Sudden Devotion (14 page)

Driving down the interstate, he decided to stop for some flowers. If a guy messes up, that’s what he was supposed to do, right? So he would get flowers because he decided to use any trick at his disposal to make this conversation as painless as possible.

Fifteen minutes later, Mitch walked the stairs to Sara’s apartment holding some red roses. He knew it was a bit of cliché. But this time of night on Friday, the selection had been pretty picked over. It was roses, mums, or carnations. And since he didn’t see Sara as the grandmotherly type, he thought roses were a bit more appropriate.

He was about to knock, but he realized it was really quiet in the apartment. It was after ten, and he hadn’t called her to say he had finished. If she had fallen asleep, he didn’t want to wake her. So he used his key to get in and locked the door behind him.

After taking off his shoes, he went to the kitchen in search of a vase. Maybe waking up to a vase full of red roses would bring one of her gorgeous smiles to her face. He found one and arranged them as best as he could and headed back to the bedroom. He was just thinking how he needed to get in bed with her and hold her when he saw her standing at the window.

The moonlight was streaming in through the window and washed across her skin. She was doing something, but he couldn’t tell what it was. “Sara?”

Startled, she turned. “Mitch, oh God.” She ran to the bathroom and shut the door.

Mitch stood there stunned for a moment. The sight of her had taken his breath away. She had pulled the top of her night shirt down and was fondling her nipples when she turned. The sight was erotically enticing. When he was able to breathe again, he set the roses down on the dresser and walked to the bathroom door.

“Sara. Open the door, honey?”

“No. Mitch I don’t want any company tonight. Please go home.” Her voice was squeaky.

“What? No! Sara, get out here right now, damn it.” He was not going to let her be embarrassed for being damn sexy.

The sounds of her tears were coming through the door. “Mitch, I can’t. Please leave me alone.”

Mitch ground his teeth in frustration. “Look honey. You either open this door right now and talk to me or I will find a way to break it down. Do you really want me to hurt myself trying to do that?”

He heard the click of the lock and watched as the door slowly opened. The first thing he noticed was her hardened nipples underneath the satin night shirt. It normally would have been enough to send him over the edge, forcing him to take her right now. But the sight of her tear-streaked face killed the urgent need.

“Honey. Come here.” He pulled her into a hug and held her tight. “Don’t be embarrassed, baby. You looked beautiful.”

She looked up at him. “Really?”

“Yeah, really. That’s a huge turn-on to see you touch yourself like that.”

“It is?” She asked nervously.

Mitch shook his head and kissed her. “Sara, I know you are new to this, but nothing you do could
ever
be anything but a turn-on. You are gorgeous, honey.”

She walked away to get a tissue and blew her nose. Then she laughed. “I bet I’m especially sexy when I’m blowing snot out of my nose.”

He sat on the bed and held his hand out to her. “Okay, so maybe you’re just cute then. But every time else, you’re sexy as hell.”

Sara sat beside him and leaned into his shoulder as he put his arm around her. After seeing the flowers on the dresser she smiled. “Those are beautiful, Mitch. But you didn’t have to get me flowers.”

This was it. He was going to have to come clean. In light of how embarrassed she had gotten just now, he wasn’t sure if it would be easy. “Actually, I did. I, ah, there’s something I need to tell you.”

“Oh. Okay.” She bit her lip and was visibly trembling.

Mitch brought up one knee on the bed and turned to face her. He grabbed both of her hands and looked into her eyes for a moment before speaking. “Sara, I need you to promise me something first. I need you to promise me that you’ll hear me out. Please let me explain first, don’t pull away from me.”

“Mitch, what is it? Is it, is it Claudia? Did something happen?”

“
What?
No! Honey, it’s nothing like that. Just promise me you’ll hear me out, okay?” He waited until she agreed. Then taking a deep breath, he jumped in. “First of all, I’ve always thought you were sweet and one of the nicest and prettiest girls in the office.”

“Mitch, you sound like you’ve done something wrong.”

He lifted his shoulders and nodded. “In a way, I have. I have kept something from you that might upset you. I hope it doesn’t, but if it does, I would like you to listen to my reasons why.”

She stared at him with wide eyes. “Okay. I’ll listen.”

He brushed a hand down her cheek. “Thank you, honey.” Mitch took a moment and looked around the room. He hoped to God that this wouldn’t be his last time here. No, he wouldn’t let it be. “I know you’ve never asked where I live, but I haven’t exactly been forthcoming with it either. Honey, I live…”

“Oh, God. You’re married aren’t you?” Sara tried to get up, and Mitch held onto her hands tightly.

“No! Jesus, honey, I swear it’s nothing like that. There is no one else.”

“Okay, I’m sorry. You just have me so worried. You were saying.” She motioned with her shaking hand for him to get on with it.

“Okay, I’m just going to do it quickly, like ripping off a band-aid. I live in these apartments. Right across the court yard from you on the first floor.” Mitch watched and waited for her reaction.

“What? Why didn’t you tell me?” Her question was filled with shock and disbelief.

Mitch hung his head for a moment. “This is where I think you’re going to get real mad. Honey, last Sunday night, I woke up late. I was thirsty, so I headed to the kitchen to get a drink of water.” He waited. Judging from the look on her face, she hadn’t figured it out yet. “Anyway, on my way back to my bedroom, I glanced out the window. For some reason I looked up and...” He stopped for a moment when realization donned on her face and cast it in a look of horror. “Wait, honey, please listen.”

“You saw me?” She asked the question slowly and in a whisper.

He nodded his head up and down. “I did, honey. But before you get embarrassed, you have to know that you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.”

She laughed. “Oh yeah. Really pretty. I’m up here doing things to myself like some sort of a…”

Mitch took her by the shoulders. “No, damn it. Look, I know you’re young, and I know that you are just coming to learn the depths of your own sexuality, but damn it, what you did, what I saw...” Mitch gentled his grip, and his voice became more soothing. “Honey, you looked magnificent. The moonlight shone on you, and I watched your face as you reached the different levels of pleasure. God, I never saw anything like it. You were radiant and glowing, and you stole my breath from me, literally.”

Sara seemed relieved. As though his words had somehow managed to chase away some of her embarrassment. “You thought .I really did that to you?”

“Yeah, honey. That’s why I didn’t tell you where I lived. I was sure that if you knew, you’d figure out that I saw you, and you’d hide behind embarrassment. I was hypnotized by you that night. I didn’t want to ruin any chance that I might have had.”

Sara sighed, “The next day, in your office. That’s why you were so...excited?”

“Shoot me. I couldn’t help it. The image of you kept replaying in my mind. You were driving me crazy. I’m not going to lie to you. I thought that if I had you, it would be amazing, but it would also be done, and that would be it. But when we were in my office that day, and I was with you and …oh Sara. It was so different than I thought it would be. I wanted to see you again and again. I hadn’t expected that. But then the more I saw you, the more I wanted you.” He shook his head and smiled. “And now. Jesus, now I’m ready to wear a damn pink suit.” He leaned over and kissed her.

The kiss lingered until she pulled away. Placing her hand on his chest, she asked, “Sorry, pink suit?”

Mitch got up from the bed and paced a few steps muttering something to himself. “All right, look. Our relationship has been rather unconventional, I’ll admit. It’s been short and filled with amazing sex. You’ve managed to make me happy, angry, and jealous as all hell in the matter of days.”

“Mitch, do you need to sit down? You’re talking a mile a minute.”

“No, I don’t need to sit. I need you.” Mitch looked at her and hoped she understood. He had never told a woman he loved her before.

She smiled and came to him wrapping her arms around his neck. “You have me.”

“No, honey, you don’t understand.” Mitch kissed her forehead. “I’m trying to tell you that somehow in the matter of a few days, you have…hell, I’m in love with you.”

Sara froze. Her smile faded and turned to shock. “You love me?”

Jesus, was this a mistake? Why was she just staring like that? “Yep. I’m pretty much insanely crazy for you, and you are never far from my thoughts no matter what I’m doing.”

Slowly, Sara’s smile returned. She jumped into his arms and held on tight. “Oh, thank God. I thought I was completely unbalanced. I fell for you so fast, and then, when I knew I was falling in love with you, I was sure it was stupid because you’re so much more experienced, and I’m so naïve. I figured I would ruin things between us by wanting too much. Or needing you too much.”

“Now who’s rambling? Take a breath.” He kissed her first, though.

Their kisses heated, and he led her to the bed. She was unbuttoning his shirt in a mad frenzy, as though she wasn’t able to get to his warm solid chest fast enough. When he asked her a question that had been burning a hole through his subconscious all week long.

“So you’re not embarrassed anymore right, honey?”

“Uh uh.”

“Good, because I’m dying to know what you were doing in that window?” he asked her as he streamed kisses down her neck. “What were you looking at?”

Sara stilled at his question, seeming unsure of what to say. She drew away from him and pushed him gently up.

Mitch watched her as she bit nervously on her bottom lip. He took her hand when she silently reached for it. Following her, he walked over to the window. When he came up behind her and rested his chin on her shoulder, she pointed down to a couple having sex on the first floor across the way.

Chapter Eleven

Sara pointed at the couple. “That is what I was watching. He has a few girls that he alternates between, but they’re always the same few. They do more than just have sex.” She tilted her head up to look at him. “Sometimes they try other things.”

He smiled at her and kissed her on the cheek. “What kind of things, baby?” He needed her to tell him. He could see the desire in her eyes. He knew she wanted more, but he couldn’t ask for her. She had to trust him enough to tell him her fantasies.

She looked back down at the couple. The man was kneeling on the bed and rocking his cock in and out of her mouth as she sat still, her arms tied to the headboard. She expelled a giant breath and rested her head back against Mitch’s chest. “They have things. Like the stuff in your bag.”

Mitch was already going crazy. He needed to be inside her now. But more than that, he needed her to truly open up to him. “Tell me, baby. I know you want something. I know you need something. Let me give it to you.” He bent his head and began licking and sucking on her neck. He brought his hands up and palmed her breasts, enjoying the contradiction of the softness of them mixed with the hardness of her nipples.

Sara arched further into his touch. “That black thing you have in your bag. You know the one that has the large, flat, round end?” Her question came out in a throaty whisper.

He knew exactly what she was talking about. “It’s called a butt plug, honey. Do you know what it’s used for?”

She nodded. “I’ve seen them use it.”

Mitch was grinding against her now, unable to help himself. “Did you like it? Did you like watching him do that to her?”

“Yes.” She whimpered. “Mitch. I want things that seem like they should be so wrong.”

“No, honey. No. They’re not wrong. What else? What else excites you?” He groaned when she arched her ass back into him.

Her breathing was hitched as she wrapped her arms behind her and up over her head. “The plug, he just starts with that. It’s like he’s enticing her, teasing her. But then he…” She swallowed, looking nervous and unable to find the words.

“It’s okay. Tell me.” He reached his tongue out and licked the edge of her earlobe, drawing a moan from her.

“He fucks her there, Mitch. He fucks her in her ass, and she moans and rocks against him. It looks so…oh God, it looks so amazing.” Seemingly unaware of her motions, Sara was aggressively stroking Mitch with her round bottom.

Mitch could feel her wetness seeping from her. He couldn’t believe how wet she was getting. She was always so responsive, but this was incredible. “Is that what you want, honey? Do you want me to entice you and then fuck you in your ass?”

The crude words he spoke should have been offensive, but instead seemed to ignite her passion “Yes! I want that, Mitch. Show me. Show me how it feels.”