Snow in August (32 page)

There was so much to learn. Not just to pass tests, but to get ready for his life. Rabbi Hirsch had said to him once, translating
a proverb from Yiddish: “The sea has no shore, learning has no end.” Now, in his solitude, Michael knew what he meant. He
looked up the proper nouns he’d heard from Rabbi Hirsch during the long night in the Devlin kitchen: Munich, the Sudetenland,
Piraeus, Trujillo, the Dominican Republic. None of them were in his schoolbooks and only the Dominican Republic was in the
blue books. The entry explained that this was where Columbus was buried, on an island shared with
Haiti, where everybody spoke French. It said that a guy named Trujillo was the dictator, just as Rabbi Hirsch said, and that
he had brought the country good government.

He also found an entry in the blue books for Antonín Dvo
ák, who died in 1904 and wrote a masterpiece called the
New World Symphony
, which used music from Negroes and American Indians. But there was nothing on Mahler or Smetana. They were out there, in
the sea without a shore. He wanted to know everything about them, but with the cast on his leg he still could not risk a trip
to the library on Garibaldi Street, where there was a much larger encyclopedia. He would wait. And use his time in other ways.
And when they finally got a phonograph, he would save up to buy the
New World Symphony
.

He did not go down to the street. News of the parish was filtered through his mother, or Mrs. Griffin, who stopped by every
few days to talk about dreams. The worst news was that a fire burned out the orchestra section of the Venus and the disgusted
owner just gave up and closed the place. There was talk that the Falcons had set the fire because the owner threw Tippy Hudnut
out for exposing himself to a twelve-year-old girl. Nobody could prove it. Not the exposure. Not the arson. And Michael imagined
a roundup of all the characters who had passed across the screen in the dark: Gunga Din and Dr. Cyclops, Ken Maynard and the
Durango Kid, Humphrey Bogart and James Cagney, Bing Crosby and Edward G. Robinson, along with Tarzan, King Kong, Superman,
the Masked Marvel, and Dick Tracy. He pictured them all together, coming off the screen, riding horses, driving cars, swinging
from ropes in the jungle, and saying their goodbyes. All of them. Even Dracula. Even Dr. Frankenstein and his monster.

But there was no farewell, and from the rooftop Michael
could see the marquee and the letters he knew said
CLOSED
. Sometimes, sweaty and tired after lifting weights, he would lie on his stomach on the raised canopy that rimmed the roof
and gaze down into Ellison Avenue and his lost summer. He often saw Sonny Montemarano and Jimmy Kabinsky walking with other
kids, drinking sodas, pitching pennies against the wall of the diner. He could see part of their ball games. They never looked
up. He did not call down.

Other times, he would lie on his back on the canopy and gaze at the clouds. He watched them shift and change, as if in the
hands of magicians, immense gauzy sculptures in the blue summer sky. One day he saw Winston Churchill there, smoking his cigar.
He saw CúChulainn shaking his fist at the English. He saw Indians peering from cliffs and soldiers holding hand grenades.
He saw Pilgrims, lions, trucks, mountains, the bodies of women, the Hunchback of Notre Dame, huge galleons in full sail, deep-sea
divers, dogs, igloos, and the mushroom cloud of the atom bomb. Once, in late afternoon, with the sun dropping toward New Jersey,
and the clouds all mauve and lavender, he saw the Golem.

Immense.

Faceless.

His arms outstretched.

Waiting to be called.

One afternoon, after reading about Dvo
ák, he tried to imagine the
New World Symphony
. He had never heard a note of it, but he would try to make it up. He closed his eyes, and could see Columbus on the Atlantic,
the waves higher than his masts, and the music was full of danger and the sounds of crashing waves, dark music full of fear
too, for they must have been terrified, going where nobody had gone before. The fear of drowning. The fear of sea serpents.
And then the music softened
in his head. The sun appeared. The sea was like glass. And in the music he could hear birds. Calling them all. Gathering on
the masts. Coming from land. Coming from America. The music was happy then and full of the sun and thick green jungle foliage
and the sound of flutes and Indians coming to see them in canoes, bringing water and flowers. The New World!

Michael hummed his imaginary symphony, seeing fights with Indians then and arrows in the air and blood on the ground and more
white people coming, from Spain and England, bringing colored people after them in chains, and then there were drums in Michael’s
head: drums from Africa; the drums of Indians; drums while Cortez conquered Mexico, and drums when the Pilgrims came to Plymouth
Rock, and drums during the Revolution, and snare drums for the Civil War. He made the drum sounds:
BUM
bum bum bum,
BUM
bum bum bum
, adding a trumpet to make the screams. And invented bugles for George Armstrong Custer, who died on the Little Big Horn and
came back to life in the RKO Grandview, only to die there forever. He made great
ooooohhhhhhing
sounds and
awwwwwing
sounds when the land filled with wheat and corn and cattle and schoolhouses, when he could see the Grand Canyon and the Rockies,
the sound of majesty, right out of all the cowboy movies when the wagon trains came to the Promised Land, to what Rabbi Hirsch
called the land of milk and honey. He gave a sound to the sunsets, a little sad, and a happy sound to the sunrise, like Louis
Armstrong. He tried to imagine the sound of the color red. He made a
whooshing
sound for a fast river, and threw in a train whistle as the railroad pushed west, and then the blues, sad and melancholy,
and jigs and reels for the Irish arriving and “O Sole Mio” for the Italians, and was trying to imagine music from the Jews,
when he saw Bing Crosby, as he wandered over yonder just to see the
mountains rise.
Let me be by myself in the evening breeze. Listen to the murmur of the cottonwood trees. Send me off forever but I ask you
please
.… And ended in Ebbets Field. The music for the color green sounded like
buy me some peanuts and Cracker Jack. I don’t care if I ever get back
.

And opened his eyes. And saw two pigeons watching him from a chimney. He wondered what Dvo
ák’s symphony really sounded like
and vowed that if he ever lived in a place where there were hinges on chimneys he would play Dvo
ák at breakfast.

The makeup exams were scheduled two days before the ball game at Ebbets Field. He did not want his mother to escort him to
school to take the tests. He wanted to go on his own. But she insisted, promising to leave after he’d walked into school.
They took the trolley car. As they passed the poolroom, he saw Skids and the Russian standing outside, laughing, smoking,
combing their pompadoured hair. He slumped down in the seat.

“I thought they were in jail,” he said.

“They were,” Kate Devlin said. “But they let them go.”

“How come?”

Her face was troubled but she spoke in soothing tones, as if concerned about upsetting him before the examinations.

“The district attorney said you would have to testify against them. They came to see me at the Grandview, and I told them
you couldn’t remember much about the night. It was too quick. I said I was willing to talk to them, but they said anything
I had to say was just hearsay. They needed you. I told them they couldn’t have you. And that is bloody well that.”

Michael remembered her cold fury when she saw him in the hospital. Now something had changed her. Maybe she just
couldn’t allow her son to be an informer. Maybe she was afraid.

“It’s a terrible thing,” she said. “Them getting away with it, I mean. But we’ll talk about it after your tests.”

“They can’t get away with it forever, Mom.”

“I hope not.”

She dropped him at the school at five minutes to ten, and he swung into his classroom on the crutches. The room was completely
empty except for Brother Donard, a younger teacher with curly red hair. Brother Donard told him to choose a seat and they
could begin.

The exams seemed like the pink spaldeen that morning when he and Sonny and Jimmy were still musketeers. Big and fat. All you
had to do was swing. He was finished with all of them before one o’clock. Brother Donard glanced at the clock and looked surprised;
he picked up the papers and told Michael to enjoy the summer. The same to you, Michael said, and swung down the empty corridor
on his crutches. Then he stopped.

Down by the double doors leading to the schoolyard, he saw Sonny Montemarano walking in. Sonny saw him too, turned slightly,
and seemed about to run.

“Sonny! Hey, Sonny, wait a minute!”

Sonny looked vaguely ashamed of himself as he waited for Michael to teach him.

“Where you been?” Michael said. “What are you doing here?”

“Summer school.”

“In what?”

“I’m not supposed to talk to you,” Sonny said, his head and eyes moving around in search of witnesses. The corridor was empty.

“Says who?”

“Says everybody.”

“How come?”

“They say you’re a rat.”

“That’s bullshit, Sonny, and you know it.”

Sonny said nothing.

“Sonny, the charges were dropped against those guys. I just saw Skids and the Russian in front of the poolroom. The reason
they’re out? I wouldn’t
talk
.”

“They say you ratted them out and then got ascared of them. That’s what they say.”

“The cops came to see me in the hospital, Abbott and Costello themselves. But I wouldn’t say anything. I swear to God. Go
ask them.”

“Why would anybody believe
them?
They’re cops!”

“Why would anybody believe the pricks who did this to me? Four on one, they held me, they beat the crap out of me, for
what?
What are they, goddamned
heroes?
You believe them before you believe me, Sonny, and you’re supposed to be my
friend?
”

Sonny glanced at Michael’s face, then at the cast, and stared into the schoolyard.