The Devil's Armour (Gollancz S.F.) (30 page)

‘I’m a Liirian. I don’t have a god.’

Meriel nodded. ‘No, I suppose you don’t. Liirians are like the mutts of the world. So many mixed ideas. It must be confusing.’

‘It is,’ Lukien admitted. He sat down on the bench next to Meriel and gazed at the altar. It was so simple, so functional. Did it really have any meaning? Lukien didn’t know, because he’d never been religious or even thought much of gods and goddesses before meeting the Inhumans. Were the Akari gods? If so, they weren’t giving answers either.

‘What do you pray for when you come down here, Meriel?’

Meriel chuckled. ‘The things everyone prays for, I suppose. A better life. Answers. A new face.’

Lukien couldn’t tell if she was joking. ‘Oh.’

She turned to regard him. ‘What would you pray for, Lukien?’ A sly smile turned on her lips. ‘There must be something, or else you wouldn’t have come.’

‘I came to find you, Meriel, because you had me worried. That’s all.’

Her smile was gentle as she said, ‘That’s a lie. You talk, but you don’t say anything, Lukien. There’s always something, just below the surface, just waiting to be said. But here you can say anything you want. Maybe all the gods and goddesses are here! Maybe one of them will have an answer for you.’

The notion made Lukien squirm. ‘That’s not very comforting, to think that gods and devils keep such tabs on us.’ He glanced around at the Akari faces, noting the weird way they had come to life. Yet he knew Meriel was right – he did have questions. Coming to Grimhold had changed his whole perception of the world beyond this one. Once, he had thought that life ended at death, and that the end was permanent. But now he knew the Akari lived on. And Minikin had told him with certainty that life continued after death. If that was true . . .

‘I wonder sometimes,’ he whispered, ‘about Cassandra.’

The name hung between them. Hearing it obviously stunned Meriel, who stared at Lukien. He knew that Meriel cared for him, and that speaking the name of his dead lover could only hurt her. But she had pushed him to speak, and the gravity of the prayer chamber had coaxed the name from his lips.

‘I wonder if she lives on,’ he continued, ‘and if I’ll see her again when I die.’

He’d never truly confided that hope to anyone. A great relief settled over him. He looked at Meriel, lost, and found her eyes empty and groping. He had knifed her with his confession. He hadn’t meant to, but the pain on her face
was astonishing. At once the candles flickered and dimmed, barely clinging to life, darkening her face in the folds of her cowl.

‘I don’t know,’ she said softly. ‘I don’t know if she’s waiting for you, Lukien. I simply don’t know.’

Lukien nodded and looked away. ‘Maybe it’s a silly thing to hope. But this place – all that I’ve seen here – it makes a man wonder. If the Akari can live on past death, why not the rest of us? Why can’t Cassandra be in the same realm as your Sarlvarian, alive in a different way?’

‘Alive and waiting for you?’ asked Meriel. ‘Is that what you want?’

‘Oh, yes,’ sighed Lukien. ‘She was the world to me. And I would give anything to see her again.’

‘Even your life,’ said Meriel.

‘That’s right . . .’

‘And that’s why you don’t care about your life, Lukien. That’s why you fight, that’s why you hope that amulet around your neck dies, so that you may die with it.’ Meriel didn’t look away as she pummelled him with truths. ‘I think you want to die as much as I want to leave Grimhold,’ she told him. ‘I think your life means very little to you.’

Lukien reached beneath his shirt and touched the Eye of God. The cursed thing and its silent god had kept him alive when he should have been dead, even when he wished for death. ‘That’s right,’ he whispered.

Meriel’s expression was bleak. ‘She must have been something very special, your Cassandra.’

‘She was indeed,’ sighed Lukien.

‘She must have been very beautiful.’

‘Beautiful?’ Lukien knew to be careful. ‘Yes.’

‘Do not spare my feelings, please. I know I look like a monster, Lukien.’

‘No . . .’

‘Please,’ said Meriel gently. ‘I just want to know about Cassandra.’

Her curiosity surprised Lukien. But he accommodated
her, if only because he desperately needed to speak and remember. As they sat together on the wooden bench, he told her about Cassandra and the love affair that had turned into a lifetime obsession. He told her of her beauty and how it had bewitched him, and of the kindness of her heart, a heart which had never forgotten him even after years of separation. She was, he told her, a remarkable woman, kept eternally young by the power of the amulet, the very amulet he now wore. And he told her how she had died, because he had looked upon her with his human eyes, breaking the spell that kept her cancer at bay. Some of the story Meriel already knew, but she listened to all of it as though it were the very first telling, as though nothing in the world mattered as much as the words falling from Lukien’s lips. And when Lukien was done with his tale Meriel simply looked at him, heartbroken.

‘To love someone like that . . .’ Her eyes faltered. ‘I’ve never known what it’s like. And I don’t think I ever will, not as long as I look like this.’ Again the candles shifted in a breeze that wasn’t there, matching the storm in Meriel’s eyes. She looked at her scarred hand, turning it in the dim light, studying it. There was something in her expression that needed confessing.

‘Meriel?’ he probed. ‘What is it?’

‘I want to leave, Lukien. I want to leave this place and live a normal life.’

‘I know. I’m sorry.’

She balled her wounded hand into a fist. ‘I have to do something. It’s time.’

‘What do you mean?’

For a moment Meriel said nothing, lost in thought. The candles sputtered and popped. Her expression went from sadness to anger. When it did the oil lamp on the table flared to life, exploding out of its glass container. Lukien reared back, horrified. Meriel caught herself and flushed with embarrassment. At once she drew the cowl tighter around her face.

‘I’m sorry,’ she said, rising from her seat. ‘I can’t talk any more.’

‘Meriel, wait . . .’

But Meriel didn’t wait. Ignoring his calls, the young woman fled the prayer chamber, all the while hiding her face. Lukien watched her go, wondering what had so upset her until he remembered Cassandra, and how lovingly he had spoken of her.

‘Lukien,’ he muttered, ‘you are an idiot.’

On the night they had met, Lorn and Vanlandinghale had decided to travel into Koth together and afterward go their separate ways. At the time it had sounded to Lorn like a suitable arrangement. He appreciated the protection the mercenary provided, and with a young infant to guard another sword was welcome, at least until they reached the safety of the city.

But things had not worked out as planned. Koth, Lorn quickly learned, was an expensive city, with shortages of everything inflating the prices of the most basic needs. The long trip to Liiria had bled Lorn’s pockets dry. Without a penny to buy a room – even for a single night – the deposed king turned to the only friend he had in the city. To his great surprise, he found Vanlandinghale a generous man. Because he had recently worked for Jazana Carr the young soldier was not without funds, and so invited Lorn and his daughter to share his own room above a noisy tavern. Though Lorn had promised Van it would only be for a night or two at most, the temporary arrangement had already stretched into a week and a half. Yet Van didn’t seem to mind. He was, Lorn quickly realised, a lonely and big-hearted fellow who had already fallen in love with little Poppy and saw no reason for the girl and her father to leave. The room was big enough for all of them, he had said. And Lorn, who was not immune to feeling lonely, was grateful for the company.

Both men found paying, menial work in the tavern, keeping long hours while Van guarded the door and protected the prostitutes from over-enthusiastic customers. Eager to keep hidden, Lorn took the even less glamorous job in the kitchen of washing dishes and glasses that were always greasy and piled high beside his steaming basin. It was shocking work for Lorn, who had never in his life stooped to such chores. In Norvor, washing dishes was work for a woman, and he could barely believe that the innkeeper – a surprisingly pleasant man named Foric – would employ a man in such a capacity.

And yet, Lorn was oddly satisfied. All his life servants had taken care of him, cooking his food and washing his clothes while he concerned himself with wars and treasure. He missed those things, admittedly, but he was blessedly anonymous in Koth and happy he had made it this far. He was alive, and Poppy with him. They had escaped Jazana Carr. And they had made it to Koth. Now, he could wait and bide his time. He would listen and learn, and when the time came he would make his move.

But time moved like syrup in the kitchens of the inn, and Lorn did nothing to force it. He kept up his pretence with everyone, including Van, explaining how he and his daughter were refugees from the Norvan wars. No strangers to war themselves, the Liirians working at the inn were friendly and generous, something Lorn had not expected. Even the prostitutes were kind, more than happy to look after Poppy while her father scrubbed dishes. An older whore named Deine seemed particularly keen on Lorn, bringing him food and volunteering to care for Poppy more often than any of the others. Lorn liked Deine, though he never allowed himself to express it. When she hinted that he could bed her for free, Lorn pretended not to understand.

Van, however, never held back his affections. He was popular with the ladies of the Red Stallion, and often did not come back to his room at all, preferring instead to cap
off a hard night’s work in the arms of a working girl. To Lorn, Van seemed disquieted to be back in the city of his birth, although he seldom spoke of it, and when conversation turned toward the library and the defenders of Koth, he became predictably quiet. He spent none of his time exploring the city. Instead he stayed inside the Red Stallion, content with his menial work.

But for Lorn, Koth was a marvel. In the days of King Akeela, the capital city had been the envy of the world, and he was pleased to see there were still hints of those better days. Fighting had gutted many of the streets and grand buildings, but behind the burned walls and torn-up cobblestones were remnants of the city’s finer years, most notably the great library. Perched commandingly on its hill overlooking the city, the legendary ‘Cathedral of Knowledge’ kept a watchful eye over the capital, spying over its streets for rebellion and the borders for invasion. Patrols of Royal Chargers – men who still called themselves that despite the death of the old regime – walked the streets in well-armed trios, not unlike the warlord bands that had taken over so many Norvan towns during his own nation’s civil war. But these Royal Chargers were not brigands. They didn’t rob or threaten or take women as slaves. Instead they looked after the city and its people like concerned brothers. Dressed like Vanlandinghale in long capes or dark military coats, they retained an air of battered majesty, as though they didn’t care that their time had vanished, gone to dust with their dead king.

Lorn spent as much time as he could in the streets, usually at night or in the early morning when he wasn’t working. Having a baby made free time scarce, but it was important that he listen to the people of Koth and pick up what gossip he could about the library and its defenders. Just as Van had told him, a man named Breck was in charge of the city. Breck had less than two hundred former soldiers with him and had turned the vast library into a huge barracks. No one seemed to know exactly why Breck and
his cohorts defended the city, but the people Lorn spoke to were grateful for it. Koth was the last bastion of the old Liiria now. Ravel and the other warlords had decimated the rest of the country, carving it up like a hen to feed their perverse appetites, but Breck and his men were trustworthy and solid.

The tales of their honour gave Lorn hope.

Yet he knew he could do nothing but wait. Eventually, when the time was right, he would reveal himself to Breck as a man who knew Jazana Carr and her tactics, a man with something to offer. Afraid that his offer would be spurned if presented too soon, Lorn knew that the time of his revelation was not to be wholly of his choosing. Before he could do that, he needed Jazana Carr’s help.

He was certain the Diamond Queen would not disappoint him. Surely she was far too greedy to keep her painted paws off Liiria.