The Ex-Mrs. Hedgefund (10 page)

 

 

 

The night before Tim and I were to preliminarily sit down with our lawyers, I got a shocking buzz from the lobby doorman—“Mrs. Sherry Von Hapsburg Talbott is here to see you.”

My heart skipped a beat. Well, unlike Kiki, I supposed I wasn't to be frozen out, if she was paying me a house call. I knew from her reaction to Kiki that she abhorred cheating, so she must have been mortified by Tim's behavior.

I opened the door to find her immaculately dressed, even in the heat of early May, in an Oscar de la Renta cream sheath, alligator Kelly bag, and Tom Ford sunglasses atop her highlighted head.

“Hello, Holland.” She said my name as if it were Newman saying “Jerry” on
Seinfeld
. Why the acid?

“Come in, Sherry. Please, sit down. Can I get you anything to dr—”

“I have one thing to say and I won't waste your time with small talk or niceties,” she said, chin skyward as she brushed a blond lock from her suspiciously wrinkle-free forehead. “Holland. You are making a huge mistake.”

I was stunned. “I beg your pardon?” I had never uttered that phrase in my life (it seemed so old-school), but I was indignant that she had walked into my house and pronounced these words.

“You have a child. A family. Talbotts are all about The Family.”

I was aghast.

“Well, I
thought
we had a great family,” I responded, trying to hold it together. “But unfortunately your son betrayed us.”

“I have some news for you, Holland Talbott,” she said, every syllable infused with ice, wagging a crooked ring-covered finger in my face as if instructing me on a life lesson. “Boys. Will. Be. Boys. You didn't have to go and call him out on it. How positively juvenile. Women have been looking the other way for millennia. You do what you have to do to keep the family together.”

At this point I did something I never thought I would ever do; it was actually more of a Kiki move: I laughed in her face.

Her face morphed with rage. “Do you think this is FUNNY?” she stammered.

“Sherry, are you joking? This is not 1953. I'm not going to just take it and live a total lie! He took her to the hotel where we honeymooned, for God's sake! ”

“Oh, please. Grow up!” she commanded. “You think you're the first one to have a husband with something on the side? Men have needs. This is life. Marriage. Family. You have a son. My grandson. And you will alter the course of his life if you proceed with this NONSENSE!”

“It was your son who proceeded with ‘nonsense' when he broke our marriage vows! The ones you so ruthlessly indicted Kiki for breaking, remember? What happened to the whole cheating-is-evil diatribe when Kiki strayed, huh?”

“That was different. She was the wife. And furthermore, she never had children. You have a responsibility—”

“To Miles or to you? To not have the world know both your sons failed at marriage?” I started to exit my lobotomized-with-grief state and become simply livid. “You can't show up here and tell me to stay with Tim when he's ‘in love' with someone else—not even sleeping with random women but, in fact, enamored of one! How dare you lecture me on family?”

“For hundreds of years there was no divorce in the Von Hapsburg or Talbott families, and now you and that trash Kiki come in and leave our traditions of strong families in shards!”

“
Strong
, really? Living a lie for the sake of keeping up appearances? That's weak! You may have chosen a life that is all about image and what people think, but I wasn't raised by a mom like you. My late mother was the epitome of strength and would have never endured humiliation or betrayal like this. Please. Leave. Now.”

“You will be sorry,” she said calmly, turning to exit. Before the door closed, she placed a polished manicured hand on the gold knob, forcing it ajar. “Just so you know, Holland, you cross this family, and you're finished in this town.”

“It's not a
town
. It's New York City. There are millions of people, so I doubt you can get all of them to freeze me out.”

“Correct, millions.
Millions
of young women: It's a jungle out there for someone your age. Good luck trying to get someone to love you again. You should have just looked the other way like everyone else instead of making this big mess for yourself, for all of us. You'll never get anyone as good as Tim to marry the likes of you.” She looked down at her diamond-encrusted Cartier watch. “Well, Hubert awaits me downstairs. Good day, Holland.” With that, she closed the door

I hated her. I wanted her to meet Hannibal Lecter in a dark alley. I wanted barracudas to gut her alive, crocodiles in the Everglades to chomp her to shards, Batrachotoxinous dart-poison frogs to pounce. She was dead to me. But unlike in breakups where there were no kids involved, both she and Tim would be bound to me forever. With no-kid splits, the spouse and in-laws can exit your life completely, eventually drifting out of vision like Wilson, Tom Hanks's volleyball companion in
Cast Away
. But through Miles, we were tethered forever.

Sherry Von, I could happily bid adieu to, but Tim, for some crazy reason, I still mourned. Maybe it was because it was the nail in the coffin on my youth and that innocent love. . . . Was I pathetic that I still loved him as much as I detested him? I couldn't just switch off that current. That night was the first of many that I went back to the beginning of our relationship in my head. I couldn't reconcile what he'd just done with the guy I first fell in love with. I pictured him that first year we were dating, his fluffy hair coming out from his baseball hat like wings. He was such a nugget. A nugget, by the way, is not a fried piece of chicken eyelids for sauce dunkage; it's a huggable, heart-fluttery, sweet, yummy thing. Generally, it's a baby (“look at that cute nugget stuffed into the little snowsuit”), but sometimes a really nice, affectionate, huggable guy can be a nugget. Tim Talbott was the crown prince of Nuggetdom. He was cuddly, caring, teddy bearish, and loving, and, until now, he made me feel taken care of. Except . . . when he talked about business with a rabid competitiveness, which he did more and more through our decade together. As his success increased, so did his bravado. Talks about Miles or movies were eclipsed by how killer a trade was for the company. As he became giddy about his accolades in the press (a
New York Times
profile on top hedge funds cemented his ascent), I sensed him getting intoxicated by power. I missed the cute nuggety parts of Tim, the parts that were loving and protective, the parts that were fun, the parts that once made me think I'd be happy with Tim on a desert island forever.

But life is not a desert island. Life has cad clients who cajoled out the worst. It has mothers-in-law and mergers and acquisitions and sports bars. And Avery. And now, what was left of our little oasis was gone.

 

 

 

The next day, I showed up at the hospital to meet with the development office about the next year's benefit; under my leadership cochairing, we'd raised $3 million for our event at the Waldorf and I'd even launched a sold-out Young Patrons after-party for the under-forty set.

Susan, the department head, who worked full-time pro bono (her husband was a Wall Streeter, so she waived the nominal salary), sat down with me in her office.

“Holly,” she said, taking my hand nervously. “I'm afraid I have some upsetting news.”

“What?” I wondered, terrified—maybe she had been diagnosed with something?

“I got a very upsetting call this morning. I feel awful. . . .”

“What happened?”

“Mortimer DuPont phoned. I guess . . . unfortunately . . . I, um, understand that Mrs. Von Hapsburg Talbott phoned him, and they . . . said they are going to pass on having you join the board.”

You could have knocked me over with a benefit RSVP card.

“What?
”

“Holly, I am so sorry. I told him that you have done more than any of these women, that you've raised the most, have been here till all hours writing personal notes and stuffing envelopes, but he simply said that we can't cross Mrs. Talbott. And he just wants to start fresh with the benefit next year.”

“Wait—start fresh? So you're saying not only am I not getting on the board even though I've done the most work, but I am also booted from the event I helped create and launch?”

“Holly, trust me, I am sick about this. It is so unfair. But my hands are tied; I mean, Mr. DuPont is head of the board and built the whole new wing. This whole thing is so disturbing.”

“So I am barred from even doing volunteer work! This is crazy. I raised tons of money!”

I knew the board was a serious honor that would involve the New York slogan of “Give, Get, or Go”—give tons of money, get it by raising it from your friends, or hit the road, Jack.

“I guess he said that so many donors do business with the Talbotts and might not want to take sides if you call upon them or something.”

“I'm sorry—take
sides
? Giving to the hospital because I ask them is not taking sides!” I was so enraged, I thought I would pop a blood vessel.

“Listen, you are preaching to the choir,” Susan said, taking my other hand as I began to cry. “This is all politics. I guess they're worried that so many people you would be soliciting are linked to Tim through investments or whatever. It's so unfair and ridiculous, but please know that once the dust settles, I'm hoping you can still work with us in some capacity—”

Great. Morty and Sally DuPont, rumor had it, possessed not one, not two, but three private jets through his company, Solar Partners. He gave sky rides to the Bushes and other pals up to Maine or down to Hobe Sound, and there was even Fifth Avenue lore that Sally had once sent Rubies, her beloved infirmed purebred Pomeranian,
alone
in the leather-appointed 757, to a canine diabetes specialist in Chicago. And now, these titans of not only industry but also, apparently, charity were booting me from my own volunteer work. I rose from the table, offered a weak hug good-bye, and wandered home in a trance.

As I entered my apartment, my breath became dotted with whimpers as I staggered in a Frankenstein-like walk to the phone.

Heart pounding, I called Kiki to report Sherry Von's pop-by and subsequent sting operation.

“That fucking Mayflower BITCH!” exclaimed Kiki, in even more of a rage than I was. “What does she get out of blackballing you? What the fuck does she want from you?”

“I told you. She wants me to play nice, look the other way, and stick together.”

“So, what, she just thinks Tim can have his cake and fuck it, too?”

I was cripplingly weary with the turn my life had taken. It was truly as if it were someone else's plummet, all in bold font, tabloidy and rank. Was Sherry right? Was I being too rash in confronting him? Should I have waited it out and seen if the affair would fizzle, and keep our family together instead of shining a floodlight on his indiscretions? But there was no room for second chances when Tim wasn't even begging—or asking—for one. There was no remorse, no dramatic throwing of his blubbering, weepy carcass at my feet in penitence. There wasn't even a meek apology. Tim left me no choice. And Miles . . . my eyes welled with tears thinking of Sherry Von's poisoned words, her suggestion that I somehow am a shitty mom by clipping our family apart with the long, sharp scissors of divorce. I collapsed on the couch and cried to Kiki, weeping in a way I hadn't since my mom died. I took deep breaths and exhaled staccato air through my lungs, my body shaking.

“It's okay, honey. You are strong. Like your mom, you are a rock, and you one hundred percent are going to get through this,” Kiki said in such a confident but calming way that I was sad she wasn't a mother—she would have been a natural.

Thank goodness it was summer vacation and I could just hole up while everyone else swung golf clubs or skied far away. Then I could roast with the rats in the city that summer while they all hit the Hamptons or the Vineyard or Newport and not face the masses until the fall; hopefully by then I'd be somewhat cobbled together to deal with the public scrutiny of being La Divorcée.

“There will be no public scrutiny,” Kiki said.

“There won't?” I asked meekly. “I just know all those perfect moms are going to have a pity party for poor dumped Holly,” I lamented, imagining their condescending pats on the back as they gripped their husbands even harder.

“No. Because I am going to help you,” pronounced Kiki. “You are going to be my project,” she promised.

“What do you mean?”

“You are the best mother to Miles. You organize his life: his playdates, his Super Soccer Stars, his TechoTots computer lessons, his Petite Picassos art class—and I am going to do that for you.”

“How?” I wiped the tears that had spilled and settled on my cheeks, rendering my skin tight and hard.

“I'm going to help you press the restart button of your life. Makeover, new hair, new clothes, new confidence, the works. We are going to show that bitch Sherry Von that she was wrong—
plenty
of guys would kill to be with you. I will be your social quarterback. And while our loser ex-husbands are watching the NFL, we will be making our own plays.”

“Kiki, I really appreciate that, but I'm such a mess right now, I don't even know where to begin.”

“I do,” she said. “Repeat after me, one hundred times: Nina Ricci short yellow dress. Nina Ricci short yellow dress. Nina Ricci short yellow dress . . .”

I knew she was referencing Reese Witherspoon's post-divorce Golden Globes dress, which she rocked on the red carpet, proving philandering Mr. Philippe a total raging idiot. That frock was a symbol to all divorcées that they could take an emotional beating and still land on their five-inch Roger Viviers.