The Evil B.B. Chow & Other Stories (4 page)

Wilkes nodded. He picked up his fork and balanced it on his thumb. “The cartridges can be thought of as visual recorders, something like cameras. They allow the caretakers to monitor human activity without causing alarm.”

“The caretakers,” I said.

“They see whatever I see.” Wilkes gazed at me for a long moment. It was eerie, like staring into the big black space where an audience might be. Finally, he looked up and half rose out of his seat. “Mom,” he said. “Dad. Hey, there they are. You remember Jim.”

“Why of course,” said his mother. She was a southern lady with one of those soft handshakes.

“Pleasure,” Mr. Wilkes said. “Unexpected pleasure. No no. Don't make a fuss. We'll just settle in. What are you up to, Jim? How're you bringing in the pesos?”

“Research,” I said.

His face brightened. “Research, eh? The research game. What's that, biotech?”

“Yeah, sort of.”

I'd never done any research. But I liked the way the word sounded. It sounded broad and scientific and beyond reproach.

“Your folks?” Mr. Wilkes said.

“You'll remember us to them, I hope,” Mrs. Wilkes said.

I had no recollection of my parents having met the Wilkeses.

“What are you two bird dogs up to?” Mr. Wilkes said. He was from Connecticut, but he sometimes enjoyed speaking like a Texan.

Wilkes was squeezed next to his dad and his voice was full of that miserable complicated family shit. “We were talking,” he said. “I was telling Jim about the cartridge in my head.”

Mr. Wilkes fixed him with a look and I thought for a second of that Goya painting, Saturn wolfing his kids down like chicken fingers. Mrs. Wilkes began fiddling with the salt and pepper, as if she might want to knit with them eventually.

“How about that?” Mr. Wilkes said. “What do you think of that, Jim?”

“Interesting,” I said.

“
Interesting
? That the best you can do? Come on now. This is the old cartridge in the head. The old implant-a-roony.”

I started to think, right then, about this one class I'd taken sophomore year, the Biology of Religion. The professor was a young guy who was doing research at the medical school. He told us the belief in a higher power was a function of biological desire, a glandular thing. The whole topic got him very worked up.

Mr. Wilkes said: “Do you know why they do it, Jim?”

“Sir?”

He turned to his son again. “Did you explain the integration
phases to him? The hybrids? The grays? Anything?”

“He just got here,” Wilkes said.

Mr. Wilkes was sitting across from me. He was one of these big Republicans you sometimes see. The gin blossoms, the blue blazer. His whole aura screamed:
yacht
.

“They teach you any folklore in that fancy college of yours? Fairy, dybbuk, goblin, sprite. Ring a bell, Jim? These are the names the ancients used to describe our extraterrestrial caretakers.
Their appearance was like burning coals of fire and like the appearance of lamps: it went up and down among the living creatures, and the fire was bright and out of the fire went forth lightning
. That's straight from the Book of Ezekiel. What's that sound like to you, son? Does that sound like God on his throne of glory?”

“No,” I said. “I guess not.”

“There's a reason Uncle Sam launched Project Blue Book,” Mr. Wilkes said. “He was forced to, Jim. Without some kind of coherent response, there'd be no way to stem the panic. Let me ask you something. Do you know how many sightings have been reported to the Department of Defense in the past ten years? Guess. Two point five million. Abductions? Seven hundred thousand plus. They are among us, Jim.”

Our waitress had appeared.

“Do you serve Egg Beaters?” Mr. Wilkes said.

The waitress shook her head.

“Toast,” Mrs. Wilkes said. “You can have some toast, dear.”

“I don't want toast,” Mr. Wilkes said.

Wilkes looked pretty much entirely miserable.

“What about egg whites,” Mr. Wilkes said. “Can you whip me up an omelet with egg whites?”

The waitress shifted her weight from one haunch to the other. She was quite beautiful, though dragged down by circumstance. “An omelet with what?” she said.

“The white part of the egg. The part that isn't the yolk.” Mr. Wilkes picked up his fork and began to simulate the act of scrambling eggs.

“I'm asking what you want
in
the omelet, sir.”

“Oh. I see. Okay. How about mushroom, swiss, and bacon.”

“Bacon?”
said Mrs. Wilkes.

I didn't know what the hell to order.

The waitress left and Mr. Wilkes turned right back to me. He'd done some fund-raising for the GOP and I could see now just how effective he might be in this capacity. “Mrs. Wilkes and I, we both have implants. It's no secret. Not uncommon for them to tag an entire family. Did Jonathon already explain this?”

“I didn't explain anything,” Wilkes said. “You didn't give me a chance.”

“Yes,” Mrs. Wilkes said. “You musn't dominate the conversation, Warren.”

“Remember Briggs?” Wilkes said.

“Who?”

“Briggs. Ron Briggs. Played number four on the team. He's got an implant. He lives out in Sedona now.”

“Do we know him?” Mrs. Wilkes said.

Mr. Wilkes waved his hand impatiently. “Now I'm not going to bore you with some long story about our abductions, Jim. How would that be? You show up for breakfast and you have to listen to
that
. What you need to understand is the role these beings play. If they wanted to destroy us, if that was their intent, hell, I wouldn't be talking to you right now. They're caretakers, Jim. An entire race of caretakers. I'm not trying to suggest that these implants are any bed of roses, mind you. You've got all the beta waves to contend with, the ringing. Val's got a hell of a scar.”

Mrs. Wilkes blushed. She had an expensive hairstyle and skin that looked a bit irradiated. “He's going to think we're kooks,” she said.

“Not at all,” I said quietly.

“Hell, we
are
kooks,” Mr. Wilkes said. “The whole damn species is kooks. Only a fool would deny it.”

I waited for the silence to sort of subside and excused myself. I needed some cold water on my ears. I filled the sink and did a quick dunk and stared at the bathroom mirror—really
stared
—until my face got all big-eyed and desperate.

When I got back to the table, the food had arrived and the Wilkeses were eating in this extremely polite manner. I'd visited them once, on the way back from a squash match at Penn. All I could remember about their home was the carpets. They must have had about a thousand of them, beautiful and severe, the kind you didn't even want to step on. I couldn't imagine a kid growing up in that place.

My French toast was sitting there, with some strawberries, but I wasn't hungry.

Mrs. Wilkes frowned. “Is something wrong with your food, dear? We can order you something else.”

“That was pretty funny,” I said finally. “You guys really had me going. You must be quite the charades family.”

The Wilkeses, all of them, looked at me. It was that look you get from any kind of true believer, this mountain of pity sort of wobbling on a pea of doubt.

I thought about my biology professor again. Toward the end of class, just before I dropped out in fact, he gave us a lecture about this one chemical that gets released by the pineal gland. He called it the soul molecule, because it triggered all kinds of mystical thoughts. Just a pinch was enough to have people talking to angels. It was the stuff that squirted out at death, when the spirit is said to rise from the body.

Mr. Wilkes was talking about the binary star system Zeta Reticuli and the Taos Hum and the Oz Effect. But you
could tell he wasn't saying what he really wanted to. His face was red with the disappointed blood.

The waitress came and cleared the dishes.

Wilkes started to mention a few mutual friends, guys who made me think of loud cologne and urinals.

Mrs. Wilkes excused herself and returned to the table with fresh makeup.

Mr. Wilkes laid down a fifty. It was one of his rituals and, like all our rituals, it gave him this little window of expansiveness.

“I don't know the exact game plan, Jim. Anyone tells you they do, head the other direction. But I do know that these beings, these grays, they are essentially good. Why else would they travel 37 light-years just to bail our sorry asses out? It's the mission that affects me,” he said. “Mrs. Wilkes and Jonathon and I, all of us, we feel a part of something larger.” He gazed at his wife and son and smiled with a tremendous vulnerability. “I know how it looks from the outside. But we don't know everything. We all make mistakes.” He tried to say something else, but his big schmoozy baritone faltered.

Mrs. Wilkes put her hand on his.

“What the hell do I know?” Mr. Wilkes said.

“We all make mistakes,” his wife said.

“I'm not perfect.”

“Nobody's perfect, love.”

There was a lot passing between them. Wilkes started to blush. His father seemed to want to touch his cheek. “They're just trying to save us from ourselves, so we don't ruin everything.”

The waitress had come and gone and left change on the table. All around us people were charging through their mornings, toward God knows what.

The Wilkeses were sitting there, in their nice clothing, but I was seeing something else now, these whitish blobs at the centers of their bodies. It was their spirits I was seeing. I wasn't scared or anything. Everyone's a saint when it comes to the naked spirit. The other stuff just sort of grows over us, like weeds.

I thought about that crazy professor again. He'd called me to his office after Thanksgiving to tell me I was flunking. He was all torn up, as if he'd somehow betrayed me. He asked if I'd learned anything at all in his class. I said of course I had, I'd learned plenty of things, but when he pressed me to name one or two, I drew a blank. Just before I left, he came over to my side of the desk and put his hand on my shoulder and said,
We all need someone to watch over us, James
.

“Do you believe that?” Mr. Wilkes said.

I was pretty sure I'd never see the three of them again and it made me a little sad, a little reluctant to leave.

Wilkes was smoothing down his lapels. Mrs. Wilkes
smiled with her gentle teeth and Mr. Wilkes began softly, invisibly, to weep. His spirit was like a little kerchief tucked into that big blue suit.

“I think we're going to be alright,” I said. “That's the feeling I get.” This was true. I was, in fact, having some kind of clairvoyant moment. Everything that was about to happen I could see, just before it did.

Outside, up in the sky, above even the murmuring satellites, an entire race of benevolent yayas was maybe peering down at me with glassy black eyes. I started waving. The waitress breezed by and blew me a kiss. Mr. Wilkes slid another fifty across the table and winked. The sun lanced through a bank of clouds and lit the passing traffic like tinsel. I waved like hell.

T
HIS WAS A
F
RIDAY
in April, one of the last days of the term, and the undergrads were all worked up. You could see it in the way they touched themselves, those lewd innocent little caresses of the self, the way they lingered over their cigarettes out on the steps, a thousand bright sucking lips.

The dress code in my own class was terrifying. Cutoffs. Halter tops. Garments that managed to fuse the sartorial aspirations of sportswear and lingerie. Spring was finally here (finally! finally!) and there was no holding the young skin back.

We were critiquing a story called “Last Rites,” in which a mother mourning the death of her daughter decides, rather impulsively, to visit the girl's prize Arabian stallion.

“What's the deal with the horse?” said Brendan Mahoney. “Is there something, like,
going on
with the horse?”

“What would be going on with the horse?” said Nicole Buswell.

Nicole—pale, chubby, ardently sexless—was our leader
for the day. I myself didn't lead discussions. I felt this would inhibit the class, and my philosophy as a teacher back then was to disinhibit.

“I don't know,” Brendan said. “I'm not saying anything, like, explicit, but—” He looked down at his copy of the story and squinted. “There's this line at the top of seven: ‘She felt the heat of the animal against her body. The animal heat entering her.' What's that mean: ‘The animal heat entering her'?”

There was a pause.

“Oh, that's sick,” said Emily Givens.

“She goes and leans against the horse,” said Rob Tway. “It's a human thing. Like wanting, like, contact. She's just decided to take her daughter off life support.”

“That's what makes the whole thing so weird!” Brendan said, as if Rob had helped him make his point. “I mean, if she's so upset about her daughter and all, what's she doing getting all sexualized over a horse?”

“Sexualized?” said Nicole. “Sexualized isn't even a
word
.”

“Yes it is,” said Pete Fayne.

“All that stuff about the thick neck and the satiny hair or whatever,” Brendan said. “It's like she's gonna hump the horse or something.”

“Sick,” said Emily Givens. “You are
so
sick.”

I had the feeling, actually, that Emily knew a little something about sick. She was wearing a top that would have
been illegal in key southern states, a kind of cheesecloth camisole.

“You're really twisted,” said Rob Tway, and Nick Hutchins chipped in, “Uncalled for, dude. Majorly.”

Brendan shook his head. He was the lowest common denominator, no doubt about that, a dim kid with the long, rutted cheeks of adolescence. But he was only following my lead. I was the one who had ordered them to root out the truth, to never avert their eyes.
Self-deception
, I'd told them, in my profound deeply feeling teacher voice,
is the only worthy enemy
.