Shadows of Death
Contents
Introduction by Harlan Ellison
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The Strange High House in the Mist
The Dream-Quest of Unknown Kadath
“The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear,
and the oldest and strongest kind of fear
is fear of the unknown.”
—H. P. L
OVECRAFT
PRAISE FOR
H. P. LOVECRAFT
“Lovecraft’s fiction is one of the cornerstones of modern horror.”
—C
LIVE
B
ARKER
“H. P. Lovecraft has yet to be surpassed as the twentieth century’s greatest practitioner of the classic horror tale.”
—S
TEPHEN
K
ING
“Lovecraft’s influenced people as diverse as Stephen King and Colin Wilson, Umberto Eco and John Carpenter. He’s all over the cultural landscape. . . . Lovecraft is a resonating wave. He’s rock and roll.”
—N
EIL
G
AIMAN
“A master craftsman, Lovecraft brings compelling visions of nightmarish fear, invisible worlds, and the demons of the unconscious. If one author truly represents the very best in American literary horror, it is H. P. Lovecraft.”
—J
OHN
C
ARPENTER
“Reading Lovecraft is more than experiencing the creations of a bizarre and fitful mind through the medium of exquisite prose. It’s far more chilling than that. . . . What you read is what he lived, and that’s the scariest thing of all.”
—W
ALTER
K
OENIG
Tolerable Terror
or,
To Read Him Is to Fear Him
Introduction by
Harlan Ellison
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N
OW HERE’S
the peculiar part. The part that now, sixty years later, I
remember
as being odd, being peculiar. In retrospect.
Both of them were smart, my mother and father. Very nice people, you’d have liked them. They may or may not have been well-read; I was too young to make that value-judgment; I was eleven, twelve, something like that. But they were hardly what anyone would call uninformed or ignorant of the World War II milieu in which they existed. We’re talking mid-Forties.
Understand: I taught myself to read when I was two or three, very precocious. I’d read anything. I read
every
thing. But here’s the peculiar part. Other than in
my
room, where there were all manner of books and comics and
Mechanix Illustrated
and
The Sporting News
and reading material from everywhichwhere, there were very few books in our house. In Ohio, in the Forties.
There were two narrow bookcases in the living room, built in as sort of curio cabinets on either side of the fireplace, what my Aunt Maxine used to call
tchotchkeh
repositories; and there were a few books on those shelves; but they seem to me now—as I guess they did back then—a disparate congeries of not-too-notable titles.
There was a Maugham or two,
THE RAZOR’S EDGE
and
ASHENDEN;
a couple of Frank Yerby historicals; one or two Clarence Budington Kelland potboilers, one of which was
SCATTERGOOD BAINES;
a book I now understand was quite a popular title back in the day before My Day, weird title:
HELL FER SARTAIN;
an Ellery Queen mystery and
ONLY YESTERDAY
by Frederick Lewis Allen; Louis Bromfield, Hervey Allen, Hilton’s
GOOD-BYE, MR. CHIPS;
and Pocket Books #1, Hilton’s
LOST HORIZON.
There was a copy of the famous
BURMA SURGEON
autobiography by Gordon Seagrave . . .
(And what strange linkages Destiny forges for us: years later I became friends with Seagrave’s son, Sterling, and we almost lost our lives together on a snowstorm-swept highway outside East Chicago, Indiana. But that’s a story for another evening.)
. . . and there was one other. A thin 49¢ hardcover, a fourteen-story collection that the World Publishing Company of Cleveland and New York (in that order) assured me contained “weird and ghostly tales by a master of the supernatural, selected & with an introduction by” some guy named “August Derleth.”
Apart from a previously-published paperback containing only five stories, this inexpensive cheap-paper hardcover was the first publication of a selection of the tales of Howard Phillips Lovecraft. I stood in front of that
tchotchkeh
repository, a little boy not yet in his teens, in the heart of the post-Depression lower-middle-class America wherein lay all I knew of the universe, and I plucked forth:
BEST SUPERNATURAL STORIES OF H. P. LOVECRAFT.
The first story in the book was where I started. It was “In the Vault.” It scared the beejezus out of me.
The second story in the book was “Pickman’s Model.” It scared the crap out of me.
Then I read “The Rats in the Walls” and threw the book from me as if all the nameless wraiths and grotesqueries of the stygian depths were slobbering and keening in my wake, squamous and gibbering with the stench of a thousand opened graves rising above their eldritch spawn!
I kid you not, Chief: I didn’t go near that book again for three months. It conjured in my restless nights’ sleep thereafter, the template for nightmares that not even sixty years, and having lived a life, and growing up a little, have been able to usher to quietus.
Before Poe, before Bierce or William Hope Hodgson, before even O. Henry and Mark Twain, I was reading Lovecraft. So all this current foofaraw about him being “rediscovered” is a bit jejune to me. And to the spirit of Augie Derleth, who was there before all of us.
I’d never read him in the pulp magazines—that all transpired before I was born—and by 1937 when he died, he was yesterday’s fishwrap. But I had been exposed to HPL in the most plastic, unformed moments of my youth, and I knew he was remarkable, and something to be feared.
To see the cosmos through his eyes was scary.
Edgar Allan Poe was a strange, troubled man. The poet laureate of the decadent, Arthur Rimbaud, was a pathologically sensitive, deeply secretive dreamer. Woolrich, Octave Mirbeau, Huysmans, Capote, Faulkner, Bierce, Robert E. Howard, avatars of the darkness in the human spirit all and each. Twisted lives, lived uneasily; ill-fitting in their skins. Each and all, teetering on the lip of the abyss.
“Odd” does not encompass it.
“Weird” discredits it.
“Peculiar” is, at its noblest,
reductio ad absurdum.
It suggests they tricked us, duped us; not greatness, merely
fichu.
Jean Cocteau: “You are always concentrated on the inner thing. The moment one becomes aware of the crowd, performs for the crowd, it is spectacle. It is
fichu.
”
Lovecraft was a semi-recluse, and the audience, if any, for which he wrote was one he never saw. Thus, no spectacle. He more than concentrated on “the inner thing.” It was, it must have been, just read the stories migawd there it is, he
lived
in the inner thing. A number of recent reviewers have been drawn to a particular passage in his groundbreaking and exemplary essay “Supernatural Horror in Literature” (written in 1926–27, revised in the 1930s, but never published in its final form till 1939, two years after his death; and not in separate book form till 1945): “The one test of the really weird is this—whether or not there be excited in the reader a profound sense of dread, and of contact with unknown spheres and powers; a subtle attitude of awed listening, as if for the beating of black wings or the scratching of outside shapes and entities on the known universe’s utmost rim.”
This was his intent. To scare you. He scared me, long those many years ago, and does still . . . so why not you, too? The “inner thing” that gnawed like rats in the walls of H. P. Lovecraft’s daily existence could only be calmed, borne, tolerated, by the codifying of all that black mist in story form.
To read him is to fear him. But it is a tolerable terror, a spectrum of fear that casts new and different shadows, but does not abominate us, does not turn us away. He seeks to scare us, nothing more.
And for doing the job in loneliness and obscurity, at last the snobbish world of “serious” literature has found him. When I was approached, in November of 2004 by Max Rudin, publisher of the prestigious Library of America, to contribute a “brief comment” about Lovecraft, I found myself once more before the curio bookshelf at 89 Harmon Drive in Painesville, Ohio, at age eleven, reaching for my first Lovecraft, and I wrote for the Library of America these words:
“H. P. Lovecraft was, is, and very likely will
always
be, the irregularly beating heart of darkness of American fantastic literature. If there is a more obstinately terrifying story in the genre than his ‘Rats in the Walls,’ even the bravest soul should be too petrified to read it.”
And I saw those words in magazines by the dozens, saw them on book dumps and pr releases. Saw them, and smiled. He was getting the attention of the Academy and
hoi polloi,
the readers of true lit and the browsers of book-club crap. He was now out there, long dead but suddenly mighty, and all the king’s English and all the king’s men would make of him a Jacques Derrida
Festschrift,
decomposing this and explicating that.
But at the final moments, one need only stand before the bookcase of imagination, withdraw the dusty volume of fear, and read the first lines of the longest story in this colleciton:
From “The Dream-Quest of Unknown Kaddath”: “Three times Randolph Carter dreamed of the marvelous city, and three times he was snatched away while still he paused on the high terrace above it.”
He may be the new flavor for the
poseurs
and parvenus, but for those of us who ran trembling from Nyarlathotep and Shub-Niggurath and the rest of them there Great Old Ones in the
R’lyeh Text,
back when we weren’t old enough to cross Euclid Avenue, he was the one who took us by the throat and made us cross vast obsidian spaces to confront alien ideas and paralyzing fright.
That’s what great storytellers do.
And all the rest is merely spinach.
The Shadow Out of Time
A
FTER TWENTY-TWO YEARS
of nightmare and terror, saved only by a desperate conviction of the mythical source of certain impressions, I am unwilling to vouch for the truth of that which I think I found in Western Australia on the night of July 17–18, 1935. There is reason to hope that my experience was wholly or partly an hallucination—for which, indeed, abundant causes existed. And yet, its realism was so hideous that I sometimes find hope impossible.
If the thing did happen, then man must be prepared to accept notions of the cosmos, and of his own place in the seething vortex of time, whose merest mention is paralyzing. He must, too, be placed on guard against a specific, lurking peril which, though it will never engulf the whole race, may impose monstrous and unguessable horrors upon certain venturesome members of it.
It is for this latter reason that I urge, with all the force of my being, a final abandonment of all the attempts at unearthing those fragments of unknown, primordial masonry which my expedition set out to investigate.
Assuming that I was sane and awake, my experience on that night was such as has befallen no man before. It was, moreover, a frightful confirmation of all I had sought to dismiss as myth and dream. Mercifully there is no proof, for in my fright I lost the awesome object which would—if real and brought out of that noxious abyss—have formed irrefutable evidence.
When I came upon the horror I was alone—and I have up to now told no one about it. I could not stop the others from digging in its direction, but chance and the shifting sand have so far saved them from finding it. Now I must formulate some definite statement—not only for the sake of my own mental balance, but to warn such others as may read it seriously.
These pages—much in whose earlier parts will be familiar to close readers of the general and scientific press—are written in the cabin of the ship that is bringing me home. I shall give them to my son, Professor Wingate Peaslee of Miskatonic University—the only member of my family who stuck to me after my queer amnesia of long ago, and the man best informed on the inner facts of my case. Of all living persons, he is least likely to ridicule what I shall tell of that fateful night.
I did not enlighten him orally before sailing, because I think he had better have the revelation in written form. Reading and rereading at leisure will leave with him a more convincing picture than my confused tongue could hope to convey.
He can do anything that he thinks best with this account—showing it, with suitable comment, in any quarters where it will be likely to accomplish good. It is for the sake of such readers as are unfamiliar with the earlier phases of my case that I am prefacing the revelation itself with a fairly ample summary of its background.
My name is Nathaniel Wingate Peaslee, and those who recall the newspaper tales of a generation back—or the letters and articles in psychological journals six or seven years ago—will know who and what I am. The press was filled with the details of my strange amnesia in 1908–13, and much was made of the traditions of horror, madness, and witchcraft which lurked behind the ancient Massachusetts town then and now forming my place of residence. Yet I would have it known that there is nothing whatever of the mad or sinister in my heredity and early life. This is a highly important fact in view of the shadow which fell so suddenly upon me from
outside
sources.
It may be that centuries of dark brooding had given to crumbling, whisper-haunted Arkham a peculiar vulnerability as regards such shadows—though even this seems doubtful in the light of those other cases which I later came to study. But the chief point is that my own ancestry and background are altogether normal. What came, came from
somewhere else
—where, I even now hesitate to assert in plain words.
I am the son of Jonathan and Hannah (Wingate) Peaslee, both of wholesome old Haverhill stock. I was born and reared in Haverhill—at the old homestead in Boardman Street near Golden Hill—and did not go to Arkham till I entered Miskatonic University as instructor of political economy in 1895.
For thirteen years more my life ran smoothly and happily. I married Alice Keezar of Haverhill in 1896, and my three children, Robert, Wingate, and Hannah, were born in 1898, 1900, and 1903, respectively. In 1898 I became an associate professor, and in 1902 a full professor. At no time had I the least interest in either occultism or abnormal psychology.
It was on Thursday, May 14, 1908, that the queer amnesia came. The thing was quite sudden, though later I realized that certain brief, glimmering visions of several hours previous—chaotic visions which disturbed me greatly because they were so unprecedented—must have formed premonitory symptoms. My head was aching, and I had a singular feeling—altogether new to me—that some one else was trying to get possession of my thoughts.
The collapse occurred about 10:20
A.M.
, while I was conducting a class in Political Economy VI—history and present tendencies of economics—for juniors and a few sophomores. I began to see strange shapes before my eyes, and to feel that I was in a grotesque room other than the classroom.
My thoughts and speech wandered from my subject, and the students saw that something was gravely amiss. Then I slumped down, unconscious, in my chair, in a stupor from which no one could arouse me. Nor did my rightful faculties again look out upon the daylight of our normal world for five years, four months, and thirteen days.
It is, of course, from others that I have learned what followed. I showed no sign of consciousness for sixteen and a half hours, though removed to my home at 27 Crane Street, and given the best of medical attention.
At 3
A.M.
May 15th my eyes opened and I began to speak, but before long the doctor and my family were thoroughly frightened by the trend of my expression and language. It was clear that I had no rememberance of my identity and my past, though for some reason I seemed anxious to conceal this lack of knowledge. My eyes gazed strangely at the persons around me, and the flections of my facial muscles were altogether unfamiliar.
Even my speech seemed awkward and foreign. I used my vocal organs clumsily and gropingly, and my diction had a curiously stilted quality, as if I had laboriously learned the English language from books. The pronunciation was barbarously alien, whilst the idiom seemed to include both scraps of curious archaism and expressions of a wholly incomprehensible cast.
Of the latter, one in particular was very potently—even terrifiedly—recalled by the youngest of the physicians twenty years afterward. For at that late period such a phrase began to have an actual currency—first in England and then in the United States—and though of much complexity and indisputable newness, it reproduced in every least particular the mystifying words of the strange Arkham patient of 1908.
Physical strength returned at once, although I required an odd amount of reeducation in the use of my hands, legs, and bodily apparatus in general. Because of this and other handicaps inherent in the mnemonic lapse, I was for some time kept under strict medical care.
When I saw that my attempts to conceal the lapse had failed, I admitted it openly, and became eager for information of all sorts. Indeed, it seemed to the doctors that I lost interest in my proper personality as soon as I found the case of amnesia accepted as a natural thing.
They noticed that my chief efforts were to master certain points in history, science, art, language, and folklore—some of them tremendously abstruse, and some childishly simple—which remained, very oddly in many cases, outside my consciousness.
At the same time they noticed that I had an inexplicable command of many almost unknown sorts of knowledge—a command which I seemed to wish to hide rather than display. I would inadvertently refer, with casual assurance, to specific events in dim ages outside of the range of accepted history—passing off such references as a jest when I saw the surprise they created. And I had a way of speaking of the future which two or three times caused actual fright.
These uncanny flashes soon ceased to appear, though some observers laid their vanishment more to a certain furtive caution on my part than to any waning of the strange knowledge behind them. Indeed, I seemed anomalously avid to absorb the speech, customs, and perspectives of the age around me; as if I were a studious traveler from a far, foreign land.
As soon as permitted, I haunted the college library at all hours; and shortly began to arrange for those odd travels, and special courses at American and European Universities, which evoked so much comment during the next few years.
I did not at any time suffer from a lack of learned contacts, for my case had a mild celebrity among the psychologists of the period. I was lectured upon as a typical example of secondary personality—even though I seemed to puzzle the lecturers now and then with some bizarre symptoms or some queer trace of carefully veiled mockery.
Of real friendliness, however, I encountered little. Something in my aspect and speech seemed to excite vague fears and aversions in every one I met, as if I were a being infinitely removed from all that is normal and healthful. This idea of a black, hidden horror connected with incalculable gulfs of some sort of
distance
was oddly widespread and persistent.
My own family formed no exception. From the moment of my strange waking my wife had regarded me with extreme horror and loathing, vowing that I was some utter alien usurping the body of her husband. In 1910 she obtained a legal divorce, nor would she ever consent to see me even after my return to normality in 1913. These feelings were shared by my elder son and my small daughter, neither of whom I have ever seen since.
Only my second son, Wingate, seemed able to conquer the terror and repulsion which my change aroused. He indeed felt that I was a stranger, but though only eight years old held fast to a faith that my proper self would return. When it did return he sought me out, and the courts gave me his custody. In succeeding years he helped me with the studies to which I was driven, and today, at thirty-five, he is a professor of psychology at Miskatonic.
But I do not wonder at the horror I caused—for certainly, the mind, voice, and facial expression of the being that awakened on May 15, 1908, were not those of Nathaniel Wingate Peaslee.
I will not attempt to tell much of my life from 1908 to 1913, since readers may glean all the outward essentials—as I largely had to do—from files of old newspapers and scientific journals.
I was given charge of my funds, and spent them slowly and on the whole wisely, in travel and in study at various centers of learning. My travels, however, were singular in the extreme, involving long visits to remote and desolate places.
In 1909 I spent a month in the Himalayas, and in 1911 aroused much attention through a camel trip into the unknown deserts of Arabia. What happened on those journeys I have never been able to learn.
During the summer of 1912 I chartered a ship and sailed in the Arctic, north of Spitzbergen, afterward showing signs of disappointment.
Later in that year I spent weeks alone beyond the limits of previous or subsequent exploration in the vast limestone cavern systems of western Virginia—black labyrinths so complex that no retracing of my steps could even be considered.
My sojourns at the universities were marked by abnormally rapid assimilation, as if the secondary personality had an intelligence enormously superior to my own. I have found, also, that my rate of reading and solitary study was phenomenal. I could master every detail of a book merely by glancing over it as fast as I could turn the leaves; while my skill at interpreting complex figures in an instant was veritably awesome.
At times there appeared almost ugly reports of my power to influence the thoughts and acts of others, though I seemed to have taken care to minimize displays of this faculty.
Other ugly reports concerned my intimacy with leaders of occultist groups, and scholars suspected of connection with nameless bands of abhorrent elder-world hierophants. These rumors, though never proved at the time, were doubtless stimulated by the known tenor of some of my reading—for the consultation of rare books at libraries cannot be effected secretly.
There is tangible proof—in the form of marginal notes—that I went minutely through such things as the Comte d’Erlette’s
Cultes des Goules,
Ludvig Prinn’s
De Vermis Mysteriis,
the
Unaussprechlichen Kulten
of von Junzt, the surviving fragments of the puzzling
Book of Eibon,
and the dreaded
Necronomicon
of the mad Arab Abdul Alhazred. Then, too, it is undeniable that a fresh and evil wave of underground cult activity set in about the time of my odd mutation.
In the summer of 1913 I began to display signs of ennui and flagging interest, and to hint to various associates that a change might soon be expected in me. I spoke of returning memories of my earlier life—though most auditors judged me insincere, since all the recollections I gave were casual, and such as might have been learned from my old private papers.
About the middle of August I returned to Arkham and reopened my long-closed house in Crane Street. Here I installed a mechanism of the most curious aspect, constructed piecemeal by different makers of scientific apparatus in Europe and America, and guarded carefully from the sight of any one intelligent enough to analyze it.
Those who did see it—a workman, a servant, and the new housekeeper—say that it was a queer mixture of rods, wheels, and mirrors, though only about two feet tall, one foot wide, and one foot thick. The central mirror was circular and convex. All this is borne out by such makers of parts as can be located.
On the evening of Friday, September 26, I dismissed the housekeeper and the maid until noon of the next day. Lights burned in the house till late, and a lean, dark, curiously foreign-looking man called in an automobile.
It was about one
A.M.
that the lights were last seen. At 2:15
A.M.
a policeman observed the place in darkness, but the stranger’s motor still at the curb. By 4 o’clock the motor was certainly gone.