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If it weren’t for Ivy, I might have gone to Kiran’s party with Sabine and ended up shot dead in an alley in Boston somewhere. Who knew what the details of the girl’s plan had been? It seemed that, as long as it had ended with me dead, Sabine would have deemed it a success.

Josh placed Ivy’s hand on the bed next to her hip and slowly got up to usher me out the door. As we left the room, I turned to him,
prepared to be a good friend—a supportive friend and nothing more. To ask the right questions. The questions that Noelle Lange and Rose Sakowitz and all the other people down in the waiting room wanted me to ask. But before I could even open my mouth, I was in his arms.

“I thought she was going to kill you,” he said breathlessly.

Surprised tears jumped to my eyes. I savored the familiar strength of his arms, the crisp scent of his shampoo. I clung to him, gripping the smooth fabric of his oxford shirt like it was a life vest and I was about to go under.

“I can’t believe what you did,” I said as a tear spilled down my cheek. “Lunging for the gun like that . . .” I forced myself to pull back so I could look into his eyes. “When you hit the floor, I thought you were dead.”

Josh placed his hands on either side of my face and looked at me as if he was trying to reassure himself that I was actually there. “I didn’t even think. You were frozen, and there was a gun pointing at you, and I . . . I didn’t even think. It was either throw you down or go for the gun, and I guess I was closer to the gun, so . . . I just did it.”

“You saved my life,” I said, a sob choking my throat.

He moved his hands to cup my shoulders and touched his forehead to mine, blowing out a sigh. “You’re okay. You’re okay,” he said. “Thank God you’re okay.”

Just like that, my heart filled with bubbles of joy. Josh still loved me. He loved me so much that he couldn’t stop touching me. He loved me so much he had put himself in harm’s way to save me. Josh loved me. I felt so high, I could have floated right out the hospital window.

But then, reality. Like a lasso around my ankle, reality once again
slammed me back down to the ground. Because Josh’s attempt to save my life had resulted in Ivy’s current state. He had knocked the gun just as it had gone off. Knocked it so that the bullet had passed me by . . . and had hit Ivy right in the chest.

In trying to save me, his ex-girlfriend, Josh had put his current girlfriend in the hospital.

We both looked over at Ivy’s room. I knew that Josh was thinking exactly what I was thinking, that Ivy didn’t deserve this. He let his hands slip from my shoulders, and he stepped away. Suddenly, I was freezing. For the first time, I noticed the bloodstains on the front of his shirt. On his hands. Under his fingernails. Ivy’s blood. It was everywhere.

“What happened to Sabine?” he asked flatly, as we started walking back to the waiting room.

“They arrested her,” I told him. “Pretty much everyone heard her confess, so . . .”

“I can’t believe this. I can’t believe this is happening.”

Josh pressed the heels of his hands into his eyes. I knew the feeling. It was all so overwhelming that it was hard to decide which part to try to sort out first. Cheyenne’s pointless murder, Ivy’s pointless injury, or the fact that Sabine was Ariana’s sister and, apparently, had come to Easton for the sole purpose of torturing me. How were we supposed to deal with that?

And then, of course, there was the issue of us. The “us” that now included three: me, Josh, and Ivy.

“So . . . now we just . . . ,” I trailed off. I knew Josh well enough to
know that he always did the right thing. And the right thing at this moment did not include me.

We turned the corner and stopped down the hall from the waiting room. Josh leaned against the cinderblock wall. He looked miserable. Tired and gaunt and haunted. He raised his hands to his face again, making a little tent around his nose and mouth. For a moment, neither of us breathed. Then he dropped his hands, as if resolved, and looked at me. The emotion was gone. In its place was an expressionless wall.

“I have to stay with Ivy,” he said firmly. “I have to know she’s okay. She’s going to need . . . someone.”

My heart contracted painfully, and I allowed myself one moment of selfishness. One.
But what about me?
I thought. And then I let it go. Because he was right. Ivy needed him more than I did. Yes, I had been through a lot this semester. We both had. Cheyenne’s murder, our breakup, my falling-out with Noelle, and the constant feeling that someone was stalking me. All the heartache and paranoia had been because of Sabine. It had all been part of her little “torture Reed for hurting Ariana” plan.

I wished that Josh and I could have talked through all of this right then. That we could have sat together and figured out what it all meant. But at that moment, it all meant nothing. Because he cared for Ivy and, as much pain as I was in, Ivy needed him more.

I glanced over my shoulder toward the waiting room. I saw Noelle hovering, watching me expectantly. We hadn’t even had a conversation yet. Hadn’t cleared the air after our massive breakup and her kicking
me out of Billings. But she had made a peace offering—she’d invited me to the party tonight—and after everything we’d been through in the past few hours, I knew that things were going to go back to normal between us. At least I hoped they were. She was all I had now.

“I guess I should go tell them what’s going on,” I said slowly.

The last thing I wanted to do was leave him, but I had to. Standing in front of Josh and not being able to touch him was going to kill me.

“Okay,” he replied, his eyes wet.

“Okay,” I repeated, somehow getting the word past the lump in my throat.

I turned and started down the hall, my footsteps heavy. A few doors down, I paused and looked over my shoulder. He was still standing there, watching me. Watching me walk away from him. “Keep me posted, okay? On how she’s doing.”

“I promise.”

So there it was. Good-bye. I was going to be strong. I was not going to pine and whine and wish. I was going to be good. For me, for Josh, and for Ivy. That was my promise to myself.

Sunday morning, the sky was the perfect shade of gray. The kind that wouldn’t bring the joy of snow, but would hang around all day, reminding everyone to be cold, down, depressed.

It was freezing inside the chapel. We all pulled our coats tighter as we stepped through the arched doorway and under the vaulted ceiling. The atmosphere was hushed. Whispers skittered along the cold stone floor and up the walls. We may as well have been attending a funeral in the austere old church. The girls of Pemberly gathered in their pews, hugging one another and resting their heads on each other’s shoulders. Gage trudged in, head down, hands in the pockets of his heather gray coat. That was when I knew for sure that he was seriously depressed—the boy never wore outerwear. Thought he was too cool for bundling. But today his head was clearly somewhere else—room 4007.

“Students, let’s all take our seats,” Headmaster Cromwell said, stepping up to the podium.

I glanced at Diana Waters, my friend from Pemberly. Cromwell
had never greeted us so informally before. As we sat down next to each other, I noticed that even his appearance had changed. He wore a burgundy wool sweater under his suit jacket and no tie. No American flag tie tack. It was Casual Crom.

“Freaky,” Diana whispered as everyone settled in around us.

“No doubt,” I replied.

“I’ll make this short,” Headmaster Cromwell began, his pale hands gripping either side of the podium. “First, as of today, I will be relinquishing my post as headmaster of Easton Academy.”

Surprised murmurs filled the room.

“No more Crom?” Lorna Gross said from the pew behind mine. She actually sounded upset. I, however, felt a huge sense of relief, though it was tinged by irritation. I detested the Crom. He had put us all through the wringer this semester. But that also was part of the reason I was irritated. All those hoops I had jumped through for him . . . and now, next semester, there was going to be some new headmaster to suck up to.

Cromwell held up a hand to silence the crowd. “But I do have a few announcements to make before I go,” he said. “First, due to the events of last night, the school will be breaking early for the holiday. Which means you are all excused from your finals.”

This announcement was met with stunned silence. I was sure that a few of my classmates wanted to celebrate—I could practically feel the strain as they held back whoops of joy like a hundred overfilled helium balloons—but no one uttered a sound. Considering that Ivy was in the hospital, that yet another of our classmates had turned out to be a murderer, celebrating just didn’t seem appropriate.

“The Board of Directors has discussed the situation, and we all believe that it would be best for you students to take this time to be with your families while the Board discusses how we might better ensure the security of the student body.”

“He sounds like he’s issuing a statement to the press,” Diana whispered, tucking her hands under her arms.

“He’s practicing,” Missy Thurber said, leaning in from behind us. “Did you see the vultures parked outside the gates this morning? The press smells blood in the water, and they’re about to chow down.”

“You’re mixing your metaphors again, Missy,” I scolded through my teeth. When I glanced over my shoulder, I found myself staring into those yawning nostrils of hers.
Ick.

“Whatever. I wouldn’t be surprised if they shut down this place,” Missy replied, sitting back again. “Parents have been calling all night. People are freaked out.
I’m
freaked out. I mean, I lived down the hall from the girl.”

Yeah, and I’m the one who had a gun pointed at her head last night. Boo-freaking-hoo, Nostril Girl.

“Thank you for your time and attention,” Mr. Cromwell said awkwardly. “You’re all dismissed.”

The room filled with chatter and exhausted-yet-exhilarated students jammed the aisles. I found Noelle as quickly as I could. She was on her way out the door with Amberly Carmichael and Tiffany Goulbourne, her long black coat contrasting sharply with Tiff’s pristine white jacket. Amberly wore a light-blue coat with white gloves and a white hat and looked like a little American Girl doll. I felt a rush of anger at the sight
of her—at the girl who’d taken my place in Billings and had ransacked my Pemberly single—but I did my best to push it back down.

“Noelle, wait!” I called, jogging to catch up.

They paused just outside the door and waited. Each had her cell phone out and ready, probably to spread the news that we’d been freed.

“Hey,” Noelle said, pushing her dark hair over her shoulder. “Crazy stuff.”

“I know,” I replied, catching my breath. “Missy said they might close the school for good.”

“Close Easton?” Amberly gasped, her blue eyes wide. “Can they do that?”

Noelle snorted a laugh and adjusted her cashmere scarf. “No. Please. The school hasn’t done anything wrong.”

“Although they do keep admitting the crazies,” Tiffany said, covering her short black curls with a red cabbie hat. “And we keep inviting them into Billings.”

“We didn’t invite Sabine,” I pointed out, shoving my hands into my pockets as a stiff wind blew by. “Cromwell put her there.”

“True,” Tiffany said as her phone trilled. “It’s my dad. I have to take this.” She moved away a few steps as Noelle, Amberly, and I started to walk across the quad. Noelle wisely maneuvered her way between Amberly and me, acting as a human buffer.

“Speaking of invitations to Billings, Reed, I’m sure you know we want you back next semester,” Noelle said.

An instant thrill ran through me. “Seriously?”

“What?” Amberly blurted at the same moment.

Noelle paused and gave me a look that was half condescension, half apology. It would have been hard for anyone other than her to pull it off.

“Of course. Now that we know Sabine was behind everything, I’m sure everyone will agree,” she said. “I plan to take a vote on it this afternoon, but I can’t imagine who might vote nay.”

At this, she turned to the side to give Amberly a pointed look. Amberly inspected her nails.

“You will accept the invitation, of course,” Noelle said to me.

“Of course,” I said, even though there was a twinge of trepidation inside my chest. “I mean, it will be a little strange after living there with Sabine for so long. . . .”

I took a deep breath and looked across the quad toward Billings House. My fists clenched inside my pockets.

“I can’t believe I trusted her,” I said, as humiliation and fury bubbled in my veins—something I clearly was going to have to get used to. I had a feeling that my relationship with Sabine would haunt me for the rest of my life. “How could I have been so stupid?”

“Hey. We all thought she was a sweet, innocent little thing,” Noelle said.

“Not you. You never liked her,” I pointed out.

Noelle smiled wryly and cocked her head. “Yes, but I rarely like anyone.”

I actually cracked a smile at that one. Then I heard shouts in the distance and knew that reporters were firing questions at some poor soul who had just driven up to the gates.

“They’re going to be all over us,” I said.

“No doubt,” Noelle said, staring off in the direction of the dorms and the driveway beyond. Then, slowly, she looked at me and smiled, her brown eyes bright. “Unless we’re not here.”

I blinked. “What do you mean?” I asked, as Tiffany finished her phone call and rejoined us.

Noelle grabbed Gage as he skulked by. He glared down at her hand, but he paused.

“What?” He looked pale, and there was a crease across his left cheek from his pillowcase. Not the coiffed Gage I knew and didn’t love.

“Everyone’s still going to St. Barths, right?” Noelle asked.

“That’s the plan,” Amberly said.

“No doubt,” Gage replied, looking off into the distance. “I plan on being hammered and stupid for at least two weeks.”

“So the usual, then?” Noelle joked.

“You should have a stand-up routine, Lange,” Gage snapped.