Strange Highways (30 page)

“You don’t mean-“

“Wait,” she said, pulling her hand from his. She slipped off her chair, dropped to her knees, leaned toward the fireplace, and thrust her right hand into the leaping flames.

Jack cried out, grabbed her, and pulled her back.

Grinning, Laura held up blistered fingers as raw as butchered beef, but even as Jack gasped in horror, he saw that her flesh was healing. In moments the blisters faded, the skin re-formed, and her hand was undamaged.

“The power’s within all of us,” she said. “We just have to learn how to use it. I’ve spent the past two months learning, and now I’m ready to teach others. You first, then my kids at school, then the whole darn world.”

Jack stared at her in astonishment.

She laughed with delight and threw herself into his arms. “It’s not easy to learn, Jackson. Oh, no! It’s hard. It’s hard. You don’t know how many nights I’ve sat up while you slept, working at it, trying to apply what I learned from Seed. There were times when my head felt as if it would burst with the effort, and trying to master the healing talent leaves you physically exhausted in a way I’ve never been before. It hurts all the way down in your bones. There were times when I despaired. But I learned. And others can learn. No matter how hard it is, I know I can teach them. I know I can, Jack.”

Regarding her with love but also with a new sense of wonder, Jack said, “Yeah, I know you can too. I know you can teach anything to anyone. You may be the greatest teacher who ever lived.”

“Miss Attila the Hun,” she said, and she kissed him.

DOWN IN THE DARKNESS

1

DARKNESS DWELLS WITHIN EVEN THE BEST OF US. IN THE WORST OF us, darkness not only dwells but reigns.

Although occasionally providing darkness with a habitat, I have never provided it with a kingdom. That’s what I prefer to believe. I think of myself as a basically good man: a hard worker, a loving and faithful husband, a stern but doting father.

If I use the cellar again, however, I will no longer be able to pretend that I can suppress my own potential for evil. If I use the cellar again, I will exist in eternal moral eclipse and will never thereafter walk in the light.

But the temptation is great.

* * *

I first discovered the cellar door two hours after we signed the final papers, delivered a cashier’s check to the escrow company to pay for the house, and received the keys. It was in the kitchen, in the corner beyond the refrigerator: a raised-panel door, stained dark like all the others in the house, with a burnished-brass lever-action handle instead of a conventional knob. I stared in disbelief, for I was certain that the door had not been there before.

Initially, I thought I had found a pantry. When I opened it, I was startled to see steps leading down through deepening shadows into pitch blackness. A windowless basement.

In Southern California, nearly all houses—virtually everything from the cheaper tract crackerboxes to those in the multimillion-dollar range—are built on concrete slabs. They have no basements. For decades this has been considered prudent design. The land is frequently sandy, with little bedrock near the surface. In country subject to earthquakes and mudslides, a basement with concrete-block walls can be a point of structural weakness into which all rooms above might collapse if the giants in the earth wake and stretch.

Our new home was neither crackerbox nor mansion, but it had a cellar. The real-estate agent never mentioned it. Until now, we had never noticed it.

Peering down the steps, I was at first curious—then uneasy. A wall switch was set just inside the doorway. I clicked it up, down, up again. No light came on below.

Leaving the door open, I went looking for Carmen. She was in the master bathroom, hugging herself, grinning, admiring the handmade emerald-green ceramic tiles and the Sherle Wagner sinks with their gold-plated fixtures.

“Oh, Jess, isn’t it beautiful? Isn’t it grand? When I was a little girl, I never dreamed I’d live in a house like this. My best hope was for one of those cute bungalows from the forties. But this is a palace, and I’m not sure I know how to act like a queen.”

“It’s no palace,” I said, putting an arm around her. “You’ve got to be a Rockefeller to afford a palace in Orange County. Anyway, so what if it was a palace—you’ve always had the style and bearing of a queen.”

She stopped hugging herself and hugged me. “We’ve come a long way, haven’t we?”

“And we’re going even further, kid.”

“I’m a little scared, you know?”

“Don’t be silly.”

“Jess, honey, I’m just a cook, a dishwasher, a pot scrubber, only one generation removed from a shack on the outskirts of Mexico City. We worked hard for this, sure, and a lot of years … but now that we’re here, it seems to have happened overnight.”

“Trust me, kid—you could hold your own in any gathering of society ladies from Newport Beach. You have natural-born class.”

I thought:
God, I love her. Seventeen years of marriage, and she is still a girl to me, still fresh and surprising and sweet.

“Hey,” I said, “almost forgot. You know we have a cellar?”

She blinked at me.

“It’s true,” I said.

Smiling, waiting for the punch line, she said, “Yeah? And what’s down there? The royal vaults with all the jewels? Maybe a dungeon?”

“Come see.”

She followed me into the kitchen.

The door was gone.

Staring at the blank wall, I was for a moment icebound.

“Well?” she said. “What’s the joke?”

I thawed enough to say, “No joke. There was … a door.”

She pointed to the image of a kitchen window that was etched on the blank wall by the sun streaming through the glass. “You probably saw that. The square of sunlight coming through the window, falling on the wall. It’s more or less in the shape of a door.”

“No. No … there was …” Shaking my head, I put one hand on the sun-warmed plaster and lightly traced its contours, as if the seams of the door would be more apparent to the touch than to the eye.

Carmen frowned. “Jess, what’s wrong?”

I looked at her and realized what she was thinking. This lovely house seemed too good to be true, and she was superstitious enough to wonder if such a great blessing could be enjoyed for long without fate throwing us a heavy weight of tragedy to balance the scales. An overworked husband, suffering from stress—or perhaps afflicted by a small brain tumor—beginning to see things that were not there, talking excitedly of nonexistent cellars … That was just the sort of nasty turn of events with which fate too frequently evened things out.

“You’re right,” I said. I forced a laugh but made it sound natural. “I saw the rectangle of light on the wall and thought it was a door. Didn’t even look close. Just came running for you. Now, has this new-house business got me about as crazy as a monkey or what?”

She looked at me somberly, then matched my smile. “Crazy as a monkey. But then … you always were.”

“Is that so?”

“My monkey,” she said.

I said, “Ook, ook,” and scratched under one arm.

I was glad I had not told her that I’d opened the door. Or that I had seen the steps beyond.

* * *

The house in Laguna Beach had five large bedrooms, four baths, and a family room with a massive stone fireplace. It also had what they call an “entertainer’s kitchen,” which didn’t mean that either Siegfried and Roy or Barbra Streisand performed there between Vegas engagements, but referred instead to the high quality and number of appliances: double ovens, two microwaves, a warming oven for muffins and rolls, a Jenn Air cooking center, two dishwashers, and a pair of Sub Zero refrigerators of sufficient size to serve a restaurant. Lots of immense windows let in the warm California sun and framed views of the lush landscaping—bougainvillea in shades of yellow and coral, red azaleas, impatiens, palms, two imposing Indian laurels—and the rolling hills beyond. In the distance, the sun-dappled water of the Pacific glimmered enticingly, like a great treasure of silver coins.

Though not a mansion, it was unquestionably a house that said,
The Gonzalez family has done well, has made a fine place for itself.
My folks would have been very proud.

Maria and Ramon, my parents, were Mexican immigrants who had scratched out a new life in
El Norte
, the promised land. They had given me, my brothers, and my sister everything that hard work and sacrifice could provide, and we four had all earned university scholarships. Now, one of my brothers was an attorney, the other a doctor, and my sister was chairperson of the Department of English at UCLA.

I had chosen a career in business. Carmen and I owned a restaurant, for which I provided the business expertise, for which she provided the exquisite and authentic Mexican recipes, and where we both worked twelve hours a day, seven days a week. As our three children reached adolescence, they took jobs with us as waiters. It was a family affair, and every year we became more prosperous, but it was never easy. America does not promise easy wealth, only opportunity. We seized the machine of opportunity and lubricated it with oceans of perspiration, and by the time we bought the house in Laguna Beach, we were able to pay cash. Jokingly, we gave the house a name:
Casa Sudor
—House of Sweat.

It was a huge home. And beautiful.

It had every amenity. Even a basement with a disappearing door.

The previous owner was one Mr. Nguyen Quang Phu. Our Realtor—a sturdy, garrulous, middle-aged woman named Nancy Keefer—said Phu was a Vietnamese refugee, one of the courageous boat people who had fled months after the fall of Saigon. He was one of the fortunate who had survived the storms, the gunboats, and the pirates.

“He arrived in the U.S. with only three thousand dollars in gold coins and the will to make something of himself,” Nancy Keefer told us when we first toured the house. “A charming man and a fabulous success. Really fabulous. He’s pyramided that small bankroll into so many business interests, you wouldn’t believe it, all in fourteen years! Fabulous story. He’s built a new house, fourteen thousand square feet on two acres in North Tustin, it’s just fabulous, really, it is, you should see it, you really should.”

Carmen and I made an offer for Phu’s old house, which was less than half the size of the one he had recently built, but which was a dream home to us. We dickered a bit but finally agreed on terms, and the closing was achieved in just ten days because we were paying cash, taking no mortgage.

The transfer of ownership was arranged without Nguyen Quang Phu and me coming face to face. This is not an unusual situation. Unlike some states, California does not require a formal closing ceremony with seller, buyer, and their attorneys gathered in one room.

Nevertheless, it was Nancy Keefer’s policy to arrange a meeting between the buyer and seller at the house, within a day or two of the close of escrow. Although our new home was beautiful and in splendid repair, even the finest houses have quirks. Nancy believed it was always a good idea for the seller to walk the buyer through the place to point out which closet doors tended to slide off their tracks and which windows wept in a rainstorm. She arranged for Phu to meet me at the house on Wednesday, May fourteenth.

Monday, May twelfth, was the day we closed the deal. And that was the afternoon when, strolling through the empty house, I first saw the cellar door.

Tuesday morning, I returned to the house alone. I didn’t tell Carmen where I was really going. She thought that I was at Horace Dalcoe’s office, politely wrangling with that extortionist over his latest greedy demands.

Dalcoe owned the small open-air shopping center in which our restaurant was located, and he was surely the very man for whom the word “sleazeball” had been coined. Our lease, signed when Carmen and I were poorer and naive, gave him the right to approve even every minor change we made inside the premises. Therefore, six years after we opened, when we wanted to remodel the restaurant at a cost of two hundred thousand dollars—which would have been an improvement to
his
property—we were required to give Dalcoe ten thousand in tax-free cash, under the table, for his okay. When I bought out the lease of the stationery store next door to expand into their quarters, Dalcoe insisted upon a steep cash payment for his approval. He was interested not only in large lumps of sugar but in tiny grains of it as well; when I put a new and more attractive set of front doors on the place, Dalcoe wanted a lousy two hundred bucks under the table to sign off on that small job.

Now, we wished to replace our old sign with a new and better one, and I was negotiating a bribe with Dalcoe. He was unaware that I had discovered that he didn’t own the land on which his own little shopping center stood; he had taken a ninety-nine-year lease on the parcel twenty years ago, and he felt secure. At the same time that I was working out a new bribe with him, I was secretly negotiating a purchase of the land, after which Dalcoe would discover that, while he might have a stranglehold on me by virtue of my lease, I would have a stranglehold on him because of
his
lease. He still thought of me as an ignorant Mex, maybe second generation but Mex just the same; he thought I’d had a little luck in the restaurant business, luck and nothing more, and he gave me no credit for intelligence or savvy. It was not going to be exactly a case of the little fish swallowing the big one, but I expected to arrange a satisfactory stalemate that would leave him furious and impotent.

These complex machinations, which had been continuing for some time, gave me a believable excuse for my absence from the restaurant Tuesday morning. I’d be bargaining with Dalcoe at his office, I told Carmen. In fact, I went directly to the new house, feeling guilty about having lied to her.

When I stepped into the kitchen, the door was where I had seen it the previous day. No rectangle of sunlight. No mere illusion. A real door.

I worked the lever-action handle.