Authors: K. S. Martin
Tags: #Literature & Fiction, #Romance, #Paranormal, #Werewolves & Shifters
©2013 by K.S. Martin All
I have no idea
what he is up to now, but I watch him splashing around in the water anyway.
He’s fun to watch and I’ve been doing it since I was maybe as young as two
years old. He lives a few houses away and he thinks that he is something
special. I never let him know that I think so too. We’ve been best friends
since about the same time that I started watching him. He’s accused me of
wanting him but I always make sure that I tell him it is a stupid thing to
think. He always laughs and says ‘yeah right.’ I can’t admit it because he
never has. “Yeah right doesn’t mean ‘it’s okay because I want you too’. It
means you’re lying.’ Of all the times that he’s accused me of wanting him,
he’s never once said I want you Summer or I love you Summer. He just likes to
tease me and that’s okay. I get it that we are friends and that’s all. He
doesn’t need to know about the dreams I started having a year ago either, they
are none of his damn business even if he is the center of them. In one of them,
he pushes me against a wall. I’m facing the wall and he’s pressed against my
back, we are both naked and panting like we’ve just finished a run. His teeth
graze my shoulder and I nearly orgasm in the dream, sometimes I really do in my
sleep. Anyway, his voice has been getting deeper and deeper lately but in the
dream, it is almost gravelly. It’s so sexy and just thinking about it now
makes me shiver. I can feel his skin against mine and I can’t seem to catch my
breath. My stomach is full of butterflies and my heart pounds. His hips are
against my rear end and I can feel his erection against my lower back, it’s
hot, hard, and throbbing. The deep gravelly voice comes out of warm sculptured
lips against my ear. I’m shaking all over, all the muscles below my waist are
clenching, and he says, “I’m going to bury myself so deep inside of you Summer
that you won’t know where I end and you begin.” I always wake up then,
sometimes I’ve climaxed, sometimes not but my heart is always pounding, I’m
always sweaty and shaking with what I’ve realized lately is anticipation. I
want him. I can’t have him but I want him. He’s supposed to mate my sister
Autumn according to my father the alpha. Since I am an alpha, my dad thinks
that I would be better to lure in an alliance with another pack. A pack
looking to breed their alpha with another, so he will sell me like cattle.
That’s not happening. I’m getting out of here. He won’t give to some jerk
that I don’t even know. He used my sister Kelly the same way. She’s with an
alpha more than fifty miles away and she is extremely unhappy. Every time I
call her, she is crying. I tell her that I will come after her but every time
that I say it, she says no. I think that Kelly will end up killing herself but
my dad won’t listen. I worry about my sister. Her mate, Frank is older and
from a pack set in the old ways. Backward ways that allow beating and women
are property. If it were me that daddy had given him, I would’ve killed him already.
However, we have the alliance that dad wanted. She has no say about anything,
no rights, and he treats her terribly. Kelly has had more than one black eye,
which I sincerely doubt she provoked. Kelly doesn’t argue, she isn’t sarcastic,
and she is a real people pleaser. I know he hits her either because he’s mad
about something else or because he’s just evil. Either way, one day, I may
just rip his throat out no matter what Kelly says. He came sniffing around
here wanting a submissive she wolf, and there is none more submissive than my
big sis is. She didn’t even bat an eye when dad told her that she was going to
mate Frank. She simply went and packed her things. Ten minutes later, she was
ready with her duffle in her hand and her head bowed. It was pathetic and it
was the moment that my dad and I both realized that I am alpha. I did not take
it lying down. My dad could not subdue me that day. Jackson finally got me
under control then dragged me into the woods to calm down. It was the first
time he used his alpha tendencies on me and my wolf responded with these
urges. I’ve always liked Jackson as a person but the day that I submitted to
him my wolf decided that he was for us. He’d never acted alpha before that
day, but he got me to show him my throat. The urges have been difficult to
stifle since that day and it’s especially bad when I’m asleep. My wolf wants
him very much. I do too but he’s Autumn’s mate, and it doesn’t matter that she
is in love with the resident beta Tim. My dad won’t hear of it. Dad is a real
stickler for pack hierarchy and since Tim is only a beta, he isn’t good enough
for the alpha’s daughter. Jackson is an alpha and will lead this pack or will
lead his own one day. My decision is easy, if I can’t have him, I’ll go. I
won’t be a bargaining tool for the good of the pack. I’m sneaking out first
thing tomorrow and I’m going to find my own life in the city. I’ve never been
without a pack but I think that I can do it. I’m no push over. I will
“Are you coming or
not?” I look up into the honey amber eyes for probably the last time and I
smile sweetly. “You haven’t been listening at all have you?” He rolls his
eyes heavenward and I laugh. He’s getting so big lately. His shoulders are
broad and he has this great chest, it’s smooth and nice. Wolves don’t stop
developing their muscles until they are in their mid twenties then they will
look the same until they are much older. Jackson is not finished growing but
the most attractive thing about him though is the way he moves. He has that
stalk like a predator thing down pat. He’s wet from splashing in the creek. I
didn’t go in since I’d rather sun myself from my seat on the log beside the
deep spot. Jackson tugs at my hand and pulls me up from my seat. “I said mom
is grilling burgers, are you in?” I shake my head. I can’t bear to act as if
everything is fine and then leave them all. “Why not?” He needs a haircut but
his dark hair this long is still sexy.
“Don’t feel like
it. I want to lie down.” I put my hand over my stomach but he’s dense
sometimes and asks the inevitable follow up.
“Why?” He looks
me over and his nose twitches.
“I have cramps.”
I know that this will deter him from further questions. He makes a face and
starts to walk. Thank you God, I have shut down the Jackson inquisition for
the moment. Even he can’t smell what hasn’t started yet. Nobody’s nose is
that good. He’s stalking away from me.
Summer.” He says over his shoulder. You don’t have to come if you don’t want
to but don’t lie.” I don’t answer him but I follow. “I don’t know what’s up
with you lately but I wish you would get over it. It’s getting boring.” I
sigh knowing he’s right. I’ve had an attitude since dad said that Autumn would
mate Jackson. I don’t know if Jackson knows and I want to know if he does so I
take the plunge.
“Has anyone told
you that you are to mate Autumn?” He whirls around to face me and I can see
that he didn’t know. Jackson has gone all alpha and he is pissed. His eyes
are pulsing amber with anger.
no. I’m not mating Autumn. Shit, she’ll probably break in half the first time
I fuck her.” The smile on his face was empty and did not reach his eyes. My
sister Autumn is a lot like Kelly. They are both petite, willowy and resemble
my mother. They are both wafer thin, blonde, and fragile. My brother Freddy
and I are more like dad. We are tall, strong, and darker with hazel eyes.
Freddy’s hair is blue black, mine is dark brown. Freddy is already six and a
half feet tall while I stand proud at five feet ten. I tower over my sisters.
“That’s what Dad
has decided.” I start walking again.
“Oh yeah? Who has
he decided that
mating Summer?” I love it when he says my name.
I get tingles in all the good places.
“He’s going to use
me as a bargaining chip to draw an alliance from another pack. We can expand
our hunting area and get help if and when we need it.” I made quotes in the
air with my fingers. Jackson was horrified.
“Like what he did
to Kelly? Doesn’t he see how well that worked out? He’s crazy. I’ll talk to
him, you are not for sale, and I am not mating Autumn. Tim wants Autumn and
she wants him, why not let them be happy? They’re good together.”
“He’s a beta,
you’re an alpha, and that makes you a better choice for her. I am worth more
to the good of the pack. He won’t change his mind Jackson and there is no use
in trying.” I start jogging to my house that is in sight now. I don’t want
him to see the tears that are starting to pool in my eyes. I won’t let him see
weakness the last time he sees me. Dad wants me to stop hanging out with
Jackson. He wants Autumn to spend time with him and it doesn’t matter that
neither of them in interested in the other. Autumn thinks that Jackson is a
jackass and instead of calling him by his name, she’d rather use the
description. She doesn’t do it to his face and she knows that she can’t use it
in front of me very often. Nevertheless, Autumn does not like Jackass but
that’s okay because he can’t stand her either. He says she is too high
maintenance for him and he calls her plastic girl. I have to agree most of the
time. Autumn is shallow. She is interested in her hair, her makeup, and her
cell phone. I love my sister but we don’t have much in common, not really. We
don’t look alike, think alike, or care about the same things. Autumn is
younger too but we get along and we talk sometimes, she is my sister. The only
thing that we really share in common is our dislike for our father. Don’t get
me wrong, he’s my dad and I love him, but neither of us really like him.
“Where have you
been?” My father booms from the end of the kitchen table when I come in the
patio door startling me. “I told you to stop seeing that boy.” The overhead
lamp was reflecting on his baldhead. He was on the internet on his tablet
again. Ever since he bought that thing, he hasn’t put it down. He doesn’t
even look up when he’s talking to us anymore either. All you ever see is the
top of his baldhead because he’s always lost in the tablet.
“I told him that
he’s mating Autumn and that we can’t see each other again Dad. We’ve been best
friends for eighteen years. I thought that I at least owed him an
explanation. It was the honorable thing to do.” He would understand honor, I
hoped. He did. He nodded.
started.” I nod and set about preparing the meal. My mother died giving birth
to Freddy so we all do her chores. When Kelly left, meals became my chore.
When I bolt, all of my chores will fall on Freddy and Autumn. I should take
them with me and let him fix his own damn dinner. I don’t remember my mother
that well but I remember that Dad changed when she left. It was he buried his
heart with her and she left us with a hollow, empty, nasty shell.
My duffle is
packed and at the foot of my bed waiting. I’m staring at the ceiling right now
but first thing in the morning when I am supposed to be going to work, I will
be hitting the highway in search of a new life. I would like to leave now but
there is no way I will make it to the car with a house full of werewolves
listening. I hope that I don’t have that dream again, okay maybe I do.