought you believed what you said in our seminar about the journalist’s obligation to protect the powerless.”

“She wasn’t powerless,” he said quietly. “She had her lies, and she was using them to destroy a decent human being.”

“But, Val, you started it. You just said you were the one who wrote that letter, and Kellee said there were incidents before that.”

Val laughed derisively. “Oh yes, there were other incidents, but I’ll bet she didn’t tell you about her part in them. Professor Kilbourn, whatever you may think, Kellee Savage is no victim. I know that what I did was wrong, but what she was threatening to do was worse. She was prepared to ruin someone’s career, even their life. All I was trying to do was muddy the waters.”

“Muddy the waters,” I repeated. “I don’t understand.”

Val averted his eyes. “Kellee was threatening to make her charges against … against this other person public. The things she was saying were crazy, but you have no idea how terrible the consequences would have been if people had believed her. We had to make sure people wouldn’t take what Kellee was saying seriously. It was like that story of the boy who cried wolf. We had to make certain that when Kellee talked, no one listened.”

“It got a little out of hand, didn’t it?” I said. “Kellee’s disappeared, Val.”

“And I’ve spent the last week trying to find her. I’ve tried to call her and I’ve talked to everybody who might have seen
her. I feel sick about this whole thing. You’ve got to believe me. I didn’t want Kellee to quit school. I just wanted to teach her a lesson. I couldn’t just sit by and let her destroy a person’s life, could I?”

“Whose life was she going to destroy?” I asked.

He shook his head vigorously. “No,” he said. “I can’t tell you that.”

“Was it another student, or someone on faculty?”

“I’ve told you everything I can,” he said. “If you have to take some sort of action against me, I understand, but please don’t involve Jumbo in this any more. He really was just doing a favour for a friend.”

“The way you were,” I said.

“Yes,” he said. “The way I was.”

I came home to a crisis. Taylor had sliced her hand with a knife. The cut was a real bleeder, and she was wailing. Angus was holding a wad of paper towels against the wound with one hand and dialling my number at the university with the other.

I took a peek at the cut, reassured Taylor, and ran upstairs to the bathroom to get a sanitary napkin to act as a pressure bandage.

When I came back, I handed the napkin to Angus. “Wrap that tightly around the cut,” I said.

He looked at me in horror.

“It’ll stop the bleeding,” I said. “And it’s sterile.” Suddenly I realized the problem. “Angus, nobody has ever died of humiliation from holding a Stayfree. Now do it.”

An hour later, Taylor was wearing a button that declared, “Hospitals Are Full of Helpers,” her wound was sewn up, and we were on our way to Kowloon Kitchen for Chinese take-out: Won-ton soup and a double order of Taylor’s favourite almond shrimp. The cut had been nasty, but it had also been on Taylor’s right hand, and as she was left-handed, the injury
had already become an adventure rather than a catastrophe.

The phone was ringing when we got in the door. I picked it up, and heard a man’s voice, not familiar. “Is this Joanne Kilbourn?”

“Yes,” I said.

“Regina Police, Mrs. Kilbourn. You were in last week and talked to Constable Kirszner about a missing person.”

“He didn’t think there was cause for alarm,” I said, but my heart was already starting to pound.

“He may still be right,” the voice said. “However, we just picked up the body of an unidentified female. A farmer outside Balgonie found her in one of his fields. She’s not carrying any identification, but the age and the general description seem to fit the woman you were concerned about.”

At the kitchen table, my children were laughing, doling out the won-ton soup, sniping at each other about who would get the extra shrimp.

“How soon will you know?” I said.

“That depends on you. I wonder if you could come down to Regina General and have a look.”

“Isn’t there anyone else?” I said.

“If you’d rather not come down, we can go to the media.”

I thought of Neil McCallum, having his supper, watching television and hearing about the discovery of a body that might be Kellee’s.

“I’ll be right there,” I said.

“We’ll have a uniformed officer meet you at the doors to the emergency room. Do you know the place I’m talking about?”

“Only too well,” I said. “Only too well.”

CHAPTER

12

The uniformed officer who met me was female, and she was good at her job: cool and perceptive. Angus would have said her energy was very smooth. She introduced herself as Constable Marissa Desjardin, and as she walked me to the elevator, she began to explain the identification process. All I had to do, she said, was look at the body long enough to make an identification, positive or negative, then I could be on my way. It was, she added briskly, important to keep my focus and not let my imagination run away with me. As I walked beside her through the maze of surgical-green corridors, I willed myself to heed her words; nonetheless, when we came to the double doors marked “Pathology,” my heart began to pound.

Constable Desjardin gave me a reassuring smile and pointed to a room across the hall. “That’s the staff room,” she said. “Why don’t you wait in there while I make sure they’re ready for us inside?”

The staff room was small, with furnishings that were hearteningly ordinary: an old couch, a kitchen table and four chairs, a microwave oven, a small refrigerator, a sink with a
drainboard on which mugs were drying. There was an acrid smell in the air; someone had left an almost empty pot on the burner of the coffee maker. I gulped in the familiar odour hungrily. Despite Constable Desjardin’s sensible advice, my imagination was in overdrive. From the moment I’d seen the doors marked “Pathology,” I was certain the air I was breathing carried with it a whiff of the charnel house.

I didn’t have long to look around the coffee room before Marissa Desjardin was back. “All set,” she said. “We might as well get it over with.”

Hours of watching “Quincy” and other crime shows on television had prepared me for the harshly lit, sterile room behind the doors. I was even ready for the pathologist in the lab coat and for the gurney with its plastic-shrouded but unmistakable cargo. But nothing could have prepared me for the horror that was exposed when, at a signal from Constable Desjardin, the pathologist reached over and pulled back the heavy plastic sheeting. A quick glance, and I knew that the dead woman was Kellee. However, it wasn’t Kellee as I had known her. Two weeks of exposure to weather had taken its toll. Her body was swollen and her skin had blistered and split; in places, her flesh looked as if it had been eaten away. Her green wool sweater had darkened and begun to rot as if it, too, was returning to its elemental state. Only the plastic shamrock barrettes in her hair remained unchanged. They were as sunnily cheerful as they had been on the morning when Kellee had chosen them, out of all the others, to anchor her hair on her twenty-first birthday.

I turned to Constable Desjardin. “That’s her,” I said. “What happened to her skin?”

Marissa Desjardin looked away. “Insects,” she said tightly. “We’ve had an early spring.”

I couldn’t take my eyes off the ruin that had once been Kellee Savage’s face. “She didn’t live long enough to feel the
insects doing that to her, did she?” I asked, and my voice was edged with hysteria.

“We won’t know exactly what happened until we have the autopsy results,” Constable Desjardin said quietly. Then she squared her shoulders. “Mrs. Kilbourn, I promise you that as soon as we know how Kellee Savage died, we’ll tell you. Now, I really do think it’s time we got out of here.”

I didn’t put up an argument. When Constable Desjardin went to get the forms I had to sign, I wandered back into the staff room. It hadn’t been five minutes since I’d left, but everything about the room now seemed surreal. On the wall beside the sink was a poster, black with bubble-gum-pink lettering. I read and reread it numbly, trying to comprehend its message:

No means
NO
. Not now means
NO
. I have a boy/girlfriend means
NO
. Maybe later means
NO
. No thanks means
NO
. You’re not my type means
NO
. $#@!!! off means
NO
. I’d rather be alone right now means
NO
. You’ve/I’ve been drinking means
NO
. Silence means
NO. NO MEANS NO
.

After I’d signed the forms, Constable Desjardin gave me a quick assessing look. “I don’t think you should be driving,” she said. “I’ll take you home.”

“I’m fine,” I said, and I thought I was, but when I went to stand, my knees buckled. Marissa Desjardin leaned forward and slid a practised arm around me.

“Let’s get you some air,” she said. She steered me down another corridor and onto a ward. To our immediate left was a small room with some cleaning equipment and a window that Constable Desjardin cranked open. “Take some deep breaths,” she said.

I did as she told me and immediately felt better. After the stale antiseptic air of the hospital, the oxygen was tonic. “I’m okay now,” I said. “It was just a shock.”

“It always is,” she said.

“Even for you?”

She smiled. “How do you think I found out about this room?”

When we got to my car in the parking lot, I handed Marissa Desjardin the keys and slid gratefully into the passenger seat. We drove in silence. I was fresh out of words, and Constable Desjardin, mercifully, was not a person who saw silence as a vacuum waiting to be filled.

She pulled up expertly in front of my house. “There’ll be a squad car picking me up here,” she said. “It shouldn’t be long.” Then she added kindly, “You did fine.”

“Do you know what happened to Kellee?” I asked.

She shook her head. “They’ll be doing the autopsy tomorrow. If you’d like, I can call you when we have the report.”

“Thanks, I’d appreciate that.”

“Mrs. Kilbourn, there’s something you might be able to help us with. You told Officer Kirszner that early in the evening of March 17, Kellee Savage called you several times from the Lazy Owl Bar at the university.”

I nodded.

“Her body was found thirty-two kilometres east of the university. Do you have any idea what she was doing out in that field?”

I thought of Kellee’s bedroom in Indian Head: the girlish pink-and-white bedspread, the Care Bear and the Strawberry Shortcake doll positioned so carefully on the pillows. “I think she was trying to go home,” I said.