The Escape (Survivor's Club) (16 page)

For a moment he felt a wave of envy. It was not jealousy. He had not fancied Lady Muir himself. It was just envy that two worthy people had found each other and connected with each other’s heart, for undoubtedly it was a love match. And so they would marry and settle to a lifetime of shared passion.

Perhaps he
would
go, Ben decided. Not today, though. There would be too much chaos if both he and Beatrice were preparing for a hasty departure. He could still arrive in time if he left tomorrow morning, though it would mean traveling in longer stages than he found comfortable. He would not need to stay in town for long, just long enough for the wedding and a leisurely visit with his friends. He could still go to Scotland after leaving there, making his slow, meandering way back north, writing down his impressions as he went.

Was it absurd to imagine that he could write? It probably was, but he could at least try. He had to do
something
.

Beatrice left just before one o’clock. Ben waved her on her way and smiled at the sight of her traveling carriage
piled high with baggage while more followed in a smaller conveyance. And the bulk of her belongings were to follow her to London?

He went back inside and upstairs to the room adjoining his own where he did his daily exercises.

He had made the definite decision by the time he was finished that he would go to London, that he would surprise Hugo by turning up at the last minute to make their number complete, assuming, that was, that Vincent was going. Partly, he knew, it was procrastination that drove him. Although the idea of setting out for a tour of Scotland excited him in the abstract, the prospect of actually setting out alone, no particular destination in mind, was less appealing. Perhaps Ralph or Flavian could be persuaded to join him. Or even Vince. It might be interesting to add the observations of a blind traveler to his book.

He was coming out of his room after washing and changing out of his sweaty exercise clothes when he heard the sound of voices in the hall downstairs. Beatrice’s butler was informing someone that her ladyship was not at home.

“Oh,” the other person said. And, after a pause, “When do you expect her back?”

It was a woman’s voice. Mrs. McKay’s. Ben prepared to step back into his room, where his valet was beginning to pack his bags. He had done a successful job in the past few weeks of avoiding her, of avoiding causing her any gossip in the neighborhood, for that was what it would have come to if he had continued to call upon her.

“She has gone away, ma’am,” the butler explained, “and will not be back until the summer.”

“Oh.” Somehow there was a world of flatness in the single syllable.

Ben hesitated, his hand on the knob of his door.

“Should I see if Sir Benedict is at home, ma’am?” the butler asked.

Ben frowned and shook his head.

“Oh,” she said, “I do not know. No, perhaps I ought to …”

This had not been intended as a social visit. Something in her voice told Ben that. There was distress beneath the flatness of tone.

“Who is it, Rogers?” he called loudly enough to be heard downstairs, and he made his way to the head of the stairs so that he could see for himself.

“It is Mrs. McKay, sir,” the butler told him, “come to call on Lady Gramley.”

The dog was with her. It barked once and wagged its tail at him. Why that wretched hound liked him, he had no idea. Perhaps because he had never kicked him in the chin when that part of his anatomy had rested on Ben’s boot?

She looked up at him. Her dark veil had been tossed back over the brim of her bonnet to reveal a very pale face, even allowing for the fact that black tended to leach color from the skin.

“I am so sorry,” she said. “I did not know your sister had gone away. I—I will not disturb you. I am sorry. Come along, Tramp.”

“Did you walk here?” Ben asked.

“Yes,” she said. “We were out for a stroll and I decided on a whim to call here.”

“We certainly will not send you away without any refreshments,” Ben said, beginning the slow descent of the stairs. “Will we, Rogers? Show Mrs. McKay into the small salon, if you please, and have a tray of tea brought there. And some brandy.”

“I—” She did not finish what she had started to say. “Thank you. I will just drink a cup of tea and be on my way. I am sorry for being a nuisance.”

She was over by the unlit fireplace, removing her bonnet, when Ben entered the room. Her dog ambled over to greet him, his tail wagging and his rear end wiggling. Ben eyed him with disfavor and scratched him beneath his chin.

“I am sorry …” she began.

“Yes,” he said, closing the door behind him. “You have already made that perfectly clear, Mrs. McKay. What has happened?”

He felt resentful. If she had left this until tomorrow, he would have been gone and known nothing about it. She would have been compelled to cope alone with whatever was troubling her.

“Nothing has happened.” She smiled, a sickly expression that reached no higher than her lips. “I did not know Lady Gramley was leaving for London so soon.”

“She is on her way to Berkshire,” he told her, “where Gramley’s sister is expecting to give birth any day. Her mother-in-law was supposed to attend her, but she has been detained by illness. Beatrice left here just after noon, only a few hours after receiving her sister-in-law’s letter. I am sure she is sitting in the carriage at this very moment thinking of all the people here to whom she ought to have dashed off notes of explanation. What is the matter?”

Something clearly was. She was making an effort to appear composed, but she looked as if she might shatter at any moment. And she was still standing.

“Nothing.”

The door opened behind Ben, and a footman set down a large tray. Ben bent over it and poured a little brandy into a glass. He carried it across the room to her, supporting himself with just one of his canes.

“Drink this,” he said.

“What is it?”

“Brandy,” he said. “Sit down and drink it. I daresay your walk has chilled you.”

“I did not notice,” she said as she half collapsed onto a sofa.

“Drink it.”

She took the glass, sipped the brandy, and made a face.

“Toss it back,” he told her.

She did so and coughed and sputtered. “Oh, that is vile.”

“Pay attention to the aftereffects, though,” he told her.

She closed her eyes briefly. Her cheeks gained some color.

“He is throwing me out of Bramble Hall,” she said, “and sending his son to live there.”

She had not made her meaning at all clear, but it did not take much effort to decipher it anyway. He took the empty glass from her hand and returned it to the tray. He poured a cup of tea and carried it across to her.

He
was presumably the Earl of Heathmoor.

S
amantha took the cup and saucer from him with hands she schooled to be steady. Tramp was seated beside her, at attention, his ears cocked, his eyes intent on hers. He knew there was something wrong, the poor dear.

“Thank you,” she said.

She was dreadfully upset that Lady Gramley had gone away. Although there were other ladies in the neighborhood to whom she supposed she might turn in her distress, none but Lady Gramley felt like a friend. Sometimes friendly acquaintances were simply not enough. Though
how
she had expected Lady Gramley to help her she did not know.

“Heathmoor is tossing you out without making any provision for you?” Sir Benedict Harper asked, seating himself across from her. “He is literally evicting you?”

“No. He has far too great a sense of family duty to do that,” she said. “I am to go to Leyland Abbey in Kent. He has sent his own coachman and outriders back with the carriage Matilda took, and they have orders to escort me there. I am to leave the day after tomorrow. I do not know if their instructions are to coerce me if I will not go voluntarily or I try to delay, but I would not be at all surprised if they are. My father-in-law made it very clear in the letter he sent me that he sees me as a disgrace to his family and that I must be fetched to a place
where he can keep a strict eye upon me and correct my waywardness.”

“And this is because you returned Bea’s visit that one afternoon and agreed to ride with her and with me a few days later?” He was frowning at her as if he did not quite believe his ears.

“They were not small matters to Matilda,” she told him. “They are not small matters to Matilda’s father. Heaven knows what I may get up to if I am left to my own devices here. I may even take it into my head to go about visiting the sick or arranging flowers on the altar at church.”

She took a sip of her tea and discovered gratefully that it was both strong and sweet.

“Perhaps,” he said, “it is not quite what you think. Perhaps your father-in-law’s annoyance with you arises from a genuine concern that you will be lonely here without the companionship of his daughter. Perhaps he thinks you will be happier surrounded by your late husband’s family.”

She took another sip of tea. “I think not,” she said. “But I am sorry to have made such a nuisance of myself. I came here, I suppose, to unburden myself to Lady Gramley, though to what purpose I do not know. I just did not know what else to do. I
do
not know what else to do.”

“You do not believe you can find any sort of contentment at Leyland?” he asked her. “Even just temporarily, until your year of mourning is at an end?”

“Could you find any sort of contentment in a prison, Sir Benedict?” she asked in return. “Where even smiles are construed as sin, and laughter is unheard of?”

“And it is out of the question to go to your half brother?”

“Yes,” she said.

John would perhaps not literally refuse her admission
to the vicarage if she turned up on his doorstep, but he would certainly make it clear that she was unwelcome, that she could not stay there beyond a few nights at the longest.

“Forgive my impertinence,” Sir Benedict said, “but do you not have an independence? Can you not set up on your own somewhere?”

She stared blankly at him. Her father had left her a small legacy, which Matthew had appropriated. He had left her with a small income, enough for her personal needs since she had never been extravagant. But enough with which to set up her own establishment? She did not know and had never wondered. She had relied upon Matthew’s assumption that his father would be happy to leave her at Bramble Hall. Oh, how foolish of her. How foolish! She ought to have been making plans. But
what
plans?

“I could not stay anywhere close to here,” she said, “where at least I have some friendly acquaintances and some sense of belonging. Rudolph and Patience will be at Bramble Hall within a fortnight. They would make life very difficult for me if I remained here in defiance of my father-in-law’s express wishes. And I could not return to the village where I grew up. I had a few friends there, but on the whole I was not well accepted because my mother was not. As for anywhere else, well, I do not
know
anywhere.”

She swallowed awkwardly. She was suddenly very frightened. The world seemed a vast and hostile place. Whatever was she going to
do
?

“Starting a new life is never easy,” he said, “especially when there is no obvious base of operations. You have the rest of today and tomorrow, then, to think of an alternative to Leyland Abbey.”

“I cannot go there.” She set down her cup and saucer and gripped one arm of the sofa. “I will not. Though I
may not have a choice if I am right about those servants the earl has sent. They are all large, severe-looking men. However it is, though, I have to leave Bramble Hall. I expected it to be my home for the rest of my life. It is what my husband expected.”

She dipped her head forward in an attempt to cling to consciousness. Tramp whined. She was going to be homeless. And friendless.

“I must count my blessings,” she said, smoothing a hand over the dog’s head as though to reassure herself by comforting him. “I am not penniless, after all. There are thousands upon thousands of people who at this very moment are both homeless and destitute. Oh, the despair of it. How do they go on, Sir Benedict? I must not despair. It would be wicked. I am not destitute. There must be somewhere I can live, some small country house I can afford.”

She frowned in thought for a moment but was distracted when she realized he had got to his feet and come to sit beside her after propping his canes against the far side of the sofa. He took her right hand in both of his while Tramp stretched out at their feet. His hands were blessedly warm.

“I know how it is to feel homeless, even if I do not know how it is actually to
be
homeless,” he said. “It is a wretchedly bleak and lonely feeling. But, as you say, you are not destitute.”

She turned her head and looked at his finely chiseled features and slightly hollowed cheekbones, a strangely appealing, not-quite-handsome face—though his eyes were very blue. He had kissed her almost a month ago and then withdrawn from her life, though she was convinced he had sent his sister to befriend her and involve her in neighborhood and church activities.