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The guards all had their hands on their new weapons—stun guns.

“Why don’t we just go to my office?”

I backed off. Oh no. She’d suckered me in for the last time. She’d fooled me good too. I didn’t know who she was but she sure as hell could fake her signals.

“What if I commit another crime?” I said.

“Then you will go to a mainstream prison.”

“What?” Aimee said, stomping over. “Are you nuts?”

Tiz and Nora were at Aimee’s shoulders, all three in various states of worry—Aimee scratching, Nora picking, and Tiz rocking on the balls of her feet. Llys surrounded.

“Ladies, my office . . . please,” Llys urged, shooting a glance at the guards drawing their guns.

“No! I’ve heard enough of your lies.”

I ran. I ran so fast that none of the guards could catch me. I ran to the only place that I could hide. I was on the roof before anyone realized. Not to jump, just to think. The place was littered with old pallets and plastic crates but I could breathe here . . . breathe in fresh air. Hell, I was going to faint. I couldn’t process it. The panic hammered through my heart like nails in a coffin. I’d never survive out there. Out there hated me, in here was bad enough but I knew in here, I knew how it worked. Out there I didn’t know, I didn’t know a damn thing.

“Aeron, please. Calm down. Listen to me . . . for a moment.”

I spun to look at Llys. The guards were all gathered down in the yard below.

“What did I do to you? What the hell did I ever do to you?” I picked up a broken crate and hurled it down at the guards below, making them scatter.

“Nothing, Aeron. You should have never been here for this long. You could go to Nan’s cabin. Maybe she—”

“She’s dead. That’s why I met Sam. Nan abandoned me too!” I picked up a pallet. “How the hell am I gonna feed myself?”

Llys moved forward. I hurled the pallet from the roof. “You’ll find a way. You can find peace there. Nature . . . fishing . . . Do you like fishing?”

“I hate fishing! I know what it does to them.” I hurled another pallet.

“How about gardening? Hiking in the woods? Aeron, there’s a beautiful world of nature out there . . . waiting for you.”

I rubbed my arms. I felt cold all of a sudden, really cold and tired. My jaw trembled and I lost every ounce of energy I had. I slumped onto the ground. There
was
a world out there. A world that I had resigned myself that I would never see. Now Llys was offering it to me. I looked past the concrete to the patchwork of fields beyond—so green, so bright, so vivid. Life in abundance.

“What if I end up on the street?”

Llys sat beside me and took my gloved hand. “It won’t be easy but I will have to see you once a month to satisfy parole requirements. The girls will expect letters and I’m pretty sure that there’s a set of high heels waiting for you to hang.”

I squeezed Llys’s hand. Then I felt something warm on my cold cheeks. I took off my glove and touched it. I looked down and my fingers were wet. I rubbed them together and looked up to the sky—was it raining? Warm rain? No—I was crying. I was free.

 

Chapter 18

 

I STOOD OUTSIDE the prison gates with enough money in my pocket to buy food for a week and the clothes that I had on eleven years ago when I arrived. They didn’t fit but I didn’t have nothing else. Llys had prepped me session after session for my release. She had helped me to plan a route back to the place where I had lived and she’d even tried to make contact with my parents.

The route we had figured out easily. There was a bus that could take me the entire journey. It wasn’t a massive distance. Probably less than an hour but after my life had existed within half a square mile for so long, it seemed like another continent.

As for my parents, neither dignified Llys with a response. I expected as much. It wasn’t like they had wanted me in the first place. I was pretty sure that they had hired someone to take my place so that their social status hadn’t been affected.

The bus wouldn’t arrive for a while. I turned and looked at the place that I’d lived in for so long. Why was I going back home? The simple answer was that I had to. The “powers” demanded that I remained within a set distance of the institute, mainly so I could be visited at any time and inspected. I also had a great big ol’ piece of plastic stuck to my ankle, so disobeying that command was not really much of an option.

Within that radius, I had three options. The first, St. Louis, was a non-starter. Even if Yasmin hadn’t died there, it was too crowded, too many people, and way too much noise.

The second option, Fredericktown, was a small town. A mass of houses, happy folks, and pristine lawns and no one there would want an ex-con working or living nowhere near them.

I had no money and so my only real option was Oppidum—and more to the point, Nan’s cabin. The stretch of river that it was perched on was isolated from everything. Nowhere near tourists, too wild and cut off for anyone to want to set up home. There, I could just keep to myself. I guess, pretty much like Nan had.

I felt a wriggle in my stomach and rubbed my hand across the bare skin. I looked like I’d been marooned on a desert island. I shivered, but not from the cold. For all I knew, there could be a hotel on Nan’s cabin now. I know my mother really wanted to cash in on the tourist trade. There could be a great big ol’ lodge with canoes and ATVs tearing up the country in summer and snowmobiles thundering through the mountains in winter.

I felt sick at the thought.

Well, there was only one way I was going to find out. The bus pulled up, I took the backpack my life was piled in and boarded the bus. I had never been so terrified in my entire life.

 

Chapter 19

 

NOW, BUS JOURNEYS for ordinary folk are pretty straightforward. You get on, you read or fall asleep, you arrive at your destination, disembark, and go on your way,
simple
.

When you are like me and you’ve been involuntarily secluded for so long, it’s like climbing Mount Everest with a toothpick.

Although Llys felt I wasn’t suffering from an affliction that should keep me locked up, I do have scars and even she would admit that I was so institutionalized I probably couldn’t cope with living on the outside.

Spending so much time in Serenity Hills pretty much had gotten me into a single routine, my days were routine. And, if I’m honest, having spent so long confined inside the walls, being outside them felt kinda freaky. Every sense told me that being outside wasn’t allowed.

Llys had rehearsed the entire thing with me to help. Each day we’d walked out the gates and back in, a couple of steps further each time, the guards keeping a beady eye. Today, the guards hadn’t even glanced in my direction. I wasn’t their concern no more. Llys had walked me up to the gates, she’d even stayed a while until her next appointment had called her away. So she drummed the baby steps way into me. Positive visualization, she called it. Take it step-by-step was the mantra.

After one last lingering glance back at the gates, I turned and walked onto the huge, cranky bus. The smell of car freshener and that unique bus odor made my head swim. The driver looked at me bored. He was clearly used to crazies. My chest tightened. What was I doing? I shouldn’t be out here, I should be safe, in my cell, with my violin.
Don’t look up . . . just focus on the driver . . . one . . . step . . . at a time
.

I pulled out the ticket that Llys had helped me buy and watched in slow motion as my gloved hand stretched out, shaking like I was standing on a fault line.

He took my ticket and looked up at me. He tapped his newspaper. “No trouble. Got it?”

This hadn’t been part of our rehearsal routine. My skin sprung a leak, soaking my t-shirt in sweat, my heart pounded in my ears. “I . . . what?”

The driver picked up the newspaper and gave it to me. “I want the sports section when you get off.”

I nodded as I took the paper and stumbled down the aisle. A group of teenagers sat in the back. Their voices were booming, harsh, and aggressive.

In their bid to impress each other, they hurled abuse at a few people passing by the bus. Their hormones were thick like summer air coating the atmosphere in tense frustration. I looked up. I knew one of them thought about taking a shot at me until he gauged my size and where I had just been picked up.
Not a good idea, buddy
.

The bus was filled with people, some were inmates from the main prison. They lifted their eyes with knowing looks. One guy was dabbing his head with a hanky. He had been in longer than I had. He met my eyes and I smiled, seeming as I knew how he felt. He nodded and turned back to dabbing his forehead.

I found a seat next to the middle door, where the bus drivers slept on long journeys. I sat beside the window and placed my backpack—its logo showing people where I had been let out from–beside me. I hoped it would put off anyone who felt friendly.

As I’m not exactly small, the seat felt like being buried alive while sitting on one of those plastic chairs for toddlers. How the hell I was going to last the hour, I didn’t know. I unfolded the newspaper, thinking at least I could read. I stared at the headlines and my mouth turned into a desert.
 

Town’s outrage as violent killer released.
 

It was me. For long seconds I thought about jumping from the bus and running back to the prison but I didn’t. Instead, I read on, which made everything worse.
 
The population of Oppidum was in an uproar last night as news broke of the release of Aeron Lorelei. Lorelei was convicted of killing one of the town’s children, Jake Casey, luring him to a secluded area and throwing him in front of a high-speed train.
There was further evidence, not submitted at the time of trial, that Lorelei was trying to derail the express-line train and that Casey had tried to stop her. Unable to prove what was so obvious to onlookers in court, Lorelei was convicted of manslaughter and sentenced to a mere eight years in a mental institution. However, due to several incidents of Lorelei’s violence, the sentence was increased to eleven.
The town’s mayor petitioned the prison officials to keep Lorelei from returning to Oppidum but the official responded saying, “Individuals who have served their sentences have the same rights as those within society. We will not comment on individual cases but every prisoner who is released is carefully monitored.”
Mayor Roger Casey responded to the statement in a speech to the town meeting. “Lorelei, returning to the place where the family of her victim still lives, not only proves the need for the overhaul of the law in this country but it shows that this government, our government, has a blatant lack of respect for the rights of the average taxpayer.”
Lorelei’s return to Oppidum has caused concern in local schools who fear that the predator may strike again.
The local police chief Eli Lorelei, Aeron’s father, said, “All evidence regarding Aeron Lorelei has been dealt with through the right channels. There is no proof to the unsubstantiated claims in the media that Lorelei did anything more than of what she was convicted. As for all offenders re-introduced into society, myself and my officers will be on hand to support, assist, or enforce as necessary.”

These words ring hollow for many residents who believe that Chief Lorelei was aware of his daughter’s sadistic nature long before the murder took place. Only time will tell if Lorelei has been cured of her love for violence or if she has simply been let free to kill again.
 

My stomach felt like someone had poured concrete into it. The story was ten pages. The newspaper had interviewed everyone they could find, including some “insiders” at the prison. I knew who the insider was, it was Val. She had delighted in telling the press how I had threatened to cut out her tongue and shove it down her throat.

I closed my eyes. The image of my sixteen-year-old self being hauled from court with a blanket over my head, the pictures of me looking “inhumane” and “unrepentant” as the verdict was read out. A mock-up of what I may look like now was even included with the words emblazoned in bold black ink: THE FACE OF A KILLER.

I buried my head in my hands. Llys thought that she had done me a favor. She was wrong. All she had done was send me to hell.

 

Chapter 20

 

I DID HAVE one thing in my favor. Thankfully, the media had no idea when I was due to arrive back. That, and I was nearly a foot taller than I had been at sixteen and, as I’ve said a few times, Samson-like. Which was weird in itself. I don’t know where I got it from. My father was five-ten on a tall day and my mother was shorter than that. If Nan was related to me then she was even smaller. So I guess I’m a freak of nature . . . in every sense.

I handed the driver back his paper when we had stopped and turned to walk down the steps but something flickered from him and I couldn’t ignore it, so I turned around.

“Get it checked out,” I told him.

He looked at me.

I nodded. “You need it treated. Soon.”

He searched my eyes for a moment and then smiled. “Some evil blight you are, huh?”

I shrugged. I know that he didn’t believe a word of the story. Why, I didn’t know, but maybe he could see through it.

“Linda wants a cruise. Make sure it ain’t alone,” I said.

“I will. Thanks, kid.”

I walked off the bus and heard him laugh in disbelief, but I knew he’d listen.

Oppidum started at the transport hub. The bus station and private airport were stuck in a clump on the edge of town.

As the place was primed for tourists, for those who loved the outdoors, it was busy, filled with people in too much of a rush.

For that, today, I was thankful.

I passed by the newsstands splashed with my baby-faced self and wandered a mile down Main Street. Lodges and attractions towered in various Tudor-esque forms, some with thatched roofs for that little extra effect. Their signs flashed “vacancy” like they were a distress signal. Oppidum had started life as a Welsh settlement way back when a few folk felt they missed home so much that they decided to recreate it in the middle of the Ozarks. It’s funny how being away from a place would make them so fond of it. Who was I to argue? I hadn’t ever been out of the state. 

It was not yet summer and most of the tourists would not arrive for another month or so. The sun had a gentle warmth to it and the few clouds glowed pink in the deep blue. The weather was nice enough for a lot of off-season tourists to be wandering around. It also meant that the locals had to get in tourist-mode and pretend they were happy, carefree, friendly people with a smile plastered on their faces instead of remembering how miserable and angry at the world they really were.

And right now, they were angrier than normal, despite the sunny smiles they showed the tourists.

I’d thought about trying to get to Nan’s without telling a soul but I had to report to the police department to have my ankle bracelet checked. Years of experience had armed me with the knowledge that I would be kept waiting until somebody plucked up the courage to deal with me. No one wanted to be seen anywhere near me let alone get close enough to touch me.

Deciding that I didn’t want to sit around on an empty stomach, I stuck my threadbare baseball cap on and hoped I looked different enough at nearly twenty eight to get served at the Ty Coch café.

Ty Coch was set up like an old cottage, with a fake stone fireplace on one side and a knitted Welsh Dragon sitting next to it. There were little ornaments of Welsh ladies in big black hats and shawls. A love spoon was proudly painted up on the big window with signs declaring that inside, folks could have all manner of weird foods they couldn’t pronounce. It sure looked like the kind of place I’d find a hearty welcome but the second I stepped through the door, a wave of hostility ripped away my dumb-ass wishing for peace and brought me headlong back into reality.

Now, I knew that no one had figured out who I was but their judgment was quick and like a hammer blow. I wasn’t a tourist, so they didn’t have to fake it. I wasn’t one of them, so they didn’t like me, and I looked like a hobo, so they hated me. Bags, wallets, anything of value were tucked under protective arms as I wandered to the wooden counter filled with chocolate love spoons, tiered cake stands filled with Jell-O Welsh Cakes, and other drool-drawing stuff. Funny that the sign overhead said “Croeso” which meant Welcome but I sure as shoots felt anything but. It was like I was contagious—kinda amusing in a surreal and horrible way.

“We’re closed,” Mrs. Stein announced in a shrill voice. She looked like an angry crow guarding her nest behind the counter, the lines on her face seemed to mark her permanent frown. She puffed up her shoulders, arms folded, her eyes narrowed until it looked like her eyebrows might block her view.

“Takeout?” I asked, hoping my voice sounded alien from the teenager they had known.

“I said, we’re closed.” She stuck her nose in the air like I smelled or something. I lifted my eyes to meet the old bat’s. She froze on the spot. She wasn’t the only one, the entire place was still. Hell, talk about playing dodge ball.

Now, Mrs. Stein had terrified me as a kid. She had chased me with a broom when I had been barely five for dropping a milkshake on the floor. How that had changed. Her fear was so acute that I knew if I stood there a second longer her heart would good as give out.

I rubbed my palm across my chest, trying to soothe the sharp dagger of pain she was feeling. I winced as it worsened. Her panicky thoughts saying I was causing her pain . . . the freaky kid was clearly into some kind of hocus-pocus.

I wanted to tell her to take her tablets but I knew she was far too involved in her hate and fear to see anything but a threat. That knowledge made me feel sorry for her and for all of them. Imagine going through life hating everyone who didn’t look, act, or feel like you? I mean, even the fury-fiends liked
some
people.

“I’m leaving,” I said, hoping it would prevent her coronary.

“Good. Take a long walk off a short pier while you’re at it,” she snapped.

I turned. I recognized many of the faces and I was guessing there was no doubting they recognized me. Everyone was locked onto me, forks frozen half way to mouths, men wrapped protective arms around their wives, and every one of them narrowed their eyes and glared at me. A few huddled closer together as if to prove that I was alone, I wasn’t one of them.

Now, fear could make people aggressive. Only years of being exposed to people who were tormented into rage stopped me from biting.

“It’s nice to see you too, Mrs. Stein.”

I opened the door, knowing that she had nothing to shout in response. So I left, calmly trying to ignore the bolts of hate that were being fired at me like lightning. One thing about aggression I have learned, is that it only builds if you feed it and the only thing I wanted to feed was my growling stomach.

 

Chapter 21

 

THE OTHER CAFÉS in town were closed. I hoped that if, or when the owners opened for the summer, they wouldn’t turn away my business. I couldn’t cook and I really wanted a good hot meal.

There were two grocery stores in Oppidum. A really nice one half way down Main Street was Casey’s Mart but it was run by Sam and Jake’s mother. The last thing I wanted to do was face her.

The only other option was my Uncle Abe’s shop near the police department. It was a crooked short building—one of the original buildings in Oppidum. It was painted up all nice in red and green. But, to me, it looked more like a novelty store than the pretentious statement Abe had been shooting for. It used to be really nice when my grandfather owned it—simple stone work and a thatched roof. But Abe didn’t do pretty. So the roof wasn’t thatched like the others but corrugated steel. He was tight with his money to the point where his wife wandered around in hand-me-downs while he held an exclusive membership to the golf club. And, as you’ve probably guessed, Abe felt even less warmly toward me than Mrs. Stein did.

Uncle Abe, my father’s brother, had three kids. The two girls were way older than me and pretty much escaped to the city the second they could drive. Both were high flyers and seemed to blossom out from under Abe’s cloud of gloom.

The third kid, I had never met. All I knew was that his name was Uri. He was born not long before I got convicted but no doubt being a son, he was doted on like a prince. He’d probably end up a professor or something but right now he was nearly twelve.

I walked into the store, the bell tinkling my arrival, and kept my head down. I wandered to the shelves at the back and stared at all the food. Note to self—never shop when I’m hungry. Seriously. Everything looked like a three course meal—a three course meal that I couldn’t cook. I settled for sandwiches and a bag of chips. Although, I didn’t know what the hell had happened to chips since I’d gone inside. I picked the bag up, thinking it was a multi-pack, like twelve bags in one but no, it was
one
bag. Even the chocolate bars were twice the size.

Now, I knew Abe was watching from his counter. Old Hawkeye hovered over his store like you were about to raid his nest and he thought everyone was a pilfering little thief. In my case, this had always been right but it was down to the fact that the grumpy ol’ tool would never serve me so what did he expect?

I kept my head down as I walked toward the counter and handed him my haul. He bagged them and charged me, all the while shooting to catch a glimpse of my face. He was as nosy as a crow. I could feel his little guesses. Was I a useless hobo? Was I a rich eccentric? Was I scoping out the store to break into the safe under his desk?

When I got my receipt and my goods and they were unequivocally mine, I looked up and let him see my face.

He went purple. “What the hell are you doing here?”

“Nice to see you too, Uncle Abe.” Everyone was so sweet, so welcoming in this town.

“You’re nothing to me. Crawling back here—”

“Pa?”

We looked at the spotty kid poking his head around the door to the back room.

“What is it, Uri?” Abe asked.

I could feel his panic, his face a picture. Uri, the prince, had revealed his hiding place. The big bad monster would surely devour him now. I looked at my uncle and would have laughed if I couldn’t feel the severity of his fear. What the hell did he think I was going to do to Uri?

“Who’s this?” Uri asked.

I looked at him. Oh, he was spoiled. He was spoiled, sneaky, and every bit as messed up as I had been. Only, he didn’t have my burdens so I could read him like a book.

“I wouldn’t if I were you,” I warned.

He cocked his head. A girl talking to
him
like this?
Yeah, kid . . . you take a picture and post it and I will string you up
.

“Don’t talk to Uri like that,” Abe snapped.

“Unless you want the world knowing that I shopped in your store . . .” I raised an eyebrow.

Uncle Abe knew enough about my peculiarities to know I was right about the runt’s intentions. “Uri, go help your mother.”

Uri looked at his father with more disgust than Uncle Abe normally looked at me. “But—”

“Go!”

The kid ignored him and pulled out one of those smart phones. I knew enough from watching the guards in Serenity Hills that tapping away meant trouble. My hand was over the phone before he could snap the photo. I ripped it off him and threw it on the floor, then stamped on it for good measure.

Uri was heading the same way I had but for different reasons and no way was I letting him think he could get one over on me. Abe slipped off the stool and pulled a now sobbing brat away from me. With one hand secured around Uri, he picked up the receiver and called the police. He probably had them on speed dial.

Abe’s wife, Sara, rushed in from the back and took her son away from dangerous old me. I waited patiently for the police to arrive and ate my sandwiches much to Abe’s irritation. At least I could say that my homecoming had been memorable.

 

Chapter 22

 

UNSURPRISINGLY, MY FATHER answered the call. He always did follow Abe’s orders but I had managed to eat my sandwiches and half the monster bag of chips before he hurried in through the door. I was unprepared for how old he’d gotten since I’d been in Serenity Hills. He’d never had masses of hair but now it was more gray than black and his face looked a lot grayer too. The best way I could’ve described him was weathered. He looked like I felt.

My father thought very little of me, this I knew from his words, ’cause I couldn’t read a darn thing off him. Sometimes I could sense his immediate feeling, but it wasn’t any more than ordinary people could sense.

One thing I had known was that my father did not believe that I had murdered Jake. He had disowned me yes, but because I had lied, I had run away from the scene and all the stupid nonsense that I believed in. That was in spite of the nonsense helping him catch a killer and gain a promotion.

“Evenin’,” I said as cheerfully as I could.

My father looked ready to explode. Glaring at me, he ripped his brimmed hat off his head. “You’ve been here two minutes . . . two damn minutes!”

I shrugged. “Not my fault Abe can’t raise his offshoots.”

Abe narrowed his eyes at me, I narrowed mine back. “Get her out of my shop!”

“If you hadn’t been a drama queen, I’d have left ages ago,” I said.

“I want her charged,” he ranted.

“What for?” my father asked, looking like he wanted to head for the whiskey.

“Criminal damage. She broke Uri’s phone.”

My father looked at me with the same look I had seen a million times. The “why did
you
have to be my daughter?” look. It stung like acid to my heart every time.

“Did you?” he asked.

“I warned the kid not to take pictures of me. He didn’t listen.”

“So that gives you the right to assault him?” Abe protested.

I laughed, finished off my chips, and threw the wrapper past his head into the trash can. “Look at me. If I had assaulted the little brat, he’d be dead.”

I knew the second I had said it, it would be seen as a threat not an observation. I had no intention of hurting a soul but I was a murderer so my intentions meant diddly squat and sweet applejack as Nan would say.

Seconds later I was in the back of the police car in handcuffs.

“I was merely pointing out that at my size an assault would have been pretty noticeable,” I said.

My father slammed the door and started the car. “I know.”

I’d lasted less than twelve hours on the outside. That had to be some kind of a record. “Y’know, if you’d answered the doc’s letters, this wouldn’t have happened.”

My father scowled in the rear view mirror. “So, it’s my fault again, is it?”

“Partly. The doc told y’all I was coming. I could have been at Nan’s hours ago.”

“You think I wanted to be seen with
you
?”

I bit down my anger, my stomach already unsettled from the upheaval was now churning, my hands clenched in frustration. “Well, now you get to prove I don’t mean nothing to you. Just lock me back up and forget I exist.”

He said nothing as we drove past city hall where the police department was tucked into a corner of the first floor, one of the original buildings in town made of rough sandstone. Expecting him to swing into the parking lot, I frowned when he carried straight on down the road. His eyes were focused on the black top as we headed past the shops selling fishing and hunting equipment.

We neared my parents’ house which was one of the newer buildings nestled back in their own private world. I stared up at the too-neat hedges cut into pretty shapes. They were all too perfect and ordered for my liking, like all the folks were terrified of breaking free of the uniform neighborhoods. I’d always felt happier in Nan’s cabin.

“Will she be there?” I asked, hoping like hell my mother wouldn’t be. I’d had enough drama for one day.

Again, my father didn’t say a thing. He kept on driving, out over the planked bridge across one of the creeks that flowed into the river. The forest hugged the road on either side, the waning sunlight flickering through the green. Maybe he was just going to drive me straight on back to prison. How many years was it for freaking out a snotty brat?

We turned off and headed down a narrow lane that opened up to freshly furrowed fields on either side. To the right, Mrs. O’Reilly’s farm sat on the horizon, a dark smudge against the glowing sunset. I could see for miles that way, nothing but flat farm land snaking into the valley. Different from straight ahead as we disappeared into more trees. The surroundings became wilder as an army of white oak lined the road either side. I’d had some good times climbing those and one painful meeting between my front teeth and a trunk. We came to a dirt and gravel lane and turned down it.

I had to hang on to the back of the front seat to keep from slamming into the roof as we seemed to hit every neglected rut and rock. Each rocking motion felt like the place was welcoming me home, the breeze rippling through the leaves before us. I could feel her, Nan, out there in the shadow of Blackbear Mountain—every branch, every blade etched with the sense of her.

I spotted the silhouetted shape of the cabin and felt an ache inside me that she wasn’t there no more. Would the place I’d called a sanctuary still feel that way without her? It was the oldest place in town. I ain’t exactly sure how old but I knew that generations of Loreleis had splashed in the river, heard the rumble of the waterwheel, and ate trout from up stream. I couldn’t help but smile as we passed the old tree stump that my grandpa had carved Nan as a wedding present. I was pretty sure that Loreleis must grow out of the ground on the banks of the river.

With those kind of roots, my heart should have soared at the sight of the place but instead I could just about keep my teeth from grinding. It was nothing but a shell.

And shell was a polite word for it. The roof was half rotted away. The wooden door was black from where the river must have flooded the place at some point. The windows had been smashed with rocks or stones from bored kids and the wheel, which had once gotten its power from the river, was smashed up and growing its own meadow.

“It needs work,” my father said.

“Stating the freakin’ obvious,” I muttered. “Don’t I have to sign in? State I won’t eat any of the town’s children?”

My father flashed an irritated look in the rear-view mirror. “It’s all a joke to you, isn’t it? A decade in prison and you still think everything is funny.”

I fought the urge not to explode in anger. The car was getting smaller as claustrophobia set in, the seat squeezing in and out. “Funny? No, I don’t think being locked in a mental institution is funny . . . now, let me the hell out.”

My voice filled the car and the birds nesting in the tree nearby made a break for it. My father got out and opened my door. I climbed out. The night air whipped through my ill-fitting clothes but I wasn’t cold. I was too pent up. My father let me stand there, still cuffed, as he threw camping equipment and a large trunk at my feet.

“I’m surprised you didn’t just torch the place to emphasize your bruised ego,” I said.

He walked to me and uncuffed me. “She left it to you.”

I laughed—a hollow, raw laugh. “I bet that really bugged mommy dearest. No way to milk the tourists now.”

My father pulled a box of supplies from the trunk and placed it on the ground. “Your mother left me. I have a new life . . . a new family now . . . so do everyone a favor and keep away.”

I pointed to my ankle. “What about my monitor?”

He knelt down, took it off, and threw it into his car. “You want supplies. Order them, grow them, hell, hike to the city—”

“That’s an hour by car.”

“I don’t care. Just stay the hell away from town.”

I pumped my fists as I looked at him. I might not be able to read him but I wasn’t a skinny little kid he could bully anymore. “I served my time. I have rights. I can go where the hell I like.”

My father got in his car, hiding in his metal shield. “I’m serious. If I see you near the town, you’ll be in prison by nightfall.”

“Very touching,
Daddy
,” I shot back. “At least mother came to her senses in the end.”

The jibe hit him where it hurt and he blinked. Then he scowled and screeched off.

I watched the cruiser throw up dust as he hurtled off and kicked the hell out of the stupid water wheel. To stop myself from breaking a toe I hauled the equipment and the trunk into the leaky-excuse-for-a-cabin. I cracked open the door, the bottom half splintering as I did so, and walked into the rank interior.

It was a dank, rotting ruin. The river water had made it halfway up the walls at some point, coating it with foul-smelling sludge that made even my concrete stomach twinge. Where there had been the comfort of Nan sitting in her rocking chair now was an empty space. Where she had cooked trout and concocted her herbal cures was only decay. Where there had been the grinding rumble of the wheel was a solemn, echoing drip, drip, drip. It felt as hollow as I did in that moment—hollow, haunted, forgotten, and pretty much falling apart. Had my parents left this place to rot to punish me? Was this the payback for messing up their tidy little lives? How the hell was I going to fix this mess?

Trying not to think about it, I focused on the baby steps that Llys had drummed into me. First, I set up the stove, but the gas flame did little to warm my freezing fingers. So I pitched the tent and climbed inside the sleeping bag to fend off the increasing chill. I looked through the tent opening at the trunk and realized it was Nan’s. It had sat next to her rocking chair in the corner.

I was too tired to check it out now. The day had battered every sense I had.

The past is a taxing thing. It waits around corners to leap out at you and gets heavier and heavier as the years go by. It made me wonder if that was why Nan had never spoken to me. Maybe she had known what a rotten future lay in store for me.

 

Chapter 23

 

ELI LORELEI WAS a simple man. He liked his job, his morning runs, and fishing on the weekends. What he hated was conflict and his prodigal daughter’s return, coupled with the prospect of having to explain himself to his wife, Jenny, sat so heavily on his chest he could hardly breathe.

For some reason, whenever he and Aeron ended up in the same place they descended into a fight. They had fought ever since she had learned to talk. Eli’s problem was that Aeron was too much like her mother. Not the woman that she had grown up with but his first wife. Yes, he was unfortunate enough to have watched two wives walk out of his life. The first, his true love, Lilia, was a girl he had met in boyhood. The strange little girl who had lived with Nan beside the river.

Untamable, Lilia’s sheer presence could render him speechless. She had a gift, a mysterious connection with the world around her. They had been married for less than a year when Aeron was born and not a month later, Lilia got up one morning and left without a word to anyone.

Wife number two had been less than enamored with little Aeron. He had met Iris at work when he was a hotshot detective and she was a hotshot defense attorney. Their relationship had been fireworks and battles from day one. Iris had tolerated Aeron but she would not let the odd little girl be present if one of her beloved partners in the firm came to dinner. It took the refusal of Iris to defend Aeron in court to finally make him see how stone cold Iris was. Now she was married to one of those partners at her firm and had nearly bankrupted Eli in the process.

Listening to that woman had been the worst thing Eli had ever done. He had so wanted Aeron to have a mother figure, and had been so wrapped up in his own life that he let the rift grow. He had become weak in his desperation to make Aeron fit into the world around her.

He had been heartbroken over Lilia and sniped and snapped and told his beautiful daughter the most unimaginable lies. Then, when she dared show him, a grown man, how to solve his own case, not only had he reacted badly but he had told her something so hurtful and so untrue, that to think of it even now hurt him. He had said that he had never wanted her, that he had never wanted a girl, and that she should go and play with her little dolls.

From that moment on, Aeron was no longer his daughter. She distanced herself from everything that was him. Her gifts scared him and the angrier she seemed to grow, the more intense her connection with the gifts became.

Eli had watched Lilia tortured to the point of madness by visions and wailing at the pain of some stranger over a thousand miles away.

At a loss of what to do, how to help, and not understanding any of it, he became as distant from Aeron as she from him. Her abilities grew in adolescence and he ignored her distress. She responded in the way many abandoned children did and he had turned away. The older she got, the more she looked like Lilia and it was like a dagger to his heart.

Then when they found Jake Casey’s body, it was too late.

Now, Nan had raised Lilia, her granddaughter, and she had pretty much raised Aeron too. Nan had never forgiven him for the way he treated his own daughter and he didn’t blame her. Nan had all the same gifts and knew her girls, she knew them inside out. A woman of few words but with a tongue so sharp it could slice through any armor.

While Nan had been alive, Aeron had kept it together. She was always calmed by her time spent at Nan’s but when Nan had died, Eli had pushed Aeron into mainstream education. If he hadn’t, Aeron wouldn’t have met Sam. If he’d just kept her home, then Jake might still be alive.

He’d gone to Nan’s graveside when Aeron confessed to him point-blank in the interview room that she had killed Jake. He had begged Nan for a way to know that Aeron wasn’t responsible.

Now, Eli was not a superstitious man, nor did he believe in ghosts or ghouls or any such nonsense, but when Nan visited him in his sleep and gave him the biggest tongue-lashing he’d ever received, he knew it was the truth.

“All she wanted was for you to pay attention,” she said. “But no, you’re as dense as a forest and you ain’t half as pretty. As if Aeron . . .
my
girl, could harm another living soul.”

Even the memory made him squirm in his seat.

“You failed her, over and over. And now you’re just gonna wash your hands, bury your head, and hope that your butt will smell of roses. Well, it ain’t.”

Eli looked up at the house he lived in with his third wife Jenny. He had two girls with her, Louise and Ruth. He was a loving father to them but he had failed Aeron spectacularly. He had failed and he didn’t know how the hell to fix it. Aeron didn’t even know that she had two half-sisters. She had no idea about Jenny.

Jenny wasn’t exactly a good woman, she was a stern woman, and the only woman who wanted him after Aeron had been convicted. He and Jenny were compatible in a lot of ways but she had her opinions. One of them was that any other daughter he’d had was not as important as the two he had with her. Aeron was not welcome in the home. She didn’t want her girls or him anywhere near his messed-up kid.

So pretty much, if Jenny knew where he’d just spent his last few hours, she’d hit the roof. Eli sighed. He wouldn’t tell her, it was easier that way. Yes, Eli Lorelei was a simple man. Simple and a coward.

 

Chapter 24

 

I AWOKE IN the middle of the night with the smell of lavender in my nostrils. My entire body went rigid and I was so cold I felt like a human glacier. That meant only one thing.

“Nan?”

I opened my tent and saw Nan sitting on her rocking chair, which was weird ’cause there hadn’t been one there earlier. She tapped the trunk and nodded. I rubbed my eyes, shivering, and wandered to the trunk. I opened it and inside was a bottle of champagne with one glass, a logbook or diary of some sort, and a bunch of items I couldn’t really make out.

“You gonna toast?” Nan asked. “I’m getting a thirst.”

I raised my eyebrow. “You’re dead, you don’t get thirsty.”

“How are you to know, Shortstop? Now, crack it open. Been waitin’ around long enough.”

I nodded and pulled out the bottle, which she had wrapped up tight in bubble wrap. “You know what a dozy your father is.”

I couldn’t really argue with that so I popped open the bottle with a corkscrew in the trunk and poured a glass. “What are we toasting?”

“Your freedom, what else?”

I nodded and clinked my glass through hers. “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever heard you talk before.”

Nan nodded. “I had my reasons.”

“You mean you saw everything that was going to happen?”

Nan shook her head. “You know well enough that you can’t see the whole picture and you see a hell of a lot more than I ever did.” She tapped the trunk. “Read the letter in the morning and promise me one thing, Shortstop.”

I nodded, knowing it had taken her years to stay for this long. “Of course I will . . . as long as you get some rest and stop chirping at me.”

Nan smiled. “Done.”

“So, what’s the promise?” I asked.

Nan met my eyes and every ounce of love she felt came hurtling at me like a huge beam of warmth. “Don’t give up, Shortstop, and don’t turn your back on who you are.”

I folded my arms. “That’s two.”

“One promise. Two parts.”

I looked down at the bottle. How could you turn down a request from a spirit that had waited so long to welcome you back? “I promise.”

Now, the weird thing with meeting ghosts is that I never do it when I’m conscious, so I wasn’t surprised to find myself waking with the taste of champagne on my lips. I lay there for a moment but then came the sound of some noisy critter trying to scratch a hole through the wall. I rolled over and got out of the tent. I stomped to the window and glared at the shocked squirrel.

“If you want a place for your nuts, I’ll build you one. Just less of the destruction, I got enough to do.”

The squirrel looked at me. She was a little taken aback. Like I said, I sense a lot and animals do to, so between both sets of extra senses, I’m like a real-life Doctor Doolittle.

“I’ll get to it later, I promise,” I told her.

I walked to the trunk and pulled out a large bag of nuts that I’d seen in my dream.

“There you go.
Bon appetite
,” I told the squirrel.

She sniffed at it, eyeing me like I’d catch her and roast her.

“Look at the size of me, you wouldn’t make much of a snack.”

The squirrel cocked her head, studying me like she was considering my words, then dived, head first, into the bag. She’d be the size of a house if I spoiled her. I wandered back to the trunk and sat beside it. The bottle of champagne was gone but there was a notebook perched on top with my name scrawled upon it.

I opened up the book and saw Nan’s handwriting. The kind of flowery writing that was used by older generations. The kind I use because Nan taught me how to write.
 
Shortstop,
Now you celebrated your first night. It’s time to get to the hard work. Now I know you wanna scare the wildlife with that fiddle o’ yours but you gotta set up the place before the storms start.
I’m gonna talk you through the small stuff, so don’t sweat it. Step by step like that head doctor says. In no time at all the place will be fixed up and firing.
You remember the field next door? The one I always tended? Well, it’s yours now, Shorty, so if you go in the ol’ barn you’ll find the tools I left. They ain’t none of that new fangled fancy stuff but they work.
Prepare the field for plantin’ and then build the box you promised the pesky squirrel cos otherwise, if she’s anythin’ like her grandmother and ancestors, she’ll hammer a hole in your roof!
Love,
Nan xxx
P.s - I’m your Nan you halfwit. Why the hell else would I have put up with you?

 

I laughed, feeling for the first time in years someone understood me. Tears sprung to my eyes and I sobbed like I’d never done before.

Through my tears, I saw another scribble at the bottom of the page.
 

P.P.S - Stop blubbering and get on with it!
 

I placed the book inside the trunk, fired up the stove, and made myself some freeze-dried stuff that my father had thrown in a box.

In an hour, I was out in the field, digging through years of bramble and vine. I scooted past the animals’ nesting and opened up the barn where Nan kept her tools.

I had always thought that the little field was the farmer’s next door and that Nan had worked for him but now I knew different. I turned and looked at the higgle-piggle wheat field, its weeds thicker than some sections of the cricked and cracked fence.

Even if it needed work, it was mine.

I spent the entire day ploughing and plucking and turning over the field until it was looking something like Nan used to conjure and felt as though I had never been away. I’d helped Nan in the field so many times that it felt more like home than the large, empty house my parents had occupied.

After dinner I pulled out some wood from the back of the shed and built the box for Mrs. Squirrel with a flap and lever attached. The squirrel watched me attach the box to the wall in the waning sunlight. She investigated her new store as soon as I stepped away.

Mrs. Squirrel seemed pretty pleased with it. She tested it for structure and safety, did a dry run with the nuts and tested out the lever I’d attached for her to keep her stash from the birds. Happy that I had appeased the resident nag, I boiled some water on the stove for supper.

I heard a scraping in one of the rotting kitchen cupboards. I opened it up and Mrs. Squirrel sprinted past with a sealed package of sponges. “Hey!”

If squirrels could snigger, she would have. It was a good thing those sponges had survived the flood and they’d been sealed up so tight. I could have used them.

“Thieving little—”

I stopped as she appeared on her box, trying to haul her loot through the gap.

“Hang on a minute.” I opened up the window, reached through, and snapped off the packaging. I then helped the little thief to break up her bounty and stuff it into the box. “It’s supposed to be for your nuts, not you,” I told her.

She gave me a look, which told me that she wanted another box for that, preferably within reach and if I’d be so kind to fit a flap to the wall so she wouldn’t have to keep finding holes to get into the house.

“Y’know, Nan was right . . . bossy,” I told her.

The squirrel flicked her bushy tail into my face and closed the lid as she settled in to her new home. I looked around at the creaky, leaky shack of a place I had inherited.

“At least one of us has some comfort,” I muttered. I wandered wearily over to my sleeping bag, ate my boiled slop, and was out as soon as my head hit the pillow.

 

Chapter 25

 

SOME PEOPLE’S WEEDS are another’s prize blooms, and no more was this the case than with creeping Charlie–that little plant that covered the ground in a thick blanket of green, then, in spring, burst out into the most vivid splashes of purple you’ll ever see. It could provide cures for all sorts of ailments and could be put in tea. It had a load of uses
, if
you knew what you were doing with it. Nan had. She’d cook up that little plant when I had a cough or a cold and in no time I’d be running around causing chaos. She had used the garden like a pantry, she knew every leaf on every tree and what she could use it for.

I’m not Nan. I ain’t got no idea how to cook toast, let alone make up a nettle stew or a cough mixture from ground ivy. Still, that didn’t make the display that greeted my eyes, as I walked out into the morning sunshine, any less soul soothing.

I sat there for at least an hour in the morning sun. I felt like a child that had just opened its eyes to the wonders of the world. The simple pleasure of touching the indigo bursts meant more than my simple words could ever explain. So long had I been in the tomb of gray, thick stone, that I never dreamed such simple moments would ever be mine to treasure again.

After some wrenching and a prod from Nan in my ear I walked to the field. I made up for my leisure by working through every meal until the scarecrows were dancing in the evening breeze and the field was sewn with every seed Nan had stowed in the trunk for me.

Now, in a perfect world, I would have let the ground settle, I would have turned it over a few times, perhaps adding some new rich fertilizer to boost the nutrients. I didn’t have that kind of time. The belt of storms would be on their way soon enough and I needed the seeds to get growing.

In Oppidum the weather is so unpredictable in some months, that you can go out in the morning in shorts and return at night wrapped in a scarf and gloves. A lot of the politicians are saying it’s the world warming up but I can feel how important it is that weather cycles fluctuate, that they gotta change and shift about. I ain’t no expert on anything but I think that’s how the world seems to work. It’s always on the move, always growing and changing and evolving. It’s us that has to go with it, not try and control it.

And that’s pretty much how it seems to work in Oppidum. We get this really unique phenomenon which scientists say is all about different air meeting and having some kind of disagreement. Either way, the result is we end up with summer storms. Every mid-May till sometime mid-June the weather goes completely bonkers. Mother Nature seems to look in her box of weather and thinks, “this needs a good ol’ spring clean,” so tips the box and empties it right on top of us. We get everything from blizzards to persistent thunderstorms, to gales so strong they blow over cars. There was rain so heavy one year and the river got so high that Nan and I were trapped on the half floor overlooking the main floor for days. And I ain’t even gonna go into twisters.

Then, as if Mother Nature decides she’s happy she’s emptied out her garbage, it all stops. Normally on my birthday.

I still had a couple of weeks until the storms would arrive and hoped it would be long enough for the seeds to get all nestled in before the kitchen sink got thrown at them. As I locked up the barn and sauntered back to the cabin for the night, a scream hit my ears at such a level that I braced myself for the blow from an attacker.

Sun setting, run, run faster, legs so tired, so wobbly, run, stumble, fumble, fall, crawl, run, have to run, hands, so tight, so large, pain, so much pain, run, please, run . . .

I rubbed my head, trying to fend off the panic thumping its way through my body. “That was a bad one,” I told Mrs. Squirrel who was looking at me, nut in her mouth. “Just a vision, that’s all. Must be tired.”

Mrs. Squirrel wasn’t convinced but then neither was I.

There are three kinds of visions that I seem to have. There’s the flashes, like the ones I just had. They are like watching a minute of a blockbuster movie in 3-D.

Then, there’s the dreams—the kind that gets me up close and personal. I experience all the sights and smells and feelings, I’m all tuned in like I am actually there. I find it really hard to figure out if it’s something I am experiencing or a vision.

Then, the last, the prophetic ones. Like I said before, I hate them. All the fire and fury and strange symbolic things that I don’t have the faintest idea how to decipher.

The flashes seem to be like a warning beacon, a feeling so intense that it ripples through the area like an aftershock.

The dreams are another’s experience, as it’s happening. Somehow I am living the event with the person, experiencing what they experience.

Then the prophetic are clearly what could be, or will be or may be. I don’t know. I wasn’t given an instruction manual. All I know is that they are terrifying and not very useful even if I could understand. Who the hell would listen to me anyway?

Mrs. Squirrel bounced up onto her box. She seemed happy that I wasn’t going to faint before she got into her nut-store and I headed inside for the evening, trying and failing to rid the flash from my mind.

 

MARI, SUCH A sweet peach of a girl. Dark hair swaying behind you as you walk. You don’t belong here, Mari. You don’t belong anywhere. Your filthy mongrel roots and your promiscuous ways . . . you’re all the same, all less than human. Like cattle, but you’re not so worthwhile. It’s not like you’d make much money if I sold you for meat.

How does nature let runts like you exist? What is your use? You’re a nobody, Mari. You’re vermin, a dirty, flea-infested, disease-ridden tramp.

I’m going to change all that Mari . . . right now . . . I’m going to change everything for you. How would you like to be special, Mari?

I’ve waited so long, you see . . . waited and waited to start my collection. I think you’re the perfect test, Mari. A worthless guinea pig.

Yes, I’ll collect you, Mari . . . sweet, disgusting, Mari. Oh what fun we’ll have.
 

MARI SAID HER thank yous to Mrs. O’Reilly and headed out into the corn field. She hadn’t expected anyone in this hole to even look at her for a job but her mother had told her Mrs. O’Reilly wasn’t like the others in this small town.

She didn’t care that Mari wasn’t from here and she didn’t care that Mari was from the gypsy train that had pulled into town for the summer.

Mari wasn’t sure why here. The place was dead, boring. Who would vacation here? Besides the locals were all red-neck idiots who hated them.

At least she could get some money together this summer. Strawberry picking sounded like hard work but she didn’t mind that at all, she loved the feel of dirt in her fingers, a connection to the earth.

She’d gotten it from her grandmother, the mysterious woman who everyone turned to. The woman who she half wished her mother would be more like. It sounded harsh in her own mind but Grandma was steady, calm, her wise nature soothing.

Mari’s mother was anything but those things. She dragged them from town to town, sometimes for months away from the train, as if she was running from something, as if they were being chased by a nightmare.

Mari had asked why once in a fit of frustration and the only thing her mother could tell her was “nine-eight-four.” She didn’t even know what it meant. They were running from a number.

Mari had demanded this year that there would be no more running. She was going to have one summer in a single place and that was final.

Something cracked behind her and she turned. A bar smashed into her temple. The ground hard. The blood tasted metallic as it dribbled into her mouth.

She reached out to crawl. A rope jolted her neck, she scrabbled for it, clawed at it, ripped her skin to pull free.

Air, she needed air, breathe!

The rope loosened. Not by much. She gasped, spluttered.

A rope rubbed roughly at her ankles and the sound of a machine roared into life.

 

Chapter 26

 

ELI SAT AT the old wooden desk he had insisted on keeping after the major renovations to the department two years ago. The door to his office was open and he listened to Gladys type reports into the computer as Sam Casey dealt with a complaint.

He was in work far later than usual today. He didn’t want to face Jenny’s inquisition when he got home.

It had taken Abe all of a day to send his wife Sara over to Jenny and fill her in on the details. To tell Jenny all about Aeron’s re-appearance and no doubt the pair sat jibing at how dangerous and devious Aeron was.

The thought made Eli’s stomach ache. Aeron wasn’t a bad girl. She didn’t have a callous bone in that gigantic body of hers. Yes, she was messed up and that was his doing. Yes, she had those peculiar gifts but her nature was a soft one. He couldn’t say he knew a lot about her but of that much he was sure.

Sam Casey on the other hand wasn’t so sweet. Eli had believed Aeron when she had told him that Sam was at the rail line when Jake died. It didn’t matter that Sam had denied the fact, point blank, to his face, Eli had known the boy was lying.

But Sam Casey was the mayor’s golden son. The son who was now deputy chief, despite Eli’s disapproval of him ever getting a badge. Eli had enough respect from the city council to keep him in office, mainly because the only other alternative was for someone from outside Oppidum to take the post. Many of the city council members still remembered how Sam had been as much of a troublemaker as Aeron but Mayor Casey had pulled a lot of strings.

The deputy chief in question was currently looking bored as a distressed woman ranted at him, tears staining her cheeks crimson. Sam never had much in the way of empathy. He could charm those he chose to with that politician’s tongue he’d inherited but he couldn’t care a less about the “little people.” He was all about getting to the top as quickly, and effortlessly, as he could.

The woman got more and more frantic, pleading with Sam to listen, and at the third mention of her daughter, Eli sighed and walked out of his office.

“She’s gone. Why won’t you listen?” The tears streamed down the woman’s cheeks and dripped from her chin. “Mari would never leave without a word.”

Eli knew why Sam wasn’t bothered and it made his anger bubble. The woman was one of the gypsy train that had pulled into town ready for the Summer Fayre. They were about as popular as Aeron.

“Why don’t you come and talk to me about it?” Eli said, pointing to his office.

“I’m dealing with it,” Sam snapped.

Eli leveled “the look” at him—the one that petrified most of his officers. “Did someone make you chief, boy?”

Sam looked around at Gladys, who quickly returned her attention to her typing. “Not yet.” He smiled sweetly.

Eli scowled. What the hell had Aeron ever seen in the spoiled brat? “Never, if I get my way,” he muttered under his breath. “Please. This way.” He pointed to his office door.

The woman blinked at him, her eyebrows dipping, her puffy eyes searching his. She glanced back at Sam as she clutched her handbag closer, and Eli motioned for her to walk ahead of him. “Would you like something to drink?”

She snapped her eyes from Sam’s. “No . . . thank you.” She hurried into Eli’s office.

Eli shot Sam a cold look before following her. The boy shouldn’t have had a damn badge.

“Please, sit down.” He closed the door and headed to his desk as the woman sank down onto one of the visitor’s chairs. He pulled out a notebook as he smiled as warmly as he could at the sniffling woman and nudged forward a box of tissues.

“So how long has Mari been gone . . . Mrs.—”

“Miss. Just call me Natalia.”

Her curly black hair fell down over her high cheekbones. Eli swallowed, dipping his eyes to stop from staring at her. She had an air of . . . something . . . exotic maybe? With her dark eyes, gold hoops in her ears and a tight top that left little to his imagination, it was hard not to look at her. Still, she didn’t seem to be the kind of woman easily won over. Shaking the thought from his head, Eli nodded and noted down the names. Natalia hadn’t trusted him enough for a surname and he understood why. Sam and the others treated her people like rotting wood, trust would not be easily earned.

“How long has Mari been missing?”

“Four hours,” Natalia answered. “She’s not a runaway and she won’t have got lost. Mari wouldn’t leave without saying. She’s a good girl.”

Eli smiled. “Where was she headed last?”

“O’Reilly’s farm. She was going to try for a picking job.”

Eli calculated the distance from the gypsy encampment to the farm was about three miles walking at most. “Did Mrs. O’Reilly say anything?”

“Mari turned up. She got the job and Mari was set to start next week.” She trailed her manicured nails over her handbag and smiled down at a charm bracelet on her wrist. Her eyes twinkled as she stared at the metal.

“And?”

“Then she left and walked back toward home. That’s what Mrs. O’Reilly said.”

Eli frowned. Police procedure dictated that they could only deem her missing after twenty-four hours but his instinct was rattling at him, the girl could be hurt. The fact that Natalia had come into the station looking for help spoke volumes about how worried she truly was. Something was wrong.

“I’ll tell you what,” he said. “Why don’t we go and take a drive over there and I can check out some of the places she could be, and you can give me a description that I can circulate to the patrol tonight?”

Natalia looked at him, her eyes narrowed in suspicion. “So, you’ll help . . . just like that?”

Eli nodded. “Always trust a woman’s intuition.”
 

ELI DROVE THEM out toward the farm. The fields around them glowed in silver moonshine.

“I saw the papers—I saw what they said about your girl,” Natalia said.

Eli sighed. The whole world had read that damn rag.

“She’s innocent, but you knew that . . . didn’t you?” she said. “I mean, even a fool can see that.”

Eli glanced at her. “How so?”

Natalia pointed to the turn off next to O’Reilly’s farm. “Felt her on the way past. She’s out by the river. She’s got more reception than a satellite dish.”

Eli laughed. “Her mother was the same.”

They drove for hours, scoping every field and lane that Eli could think of but Mari was nowhere to be found.

“Do you think she might have made it back home?” he asked eventually.

Natalia shook her head. “Drop me at the river, could you?”

Eli tensed. “Why?”

Natalia smiled, not a happy one but one of a woman whose hope was fading fast. “She’ll know. Your girl will know what happened to her. That is if she’ll help.”

“What do you mean?”

“The size of the gift that she has been given . . . Well, it’s hard enough when people around you can help . . . want to help.”

Eli sighed and turned down the little dirt track to the mill. “She’s never had anyone.”

The truth stung but how could he deny it?

Eli stopped the car at the cabin and gazed at the rundown ruin that had once housed so much love and happiness. Aeron had been keeping herself busy by the look of the field next door. Again, something she was doing alone without so much as a word of help from him.

“Thank you,” Natalia said. “I know it’s not easy going up against your own, but thanks.”

Eli shrugged. “It’s my job. If Mari isn’t back by morning, let me know and we’ll get a search party in motion.”

Natalia got out and pulled her cardigan around her shoulders.

Eli wanted to go with her, to see Aeron. Maybe Aeron could help and he could go and find the girl. He closed his eyes. Who was he kidding? Aeron and he couldn’t be in the same room without it descending into fireworks. That, and he had to go home and face Jenny.

 

Chapter 27

 

I KNEW SHE was coming before I heard the knock on the door. I saved time for us both by leaving the door open and putting on some tea—an old Welsh tradition I picked up from Nan.

Natalia stepped across the threshold and stared at me, uncertain.

I nodded and waved her in. “Come in. I’m Aeron.”

“Natalia,” she said.

“Nice to meet you, Natalia.” I picked up Nan’s old tea pot, poured out a cup, and handed it to her. “I don’t have sugar.”

Natalia took the plastic mug and nodded her thanks. She cast furtive looks at the rotted shell I lived in. She wanted to know why my father left me in a dump, why I was staying, why I hadn’t run the second my chains had been unshackled. She wanted to know a lot but she was too polite and far too worried to do anything other than stand in the center of what used to be Nan’s kitchen and cuddle her tea.

“Your father just dropped me off,” she managed.

I nodded. I couldn’t read my father’s thoughts but I could feel him.

Natalia was terrified, her fear was like waves of gray crashing out from her heart in all directions. I didn’t blame her. A dark cloud of . . . something . . . had appeared over the town in the few hours since nightfall. When events seem to suck a whole place into darkness, into the depth of a world void of hope, a cloud appears over the place.

It was a lot like the clouds I saw over people, the ones with the long slithery tentacles that hung down, feeding off the despair. I didn’t know what the hell it was, I didn’t know where it came from or how the hell to make it go away but I saw it. I knew it could sense that I could see it. It had a wariness, like thousands of eyes watching me. The cloud seemed to keep its distance from me but I couldn’t stop it from spreading out over the rest of the town.

“Mari,” Natalia started. “Did you see?”

I sighed. The black cloud’s appearance told me more than my flash visions ever could. “I just saw . . . she left her flip-flop behind . . . in the field . . . next to the turn off.”

Natalia drank deeply from the cup, her hands shaking. “I can’t feel her anymore.”

I looked down at my own mug. I could feel her but I would never tell Natalia why.

“What happened to her?” Natalia asked quietly.

“Storm clouds are gatherin’, thick ‘n’ black. Ain’t none of you will be safe until the sun breaks on through.”

Natalia shook her head. “I won’t leave her behind. I won’t go without Mari.”

“There’s nothing good or right that I can say to you. I’m just some crazy woman in a shack.”

Natalia shook her head. “Denying what you are will never change it. She’s gone . . . hasn’t she?”

I ran my hand through my hair. It was one of those choices: which version of the truth would hurt less? I could be wrong, I could be delusional, who was I to make this kind of decision when I screwed up my own life so badly?

Natalia gripped hold of her empty cup, her eyes filled with shining tears. “Please, please. . . tell me . . . tell me.”

It was one of those choices, whatever you said, it would break a heart beyond healing. “She’s gone, Natalia. Mari’s gone.”
 

OH NATALIA, HOW easy you make this . . . too easy. I just had to wait for you to come looking, didn’t I? Mari is having so much fun, she’s quite the experiment. You are too old for fun, Natalia. You’re too old to be collected.

No, women like you are only good for scrap. You won’t be collected, Natalia, but I can play. What shall we do? I’ll make it fun? You’re no good to be dragged and roped, no, you’re too slow at your age . . . too . . . saggy.

I know, I’ll make you an exhibit like all the other ancient monuments in the museums, how is that? You old hag, that will be fun won’t it?

Yes, that will be perfect.
 

NATALIA HURRIED UP the road, her tears still dribbling down her cheeks. She’d seen this coming, she’d tried to keep Mari safe and somehow she’d failed. Had they not run far enough? Why hadn’t she outrun it by now? Her mother didn’t see the number, didn’t understand that nine-eight-four was everywhere, that it haunted her.

“Natalia,” she heard someone call and spun around.

Nothing there, nothing but corn and trees. No Mari, no one.

She turned back, wrapping her cardigan around herself. Aeron had confirmed her nightmares, her dark nightmares. Natalia wasn’t like her mother, she couldn’t see like her but the wind of the darkness had whipped at her since Mari was a girl. She’d run but not far enough and now Mari was gone.

“Natalia,” the voice called again.

She turned, the bar hitting her in the temple. The road hard, sharp in her back. She grabbed out to rip at the air, blinded by blood and anger. Another blow landed, then another, over and over, then she saw it swaying in the distance. Nine-eight-four.

That was when she found the strength to run.

 

Chapter 28

 

I CAN HARDLY breathe, air tight in my chest. Panic screaming through constricted veins . . . RUN! I can’t keep up . . . laughter chases me. Strange laughter, hollow, soulless . . . like a ghoul, a glowering, faceless ghoul. Feet on grass, cold, divots, sharp stones, pounding, pounding, pounding heart. So loud, so loud, ground so hard on cheek, it stings, fingers in soil, dig in dirt, sharp scratches, scraping, clawing, run, I have to run.

No, rope on neck, burning, fibers like fire, pull, pull it off, I can’t breathe, No, I can’t breathe . . . tighter . . . world spinning, clutching, clawing, desperation, I can’t breathe. Pounding louder, chest bursting, world fading, please . . . no . . . please . . . I can’t—

I snap open my eyes, gasping for air as if I am drowning. I claw my way out of my tent and sprint faster than I ever have before. No, please, no. My bare feet on graveled dirt, the bitter air in my throat, forcing my pace to slow. I clutch my neck, I feel every second of struggle. I am on my knees screaming in agony as the wound is inflicted.

I crawl on hands and knees to her. She stands looking up at her own body. “I’m so sorry . . . please . . . I’m so sorry.”

I say it over and over, pleading forgiveness from her.

She turns to look at me with lifeless eyes, eyes that burst into flame as her face melts into fire, she wails with such fury that I cower from her, my ears ringing and bleeding from the cry—

I woke up, sweat soaked, shaking, trembling with the emptiness of a life taken before its time. Natalia’s spirit was angrier than I have ever felt from anyone. Angry that she had been lied to . . . that I had lied to her . . . angrier now she knew why . . . furious with the burning loss only a mother could understand.

I had told her Mari was gone. I had lied to her. I made that choice not knowing what would happen. Like Nan said, I could only see snippets of the future and Natalia’s fate, I did not see. I made the wrong choice. I should have made her stay, I should have told her the truth. How could I? I didn’t know where Mari was exactly but the young girl was not moving. Mari’s spirit was half with me.

It’s a peculiar thing that sometimes happens to the victim of such a crime. Like the universe shows mercy and removes them from the suffering. See, most peoples’ reaction is, why do these things happen if there’s good in the world? My simple explanation would be that whatever is out there—the good—it feels the wounds deeper than anyone of us can ever comprehend. So, when these things happen. I think the good, unable to control mankind, does the only thing it can do, comfort. And as I sat in my tent, shivering and sobbing like a lost child, it wasn’t Nan who was by my side comforting me . . . but Mari.

 

Chapter 29

 

THE NEXT MORNING, when I was out in the field checking the fences, I heard sirens. I knew it was my father hurtling down the lane and so prepared myself for the onslaught before he came stomping over to me.

“What the hell did you say to her?” he barked.

I ignored him and turned back to the fence I was fixing. I didn’t care who the hell he was—chief, father, or king of the freakin’ world. If he wanted answers, he’d learn to talk proper.

“Did you hear me? What the hell did you do?”

I fixed the horizontal beam onto the post and hammered a nail into the join with one shot.

“They’re baying for your blood, Aeron!”

I looked up at his face, ruddy from fury, and shrugged. “What’s new?”

“She’s dead. Don’t you care? I drop her off at your place and the next thing I know she’s hanging from the road sign.”

I hammered in the second nail, walked to the middle post, and pressed the beam against it. “Which one?”

“What do you mean which one? Oh hell, they’re both dead?”

My father pretended he didn’t know about my “nonsense” but the tone in his voice betrayed him. Natalia had reminded him of someone he’d cared about, I felt that much from him.

“Yeah,” I offered. “The girl’s flip-flop is in the wheat field.”

My father took his hat off and rubbed his hand over his receding hair. “Did she? Did Natalia do what it looks like?”

I hammered in the third nail, trying not to relive every second of the vision from last night. “I thought it was nonsense,” I muttered.

“Just tell me.”

I hammered the fourth nail in and walked down to the end post. “She didn’t get up there of her own accord if that’s what you’re asking.”

“You knew?”

I tried not to sigh out loud and fixed the beam against the post and hammered in the fifth nail. “What do you think?”

White-knuckled grip on his hat, he looked like he wanted it to be my neck instead. “So, you just left her? You just let her wander off to her death?”

The fact that my own father thought I could act so coldly stung. No matter how hard I tried or how many times I told myself that his opinion didn’t matter, that he couldn’t hurt me because I didn’t care, it still stung . . . every damn time.

“What can I say?” I said, hammering in the last nail. “I’m a killer. What the hell do I care about some woman?”

He threw his hands in the air. “And you don’t think that’s what everyone wants to believe? You don’t think that they will blame you for this?”

“Sure as hell, I know they will blame me. That’s the easiest route and always has been.” I picked up another beam and checked for bowing, making sure there were no knots where the nails needed to go. “If you don’t believe my words, ask her people.”

“They know?” he asked.

“Course they know. Their mutts got more intelligence than you.”

My father put his hands on his belt, hat still in one hand. “You know who did it?”

I shook my head. I had spent most of the night reliving the events over and over and at no point could I see anything useful.

“I need supplies to fix the roof,” I said.

My father took stock of the conversation change. I was done talking. “Fine. Give me the list.”

“Haven’t made it. I’ll leave it on your windshield.”

“I told you, girl. You’re banned.”

I stood up to my full height. His eyes flicked to the beam in my hand as I did so. “I’ll do as I freakin’ well please. So, I either leave it on your windshield or I’ll walk into the hardware store myself.”

He rammed his hat on his head and stormed off. I wasn’t surprised to see the dust kicking up as he sped off moments later.

I leaned on the fence and dropped the beam. I felt shaky, faint, and my throat was still sore from the vision. Whoever had killed both Natalia and her daughter, Mari, had enjoyed the whole thing, that much I felt. Whoever it was had loved every second. And this would be just the beginning.

 

Chapter 30

 

AS I WALKED toward city hall, I felt the cloud over the town pulse. I glanced up and saw that it had grown. Natalia’s screams still rang in my ears and made my heart beat too rapidly, it made me feel so breathless that even walking was a trial. I looked around, feeling someone next to me, and nearly flew out of my own skin when I saw Mari standing there. I was wide awake, that much I knew. I only saw ghosts in dreams, was I losing it?

“You feel better now?” I asked. It was a dumb question to ask a ghost, I know, but I didn’t know what the hell I was supposed to say to her.

“It doesn’t hurt anymore,” she told me.

I was glad of that. She was one brave girl.

“Mamma’s angry and I can’t reach her,” Mari said.

“You tried your people?” I asked, hoping she would go find someone else to drag into this horrible tragedy.

“They can’t hear me,” she said.

I wasn’t surprised. It could take her a while to collect up all her energy. Even if her people knew where to look for her, they were too grief stricken to spot her.

“Will you tell Grandma that she needs to talk to Mamma?”

I shoved my hands in my too-tight pockets. The thought of waltzing in and telling people, who had thousands of years combined experience in these matters, just how to conduct themselves, did not seem like a great idea. There wasn’t anyone else who could help Mari. I was it. Me and my stupid gifts.

I nodded. “Just go get your rest. And for what it’s worth, I’m sorry.”

Mari smiled at my words and disappeared.

I looked around, glad that there was no one about to see me rabbiting on to someone they couldn’t see. I could imagine trying to explain that one to Llys. I definitely would be back in her care, permanently.

I crossed the street that separated the tourist part of town from the regular part and passed Rod’s Plaice, one of the fishing shops, and rounded the old city hall building. This end was a lot quieter with most folk at their daily jobs. Last thing I needed was my father seeing me talking to thin air. Tensing at the side door entrance, I couldn’t help but think about the last time I’d walked through it. There was no way I was heading in there if I could help it so I snuck past to the parking lot in the back. I found my father’s car and placed the list under a windshield wiper. A car pulled up alongside me and I turned to it. My chest tighten—Sam.

Now, when we were kids, Sam was always so much bigger than me, yet when he got out of the car, I realized that I bested him a little.

Sam, as I’ve said, was the kind of guy women loved. His square jaw with a cleft in the chin sported brown stubble, his smile perfect like those guys you see plastered on billboards. His eyes were like the pit of a cave, so brown that you could only just make out the pupils. With his long eyelashes, his charm, and his chestnut wavy hair, he had a puppy-dog look about him and he drove women crazy. Right now, those eyes were narrowed as he realized just who was standing in front of him.

“You shouldn’t be here, Aeron.”

“Just leaving a note,” I explained. “Compromise and all that.”

Sam scowled. “You don’t need compromises. You just need to do what you’re damn told.”

My heart sank. I was responsible for Jake’s death and for that I had paid and taken every bit of guilt on my shoulders. But Sam had been there, he wasn’t so innocent himself. I had a track record far longer than it should have been
because
I had covered for my best buddy. Sam sure as hell wouldn’t be a cop if it wasn’t for me and I realized just what a mug I had been.

“Maybe I should start then,” I said. “Daddy always told me to tell the truth . . . how ’bout I start there?”

Sam said nothing but the sweat trickling down his forehead answered my question.

“Nice seeing you, Casey,” I shot at him as I walked past. “Try not to trip over your own ego.”

Lucky for his sake he stayed quiet. Sam Casey had seen me in a bad mood with him only once and clearly, he remembered how painful it was.

 

Chapter 31

 

MY TRIP TO Natalia and Mari’s family didn’t take the route I’d expected. The second I got to the circle of old trailers on a small bluff on the waste ground of Old Thomas’s land, I was welcomed by two women who seemed to know I was coming. Although their hurt rippled off them, they still offered small smiles and led me to meet the grandmother.

I stumbled into the tiny trailer, having to bow my head just to fit my frame inside. The smell of incense hit me, making my head swim. A yapping ball of fluff sat on the floral patterned sofa, stroked by the grandmother’s age-marked hand. It struck me as the kinda place you would fit to most grandmothers, a little dated, a little worn in places but filled with memories and love.

“Hi,” I said, wondering why I’d come here. What could I say? “I . . . Well . . .” I rubbed my hand through my hair, trying to figure where I was going to start. “You see . . .”

The grandmother smiled, her eyes wrinkling with it. “Your name is Aeron Lorelei, you live on the river.”

Focusing on the beads hanging in the doorway, I tried to understand how the hell she’d got that from me walking in. Was I that infamous? All I could manage was, “Sure.”

“You also see things that others don’t.”

Shrugging was the only response I could think of. What the hell did I say to that? This was a bad idea, I should leave—

The grandmother gave me a soul-penetrating look. “Now tell me everything you saw and don’t spare any details.”

I fitted myself onto a chair and sighed. Here went nothing. I told her everything, and she sat listening to every soul-crushing point I could recall, ending with Mari talking to me in the town.

“She’s a good girl. She’s safe now,” the grandmother said. “If she visits you first, tell her that I will help her mother, and not to worry.”

“How?” I asked.

The grandmother tilted her head. “You didn’t get given that part, did you?”

I shook my head. “I never get nothing helpful.”

“No one has spoken to you about it, have they?”

I tried not to laugh. “No one speaks to me. I just got out. But I doubt any folk are gonna talk to me . . . ever.”

The grandmother nodded. “Well, you protect yourself a lot better than most who don’t understand.”

“Ephesians,” I answered.

Chuckling, the grandmother’s eyes wrinkled up. “You don’t seem the kind to seek solace in scriptures.”

“I’m not. Not that I wouldn’t. But a priest, he told me about armor . . . and well, it works . . . a little.”

The grandmother smiled. “He was a wise man. Anyone who believes in something—in the right way—can help you in ways they never dream possible.”

I looked around at the generations captured in frames of wood and bronze. One of Natalia and Mari smiling together caught my eye. “The cloud ain’t leaving anytime soon . . . so all the armor, spiritual or otherwise, ain’t gonna help me when I get accused of murder.”

The grandmother took my hands in hers and held them tight. “You walk a path that no one can follow . . . but you will be the one who sets it all right.”

“How?” I asked. My hands were hot like I’d put them over a flame.

“You have so many gifts. Gifts that heal or hurt, but you will be the one to burst the dark overhead.”

My hands were so hot, like my skin was burning from her touch. I pulled them away, unable to keep them there a second longer. Flashes of faces, of places I had never seen before all plummeted through my mind like the crack of a gunshot.

“What happened?”

The grandmother smiled. “I helped you see . . . just a little bit. But you have a lot to do.”

I rubbed my hands, feeling a bit like cotton wool had been rammed into my brain. “Me? How could I help anyone?”

The grandmother smiled. “You’ll know, when you hold the heart of the killer in the palm of your hand.”

 

Chapter 32

 

ELI LOOKED UP when he heard the click as his office door closed and frowned as Sam Casey cleared his throat.

“You need to learn to knock, boy.”

Casey grunted. “Look, old man. I don’t like you and you sure as hell don’t like me but we both know that Aeron hasn’t hurt a soul and she’s going to be the focus of a witch hunt when this gets out.”

Eli nodded. The one thing keeping the hounds at bay was that the victims weren’t locals.

“She needs to stay away from town. They’ll only think she’s up to something. Hell, Mrs. Stein wanted me to arrest her for trying to use hocus-pocus on her,” Sam said, folding his arms. “I mean the old bat is crazy but she’s just saying what the rest of the town is thinking.”

Eli sat back in his chair and rubbed the bridge of his nose. “You try telling Aeron to stay put and keep her nose clean.”

Sam looked at him in a way that almost made him laugh. A look that said, “I tried and she told me where to stick my badge.”

“I can’t chain her to the cabin. She has rights.”

Sam waved a hand. “She’s on parole, she’s not free yet.”

Eli shook his head. “She
is
free. Aeron served out her parole inside.” And then some. No one had ever explained to him why Aeron ended up with an extra four years on top of her original sentence.

“Leaving notes on your windshield is only going to get her in trouble. So, why don’t you get her a cell phone . . . a computer . . . bring her out of the dark ages.”

Sam laughed at his own remark. Aeron was never much for technology. Not so much that she didn’t like it, more that it didn’t like her. She’d blow electrics up in no time. Eli had punished her for it so many times.

“I just don’t want to see her go down ’cause of some nobodies.”

Eli tensed. The defense of Aeron shouldn’t have surprised him. Sam was many things, but his infatuation with her had always been clear. The flippant disregard of two women, however, irked him.

“Mari and Natalia . . . not nobodies . . . and Mari may turn up.”

Sam raised his eyebrows. “Oh, come on, her mother is being peeled off the road sign as we speak. Whatever the hell happened, the kid ain’t coming home.”

Eli looked at Sam. Now he sounded like Aeron.

“Don’t even think it, old man,” Sam chided. “It’s just logic. Same damn logic that Aeron uses. Whatever she
thinks
she sees.”

Sam slammed the door behind him, leaving Eli to stare into the empty office. Sam was right but what could he do? Aeron was never going to listen to him, even if it was for her own good. That, and she insisted on telling people
everything
.

Aeron could just say that she had a funny feeling, or the facts pointed her to her uncanny conclusion, anything but no. No, Aeron had to be honest, she had to tell people that she dreamt it, or saw it in some dumb-ass vision. Sometimes, she’d describe something in such detail, especially as a kid, that people had sworn she must have been there, watching.

It was enough to make a prosecutor drool. If anyone could be fitted up for a crime, she made herself the perfect scapegoat. Eli had hoped that a decade behind bars would have taught Aeron to keep her mouth shut.

To stop himself dwelling on what may or may not happen, he headed over to the hardware store with the list and picked up the supplies Aeron would need. He borrowed the flatbed truck and some part of him longed to be the kind of father who would be helping her renovate the cabin. Laughing as they worked in the late evening sun, Lilia bringing them tea and listening to their take on the repairs.

He turned off onto the dirt lane to the cabin and shook the thought from his senses. He was married, to Jenny, he had two other girls . . . proper girls. Girls that liked dolls and make-up and played at being mother.

“Just take the stuff to the cabin and leave her the hell alone,” he muttered.

As he pulled the truck into the yard clearing, Eli was struck at how silly it was that everyone called the place a cabin.

It wasn’t a cabin, it was a large watermill. Several topsy-turvy floors built around the internal mill workings. It was too large to be a cabin, too tall to be a house, too much of a working building to be a lodge and too empty to be a home. Nan’s family had lived there for generations, long before Eli’s forefathers had settled here and probably longer than most of the other inhabitants of Oppidum.

This little patch of the world belonged to them, belonged to the women beside the river.

Eli had only ever known of Nan and Lilia living in the building in spite of the history. He’d never been told about Lilia’s parents and he wasn’t really sure why Nan had raised her alone. It was not because he hadn’t asked or because he didn’t want to know but neither Nan or Lilia would ever tell him, and when Lilia left, Nan stopped speaking altogether.

Eli looked around the cabin as he got out of the truck and heard Aeron work before he could see her. He ducked his head around the boarded-up main door that jutted out like a grand entrance but was crumbling so badly it had been unusable for years. Aeron was fixing a box to the wall.

He watched her, knowing that somehow she could feel him there but she didn’t break the silence and so he leaned against the wall as she worked.

Aeron looked deep in concentration as she focused on the box. Her deep amber eyes were framed by her perfectly natural eyebrows. Her tongue poked out from the mouth she’d inherited from Lilia, her nose just as perfectly made. Her jaw she seemed to have gotten from him, along with her ears. Eli’s ears and jaw, that was his entire contribution. The rest came from Lilia and if it wasn’t for the jawline and her right ear that tipped over at the top, he would wonder if she had ever been his at all.

Aeron was every inch like her mother. Granted, her mother had not been as tall or broad but there was no doubt who she belonged to. The hair was shorter than Lilia’s, more practical, but Aeron had the same habit of flicking her hands through it, sweeping the center up over the top, and tucking the errant strands behind her ear.

The color was the same too, the color of  redwood tree bark—specks of gold and copper-red glinting when it caught the sunlight.

“Staring,” Aeron finally grunted as she hammered the last nail into place.

Eli nodded, his heart once again ripped in two by the memory and lingering emptiness of Lilia reflected in Aeron. “Unload the damn truck,” he snapped as the pang of loss jibed at his frazzled senses.

Aeron did as he asked and they worked quickly in awkward silence.

“Mari is in the river,” Aeron said finally as they unloaded the last of the supplies.

“What?” Eli was still too lost in Lilia to make sense of Aeron’s words.

“Mari,” Aeron repeated. “Upstream. Say two, maybe three miles east.”

Eli came back to reality with a thump. “Stop doing that.”

“Doing what?”

“Your lies . . . your nonsense.”

“Nonsense? You asked me the other day where she was. So, that’s where she is.”

Eli slammed his fist on the door of the truck. “Telling me only makes you look guilty.”

Aeron flicked her hand through her hair and glared at him with her mother’s eyes. “Just get the poor girl out of the freakin’ river.” She stormed off into the cabin.

Eli leaned his head against the truck, trying to remember when the hell life got so darn complicated. He knew when—when he’d seen Lilia. He got in the truck, slammed the door, wrenched the gear into place, and drove off. Where the hell was Lilia? Where was she now? Where had she been for all these years? It was one thing to rip his heart out and leave, but why abandon Aeron? Why the hell had she left him with a child that would rub salt in his burned heart every time he looked at her?

Lilia had ruined both their lives. She’d ruined any chance that he and Aeron ever had of finding the word “happy.” It was her darn fault, everything was her fault. Stupid, disloyal, bewitching, incredible Lilia.

I need to get a life
.
What would Jenny think?

He sighed. He didn’t really give a damn what Jenny thought. He was a terrible husband, a terrible father, and a terrible man. Whatever Lilia had done to him years ago, it wasn’t illegal but it sure as hell should be.

 

Chapter 33

 

DARCY TOUGHTON TOOK her iced tea from the newly painted counter and walked out the door of the converted stable. It had been a long one. All day in high school then back to the caf
é
at Mrs. Jenkins farm. A normal day for Darcy after her dad had broken his back on the job. Her entire family had to work as soon as they could just to afford to eat. Her mother spent most of her nights pouring over the accounts, trying to figure out how they could keep a roof over their heads.

It had been this way for years and ever since Darcy turned fourteen, she’d been working in Mrs. Jenkins café, keeping up with her grades, and studying long into the night.

One more summer though, only one more and she would be starting Columbia University on a scholarship. One more summer and she could get away from this place. Not that she didn’t want to pitch in. She loved her family, but something inside her just wanted out. She wanted adventure and a life of her own.

“I need you at five tomorrow,” Mrs. Jenkins called from the doorway.

Darcy turned around to object. Mrs. Jenkins knew that she had asked for tomorrow off. Her mother’s birthday was tomorrow and she wanted to do something special. Mrs. Jenkins gave her a look. How many times had she told Darcy that she could just as easily get another girl to work her job.

“Yes, Mrs. Jenkins,” Darcy said, trying not to cry.

Mrs. Jenkins didn’t notice. Nobody ever noticed. Darcy wondered if it would be any different in college or if she would always be overlooked.

Darcy turned away from the café, trudged up the road, and cut into the field. She sipped her iced tea, trying to soothe her sore throat. She’d better not be coming down with something, she couldn’t afford to. The sky was that odd color it always turned before a storm and the air was heavy, so heavy that even walking felt like a marathon. Hopefully they didn’t get this kind of weather in New York.
 

DARCY, OH DARCY. You work so hard. It’s such a shame that you’ll never get to see college or your sad, pathetic mother on her birthday.

These creatures are so easy, so predictable, like cattle wandering to slaughter. Keep walking, only a little further, out of sight from the old crow.

You think no one sees you, Darcy, but I do. Oh yes, I’ve picked you out, picked you to be part of a special collection. My collection. You’d like that wouldn’t you, Darcy.

You aren’t the main prize though. Oh no, you’re far too plain for that. Too much baby fat on you. You should be thankful really, sweet, innocent Darcy. I’m going to save you from a life of disappointment.

You won’t swell and bloat like your slob of a mother or lie around mooching from those who love you . . . no, you see I’m saving you, Darcy. Saving you from getting knocked up by the first jock who casts a smile your way. Ain’t that nice, Darcy?

You’re going to help me. Help me to get it right, just perfect for her . . . for my main prize . . . my life’s work.
 

I THREW MYSELF into ripping out the rotted remains of the kitchen as my father drove off. I just didn’t get it. He had stood there for the longest time, watching me fix the Mrs. Squirrel’s nut store to the wall. He had the stupidest look on his face—serene and wistful and, well, like he gave a damn. Two seconds later he was snapping and snarling like a demented dog. What the hell was his problem? Why the hell did every rejection sting so much?

Slam, rip, crack, bang
. The kitchen torn away piece by piece.

Why did he hate me so much? What had I ever done to him?

Bang, wrench, crunch
.

What did he want from me?

Slam, snap
.

Why couldn’t he love me for who I was?

Crunch, crack.

Was I so repulsive? So vile? My gifts so dark that I deserved nothing but his scorn and hate?

Wallop, creak, bang
.

Why me? Why the hell did I get to see everything? Why burden me with stupid visions? Why not give it to one of those evangelists or TV mediums who proclaimed they could see it all?

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