Tell Me Your Dreams (19 page)

“I’m cleaning out my office. I was fired.”

Kincaid smiled. “Fired? Of course not. No, no, no. There was some kind of a misunderstanding.” He beamed. “We’re making you a partner, my boy. In fact, I’ve set up a press conference for you here this afternoon at three o’clock.”

David looked at him. “Really?”

Kincaid nodded. “Absolutely.”

David said, “You’d better cancel it. I’ve decided to go back into criminal law. I’ve been offered a partnership by Jesse Quiller. At least when you’re dealing with that part of the law, you know who the criminals really are. So, Joey, baby, you take your partnership and shove it where the sun don’t shine.”

And David walked out of the office.

Jesse Quiller looked around the penthouse and said, “This is great. It really becomes you two.”

“Thank you,” Sandra said. She heard a sound from the nursery. “I’d better check on Jeffrey.” She hurried off to the next room.

Jesse Quiller walked over to admire a beautiful sterling silver picture frame with Jeffrey’s first photograph already in it. “This is lovely. Where did it come from?”

“Judge Williams sent it.”

Jesse said, “I’m glad to have you back, partner.”

“I’m glad to be back, Jesse.”

“You’ll probably want a little time to relax now. Rest up a little…”

“Yes. We thought we’d take Jeffrey and drive up to Oregon to visit Sandra’s parents and—”

“By the way, an interesting case came into the office this morning, David. This woman is accused of murdering her two children. I have a feeling she’s innocent. Unfortunately, I’m going to Washington on another case, but I thought that you might just talk to her and see what you think.…”

T
HE
Connecticut Psychiatric Hospital, fifteen miles north of Westport, was originally the estate of Wim Boeker, a wealthy Dutchman, who built the house in 1910. The forty lush acres contained a large manor house, a workshop, stable and swimming pool. The state had bought the property in 1925 and had refitted the manor house to accommodate a hundred patients. A tall chain-link fence had been erected around the property, with a manned guard post at the entrance. Metal bars had been placed on all the windows, and one section of the house had been fortified as a security area to hold dangerous inmates.

In the office of Dr. Otto Lewison, head of the psychiatric clinic, a meeting was taking place. Dr. Gilbert Keller and Dr. Craig Foster were discussing a new patient who was about to arrive.

Gilbert Keller was a man in his forties, medium height, blond hair and intense gray eyes. He was a renowned expert on multiple personality disorder.

Otto Lewison, the superintendent of the Connecticut Psychiatric Hospital, was in his seventies, a neat, dapper little man with a full beard and pince-nez glasses.

Dr. Craig Foster had worked with Dr. Keller for years and was writing a book on multiple personality disorder. All were studying Ashley Patterson’s records.

Otto Lewison said, “The lady has been busy. She’s only twenty-eight and she’s murdered five men.” He glanced at the paper again. “She also tried to murder her attorney.”

“Everyone’s fantasy,” Gilbert Keller said dryly.

Otto Lewison said, “We’re going to keep her in security ward A until we can get a full evaluation.”

“When is she arriving?” Dr. Keller asked.

The voice of Dr. Lewison’s secretary came over the intercom. “Dr. Lewison, they’re bringing Ashley Patterson in. Would you like to have them bring her into your office?”

“Yes, please.” Lewison looked up. “Does that answer your question?”

The trip had been a nightmare. At the end of her trial, Ashley Patterson had been taken back to her cell and held there for three days while arrangements were made to fly her back east.

A prison bus had driven her to the airport in Oakland, where
a plane was waiting for her. It was a converted DC-6, part of the huge National Prisoner Transportation System run by the U.S. Marshals Service. There were twenty-four prisoners aboard, all manacled and shackled.

Ashley was wearing handcuffs, and when she sat down, her feet were shackled to the bottom of the seat.

Why are they doing this to me? I’m not a dangerous criminal. I’m a normal woman.
And a voice inside her said,
Who murdered five innocent people.

The prisoners on the plane were hardened criminals, convicted of murder, rape, armed robbery and a dozen other crimes. They were on their way to top security prisons around the country. Ashley was the only woman on board.

One of the convicts looked at her and grinned. “Hi, baby. How would you like to come over and warm up my lap?”

“Cool it,” a guard warned.

“Hey! Don’t you have any romance in your soul? This bitch ain’t going to get laid for—What’s your sentence, baby?”

Another convict said, “Are you horny, honey? How about me movin’ into the seat next to you and slippin’ you—?”

Another convict was staring at Ashley. “Wait a minute!” he said. “That’s the broad who killed five men and castrated them.”

They were all looking at Ashley now.

That was the end of the badgering.

On the way to New York, the plane made two landings to discharge or pick up passengers. It was a long flight, the air was turbulent and by the time they landed at La Guardia Airport, Ashley was airsick.

Two uniformed police officers were waiting for her on the
tarmac when the plane landed. She was unshackled from the plane seat and shackled again in the interior of a police van. She had never felt so humiliated. The fact that she felt so normal made it all the more unbearable. Did they think she was going to try to escape or murder someone? All that was over, in the past. Didn’t they know that? She was sure it would never happen again. She wanted to be away from there. Anywhere.

Sometime during the long, dreary drive to Connecticut, she dozed off. She was awakened by a guard’s voice.

“We’re here.”

They had reached the gates of the Connecticut Psychiatric Hospital.

When Ashley Patterson was ushered into Dr. Lewison’s office, he said, “Welcome to Connecticut Psychiatric Hospital, Miss Patterson.”

Ashley stood there, pale and silent.

Dr. Lewison made the introductions and held out a chair. “Sit down, please.” He looked at the guard. “Take off the handcuffs and shackles.”

The restraints were removed, and Ashley took a seat.

Dr. Foster said, “I know this must be very difficult for you. We’re going to do everything we can to make it as easy as possible. Our goal is to see that one day you will leave this place, cured.”

Ashley found her voice. “How—how long could that take?”

Otto Lewison said, “It’s too soon to answer that yet. If you
can
be cured, it could take five or six years.”

Each word hit Ashley like a thunderbolt.
“If you
can
be cured, it could take five or six years.

“The therapy is nonthreatening. It will consist of a combination
of sessions with Dr. Keller—hypnotism, group therapy, art therapy. The important thing to remember is that we’re not your enemies.”

Gilbert Keller was studying her face. “We’re here to help you, and we want you to help us do that.”

There was nothing more to say.

Otto Lewison nodded to the attendant, and he walked over to Ashley and took her arm.

Craig Foster said, “He’ll take you to your quarters now. We’ll talk again later.”

When Ashley had left the room, Otto Lewison turned to Gilbert Keller. “What do you think?”

“Well, there’s one advantage. There are only two alters to work on.”

Keller was trying to remember. “What’s the most we’ve had?”

“The Beltrand woman—ninety alters.”

Ashley had not known what to expect, but somehow she had envisioned a dark, dreary prison. The Connecticut Psychiatric Hospital was more like a pleasant clubhouse—with metal bars.

As the attendant escorted Ashley through the long, cheerful corridors, Ashley watched the inmates freely walking back and forth. There were people of every age, and all of them seemed normal.
Why are they here?
Some of them smiled at her and said, “Good morning,” but Ashley was too bewildered to answer. Everything seemed surreal. She was in an insane asylum.
Am I insane?

They reached a large steel door that closed off a part of the building. There was a male attendant behind the door. He pressed a red button and the huge door opened.

“This is Ashley Patterson.”

The second attendant said, “Good morning, Miss Patterson.” They made everything seem so normal.
But nothing is normal anymore,
Ashley thought.
The world is upside down.

“This way, Miss Patterson.” He walked her to another door and opened it. Ashley stepped inside. Instead of a cell, she was looking at a pleasant, medium-size room with pastel blue walls, a small couch and a comfortable-looking bed.

“This is where you’ll be staying. They’ll be bringing your things in a few minutes.”

Ashley watched the guard leave and close the door behind him.
This is where you’ll be staying.

She began to feel claustrophobic.
What if I don’t want to stay? What if I want to get out of here?

She walked over to the door. It was locked. Ashley sat down on the couch, trying to organize her thoughts. She tried to concentrate on the positive.
We’re going to try to cure you.

We’re going to try to cure you.

We’re going to cure you.

D
R
. Gilbert Keller was in charge of Ashley’s therapy. His specialty was treating multiple personality disorder, and while he had had failures, his success rate was high. In cases like this, there were no easy answers. His first job was to get the patient to trust him, to feel comfortable with him, and then to bring out the alters, one by one, so that in the end they could communicate with one another and understand why they existed, and finally, why there was no more need for them. That was the moment of blending, when the personality states came together as a single entity.

We’re a long way from that,
Dr. Keller thought.

The following morning, Dr. Keller had Ashley brought to his office. “Good morning, Ashley.”

“Good morning, Dr. Keller.”

“I want you to call me Gilbert. We’re going to be friends. How do you feel?”

She looked at him and said, “They tell me I’ve killed five people. How should I feel?”

“Do you remember killing any of them?”

“No.”

“I read the transcript of your trial, Ashley. You didn’t kill them. One of your alters did. We’re going to get acquainted with your alters, and in time, with your help, we’ll make them disappear.”

“I—I hope you can—”

“I can. I’m here to help you, and that’s what I’m going to do. The alters were created in your mind to save you from an unbearable pain. We have to find out what caused that pain. I need to find out when those alters were born and why.”

“How—how do you do that?”

“We’ll talk. Things will come to you. From time to time, we’ll use hypnotism or Sodium Amytal. You’ve been hypnotized before, haven’t you?”

“Yes.”

“No one’s going to pressure you. We’re going to take our time.” He added reassuringly, “And when we’re through, you’re going to be well.”

They talked for almost an hour. At the end of that time, Ashley felt much more relaxed. Back in her room, she thought,
I really think he can do it.
And she said a little prayer.

Dr. Keller had a meeting with Otto Lewison. “We talked this morning,” Dr. Keller said. “The good news is that Ashley admits she has a problem, and she’s willing to be helped.”

“That’s a beginning. Keep me informed.”

“I will, Otto.”

Dr. Keller was looking forward to the challenge ahead of him. There was something very special about Ashley Patterson. He was determined to help her.

They talked every day, and a week after Ashley arrived, Dr. Keller said, “I want you to be comfortable and relaxed. I’m going to hypnotize you.” He moved toward her.

“No! Wait!”

He looked at her, surprised. “What’s the matter?”

A dozen terrible thoughts flashed through Ashley’s head. He was going to bring out her alters. She was terrified of the idea. “Please,” she said. “I—I don’t want to meet them.”

“You won’t,” Dr. Keller assured her. “Not yet.”

She swallowed. “All right.”

“Are you ready?”

She nodded. “Yes.”

“Good. Here we go.”

It took fifteen minutes to hypnotize her. When she was under, Gilbert Keller glanced at a piece of paper on his desk.
Toni Prescott and Alette Peters.
It was time for switching, the process of changing from one dominating personality state to another.

He looked at Ashley, asleep in her chair, then leaned forward. “Good morning, Toni. Can you hear me?”

He watched Ashley’s face transform, taken over by an entirely different personality. There was a sudden vivacity in her face. She began to sing:

“Half a pound of tupenny rice,

Half a pound of treacle,

Mix it up and make it nice,

Pop! goes the weasel…”

“That was very nice, Toni. I’m Gilbert Keller.”

“I know who you are,” Toni said.

“I’m glad to meet you. Did anyone ever tell you that you have a beautiful singing voice?”

“Sod off.”

“I mean it. Did you ever take singing lessons? I’ll bet you did.”

“No, I didn’t. As a matter of fact, I wanted to, but my"—
For God’s sokes, will you stop that terrible noise! Whoever told you you could sing?
—"never mind.”

“Toni, I want to help you.”

“No, you don’t, Dockie baby. You want to lay me.”

“Why do you think that, Toni?”

“That’s all you bloody men ever want to do. Ta.”

“Toni…? Toni…?”

Silence.

Gilbert Keller looked at Ashley’s face again. It was serene. Dr. Keller leaned forward. “Alette?”

There was no change in Ashley’s expression.

“Alette…?”

Nothing.

“I want to speak to you, Alette.”

Ashley began to stir uneasily.

“Come out, Alette.”

Ashley took a deep breath, and then there was a sudden explosion of words spoken in Italian.

“C’è qualcuno che parla Italiano?”

“Alette—”

“Non so dove mi travo.”

“Alette, listen to me. You’re safe. I want you to relax.”

“Mi sento stanca…
I’m tired.”

“You’ve been through a terrible time, but all that is behind you. Your future is going to be very peaceful. Do you know where you are?”

His voice was white.

“Sì.
It’s some kind of place for people who
are pazzo.” That’s why you’re here, Doctor. You’re the crazy one.

“It’s a place where you’re going to be cured. Alette, when you close your eyes and visualize this place, what comes to your mind?”

“Hogarth. He painted insane asylums and scenes that are terrifying.”
You’re too ignorant ever to have heard of him.

“I don’t want you to think of this place as terrifying. Tell me about yourself, Alette. What do you like to do? What would you like to do while you’re here?”

“I like to paint.”

“We’ll have to get you some paints.”

“No!”

“Why?”

“I don’t want to.”
“What do you call that, child? It looks like an ugly blob to me.”

Leave me alone.

“Alette?” Gilbert Keller watched Ashley’s face change again.

Alette was gone. Dr. Keller awakened Ashley.

She opened her eyes and blinked. “Have you started?”

“We’ve finished.”

“How did I do?”

“Toni and Alette talked to me. We’ve made a good beginning, Ashley.”

The letter from David Singer read:

Dear Ashley,

Just a note to let you know that I’m thinking about you and hoping that you’re making good progress. As a matter of fact, I think about you often. I feel as though we’ve gone through the wars together. It was a tough fight, but we won. And I have good news. I’ve been assured that the murder charges against you in Bedford and Quebec will be dropped. If there is anything I can do for you, let me know.

Warmest wishes,

David

The following morning, Dr. Keller was talking to Toni while Ashley was under hypnosis.

“What is it now, Dockie?”

“I just want to have a little chat with you. I’d like to help you.

“I don’t need your bloody help. I’m doing fine.”

“Well, I need
your
help, Toni. I want to ask you a question. What do you think of Ashley?”

“Miss
Tight Ass?
Don’t get me started.”

“You don’t like her?”

“In spades.”

“What don’t you like about her?”

There was a pause. “She tries to keep everybody from having fun. If I didn’t take over once in a while, our lives would be boring.
Boring.
She doesn’t like to go to parties or travel or do any fun things.”

“But you do?”

“You bet I do. That’s what life’s all about, isn’t it, luv?”

“You were born in London, weren’t you, Toni? Do you want to tell me about it?”

“I’ll tell you one thing. I wish I were there now.”

Silence.

“Toni. .. ? Toni.. . ?”

She was gone.

Gilbert Keller said to Ashley, “I’d like to speak to Alette.” He watched the expression on Ashley’s face change. He leaned forward and said softly, “Alette.”

“Sì.”

“Did you hear my conversation with Toni?”

“Yes.”

“Do you and Toni know each other?”

“Yes.”
Of course we do, stupid.

“But Ashley doesn’t know either of you?”

“No.”

“Do you like Ashley?”

“She’s all right.”
Why are you asking me all these foolish questions?

“Why don’t you talk to her?”

“Toni does not want me to.”

“Does Toni always tell you what to do?”

“Toni is my friend.”
It’s none of your business.

“I want to be your friend, Alette. Tell me about yourself. Where were you born?”

“I was born in Rome.”

“Did you like Rome?”

Gilbert Keller watched the expression on Ashley’s face change, and she began to weep.

Why?
Dr. Keller leaned forward and said soothingly, “It’s all right. You’re going to awaken now, Ashley…”

She opened her eyes.

“I talked to Toni and Alette. They’re friends. I want you all to be friends.”

While Ashley was at lunch, a male nurse walked into her room and saw a painting of a landscape on the floor. He studied it a moment, then took it to Dr. Keller’s office.

There was a meeting in Dr. Lewison’s office.

“How’s it going, Gilbert?”

Dr. Keller said thoughtfully, “I’ve talked to the two alters. The dominant one is Toni. She has an English background and won’t talk about it. The other one, Alette, was born in Rome, and she doesn’t want to talk about it, either. So that’s where I’m going to concentrate. That’s where the traumas occurred. Toni is the more aggressive one. Alette is sensitive and withdrawn. She’s interested in painting, but she’s afraid to pursue it. I have to find out why.”

“So you think Toni dominates Ashley?”

“Yes. Toni takes over. Ashley wasn’t aware that she exists, or for that matter, that Alette existed. But Toni and Alette know each other. It’s interesting. Toni has a lovely singing voice, and Alette is a talented painter.” He held up the painting that the male nurse had brought him. “I think their talents may be the key to getting through to them.”

Ashley received a letter from her father once a week. After she read them, she would sit in her room quietly, not wanting to talk to anyone.

“They’re her only link to home,” Dr. Keller said to Otto Lewison. “I think it increases her desire to get out of here and start leading a normal life. Every little bit helps.…”

Ashley was becoming used to her surroundings. The patients seemed to walk about, although there were attendants at every door and in the corridors. The gates to the grounds were always locked. There was a recreation room where they could gather and watch television, a gymnasium where inmates could work out and a common dining room. There were many kinds of people there: Japanese, Chinese, French, Americans… Every effort had been made to make the hospital as ordinary-looking as possible, but when Ashley went to her room, the doors were always locked behind her.

“This isn’t a hospital,” Toni complained to Alette. “It’s a bloody prison.”

“But Dr. Keller thinks he can cure Ashley. Then we can get out of here.”

“Don’t be stupid, Alette. Don’t you see? The only way he can
cure Ashley is to get rid of us, make us disappear. In other words, to cure her, we have to die. Well, I’m not going to let that happen.”

“What are you going to do?”

“I’m going to find a way for us to escape.”