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Authors: Jessie Lane
I watched as the concern Riley had worn for days disappeared and pity replaced it when he replied, “No, she hasn’t called.” Declan nodded and waved us away after that.
Taking a swig of my beer, my mind wandered to
her
. The sound of Riley laughing next to me made me grateful I wasn’t the only one having woman problems. First Baker, then Sullivan, and now it looked like the other Sullivan was jumping on board the crazy train to woman-ville. At least Baker and Riley’s situations had had a good ending. Who the fuck would have thought the Ex Ops Team would come down to Miami to catch the scum behind a sex slave ring and end up finding Sullivan’s wife? However, the fact that he had Kara by his side now almost gave me hope.
I glanced over to Riley and stared at the smile he wore. It was odd to see him smile. As long as I’d known him he’d been a black cloud of emotions. Now, a completely different person sat in front of me, and I couldn’t help being happy for him. We might have had our differences where his jealousy of my former Army brethren, Ice, was concerned, but ultimately, I couldn’t blame him for how he’d felt at the time.
That being said, I knew exactly what it was like to be driven fuckin’ nuts by a woman. Riley was a lucky son of a bitch, and I bet he knew it. I wasn’t so lucky.
There was no one other than myself to blame for my misery, though. I’d kept the woman meant for me at arm’s length for half our lives. Then, when she’d thrown herself at me in what I now knew was one last desperate attempt to express her feelings for me, I’d shut her down harshly. No, harsh wasn’t the word. Brutally.
Coldly.
Angrily even.
Ginny had thought that anger had been directed at her and her many attempts to declare her love for me. If only she’d known I was angry at myself instead. Because I’d convinced myself I couldn’t have the one woman I wanted more than my next breath.
In essence, she tried to hand me her heart, and I metaphorically threw it to the ground and crushed it under my boot. She’d been avoiding me for five years since that fateful day.
I missed her presence the way one would miss their soul if it were taken from them. That was probably because the woman
was
my soul. Unfortunately, I never told her this.
It all went to hell on the last visit home that I saw her. That was the visit I broke her irreparably while drunk, once again being an ass.
I’d tried to make amends, but she wouldn’t let me.
She wouldn’t answer my phone calls. She dodged all my attempts to visit her before I had to go back to my base by taking an impromptu vacation. She wouldn’t respond to my letters while I was overseas. No, she wouldn’t give me anything. I was cut off, shut down, and it was done.
Then I got the news from my family, while I was stationed once again in the Kandahar Province, that her mom had died suddenly, and Gin had shut down. I couldn’t get my girl to talk to me. She was all alone while I was stuck in Kandahar for another six months.
My gut churned.
I wrote twice as many letters. Called on the few times I could try. Tried to get information about her from my family to no avail. Nothing.
Then, on another desperate call to my mother, she dropped the bomb.
Gin had taken a job in Chicago. She was moving away in a week.
It was now five years later, and I hadn’t heard from her since.
Now, here I sat in a strip club, surrounded by beautiful women and plenty of other people, and I couldn’t give two shits. I was happy for Sullivan, but his happiness was making me remember what I’d lost.
“Holy shit. If that chick wasn’t utterly wasted, she’d be a bombshell,” I heard Chase say from the other side of the table.
Well, people watching was better than musing over what I didn’t have, so I looked up in the direction that Chase was staring in and promptly felt my heart drop to the vicinity of my feet.
Because there, across the large VIP area, was what I’d lost.
Now, she was found.
In a micro mini red dress, she was dancing sloppily to the music, her eyes glassy, indicating she was probably high and drunk, as some playboy in a fucking suit watched her with a displeased yet possessive gaze.
Maybe Miami was the lost and found for men who had epically fucked up their love lives.
A hand clapped down on my shoulder, and I looked over to see Riley looking at me in concern.
“You okay, man? Kara just said our party room in the back is ready, and you didn’t even hear her.”
Looking over his shoulder to where Kara stood, I apologized for not hearing her, and then looked back to Sullivan. “You all go ahead. I’ve got something I need to handle first.”
Riley’s eyebrows shot up. “You do?”
I nodded.
“You need back-up?” Chase asked.
Shaking my head, I gave them the truth. “My past is flashin’ her ass in a red dress across the room and strung out of her mind. I’m gonna go find out why, and then I’m gonna be her goddamn fortune teller and explain what her fucking future is.”
“And that is?” Kara asked, eyes full of curiosity, although a smile was on her face.
“Me.”
Note From The Author
Thank you for reading
Stripping Her Defenses
! You’re the absolute best for giving little ol’ me a chance. For every Indie Author you read, somewhere out there a fairy gets its wings! Okay, maybe not, but it still seems pretty magical.
For those of you thinking, “WAIT! She didn’t resolve all of the issues!” You’re absolutely right – I didn’t. If you’ve read my books before, by now you should know that I usually don’t. Some issues will be solved in the next book,
Sweet Recovery
, such as Lucas’ girl. Other issues, such as the bad guys who got away, will be resolved immediately in a spin off book I’m co-writing with Chelsea Camaron,
Ice
, Regulators MC #1. So, keep the faith, and if you’re interested in continuing, pick up the next book to see where the series is headed from here after it releases.
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About the Author
Jessie Lane is the best-selling author of The Star Series, Big Bad Bite Series and the Ex Ops Series. She writes paranormal and contemporary romance, as well as Upper YA Paranormal Romance/Fantasy.
She lives in Kentucky with her two little Rock Chicks in the making and her over protective alpha husband. She has a passionate love for reading and writing naughty romance, cliff hanging suspense, and out-of-this-world characters that demand your attention, or threaten to slap you around until you do pay attention to them.
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