The Book of Joby (85 page)

“Does she love you?” Joby asked.

“Not like she loves you.” Ben watched him in the darkness for a time, then asked, “Do
you
love her, Joby?”

“Yes. . . . But—”

“Then
love
her,” Ben cut him off. “Don’t keep trying to spare her the risks. She’s a big girl. She’s been hurt plenty, and lived.” He raised a hand to probe gently at his eye.

“I’m sorry I hit you,” Joby said.

“Yeah, well . . .”

It took Joby a second to realize that Ben was laughing. “What are you laughing at?” he asked.

“I think you’ve given me a black eye,” Ben answered, like it were the punch line to a really good joke.

“I’m sorry,” Joby said, wincing as he put weight on his arm, but Ben kept laughing. “Why is that so funny?” Joby asked.

“You don’t remember how we met?” Ben grinned, getting to his feet. “Things do come full circle, don’t they, Sir Joby?”

“Oh, God,” Joby groaned, remembering their fight in grammar school. “Does this mean I have to knight you now?”

“Done that,” Ben said, reaching down to help Joby up. “We’ll have to think of some new ritual.” He clapped a hand to Joby’s shoulder, and asked, “We all right?”

“Better, I think,” Joby said. “Look, Ben. I just want her to be happy. If she’ll be happier with you—”

“No,” Ben cut in quietly. “No more of this stupid deal-making. Can’t we just follow our hearts and let her decide?”

“You’re right,” Joby said. He stuck out his hand. “Best of luck, Sir Benjamin.”

“And to you, Sir Joby.” Benjamin grinned. They shook on it, and headed back to the Crow’s Nest, grabbing Ben’s cape and Joby’s discarded costume on the way.

When they returned, however, both Laura and her car were gone.

“She done flown d’coop,” said Ben as they stood confounded on the sidewalk below the restaurant. “After all this, she may choose neither of us.”

“Guess we’d better drive up and apologize, huh?” Joby said.

Ben shook his head. “It’s got to be almost midnight. If she’s gone home, she’ll probably be asleep by now, and I, for one, have been slapped around enough for one night. A breather between fights might be in order for all of us.”

“Well, I’ll see you tomorrow, then?” Joby asked.

“You’re going?” Ben protested. “I’m too wound up to go home yet. Let’s hang out awhile.” He grinned in the lamplight. “I heard some kind of drumming down on the beach when we were walking back. Wanna go see what that’s about?”

Joby was exhausted, but he was also happy that Ben still wanted his company, so they headed toward the cliff tops, dropping Joby’s costume in Ben’s car along the way. A moment later, they were staring down at the sandy rivermouth. It was ablaze with bonfires and crowds of rowdy revelers.

“Now
that
looks like a
real
party!” Ben exclaimed, already trotting down the path that wound toward the beach. “Come on!”

People of all ages mingled in raucous celebration around crackling fires. Shouts and laughter merged with the hiss and roar of surf as people danced wildly to the beat of many drummers. Bizarre costumes appeared and vanished at the edges of the firelight. The air was thick with wood smoke and the smell of beer. This, Joby thought, was really Halloween!

Turning to find Ben gone, Joby looked around and spotted him at a distant fire handing cash to someone, and heading back with several bottles dangling from one hand.

“Here,” Ben said, shoving a bottle into Joby’s hand. “You need a beer.”

“Thanks, but I don’t really—”

“You
need
a
beer
!” Ben insisted. “Pinch your nose and cope, bro!”

Ben already had the top off his, and raised it to his mouth. Joby shrugged
and followed suit. He wasn’t going to argue with anything Ben asked of him tonight.

Having been no drinker since Lindwald’s death, the buzz was considerable and quick. The drumbeat began to feel like something coming from inside him. The blur of dancing, laughing partiers grew increasingly dreamlike, and Joby liked the feeling.

The cold came first, then the dampness. Joby opened his eyes and squinted into the too-bright fog around him. Where . . .? What? . . . He sat up, groaning at the sudden throbbing in his head, and realized he’d been passed out on the beach all night. Ben’s velvet cloak was thrown over him like a blanket, and Ben, himself, lay sprawled in his fancy costume not far away, asleep on the sand.
Like bums,
Joby thought in disgust. What if his students had seen him like this?

He scanned the mist-shrouded beach, relieved to find no one else in sight. The cliff tops were completely lost in fog, which, he hoped, meant no one up in town could see him down here. Counting his blessings, he got unsteadily to his feet, hugging his bare arms and thinly clad torso against the chill, then suffered a whole new host of unpleasant protests from his head and stomach. Every ten or fifteen years, he decided, one really
should
get roaring drunk, if only to remember why it was such a bad idea.

As the jarring gong between his ears subsided, fragmentary memories of the previous night began trickling into focus, or as close to focus as ever seemed likely. To his distress, Joby vaguely recalled encountering several of his students at the margins of the firelight when he’d been very tanked. But the diaphanous, impossibly fantastic costumes he remembered them wearing led him to dismiss these memories as nothing but products of his ill-advised inebriation and an anxious conscience.

As unpleasant as the thought of further motion was, Joby hoped that a short walk in the brisk salt air might dispel his hangover, at least a little. Seeing no reason to inflict consciousness on Ben as well, Joby wrapped the cloak around himself for warmth and left his friend to sleep as he wandered toward the shoreline.

The fog grew even denser as Joby neared the water, reducing everything around him to ghostly suggestions in sopping shades of gray. Feeble tendrils of pale smoke drifted from wide mounds of blackened ash where last night’s bonfires
had burned down. Already deflating in nascent decay, a jack-o’-lantern left lying in the sand stared blankly at the ocean from darkened, empty eyes. The surf was small and glassy now, flopping sluggishly onto the beach. It felt almost as if Taubolt had died in its sleep while Joby lay unconscious.

A low stack of rock had been left behind by the receding tide, its feet collared in limp brown seaweed. Joby crossed the hard, wet sand, climbed its barnacled face and sat down on top of it to stare out at the bay and think about his new détente with Ben.

Last night, he’d been ready simply to surrender Laura’s affections. Somewhere along the way, it seemed, that had become his default response to any hint of failure. Let go. Walk away. In fact, he’d felt almost relieved to see his worst fears finally realized and have it over with at last. But this morning, things looked different. Surrender wouldn’t do. Ben had told him that, and he’d been right.

Joby and his best and oldest friend loved the same woman. That wasn’t anybody’s fault. Laura was the other best and oldest friend that either of them had. She’d been the most magnificent girl either of them knew ever since the day she’d fallen from that tree while trying to be a knight. Even now, the memory brought a lump to Joby’s throat and heat into his eyes. Who else should either of them love?

It had to be accepted. And sooner or later, one of them had to win her. Despite Ben’s wry suggestion that she might choose neither of them after last night’s foolishness, Joby knew it was the other way around. Laura loved them both—as much as they loved her. It must be killing her to have them both around again.

For all the “morning after” fog inside and outside of his head, Joby finally saw clearly that the only way such a mess could ever be cleanly resolved was for either himself or Ben to lose her, honestly and decisively, having truly done all he could to win her. Only then would nothing toxic be left dangling unresolved between them. As much as all the parts of him grown weary of defeat wished to lie down and flee the further pain, Joby was going to have to fight—for all their sakes.

Well out in the silvered bay, a seal was hunting. For some while, Joby had been watching idly as it thrust its head out of the water to look around, then disappeared beneath the surface for minutes at a time. Now, seeming to have finished its business, it surfaced and swam for shore, pushing little mounds of water before it as it zoomed just beneath the glassy surface toward a stretch of beach well down from where Joby huddled on his rock.

As it broke the surface, ten feet off shore, however, Joby gaped, surging to his feet in such a rush that he nearly toppled from the rock.

What had risen from the water was no seal, but his friend and former student, Ander, in a wetsuit. Joby’s mind scrambled to explain as the boy began to wade toward shore, a large fish dangling from his hand, though Ander had no speargun, net, or knife.

The memory returned with shocking clarity. Joby had been ten years old, alone out on these very rocks at dawn, staring down at a half-naked boy in the frigid water who’d stared up at him in equal dismay before swimming off just like . . . It wasn’t possible! No human being could swim like that! What he’d seen out there this morning had clearly been a seal, until . . .

Knee-deep in lapping water, Ander stopped to stretch like a man rising from bed, swinging his head around to whip the sodden hair out of his eyes. His face swung toward the rock where Joby stood. Their eyes met across the distance, and Ander froze in bald amazement. The fish fell from his fingers to float seaward, stunned or dead.

For a moment, they both stared. Then Ander donned his sunny,
guileless
smile and waved. Joby couldn’t move. He might have laughed at the sheer audacity of such an attempt to play this off, but there was no laughter in him now.

Ander had already launched himself back into the water to swim, quite naturally this time, toward Joby’s perch, as Joby waited, still motionless with shock. When he arrived, Ander stood, waist-deep, gazing up at Joby, and flashed another sunny smile.

“Hey, Joby. What’s up?” Ander said, as if merely pleased to see him.

“You tell me.”

Ander’s smile vanished. “How long have you been up there?”

“Long enough,” Joby said. “That
was
you fishing out there, wasn’t it?”

Ander’s shoulders slumped. He looked away from Joby.

“How’s it done?” Joby asked, still hoping for some laughably obvious explanation he’d failed to think of. When Ander didn’t answer, he said, more urgently, “Ander, please! I really need some answers. . . . Help me understand.”

“I don’t think you will,” Ander said, looking trapped. “I’m not sure you can.”

“Why won’t anyone just tell me what’s happening here?” Joby insisted, thinking immediately of Swami’s trick out on the Garden Coast. “What harm could it do?”

“That’s the question,” Ander replied. “Ever since you came here.”

“What?”

“Tell me what you are, Joby.”

“What
I
am?” Joby gaped. “I’m not the one who’s swimming around like a seal.”

“No, you’re the storm-bringer and boundary-breaker, the one who’s always piercing our defenses like they weren’t even there. Explain all that to me, and maybe I’ll—”

“Ander,” Joby exclaimed, “I don’t know what you’re talking about! I don’t even know . . . what you are, but I thought we were friends! . . . Aren’t we? . . . Weren’t we ever?”

“Yes,” Ander sighed, coming to slump miserably against the base of Joby’s rock. “I’ve liked you from the day you came to school. We all did, mostly, but it’s been scary too, and now . . . this totally blows.”

“Okay, listen,” Joby said, desperate for some answers. “I’ve clearly stumbled into something I’m not supposed to know about. But if it’s any comfort, Swami kind of spilled the beans already, I think.”

“Yeah,” Ander shrugged, “I heard.”

Trying to sound light, Joby pulled a smile from somewhere. “It’s a little late to hope I’ll just forget all this, isn’t it? If that’s what you wanted, you shouldn’t have been zooming around like that out here in front of God and everybody.”

“You weren’t supposed to be here!” Ander protested. “I checked! There was no sign of—” His mouth snapped shut as a new wave of guilty chagrin swept his face.

“Checked what? How?” Joby pressed.

Ander shook his head. “I know you’ve got a million questions, Joby. But it’s gonna take a lot more explaining than you think. If I start trying now, you’ll just have even more questions, and it’s not my place to answer most of them. Besides, I’m already late for work at the hotel.” He began to wade around the rock toward shore.

“Late for
work
?” Joby exclaimed. “You can’t just leave without explaining this! At least tell me how you swim like that.”

“Joby, I’m sorry,” Ander said. “It’s gonna have to wait ’til—”

“Tell me!” Joby snapped in frustration. “Or I’ll just start asking around until I find someone who will. I’m tired of all this ‘secret’ shit!”

“I wouldn’t try that,” Ander replied quietly. “Anyone who knows won’t tell you. Not like that. And anyone who doesn’t know will think you’re crazy. Just . . . be patient.”