Summer on the River (35 page)

Otto sits waiting, his eyes fixed on the fisherman's dog: friend or foe? The old dog doesn't move: he lies, head on paws, as patient as his master. Black-backed gulls, driven inland by the recent gales, are following a fishing boat, their raucous cries echoing back from steep cliffs and rocky coves. Jemima turns at last and walks on, heading towards her little cottage. She's finished work early today and the evening stretches ahead: first, a cup of tea by the fire; later, a friend coming to supper.

Maisie has had her last sleepover until she returns from Australia after Christmas and was absolutely incandescent with excitement at the prospect of the holiday.

‘I have four cousins,' she told Jemima solemnly. ‘Two of them are nearly my age, one's a girl and one's a boy, and there are two baby boys.
And
,' she added, having paused so as to give Jemima the opportunity to exclaim with amazement and delight at such good fortune, ‘I have two uncles and two aunts.'

‘Gosh!' Jemima said, suitably impressed. ‘You are so lucky. I haven't got any uncles or aunts. Or cousins. I bet you can't wait to see them all again.'

She knows that Miranda's brothers and their families have made a few trips back to the UK in the last six years but Maisie can hardly remember them and, although they Skype, it's difficult for a six-year-old really to connect with people she doesn't know.

‘You'll have to send me and Otto a postcard,' Jemima told her. ‘Don't forget.'

And Maisie promised that she wouldn't forget, her small face glowing with the joy of expectation.

‘She's out of her mind with it,' Miranda said as they walked along the beach. ‘It's almost impossible to keep her calm until we go.'

But Jemima can tell that Miranda is excited, too; that she can see the possibility of a whole new exciting life opening up before them both.

‘So what about you, Mimes?' she asked. ‘Are you sleeping with Ben?'

At first Jemima was completely taken aback; she had to remind herself that she and Miranda have these kind of conversations, that their friendship almost demands it. Of course, Miranda doesn't know the truth; she doesn't know about Charlie.

‘Just once or twice,' she said casually. ‘Nothing serious.'

Miranda raised her eyebrows. ‘Why not serious?'

‘Well.' Jemima cast about for an explanation. ‘It doesn't have to be, does it?'

Miranda shrugged. ‘I guess not, though I can't think of a good reason myself. I'd grab him with both hands.'

Well, we all know that, Jemima thought rather bitterly, but she forced herself to look amused, laid-back.

‘You know me,' she said. ‘I don't do serious. Anyway, I'm wondering about making a bit of a change.'

‘What sort of change?'

What indeed?

‘Well, there's a job going in the Truro office and I'm wondering whether to apply for it.' Was she? ‘The same as I'm doing here but it would be a whole new area to explore. And my sister and her husband are in Falmouth, which would be good. I'm going down for Christmas so I might have a little look around at the renting scene.'

She listened to herself in surprise. Miranda looked surprised, too; almost affronted.

‘Well, get you,' she said. ‘And I thought you were well settled.'

Jemima laughed. ‘If you can think about moving to Australia why shouldn't I think about moving to Cornwall?'

And then Maisie and Otto came running back and nothing more was said.

Now, Jemima lets herself in, checks that Otto has fresh water in his bowl, and pauses to look at Charlie's piece of glass that hangs at the window. Lit by the trembling sunset-light the little white boat appears to be dipping its way across the sapphire and turquoise waves, the two birds fluttering above it: strength, simplicity, freedom.

Soon Charlie will be back in Dartmouth. How will that work? Will they meet by accident? Manage a few hours together? One thing is certain: it can't be like regatta this time around. She feels confused: this little passage of love with Benj comforts her. With no contact, no word from Charlie, it's as if her precious memories of him are being kept alive by this intimacy. How can she resist it? Yet now, as Christmas draws closer, whenever she contemplates meeting Charlie within a family context she panics.

Otto is watching her hopefully, tail wagging, wondering if she's forgotten his dinner. She smooths his head, smiling at his anxious expression, murmuring to him. Most of the time he has dried food, very nutritious and healthy – she has to watch his weight – but occasionally he gets a tin of meat.

‘Fast food tonight,' she tells him.

She spoons out the meat and the jelly, still talking to him.

‘I do love Charlie, you see,' she murmurs to Otto, ‘but then I love Benj, too, and Evie and Claude, which slightly complicates things.'

Otto watches her, ears cocked, alert. She puts his bowl down beside him and he sniffs at it with pleasure and begins to eat.

‘Perhaps it's time for a change, Otto. Time to move on. How do you think you might like living in Cornwall? Should I apply for the job in Truro?'

Otto continues to eat but his tail wags politely as if to indicate that she still has his attention. He finishes his dinner, polishing the bowl with sweeps of his tongue so that the bowl jolts across the floor. Jemima bends to pick it up.

‘Was it good?' she asks. She wonders how people who live alone manage without someone to talk to: a cat or a dog.

‘I can't imagine not having someone around,' she said to Evie recently. ‘Though usually I've had cats. They're a bit easier to cope with when I'm working. My last cat was utterly gorgeous. He was called MagnifiCat. He was a much better judge of character than I am. After he died I was distraught. I was just deciding to get another cat and then Otto came along and it was wonderful to have someone to talk to again, if you see what I mean. And so well behaved that he can come in the car with me and they don't mind having him in the office. Do you talk to yourself?'

‘Sometimes,' Evie admitted. ‘When I was writing I had so much going on in my head that I never felt alone. So many characters, so many connections and ideas. It's rather lonely without them, especially once Tommy died, of course.'

‘And all your characters have gone off and left you?'

Evie smiled. ‘Something like that. Though just lately there's been so much excitement that I haven't had time to feel lonely.' She hesitated. ‘We were wondering if you'd like to spend Christmas Day with us? Stay the night, perhaps?'

There was another tiny pause.

A few weeks ago, Jemima thought, I might have leaped at it. But now? How would it work? And why hasn't Benj mentioned it? Perhaps, now, he'd find it difficult. Perhaps he thinks I'd expect to share his room?

‘That's so kind of you,' she answered warmly. ‘The thing is, I always go to my sister in Falmouth for Christmas. It's become a kind of tradition, and her son and his family are coming down from London for it, too, so it's quite an occasion this year.'

‘Well, there will be plenty of time for celebration,' Evie said easily. ‘Charlie will be down for a couple of days just before.'

At once she panicked: how would she manage to be with Benj and Charlie, with Claude and Evie looking on? How would Benj manage? Evie's words brought the reality of the situation into sharp focus.

‘I might be gone by then,' Jemima said quickly. ‘I'm not sure …'

And Evie had looked at her so understandingly, so lovingly, that Jemima longed to burst out with it all; to explain, but she couldn't frame the words and the moment passed.

That was the first time since this foolish little affair started that Jemima was forced to take a cold, hard look into the future and make a decision – and she acted instinctively: she would not be at the Merchant's House for Christmas.

Now, she puts Otto's bowl into the sink, pulls the curtains across the darkening windows, makes a mug of tea and goes upstairs to her little sitting-room with Otto at her heels. She switches on the lamps and lights her wood-burning stove, which begins to flicker cheerfully. She must prep the supper later but meanwhile she'll relax. She sits down on the sofa, pulls out Otto's rug and waits for him to clamber up beside her and settle comfortably with his head resting against her thigh.

Jemima picks up the remote, switches on the television, channel hops. Someone is singing ‘Let It Snow!', and she drinks her tea, absent-mindedly stroking Otto and thinking about Charlie; how she first saw him at regatta, and that indescribable sensation of knowing and being known. Her little bit of glass is a symbol of all that he recognized in her: strength, simplicity, freedom. She closes her eyes, remembering his look of joy, his delight at their meeting. It was so important: so mysterious. Yet her connection through Benj, through Evie and Claude, is all she has of him. How can she bear to give it up?

JASON DRIVES CAREFULLY
, warily, an eye on the rear-view mirror in case anyone saw him speeding earlier. He'd let his attention wander, just for a moment, and found he was doing eighty. Perhaps he ought to stop to have a cup of coffee but he just wants to get down to Dartmouth and ask Evelyn Drake what she means by sending such a bloody pompous letter.

The thought of the letter stiffens his arms in a little spasm of anger and sends the car in a swerve out into the fast lane. There is a blast of a horn, another car speeds past, its driver gesticulating angrily. Jason centres the car, trembling a bit, sweating slightly: he must concentrate. He's not going to get angry: he's not going to lose it. He just wants to see Evelyn Drake face to face and ask why she's been so bloody insulting. After all, she gave him the money for the car.

Jason chuckles to himself. It was a clever move that; picking a precise random sum sounded quite authentic – and she'd fallen for it, silly cow. Even so, he was surprised she coughed up; he hadn't expected it to be so easy. Shows she's got a guilty conscience, though. It was a mistake sending the second letter when he wasn't feeling at his best. He hadn't been so tactful; he'd been having a downer, the black dog was on him, and he'd gone a bit over the top. Even so, she owed him. He has to see her again and tell her how Mikey will be affected if she doesn't help out.

He takes a quick glance at his watch: not half past eleven yet. He made a good start immediately after the letter arrived, no second thoughts, so there's time to stop and have some coffee and perhaps something to eat. He's finding it a strain, to be honest, and he needs a rest.

Jason pulls into a motorway service station, parks the car, and goes to find refreshment.

Jemima and Ben are in Alf's when Laura phones. Ben hauls out his mobile, glances at the screen, makes an apologetic face at Jemima.

‘It's Laura,' he tells her, and turns a little away. ‘Hi, sweetheart,' he says. ‘How's the snow?'

‘It's great,' she says. Her voice is full of laughter, breathless with excitement, and he holds the phone more closely.

‘You sound odd,' he tells her, half amused, half intrigued. ‘What is it? Are you OK?'

‘Yes. Yes, I'm very OK. Listen, Dad. Billy and I want to get engaged.'

‘
What?
'

He's aware of Jemima watching him, her face puzzled and anxious. He stares back at her almost unseeingly, concentrating on Laura's bubbly, distant voice.

‘I know. It's a bit sudden, isn't it? He says he should come home and make his number with you. What d'you think?'

Ben hardly knows what to say. ‘Oh, sweetheart, that's wonderful. I'd love to meet him. We all would.'

He can hear her struggling to control her voice, to be more serious, and he guesses that Billy is there with her.

‘Where are you, Dad?'

‘I'm in Alf's with Jemima. Look, are you on your own?'

‘No, Billy's with me. He says “hi”. Listen. Another big shock. We were wondering if we could come home for Christmas? I mean to you at Dartmouth. Would it be OK with Evie? It's a bit of a cheek …'

‘Of course you can come here,' he says quickly. ‘Of course you can. This is your home, sweetheart.' And he blesses Evie in his heart that he can say these words with confidence.

‘That's fab, Dad. Look, I'll phone again soon to make a proper plan. We'll check flights and things. It would just be the three days. If you're really sure?'

‘Of course I'm sure.'

‘Thanks, Dad. Love you lots.'

A click and her happy voice is cut off. Ben hesitates and then switches off his phone. He is in shock, wondering how he will deal with this new development in their lives and how Kirsty will feel about their coming to him for Christmas.

‘Are you OK?' Jemima is asking him. ‘It sounded rather exciting. Was it good news?'

He nods. ‘Yes. She says that she and Billy are planning to get engaged and they want to come home for Christmas.'

‘Oh, gosh,' says Jemima. ‘Well, that's amazing. Do you like him?'

‘I haven't met him but she told me quite a lot about him when she came down to see us,' he answers. ‘She sounded just mad about him. She was … well, incandescent. You know what it's like at that age? A little group of them got taken on together at this skiing place in Switzerland. It's all such an adventure. Hard work but a chance to polish up on the skiing. You know the kind of thing? Billy, apparently, was looking forward to the catering side of it, too. He wants to be a master-chef.'

Ben remembers Laura's expression as she showed him the images of Billy on her phone – the joy and the hope – and he is filled with equal measures of happiness and anxiety. Is she ready for this big new step? Is he?

‘Well, it all sounds wonderful,' Jemima says. ‘Look, I've got to get back to the office … Do you still want to come over for supper this evening?'