Temporary Mistress (38 page)

"She's very easy to love, isn't she?"

"Damn right she is. You don't know how much I envy you. Now, don't fuck up again." His voice was brusque.

Dermott's mouth quirked into a grin. "Would you like to come along and advise me?"

"I think you can handle the charming of a woman with the best of them, Bathurst. You don't need any advice from me."

His gaze turned serious. "Thank you for taking care of her."

"I didn't do it for you."

"I know." Nervous, Dermott touched the ring in his pocket, uncertain of his reception despite Joe's assurances, not at all sure he wasn't too late. He drew in a deep breath, then slowly exhaled. "Wish me luck."

"I suppose if someone has to have her, I'm glad it's you," Joe replied. He winked. "Although, looking like you do, you're going to need some luck."

SECOND DOOR AT THE TOP of the stairs, Joe had said.

He'd also said Isabella loved him. Hopefully, he was right.

Dermott rapped twice, then winced. A little overzealous, he thought, shaking his stinging fingers.

But she called out, "Come in, Joe!" and he forgot his pain and jealously decided she sounded much too friendly. Why was she letting Joe into her bedroom anyway? He looked more grim than he intended when he entered the room.

Although, as it turned out, Isabella didn't notice because she was nowhere in sight. He surveyed the small bedchamber.

"Just leave my bag anywhere, Joe!" Isabella's voice came from behind a screen set before the fireplace, as did the sudden sound of splashing water.

What if he
had
been Joe? Dermott moodily thought. What if Joe weren't so damned polite and honorable? What if he'd taken advantage of the fact she was obviously taking a bath…
or
—green demons whispered—maybe Joe
had
already taken advantage.

With a loud thud Dermott dropped the satchel Joe had given him.

"Thank you!"

He didn't respond, and a moment later she hesitantly said, "Joe?"

"It's not Joe."

He heard her gasp, heard the slap of water hitting the floor, a spreading puddle appearing soon after under the linen screen.

"What do you want?"

No words of love in the harsh question, although he was realistic. Instead, the sound of wet feet striking the floor and brisk toweling-off reached his ears—an activity that momentarily stopped when he said, "I'd like to talk to you."

She didn't answer for so long, he found himself holding his breath.

He was alive! An unguarded happiness transiently disregarded her saner judgment—those more lucid thoughts surfacing seconds later, the ones that reminded her of all he was and all he'd done to her or not done to her. And all the conscious resentments that she thought she'd consigned to the past came flooding back.

She walked from behind the screen, her coarse robe obviously borrowed, a too-small robe. "I'll give you two minutes." Her voice was cool. "Where's Joe?" Dermott had to have come through him.

Her hair was dripping water onto the floor, and he was reminded of the first time he'd seen her at Molly's. But his brief nostalgia was almost instantly supplanted by umbrage at her concern for Joe. "He can take care of himself. Are you worried?"

"Of course I'm worried. You're not very trustworthy—among other things," she pointedly added.

"How
much
are you worried?"

She surveyed him, her chin slightly lifted. "I don't think that's any concern of yours. Actually, nothing about me is any concern of yours. You made that quite plain. Why are you here?"

She was angry, although he'd expected as much. What he'd not expected was his inability to control his jealousy. His voice was mild only with effort. "Joe tells me you were at the Isle of Wight."

She colored furiously.

"Did my mother write to you?"

"It doesn't matter if she did."

"I didn't know. I'm sorry I wasn't there."

"I'm sorry I went," she crisply noted, humiliated afresh at the memory.

A hush descended on the room.

"I owe you a great number of apologies," he finally said.

"Yes, you do."

He took a small breath because he wasn't in the habit of apologizing. "One of the reasons I'm here," he added, "is to offer atonement for everything and anything I may have done to hurt you. There's no excuse, but I want you to know I'm deeply sorry."

"And?"

Another small breath. "You're not making this easy."

"Like our meeting at Green Abbey. As I recall, you didn't respond at all to
my
pleas."

"I did to some of them."

Her smile was tight. "But then, that's automatic with you, isn't it—the sex I'm talking about the part that requires empathy for another human being, I'm talking about you leaving me on the curb that morning with a casual good-bye. I'm talking about you not contacting me, not letting me know if you were alive, letting weeks go by without a word." Her voice sharpened. "You didn't care that I suffered for weeks… thinking the worst, thinking you were dead. But then, you never did care, did you?" she tartly declared. "So, you see, I'm not really in the mood to make anything easy for you. In fact, I'd take pleasure in having you—"

"Do you have something else you could put on?" His voice was constrained.

She snorted, disbelief flaring in her eyes. "You can't be serious." Her gaze raked him. "I'm raising holy hell, taking wrathful issue with your behavior and my frustrations, and you're getting a hard-on?"

"I'm sorry," he muttered. "But, Christ, you're practically naked in that damp, undersized robe—and looking incredible, as usual."

"And you've forgotten what you intended to say because your brains are in your cock."

He hadn't, of course, the ring burning into his rib cage. He'd only hoped to put her into a better mood first.

Obviously—that was a failure.

"I went to Higham to ask you to marry me," he brusquely said, because his unnatural, conciliatory pose had collapsed at her tart comment about the position of his brains. "And when I discovered you'd taken off with your bodyguards, one of whom the village of Higham considers your
very special
beau," he jibed, "I figured fuck it and fuck you and fuck all women in general. I was on my way back to Wight when I saw your-sweetheart, Joe, outside."

"He's not my sweetheart." The phrase
marry me
was ringing in her ears, the loud reverberation capable of drowning out a devil's chorus of resentments.

"It's damned hard to tell." He was sulky, aroused and sulky, or sulky because he was roused to no damned purpose.

"Well, now you know," she calmly said, "and there's a better robe in that satchel if you want to throw it to me."

He looked at her. Her tone had changed, and she was regarding him with a faint smile.

"Why don't you come and get it," he murmured, instinctively recognizing female goodwill.

"The robe?"

"The robe… and the ring… and me and my thousand apologies." He paused and smiled. "And all my love too."

"You're sure now."

He nodded. "I don't know what my mother wrote, but it's all true."

"A lady might like to have such a message personalized." Her gaze slowly drifted down his body and then up again, coming to rest on his eyes. "You look like you're old enough to speak for yourself."

"I'm very wet." An unconscious evasion perhaps, after so many years of avoiding the words. Nervously rocking on the balls of his feet, his boots squished.

"Does that affect your voice?"

Motionless now, he chuckled. "No… and not my cock either."

She smiled. "How fortunate on both counts."

"Will you marry me?"

She cupped her ear, tipped her head slightly forward. "Isn't there usually some flowery preface to a proposal?" she queried. "Something poetic that has to do with mountains and rivers and endless time?"

"I love you like a fast river running through a mountain valley forever."

She laughed. "I'm sorry I asked."

"I really do love you, Izzy," he softly returned, "and I will as long as mountains exist and rivers run. Every day seemed endless without you, every night empty without you, every breath I took useless without you. Marry me—please?"

"Only if you promise to never fight another duel." Her voice went very quiet. "I couldn't live through that again."

He blew out a breath and gazed at her. "Ask something else. There's always going to be some young Turk wanting to test his luck. I can't promise you that."

"Then we'll have to stay in the country, far away from all the young Turks."

"A pleasant solution." His brows rose. "Are you saying yes?"

She nodded.

"Isn't there usually some flowery response to a marriage proposal?" he teasingly mocked. "Something having to do with gratitude and devotion?"

"I know you're grateful I'm willing to marry you and you'll be eternally devoted to me."

He chuckled. "That's it."

"How nice that we agree."

"How nice to look forward to living again," he whispered. "And I
am
sorry for everything."

"I know." She moved toward him, leaving wet footprints on the floor, and when he took her in his arms, he softly said, "I'm going to make you happy."

"I know…" she repeated, twining her arms around his neck. "And speaking of happiness," she murmured…