Read The Best American Poetry 2012 Online
Authors: David Lehman
The Lesson
Say you finally make it home after a particularly arduous day in eighth grade to find the front door standing open and the furniture gone, and wander awhile through the oddly spacious rooms like a paralytic drowning in the bathtub while the nurse goes to answer the phone. True, you were never the best behaved little girl who ever lived; still, it seems fair to say that this is the wrong surprise party for you. A little later, looking down from somewhere near the ceiling, you observe yourself letting a cheap unwashed wine glass slip from your fingers, bending over to select a large section of it from the kitchen floor and beginning, with intense focus and precision, to inscribe a fairly serious gash in your left wrist. That doesn't work out so well. Locating a dish towel, though, does keep you occupied, then cleaning up the mess you've made. And you refuse to cry. Smart move, you hear a voice say quite distinctly. You might really need those tears someday. And you have been telling yourself the same thing all your life.
from
The Kenyon Review
Minding Rites
This guy I know, a rabbi, Friday nights,
on his way home before sunset in winter,
always stops at a florist or bodega
and buys a bunch of flowers for his wife.
Every week the same, a ritual,
regardless of her mood that morning, fresh
upsets at work, or snarling on the bridge;
he brings her roses wrapped in cellophane.
But isn't there a ring of hokiness
in that? Why should a good man make a show
of his devotion? Some things go unspoken;
some things get tested on the real world,
and isn't that the place that matters most?
So when you told me I should bring you flowers,
I laughed, “But don't I show my feelings more
in dog-walks, diapers, and rewiring lamps?”
The flowers, I learned later, weren't for wooing,
not for affection in long marriage, but
for something seeded even deeper down,
through frost heaves, and which might be, roughly, peace.
(It's funny that I just assumed romance.)
Now there's no peace with us, I wonder what
they might have meant to you, those simple tokens,
holding in sight what no rite can grow back.
from
New Ohio Review
Restoration Ode
What tends toward orbit and return,
comets and melodies, robins and trash trucks
restore us. What would be an arrow, a dove
to pierce our hearts restores us. Restore us
minutes clustered like nursing baby bats
and minutes that are shards of glass. Mountains
that are vapor, mice living in cathedrals
and the heft and lightness of snow restore us.
One hope inside dread, “Oh what the hell”
inside “I can't” like a pearl inside a cake
of soap, life in lust in loss, and the tub
filled with dirt in the backyard restore us.
Sunflowers, let me wait, let me please
see the bridge again from my smacked-up
desk on Euclid, jog by the Black Angel
without begging, dream without thrashing.
Let us be quick and accurate with the knife.
And everything that dashes restore us,
salmon, shadows buzzing in the wind,
wren trapped in the atrium, and all
that stills at last, my friend's cat
a pile of leaves after much practice,
and ash beneath the grate, last ember
winked shut restore us. And the one who comes
out from the back wiping his hands on a rag,
saying, “Who knows, there might be a chance.”
And one more undestroyed, knocked-down nest
stitched with cellophane and dental floss,
one more gift to gently shake
and one more guess and one more chance.
from
The Gettysburg Review
Expecting
Grave, my wife lies back, hands cross
her chest, while the doctor searches early
for your heartbeat, peach pit, unripe
plumâpulls out the world's worst
boom box, a Mr. Microphone, to broadcast
your mother's lifting belly.
The whoosh and bellows of mama's body
and beneath it: nothing. Beneath
the slow stutter of her heart: nothing.
The doctor trying again to find you, fragile
fern, snowflake. Nothing.
After, my wife will say, in fear,
impatient, she went beyond her body,
this tiny room, into the etherâ
for now, we spelunk for you one last time
lost canary, miner of coal
and chalk, lungs not yet blackâ
I hold my wife's feet to keep her hereâ
and meâtrying not to dive starboard
to seek you in the dark water. And there
it is: faint, an echo, faster and further
away than mother's, all beat box
and fuzzy feedback. You are like hearing
hip-hop for the first timeâpower
hijacked from a lamppostâall promise.
You couldn't sound better, break-
dancer, my favorite song bumping
from a passing car. You've snuck
into the club underage and stayed!
Only later, much, will your mother
begin to believe your drumming
in the distanceâmy Kansas City
and Congo Square, this jazz band
vamping on inside her.
from
The New Yorker