The Complete Mackenzie Collection (58 page)

“What’s wrong?” she cried, struggling to right herself and ease the strangling grip of the seat belt.

“There’s a possibility we had company. I didn’t want to take any chances.”

Alarmed, Barrie twisted around in the seat, staring at the cars passing through the intersection behind them, vainly trying to see anyone who looked familiar or any vehicle making an obvious effort to cut across traffic and follow them. The traffic pattern looked normal.

“Two Caucasian men, in their thirties or forties, both wearing sunglasses,” Zane said with no more emphasis than if he’d been observing the clouds in the sky. She remembered this almost supernatural calmness from before. In Benghazi, the more tense the situation, the cooler he had become, totally devoid of emotion. For him to take the action he had, he’d been certain they were being followed. The bottom dropped out of her stomach, and she fought a sudden rise of nausea. To suspect she was in danger was one thing, having it confirmed was something else entirely.

Then what he’d said registered in her brain. “Caucasian?” she echoed. “But—” She stopped, because of course it made sense. While she had subconsciously been looking for Libyans, she had to remember that this Gordian knot of intrigue involved both Libyans and Mack Prewett’s cohorts; given his resources, she had to be suspicious of everyone, not just Middle Easterners. Black, white or Oriental, she couldn’t trust anyone—except Zane.

“Since they know what I’m driving, we’re going to ditch the car.” Zane took another turn, this time without the dramatics, but also without signaling or slowing down more than was necessary. “I’ll make a phone call and have the car taken care of. We’ll get a ride to the airport.”

She didn’t ask who he would call; the area was crawling with military personnel from all the branches of service. Someone in dress whites would collect the car and return it to the rental company, and that would be that. By then, she and Zane would be on their way to Las Vegas.

“They’ll be able to find me anyway,” she said suddenly, thinking of the airline ticket in her name.

“Eventually. It’ll take a while, though. We have a substantial grace period.”

“Maybe not.” She bit her lip. “I overheard Dad talking to Mack Prewett this morning. Mack’s CIA, deputy station chief in Athens. Dad told him that he wanted this finished, that he never meant for me to be involved.”

Zane lifted his eyebrows. “I see.”

She supposed he did. If her father was working with the CIA in anything legitimate, he would have been able to protect her through legal channels. Mack Prewett’s involvement changed the rules. He would have access to records that ordinary people wouldn’t have. Even though the CIA didn’t operate within the United States, the tentacles of influence were far-reaching. If Mack wanted to know if she’d taken a flight out of either of the major area airports, he would have that information within minutes.

“If they were sharp enough to get the license plate number on the car, they’ll have my name very shortly,” he said. “If they didn’t get the number, then they won’t have a clue about my identity. Either way, it’s too late to worry about it now. They either have it or they don’t, and there’s no need to change our immediate plans. We’ll take the flight to Las Vegas and lose them there, at least for a while.”

“How will we lose them? If Mack can get access to your records…”

“I resigned my commission. I’m not a SEAL anymore.”

“Oh,” she said blankly. She struggled to adjust to yet another change. She had already been imagining and mentally preparing for life as the wife of a military officer, with the frequent moves, the politics of rank. It wouldn’t have been much different from life in the embassy, just on a different level. Now she realized she had no idea what kind of life they would have.

“What will we do, then?” she asked.

“I’ve taken the job of sheriff in a county in southern Arizona. The sheriff died in office, so the governor appointed me to complete his term. There are two years left until new elections, so we’ll be in Arizona for at least two years, maybe more.”

A sheriff! That was a definite surprise, and the offhand manner with which he had announced it only deepened her sense of unreality. She struggled to focus on the important things. “What your job is doesn’t matter,” she said as evenly as possible. “It’s your training that counts.”

He shrugged and wheeled the car into the entrance of a parking garage. “I understand.” His voice was flat, emotionless. “You agreed to marry me because you think I’ll be able to protect you.” He let down the window and leaned out to get the ticket from the automatic dispenser. The red barrier lifted, and he drove through.

Barrie wound her fingers together. Her initial flush of happiness had given way to worry. Zane had come after her, yes, and asked her to marry him, but perhaps she’d been wrong about the attraction between them. She felt uprooted and off-balance. Zane didn’t seem particularly happy to see her, but then, she had certainly tossed a huge problem into his lap. He would become a husband and a father in very short order, and on top of that, he had to protect them from an unknown enemy. He hadn’t even kissed her, she thought, feeling close to tears, and she was a little surprised at herself for even thinking of such a thing right now. If he was right and someone had been following them, then the danger had been more immediate than she had feared. How could she worry about his reasons for marrying her? After all, the baby’s safety was one of the reasons she was marrying
him
. “I want you to protect our baby,” she said quietly. “There are other reasons, but that’s the main one.” Her feelings for him were something she could have handled on her own; she wouldn’t take that chance with her baby’s safety.

“A damn important one. You’re right, too.” He gave her a brief glance as he pulled the car into a parking slot on the third level. “I won’t let anything hurt you or the baby.”

He pulled off his sunglasses and got out of the car with a brief “Wait here,” and strode off toward a pay phone. When he reached it, he punched in a series of numbers, then turned so he could watch her and the car while he talked.

Barrie felt her nerves jolt and her stomach muscles tighten as she stared across the parking deck at him. She was actually marrying this man. He looked taller than she remembered, a little leaner, though his shoulders were so wide they strained the seams of his white cotton shirt. His black hair was a bit longer, she thought, but his tan was just as dark. Except for the slight weight loss, he didn’t show any sign of having been shot only a little over two months earlier. His physical toughness was intimidating;
he
was intimidating. How could she have forgotten? She had remembered only his consideration, his passion, the tender care he’d given her, but he’d used no weapon other than his bare hands to kill that guard. While she had remembered his lethal competency and planned to use it on her own behalf, she had somehow forgotten that it was a prominent part of him, not a quality she could call up when she needed it and tuck away into a corner when the need was over. She would have to deal with this part of him on a regular basis and accept the man he was. He wasn’t, and never would be, a tame house cat.

She liked house cats, but she didn’t want him to be one, she realized.

She felt another jolt, this time of self-discovery. She needed to be safe now, because of the baby, but she didn’t want to be permanently cossetted and protected. The grueling episode in Benghazi had taught her that she was tougher and more competent than she’d ever thought, in ways she hadn’t realized. Her father would have approved if she’d married some up-and-coming ambassador-to-be, but that wasn’t what she wanted. She wanted some wildness in her life, and Zane Mackenzie was it. For all that maddening control of his, he was fierce and untamed. He didn’t have a streak of wildness; he had a core of it.

The strain between them unnerved her. She had dreamed of him finding her and holding out his arms, of falling into them, and when she had opened the door to him today she had expected, like a fool, for her dream to be enacted. Reality was much more complicated than dreams.

The truth was, they had known each other for about twenty-four hours total, and most of those hours had been over two months earlier. In those hours they had made love with raw, scorching passion, and he had made her pregnant, but the amount of time remained the same.

Perhaps he had been involved with someone else, but a sense of responsibility had driven him to locate her and find out if their lovemaking had had any consequences. He would do that, she thought; he would turn his back on a girlfriend, perhaps even a fiancée, to assume the responsibility for his child.

Again she was crashing into the brick wall of ignorance; she didn’t know anything about his personal life. If she had known anything about his family, where he was from, she would have been able to find him. Instead, he must think she hadn’t cared enough even to ask about his condition, to find out if he had lived or died.

He was coming back to the car now, his stride as smooth and effortlessly powerful as she remembered, the silent walk of a predator. His dark face was as impassive as before, defying her efforts to read his expression.

He opened the door and slid behind the wheel. “Transport will be here in a few minutes.”

She nodded, but her mind was still occupied with their personal tangle. Before she lost her nerve, she said evenly, “I tried to find you. They took me back to Athens immediately, while you were still in surgery. I tried to get in touch with you, find out if you were still alive, how you were doing, what hospital you were in—anything. Dad had Admiral Lindley block every inquiry I made. He did tell me you were going to be okay, but that’s all I was able to find out.”

“I guessed as much. I tried to call you at the embassy a couple of weeks after the mission. The call was routed to your father.”

“He didn’t tell me you’d called,” she said, the familiar anger and pain twisting her insides. Since she’d been forced off the
Montgomery,
those had been her two main emotions. So he
had
tried to contact her. Her heart lifted a little. “After I came home, I tried again to find you, but the Navy wouldn’t tell me anything.”

“The antiterrorism unit is classified.” His tone was absent; he was watching in the mirrors as another car drove slowly past them, looking for an empty slot.

She sat quietly, nerves quivering, until the car had disappeared up the ramp to the next level.

“I’m sorry,” she said, after several minutes of silence. “I know this is a lot to dump in your lap.”

He gave her an unreadable glance, his eyes very clear and blue. “I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t want to be.”

“Do you have a girlfriend?”

This time the look he gave her was so long that she blushed and concentrated her attention on her hands, which were twisting together in her lap.

“If I did, I wouldn’t have made love to you,” he finally said.

Oh, dear. She bit her lip. This was going from bad to worse. He was getting more and more remote, as if the fleeting moment of silent communication between them when he’d asked her to marry him had never existed. Her stomach clenched, and suddenly a familiar sensation of being too hot washed over her.

She swallowed hard, praying that the nausea that had so far confined itself to the mornings wasn’t about to put in an unexpected appearance. A second later she was scrambling out of the car and frantically looking around for a bathroom. God, did parking decks
have
bathrooms?

“Barrie!” Zane was out of the car, striding toward her, his dark face alert. She had the impression that he intended to head her off, though she hadn’t yet chosen a direction in which to dash.

The stairwell? The elevator? She thought of the people who would use them and discarded both options. The most sensible place was right there on the concrete, and everything fastidious in her rebelled at the idea. Her stomach had different ideas, however, and she clamped a desperate hand over her mouth just as Zane reached her.

Those sharp, pale eyes softened with comprehension. “Here,” he said, putting a supporting arm around her. The outside barriers of the parking deck were waist-high concrete walls, and that was where he swiftly guided her. She resisted momentarily, appalled at the possibility of throwing up on some unsuspecting passerby below, but his grip was inexorable, and her stomach wasn’t waiting any longer. He held her as she leaned over the wall and helplessly gave in to the spasm of nausea.

She was shaking when it was over. The only comfort she could find was that, when she opened her eyes, she saw there was nothing three stories below but an alley. Zane held her, leaning her against his supporting body while he blotted her perspiring face with his handkerchief, then gave it to her so she could wipe her mouth. She felt scorched with humiliation. The strict teachings of her school in Switzerland hadn’t covered what a lady should do after vomiting in public.

And then she realized he was crooning to her, his deep voice an almost inaudible murmur as he brushed his lips against her temple, her hair. One strong hand was splayed over her lower belly, spanning her from hipbone to hipbone, covering his child. Her knees felt like noodles, so she let herself continue leaning against him, let her head fall into the curve of his shoulder.

“Easy, sweetheart,” he whispered, once again pressing his lips to her temple. “Can you make it back to the car, or do you want me to carry you?”