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Authors: Mingmei Yip

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I wished a professional photographer were here to take pictures.

But Alex and my love were witnessed by heaven and earth.

I turned to my lover and touched his face. “Alex?”

“Yes, my love?”

“You like this?”

“Of course! Actually I’m afraid that from now on I’ll become an addict.”

“You serious?”

“Yes!”

The echoes “Yes! Yes! Yes! . . .” came in rounds in the near and far distance, in this world and the other.

I chided. “Shhh . . . Alex, you shouldn’t wake up the mountains or the valleys. They’re also entitled to a good sleep.”

He turned to look at me, his eyes twinkling mischievously, just like the birds when they’d witnessed our enacting the passion between a man and a woman. “Oh, I think they’ve been awake the whole time to eavesdrop and peep at us shamelessly. And you know what?”

“What?”

“Now my addiction . . .”

I pretended not to understand. “What addiction?”

“I want you again, my love.”

“So fast?”

“Don’t you always remind me that I’m only twenty-one years old? So, that’s how a twenty-one-year-old man behaves. . . .” Having said that, he lunged on top of me like a relentless tiger on his helpless prey.

From that day on, Alex and I lived together as lovers. It was that simple. And that complicated. Chris was guiltily, regretfully out of sight, out of mind. Or was he?

Many times I woke up in the middle of the night with Alex sound asleep next to me. Against the omnipresent silence in this deep womb of darkness, his soft breathing, the ticking of my clock, and the singing of the distant sand were all I needed and cared about.

I noticed his endearing habit—whenever he turned over in his sleep, he’d search for me, then wrap me in his arms, ever so gently, as if I were his newborn baby girl. Or he’d reach for my hand and take it into his. This innocent act deeply touched my heart. I felt loved and needed, like a mother whose baby’s hungry lips relentlessly sought her swelling, generous nipples. So nurturing, so erotic, and so heartbreaking. Had his mother held him like this before she gave him up—his tiny body in her arms, her nipple between his hungry lips?

The Herbalist Healer

A
lex had been living with me for more than a week. The more days we spent together, the more I agonized over whether I should tell him why I was traveling alone on the Silk Road. Would he start to covet my inheritance and stop loving me for who I was? I didn’t have the slightest impression that greed could be inside his brainy head or hidden behind his innocent face. But one could never tell. Twenty-one or eighty-one, men covet the same things—money, power, status, high-fat gourmet food, pretty women, mind-blowing sex.

Then one day Alex reminded me that his parents would be visiting soon and that he would travel with them around China. Another surprise came when he said that after the family’s vacation, he’d take me to meet them.

I didn’t know how to respond to this. This kid was clearly serious about me. But what about his parents? Would they like me and approve of our relationship, or would they see me as the older woman who had shamelessly seduced their young son?

The morning of Alex’s departure to meet his parents in Urumqi, after we had breakfast and I helped him pack, he drew me into his arms and kissed me with a dying-to-be-relieved desire. We ended up making love on the floor.

When we finally finished our urgent business and were by the door about to leave, he turned to me. “Lily, I’ll miss you.”

“I’ll miss you, too, Alex.”

“Be safe.” He sighed heavily.

“Something wrong?”

“I worry about you. Anyway, I can . . .”

“Don’t worry, Alex, I have Keku and her husband.”

“All right. I’ll be back before you know it.”

I walked Alex to the waiting donkey cart that would carry him to the next village to catch the bus to Urumqi. He hopped on, threw down his backpack, then leaned over to cup my face, kissing me deeply.

Then I watched and waved until his windblown hair and lean body were carried away into the distance above the four rickety wheels.

Without my young lover with me, everything felt different. The desert, once beautiful and poetic, put on an ominous mask. The birds’ calls were cries of hungry ghosts looking for carcasses; the blowing wind, sobs of a heartbroken woman; the shifting of sands, eerie funeral songs.

I saw my landlady and neighbor Keku almost every day, my only friend in this small, dilapidated village. Sometimes she’d come to my cottage with her four-year-old son, Mito. Other times I’d knock on her door and Keku would invite me in. We’d sit on the carpeted floor by the window of her mud house, chat, and watch the sunset. Next to us, Mito would quietly play with plastic toys, desert plants, the sand under his feet, little insects, or would grasp the already-frayed hem of Keku’s dress, long worn because of his constant pulling to get motherly attention.

When I visited Keku, sometimes her woman friends were also there. Although they didn’t understand what my landlady and I talked about, they looked happy just sitting on the brick “bed” together to sip milk tea, talk in their Uyghur language, marvel at one another’s colorful bodices and knotted headscarves, and look at me with admiration. Once in a while Keku would translate our conversation to them. Funny or not, they’d all giggle till their backs arched into pretty curves, all the time looking at me admiringly.

I sought all the friendship I could get. The group of women was a major source for me to know what was happening in this remote village, not to mention that I was lonely and needed to be around people after Alex’s departure. But I refrained from making friends with men. Having had enough complications in my trip and in my life, gossip was the last thing I wanted. I was pretty sure Keku and the others were well aware of Alex’s existence but were too intimidated or embarrassed to inquire.

Most nights I’d think of Alex and could not sleep. Was he having a good time with his parents? Did he miss me as I did him?

Now all by myself, I also became very sensitive to things around me, including possible vibrations from the graveyard. I had already made a few trips there during the daytime, walking around, feeling its
qi
, meditating. Sometimes I’d just stare at the graves and the remnants of red paint on the thin boards. Did these belong to a family? I hoped not. What had happened?

Feeling unbearably sad and sorry, I’d always say a prayer to pacify the dead and their living relatives, if any.

The weeks slipped by, and so one day I decided it was time to put everything else aside and prepare for my journey. The first thing I needed to figure out was how to reach one of the highest peaks of the Mountains of Heaven to collect a special plant—snow lotus—required by Mindy Madison.

I had no idea how difficult, or dangerous, the trip might be. I needed to gather information from someone who knew both herbs and the mountain. Maybe an herbalist. Once during our casual conversation I asked Keku if she knew any; to my delight, her answer was yes.

“One in next village.”

“You’re his patient?”

She shook her head. “No. Never saw. Only heard very good.”

When I asked more, she said, “Go to his store and ask him. My husband, Abu, knows. He can take you there.”

Sounds like a plan.

The next day I rode behind Keku’s husband, Abu, on his motorcycle to the neighboring village to visit the herbalist, who was named Lop Nor. When Abu pulled to a stop and pointed to a small store, I was surprised to find that it was not located in the middle of the village but on its edge where there were practically no people around.

I got off the motorcycle, thanked Abu, and walked toward the store.

As I stepped inside the small place, what entered my vision was a tall Uyghur man in his forties, standing behind a counter and cautiously weighing herbs with a dainty scale that looked comically disproportionate to his strong build. He was wearing a white shirt and a gray muslin hat.

The man looked up and our eyes met.

Startled, I recognized the sad-faced man from the graveyard!

I forced a smile, stammering in Chinese. “Morning, are . . . you the herbalist?”

“Yes. I’m Lop Nor. You’ve come to see me?”

Good, at least he spoke Mandarin as I’d hoped.

I nodded, still feeling shocked by the discovery. To calm myself, I took a few deep breaths to inhale the soothing herbal aroma. Then I looked around the small, clean store, liking what I saw. Behind the herbalist stood a red lacquered medicine cabinet with drawers labeled with names of different herbs ranging from ginseng, red date, cinnamon twig, tangerine peel, chrysanthemum flowers, angelica, to something strange sounding like gromwell, motherwort, sealwort, henbane seed, fungus caterpillar, root of membranous milk vetch. On top were tall jars containing corpses of sea creatures or bugs drowning in yucky, yellowish liquid. Against another wall were placed four chairs above which hung a blanket with pleasing, abstract Islamic patterns. I noticed we were the only people in the store.

“Miss, please take a seat and tell me how you are not feeling well.”

I sat across from him on the other side of the counter. “Oh, I’m not sick, I . . . just need some herbs to enhance my
qi
.”

He looked at me intensely, probably trying to figure what kind of herbs I needed. As he towered over me, I examined this Uyghur man that I’d accidentally seen in the graveyard, noting his high cheekbones, hazel eyes, tea-laced-with-milk hair, and lined face. A mystery man. A sad man. I sensed that standing in front of me was a soul suffering from something beyond my experience and understanding.

Sitting down, he said in his soothing bass voice, “Put your hand on the counter and let me take your pulse.”

The glass felt cool on my skin. The herbalist, with acute concentration, pressed together his index, middle, and ring fingers on my wrist.

The creases on his forehead read like abstruse philosophical truths etched in an esoteric language waiting to be deciphered. His eyes, though sad, also emanated strong
yang
energy. However, what really caught my attention and made my heart ache were his hands—large, brown, leathery, scarred. His fingers were thick, calloused, tipped with nails lined with faint dark ridges. What had this man done with those hands—just collecting herbs on the mountain, or digging graves to house ghosts?

As his right hand was taking my pulse, his left stroked a big, translucent white jade pendant that hung from his neck on a leather string. A sense of déjà vu welled up inside me while my arms began to tingle. I sensed this must be something that he’d loved and lost from a previous life.

It was an exquisite piece, and I wondered how it came to be in this bare village. Was it a priceless family heirloom?

As I was savoring the mystery washing over me like waves from Lop Nor, he turned to pull out a few drawers, taking pinches from each and weighing them meticulously on his diminutive scale. After that, he laid a mixture of dried fruits and herbs on a sheet of white paper and pointed to one of them.

“These are red dates, good for nourishing your blood, soothing your nerves, and replenishing your vital energy.” He cast me an intense look. “Miss, it’s your tension that depletes your
qi
.”

Then he lifted up a dark pink perforated plant. “This is raw lotus root to clear your heat, especially now that you’re in the desert. It’ll also stimulate your appetite.” He went on, pointing to some mushroomlike plant. “White fungus has a cooling effect and is excellent for women’s skin and complexion.”

He wrapped up the herbs with his scarred hands. “Back home, you put all these together with a piece of lamb and cook them in a water-filled pot for two hours. Drink the soup and eat the meat.”

Finally, he pointed to some dried, yellowish flowers. “This is chrysanthemum. Just pour hot water over it, let it brew for ten minutes, then drink it. It is slightly sweet, so it’ll help soothe your eyes in the desert heat. You understand?”

“Yes. Thank you so much for these, Mr. Lop Nor.”

He cast me a curious glance. “You’re Chinese?”

“Yes. I am Lily Lin.”

“Miss Lin”—his owl-like eyes shot out a few suspicious sparks—“what makes you come all the way to this village to see me?”

“Oh . . . I come here to research a book on the desert. I’m a writer.”

Without responding to what I’d said, he handed me the packages. “Come back if you feel unbalanced and need more herbs.”

“I definitely will, Mr. Lop Nor.” As I took it from him, my hand brushed against his rough one and I felt a minuscule jolt.

“You can just call me Lop Nor.”

“Thanks, Lop Nor.”

I paid him, thanked him again, and took leave.

This was an encouraging start.