Small Bamboo

TRACY VO
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First published in 2014

Copyright © Tracy Vo

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To Duong Nam, my Uncle Five, who gave up everything,
to give us everything.
And to Peter Harvey, my dear friend and colleague,
who taught me humility and to stay young at heart.
We will always have Coldplay, Harves.

CONTENTS

Prologue

1 The Vo clan

2 War

3 After the war

4 Saigon changed forever

5 Another day, another dollar

6 The escape

7 Rising sun

8 Island home

9 Just a plane ride away

10 The new life

11 Entering the real world

12 The Aussie way

13 Vietnam down under

14 Ugly skin

15 Hollywood High

16 The journo

17 Sydney-town

18 The Nine family

19 Signing off

20 Home

Acknowledgements

PROLOGUE

I was on a plane from Sydney to Perth to see my parents, but it was much more than just a flight west. It would eventually take me back more than thirty years, all the way to Vietnam, back to a time when my parents were young and brave and desperate.

Desperate enough to get on a leaky boat.

In 2012 I had my first Easter break from work in about nine years. I usually spent my holidays on a big overseas trip but that year I decided to head home to Perth for a mini-break, my first trip home in four years, as my parents usually visited me in Sydney. While I was home I planned to treat my folks to a couple of days in the Margaret River region. Mum and Dad hadn’t had a holiday for many years and, in the thirty-four years they had lived in Australia, it was their first visit to the vineyards.

We stayed at my favourite spot, Bunker Bay, where they relaxed, swimming and lying by the pool. I also took them on a wine tour. They loved it so much; Mum and Dad love their wine and champagne. It was nice to enjoy these moments together. On the last night Dad and I had dinner on our own, as Mum wanted to rest her aching knees after all the walking we’d done on the tour. It was wonderful to spend some time with my father. We had a lot to catch up on.

In February that year Dad had been diagnosed with a rare autoimmune disease called Morvan’s syndrome. The disease is so rare that my father is sometimes used as a case study for medical students. Before he was diagnosed Dad suffered for years. One of the worst symptoms was that he sweated all the time. On one holiday to Melbourne, during winter, he couldn’t wear a coat; it just made him too hot. He’d sweat when he was eating dinner and even when he’d just finished having a cool shower. In the middle of the night, Dad would have to get out of bed and crawl on the floor to get rid of a cramp in his left leg. He would be in agony, trying to massage his leg, but nothing worked. When he had a cold or the flu, it would take him months to recover. For a couple of years he was very uncomfortable but never let on how bad it was. Dad had dozens of tests but it took about three years for the doctors to finally work out what was wrong with him. My father was so relieved when they diagnosed Morvan’s syndrome and could treat it.

During our Margaret River dinner, Dad revealed he was worried about Mum and how bad her knees were getting. My mother has osteoarthritis and struggles to move around. Some days are tougher than others. Walking around the shopping centre to buy groceries can be a challenge—we can only go out for about an hour, and even then I’m always trying to find a chair for her. Mum loves to cook, and spends hours on her feet in the kitchen, cooking up a feast, but by the end she is spent. I tell her to take it easy but she doesn’t listen. Mum wants everyone to enjoy her food, and loves to make sure her guests are well fed and looked after. She never expects anyone to look after her.

After our trip to Margaret River, I caught up with my cousins in Perth. They aren’t actually my blood relations, but very close family friends who share the same surname, Vo, and I’ve called them my cousins since I was a toddler. There are three sisters in that Vo family—the youngest Trinh, who is closest to me in age; the middle sister, Trang; and the eldest, Diem. Trinh and I are extremely close.

My parents and I had been invited to Diem’s house for lunch. It was so lovely to catch up with the family. Trinh and their parents were there. I saw Diem’s two-year-old daughter Amberley for only the second time since she was born, and I also met Ava, Trang’s six-month-old daughter, for the first time. I sat next to Diem, having a girly chat, while my folks gossiped with her parents, who were helping to look after the youngsters.

Little Amberley cracked us all up. She already prefers the company of men. She absolutely adores her grandfather and would rather be with him than her grandmother which, I think, offended her quite a bit. It was the first time Amberley had met my father but straight away she wanted him to hold her and carry her around. She didn’t even notice my mum. It was very heartwarming for me. I thought to myself,
It would be great if my parents could have that experience, watching their grandchildren grow up, babysitting and helping to take care of them
. Mum’s been waiting for grandchildren of her own for a while now, and she drops hints all the time, like, ‘Now we have time, we can look after your children when you eventually have them.’

Catching up with my extended family, I had forgotten how much I had missed my cousins and their kids. I also appreciated how nothing in our friendship had changed, even though so much time had passed by.

While I was in Perth I also caught up with a fellow journalist, an old friend from my university days, over dinner. Ebbeny moved to Sydney in 2003, six months before me. Three years later she returned to Perth. When I asked her whether she missed Sydney, she described how Perth was home for both her and her husband, and how she was able to pop round to see her parents and sister whenever she liked. I never thought I would envy something so simple so much. I didn’t have that luxury of dropping by my parents’ house for dinner, even for a little catch-up.

I came home from dinner with Ebbeny to find Dad still awake. I’ve rarely seen him go to bed early; his insomnia is a symptom of Morvan’s syndrome. He certainly utilises his late nights—by eating! Dad eats an astonishing amount but he’s just skin and bones and never puts on weight. He eats all day and at night, when everyone else is in bed, he’s either making toast or cooking up two-minute noodles, which was what he was doing when I walked through the door that night.

‘How was dinner?’ he asked.

‘It was great seeing Ebbeny,’ I replied a little automatically while I tried to muster the courage to tell him about our conversation. Dad stirred his noodles and glanced up at me but said nothing. I made myself a tea and waited until he finished cooking. We both sat at the dinner table.

‘So,’ I finally said, ‘I had a chat to her about why she decided to move home, and she told me that it was because she’d had enough of Sydney and wanted to be with her family.’ Then I added, ‘It got me thinking . . .’

I waited for his reaction—expecting, and hoping for, ‘That’s great she wanted to be with her family, and how about you, do you think you’ll come home soon too?’—but instead Dad said, ‘Well, you’re so successful in your career in Sydney. You don’t want to leave that behind.’

It wasn’t really what I wanted to hear and I went to bed wondering how on earth I was going to tell my parents that I was, in fact, thinking of leaving my job in Sydney and moving home to Perth.

For those two and a half weeks, I watched my parents closely. Heading into their sixties, they certainly weren’t as spritely and energetic as they had been before I left Perth. But despite their illnesses, they still worked themselves to the point of exhaustion, which really upset me. In the past I often tried to lecture them about taking it easy, but it never worked, and still doesn’t. I had always wished I could just provide for them, so they wouldn’t have to work anymore, but that’s not how my parents would want it. Mum and Dad are both work horses; always have been and unfortunately always will be.

When it was time to say goodbye at the airport, I was sadder than on other occasions when I’d left Perth, and as soon as I took my seat on the plane, I burst into tears. I had no idea what had come over me but something was missing as I boarded that plane. Something really hurt. I didn’t want to go back to Sydney. I wanted to spend more time with my family and friends in my hometown. I felt like I had reconnected with everything that I had left behind almost ten years before.

My life in Sydney was fabulous. I had a great job at Channel Nine, working as a journalist with excellent colleagues. I travelled the world. I had a lovely home in Lane Cove on the lower North Shore, and wonderful friends who had become my second family. I had built a whole new life in Sydney, with such a strong support network that I did feel like I belonged there. But within two weeks I knew in my heart I wanted to go back to the West, to my real home. I thought about it long and hard. It was one of the toughest decisions I have ever had to make. I also knew it was a decision that I had to make alone, so I didn’t really consult too many people about it. When I told some of my closest friends what was on my mind, they said they would be devastated to see me leave, but if that was what I wanted they would support me. I can’t remember exactly when I made up my mind but it was all locked in the moment I walked into my boss’s office at Channel Nine to tell him. It was a complete shock to him.

I had told my folks first about my decision. Mum was really supportive, but Dad still wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing, for me and my career. ‘Why would you leave? You have a great job and you’re building on it,’ he said.

I guess my career was taking off but I felt I had achieved so much already, and I was more than satisfied with that. I knew I could have achieved a lot more in Sydney but there were also many opportunities in Perth. Eventually I convinced my dad it was the right move, and he was, of course, happy that his daughter was heading home. In fact he was so excited he told all his friends and the ‘Other Vo’ family straight away; my uncle and aunt and my cousins were ecstatic about the news.

Telling my parents was much easier than telling my friends and colleagues in Sydney. I had become so attached to them. Seeing the same faces at work was comforting and familiar. Now I was leaving my security blanket in the big city, coming out from beneath the covers to a new world that was in some ways familiar, but in others not. For me, nine years away was a long time, and I’d missed out on a lot in my Perth life. I was only twenty when I moved to Sydney, so I’d missed my mates’ journeys through their twenties. I had missed my cousins’ children being born and growing up. I’d missed lovely dinners with my folks, and great chats over a glass of wine. It was during those chats with my parents that I learnt so much about my family—about their lives before they came to Australia, what they did to get here, their sacrifices and their motivation. My life could have taken another path, a very different path, if they hadn’t taken the risks they did. Their strength, courage, determination and, most importantly, their compassion have made me the person I am today, and the person I hope to be. Mum and Dad have hearts of gold.